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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
Last night I had a dream I was drowning again You grabbed my hand and pulled me to safety As I looked into your eyes I saw my saviour The person that I knew had been there all along Just waiting for the chance to kill me We kissed and my mouth started to bleed Then all my teeth fell out... I hate it when that happens |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
IT'S TRUE...I'VE GOT DEMONS INSIDE ME AND SOMETIMES...THEY NEED TO SPEAK MY DARK PLACES...MAKE ME FEEL UGLY MY LIPS ARE GLOSSED BUT MY HEART IS WEAK I'M DISEASED AS SEEN ON TV PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING PRETTY OR SEXY BUT GOD NEVER BLESSED ME HERE'S WHAT YOU'LL FIND NEXT TIME YOU UNDRESS ME... Scars Wounds I'm BRUISED... Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND ONCE AGAIN WITHOUT PERFECT TEETH I BEGIN THE DREAM AS I SLEEP SOON I'VE SINNED MY SKIN IS STILL THICK MY MOUTH AS ALWAYS IS BRUTALLY HONEST AT MY CALMEST I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING HOW IT FEELS TO BE EXPLOITED AND RATED NUMBER ONE, TWO OR SEVENTEEN FUCK WHAT THEY PRINT IN THOSE DAMN MAGAZINES Scars Wounds I'm USED... Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND STUCK INSIDE THIS MASK OF MINE There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't touch me DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME Don't touch me... WHY? Can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, my SHAPE, my ASS, my TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm the beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND Why can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, MY SHAPE, MY ASS, MY TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Stuck inside this |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
It doesn't matter what I SAY Doesn't matter what I DO I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK About you Nowadays it's all FAKE Put some MAKE UP ON YOUR FACE Lookin like a FUCKIN chick In LIPSTICK There is nothing here for me DRESSED UP in your NEW DISEASE HOLLYWOOD is FULL OF SHIT DON'T ASK ME TO SEEL MY SOUL I would rather be myself You...DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to take a picture if you need WHILE I BLEED What makes you think... THAT YOU KNOW ME Dinner and an INTERVIEW But I'm not a fan you At least ... I tell the TRUTH... Damned if I DO, damned if I DON'T Damned if I WILL ..... if I WON'T STAB ME IN THE BACK And buy me one more DRINK SUCK MY TRUST until I'm FUCKED THEN YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKED ME! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to you're so SNEAKY with you're surprises you're so SWEET Underneath disguises I can't wait FOR YOU TO CRITICIZE THIS Don't think I don't KNOW HOW BIG YOUR KNIFE IS Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO... You don't know me like I know myself AND I WILL NEVER TELL you don't know me like I know myself YOU CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
Late night catechism speaks me to sleep A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast I can't remember how I got my last scar... A prayer under pressure The bible tells us jesus... Was a rockstar A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish Early morning exorcisms keep me awake I can't remember why my knees are so sore Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint The bible tells us Mary... Was a whore A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish There once was a girl, and she suffered from sickness A prayer under pressure Her mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses Tried to pretend it was all in her mind God, are you listening? I hear you in my room But I know her voice... When I hear mine As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June Love is not safe in a world filled with hate There's no sleeping for me, I'm losing my faith Heartsick.. I'm sick.. Still sick.. My heart.. IS SICK |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
I feel The skies open wide See your blue eyes When worlds collide Sometimes Your'e by my side I've cried Wished it was me Wished it was me who died I can see you where i stand I can see you in the sunshine I can see you in the bright lights Let your light surround me I feel you hold my hand I loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me Something... so deep inside me Swore that I'd keep it Binds me with you Told me a secret Someday my friend So until then I'll keep our secret safe We'll meet again I can see you in the moonlight I feel you when i sleep I can see you on those dark nights I feel your arms around me Let your light surround me Let your love surround me In loving memory Shine down on me Shine on me We will always be bound Rockstar.. We will always be bound We will always be down We will always be down I feel you when i scream I am just a girl, that hurts Feel me when i scream Your words These words I am just a girl, that hurts I feel you when i scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts... I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl THAT HURTS |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
