*it's hard to rely on my good intentions when my head's full of things that i can't mention seems i usually get things right but i can't understand what i did last night
it's hard to rely on my own good senses when i miss so much that requires attention have to laugh at myself sometimes and i can see that i'm not blind
**there's little relief give us reprieve for all the things i've left behind i'm positive that i'm not blind
i'm not afraid things won't get better but it feels like this has gone on forever you have to cry with your own blue tears have to laugh with your own good cheer
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i can't be hard on you 'cause you know i've been there too learned a lot of things from you
but life gives little relief give us reprieve and when everyone is cold as ice i clinch my fists and close my eyes imagining the world outside but i can see that i'm not blind
there's almost nothing left you eat my kind for breakfast what did i expect? to come here and find anyone? find open arms to greet me and friends to feed me i sicken myself so much and you eat my kind for breakfast you eat my kind
whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whatever i have been given, whatever i have been
seeing myself this way i am a monster i believe and seeing is believing is there no doubt left when i poison myself and poison leaves no appetite i sicken myself so much i sicken myself so
whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whatever i have been given, whatever i have been
did we expect these things to change by waking up and suddenly there they are and all i need's a starting place and nothing ever seemed so hard...
whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whenever i let my guard down, whatever i was ignoring whatever i fear the most is whatever i see before me whatever i have been given, whatever i have been
open up and let me in i was lucky to live, don't need to win forgave myself and if that's a sin it's not enough you'd even know it you did right to call my bluff 'cause i won't say when i've had enough and i worked so hard to need this stuff and you tried so long to just ignore it
won't you come down where i am words are hidden, understand
i won't repeat myself again i will not repeat myself again it's another promise d.o.a. and despite my every hope there is no truth behind my best intentioned oath
won't you come down where i am words are hidden, understand won't you come down been away to long, i know i have
won't you come down, help me stand there is healing in your hands won't you come down where i am words all leave me been away too long i know i've been away too long i know i have
are you the plane that shapes the board part of a history smoothed and worn and oh, the windy weather dry spells, brushfire
isn't it strange to see my life you must cut me down to look inside and oh, the simple pleasures this ring tells of rain and this one summer good years, nightmares
how is it i remember knowing that i would live forever isn't it strange how truth can change and oh, the windy weather this ring tells of rain this one, summers dry spells, brushfire
is it this place that makes me fall from you forget the words that once rang so true did we expect that life was ever fair, my god... i sowed a field of rose and reaped a whipping rod and everything i've held too tight inside could make a part of me die and if my lips could only speak the name the dam would break
what is this ice that gathers round my heart to stop the flood of warmth before it even starts it would make me blind to what i thought would always be the only constant in the world for me and every hours of every day i need to fight from pulling away and if my mind could only lose the chain the dam would break
for all the things i hid away and all the words i could not say the dam would break
i want to be clean, i want to be whole i want revenge, i want control i want to give up, i want to give in destroy all i have been i want to be cruel, i want to be cold i want a chance to sell my soul i want to break out, i want to dive in to lose myself in sin i don't need anything i'm just wanting just wanting i don't need anything i'm just wanting just wanting desire all desire is desire feeds desire desire all desire is desire breeds desire i want to scream, i want to shout i want to have faith and never doubt i want to bend, i want to break to sleep and never wake to break down walls and to escape be alone and hide my face i want to feel, i want to touch want to stop wanting it so much i don't need anything i'm just wanting just wanting i don't need anything i'm just wanting just wanting desire all desire is desire feeds desire desire all desire is desire breeds desire
lead me well, don't clear my way it's fascinating how the pallor can stay upon your face when you are light like a little boy flying kites and shouting to the world you're shouting to the world your joy don't fade, you're staying here with me don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes
look around, see for yourself he led us down and at the water's edge we knelt petals in the lake and red upon my face she's crying as we pray and it all comes down to money, again how could you forsake the love of god that way don't fade, you're staying here with me don't fade, i need to know that someone still believes.