DIS...HONEST You came with your first kiss Blue eyes sold me your HEAVENLY PRESENCE Something was SUFFOCATING me...couldn't breath Had no idea that you would ever DECEIVE I tried to BELIEVE all the things that you TAUGHT ME CHRIST LIKE IMAGES OF TRUTH...they straight got me Now watch me DROWN IN SADNESS My lungs gasp for air cause I let you STAB THIS... HEART...and rip apart WOUNDS that exist Deeper and darker than any words I could SPIT ALL IS SHIT And it will NEVER be well Because the fires that burn Are my never ending .... HELL IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Your faith is lost IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Get off your cross GET OFF... BRIDGES Connect each other for necessity LIFELINES SCAR MY HANDS like the rest of me Asked me to TRUST you and yes I TRIED to CONSTANT APOLOGIES caused me to LIE too Tried to MEDICATE MY HATE with YOUR MAGIC How could something so SWEET end up so tragic RESSURECT me from this abyss IN DEATH EVERY BODY FUNCTION FAILS TO EXIST False commitments TONGUES twisted with RELIGION A HEART SHAPED ROCK of the same size incision OBSOLETE With no RELIEF or RELEASE Just INSOMNIA filled nights Of never ending...SLEEP IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Your faith is lost IS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Get off your cross Split a piece of wood and I am there Lift a stone and you will find me ARE YOU STILL SCARED? SANCTUARY SANCTUARY SANCTUARY There's no SANCTUARY IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL... GOD Is this Is this Is this WHAT YOU CALL LOVE Get off Get off Watch me Get off Get off Watch me Get off Get off NOW WATCH ME FALL...-acapo |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
you're so pretty when you lie lovesongs always make me cry i dont think you have a choice there no truth left in your voice remember when we used to laugh just try to forget all that wear my heart upon your lips i hope it tastes just lke shit! you're so pretty when you die just call me me, miss ann thrope lovesongs always make me cry i don't think you realise theres no blue left in your eyes remember when we used to sing just try to forget those things fill your hole inside with dirt just call me miss ann thrope i hope that it fucking hurts you have left a trail of deceit assault an flattery blasting through my wounds imprisoned me in god and poetry a ritual to mend my angry heart a bredding ground for your untruth if god created man in hisown image then fuck you ashes to ashes, dust to dust my hate for you defines my lust bridges to bridges your nothing to me welcome world miss ann thrope fuck cunt miss ann thrope miss ann thropefuck cunt |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
i stick my finger down your throat explore my thoughts of murder a journey through the human heart dark places filled with terror obsession lets me have my way devotion makes you stay this mercy seat you imitate wont let you get away in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away come kiss away my honesty exploit me with your pain learn to love this monster you created in your name confession lets you face your fear redemption leaves a stain the thought of me makes you so sick theres nothing left to hate in praise of him i pray in praise of him im saved in praise of him i gave myself away again in praise of him i've prayed in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i gave myself away a different sort of suffering i practise what i preach aromatherapeutic death can you smell me speak if violence is religion then everyones a star it doesnt matter what youve done only who you are who you are who you are underneath the hollywood cross underneath this holy wood cross my lover let me tie you down hold your heart my hostage i promise after i am through your skin will still taste salted my mouth is not your enemy my lips are not your friend if we were still together i would torture you again in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away in praise of him ive prayed in praise of him im saved in praise of him i hate myself today you never know what you will find until you look inside i never knew what i would find and then i looked inside let me torture you again torture you m |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
You believe everything you read You believe everything you read You believe everything you read I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT THE FUCK I READ... SCREAM...things that I believe FRIENDS...became my enemies THINK... before you speak DON'T...think you know me My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk SO KEEP TALKING KEEP TALKING KEEP TALKING... FIGHT...I say what's on my mind LIES...words you hide behind BE...careful what you say STAY ...stay the fuck away My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk KEEP TALKING... [repeat chorus twice] IN A WORLD OF LIES I find myself ADVISED To just PRETEND I'M NICE And NOT to SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND But in A WORLD OF SHIT I THINK YOU'RE JUST A BITCH Who couldn't FUCK or SUCK MY DICK Cause I'M A CHICK Don't even think I GIVE A DAMN I SAY THESE THINGS BECAUSE I CAN... HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE Honesty Honesty Honesty Honesty |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
I like the way you make me feel SYRUPY AND CLEAN You have a STRANGE EFFECT on me LOVING EVERY SCREAM BAPTIZE this thing that burns EVERYTIME YOU BATH ME If I confess too many sins WILL YOU STILL SAVE ME? RAIN RAIN RAIN LET IT RAIN AA BEAUTIFUL AS A SCAR There's NOTHING quite like you I CUT MYSELF on your lips LET YOU LICK MY WOUNDS So SOUTHERN is my SAVIOUR So SICK inside my head But if I let you RESCUE me WILL I BE LEFT FOR DEAD? RAIN RAIN RAIN LET IT RAIN Let it rain DOWN ON ME Let it rain DOWN ON ME Let it rain DOWN ON ME LET RAIN...RAIN!!! The skys illumination comes from the city below And I can taste every inch of your kiss Every inch of your soul from over here Do you feel FAITH or do you feel FEAR? |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
It seems you're always looking for a new RELIGION DROWN YOUSELF IN ABSOLUTION To excuse YOUR SINS NOWADAYS it's easy to be swayed By IMAGES portrayed THERE IS NOTHING YOU WONT DO... To get PAID SO FULL OF SHIT YOU MAKE ME SICK POST NOISE REVELATION Cult of my frustration POST NOISE REVOLUTION Is there no solution? IT SEEMS YOU'RE SUCKED INTO THE SCENE Of what the LASTEST RAGE is FORCE FED MTV The NEW DISEASE that is CONTAGIOUS VIDEOS that cost a MILLION BUCKS With FAKES DEGRADING LADIES Can I be a FAN OF YOU... BABY SO FULL OF SHIT YOU MAKE ME SICK POST NOISE REVELATION Cult of my frustration POST NOISE REVOLUTION