little man big man who came first what is the measure of our worth if there was a storm rolled in who'd run inside who'd go walking
little man big man what's inside it's all in the places where we find our pride if there was a soul lost by the road who'd pass by who'd take it home
where is the beast lying is there a beast hiding
little man big man who is who it's all in the damage that our toys can do if there was a rock and a window pane who'd throw stones who'd walk away
where is the beast lying is there a beast hiding
are we learning are we moving little man big man fade away it's all in the in the violence of the games we play it's all in the in the violence of the games we play it's all in the love we give today
take your cautionary tales take your incremental gain and all the sychophantic games and throw 'em all away
burn your tv in your yard and gather 'round it with your friends and warm your hands upon the fire and start again
take the story you've been told the lies that justify the pain the guilt the weighs upon your soul and throw 'em all away
tear up the calendar you've bought and throw the pieces to the sky confetti falling down like rain like a parade to usher in your life take the dreams that should have died the ones that kept you lying awake when you should've been all right and throw 'em all away
with the time i waste on the life i never had i could've turned myself into a better man
'cause there ain't nothing you can buy and there is nothing you can save to fill the whole inside your heart so throw it all away won't fill the whole inside your heart
help me empty out this house the wool i've gathered all these days and thought i couldn't do without and throw it all away
life is suffering tee-hee, ha-ha life is suffering tee-hee, ha-ha
cold and shuddering tee-hee, ha-ha cruel and pummeling tee-hee, ha-ha smile on little buddha, smile on little buddha, smile on it's only illusion then it's gone
lost and struggling tee-hee, ha-ha life is suffering tee-hee, ha-ha smile on little buddha, smile on little buddha, smile on it's only illusion then you're gone maya
anyway now, it don't seem right he is in there and you're on the outside over pine ridge to wounded knee there's blood on the ground as far as you see crazy life
in the air i'm sensing a change in the weather in the end the path is clear does anyone remember here did you all think he'd just disappear crazy life what have you done with Peltier who did you think you'd taken away crazy life
in the air i'm sensing a change in the weather in the end the path is clear
burying won't stop it breathing forever underground it takes to root
anyway, it don't seem right he is in there and you're on the outside what have you done with Peltier who did you think you'd taken away it's not over...
call me up when you need strangers often deceive and there's something so freeing to call out a name and someone's believing
i've been changing my mind through with looking behind it's a crash course in life the best you can do is get by no getting out alive i'll hold a light for you to see all things in time, all you'll ever need
something i can't explain keeps me running, afraid and every day looks me in the face and says "who'd you think you were, anyway?" if you'll hold a light for me to see all things in time, all we'll ever need well, you told me so that we'd seen all this before so what is it that keeps us coming back for more?
i'll hold a light for you to see all things in time, all you'll ever need all things in time, all we'll ever need
There she goes There she goes again Racing thru' my brain And I just can't contain This feelin' that remains There she goes There she goes again Pulsing through my veins And I just can't contain This feeling that remains There she goes There she goes again She call my name Pulls my train No one else could heal my pain And I just can't contain There feeling that remains There she goes There she goes again Chasing down my lane And I just can't contain This feeling that remains
i've come here a thousand times, some things never change "yes i will, anything you say" i've quit this a million times, can't quite stay away just one more time...i'll be ok but i'm so damn tired
when i come back down though i'm crazy to anything you want from me i'll do
"hey joe, could you spare a buck i could use some food" what a laugh, one more fool two hours and it's back again, lapping at my heels stop yelling..i'll get through but i'm so damn tired
i've come here a thousand time some things never change lay me down...take me away god, i'm so damn tired
> we were sharing so many words and feelings age is heavier, it seems, than years alone but, i told you things i wouldn't dream of telling anyone are we drifting out, like flowers from a forgotten someone don't go away i can't feel the same without you we were making so many plans and secrets we would both be millionaires or kings or presidents but like everything those little dreams just kind of came and went hard now just to make end meet how soon we al forget
Why try When everything I do feels half right? I wander through my life Everything I say seems half right Sometimes I'm standing here High on a riverbed And light breaks through And everything feels good for a while High on a riverbed Where am I When everything I do feels half right? How can I be satisfied Writing words from someone else's lies? Sometimes I'm standing here High on a riverbed And light breaks through And everything feels good for a while High on a riverbed Light breaks through I see myself sometimes Vision is a mystery half blind I keep missing all the time Seeing what I could be if I... If I... Sometimes I'm standing here High on a riverbed And light breaks through And everything feels good for a while High on a riverbed Light breaks through And everything feels good for a while High on a riverbed Light breaks through And everything feels good for a while High on a riverbed Light breaks through And everything feels good for a while
watching me a bird upon a roof with coal-black feathers cocks his head to catch my eye wandering and unfocused i cannot meet his stare he takes to wing silhouette against the sun surrounded by the glare
funny how the days go by invisibly and faster than i realize the things i think about strange to find the calendar my enemy and scared that when i die so will the things i think about
i believe in so many things i know that none of them are true and my feet firm upon a pathway i am far too blind to see leading me
funny how the days go by invisibly and faster than i realize the things i think about scared to find the calendar my enemy and when i die so will the thousand things i think about
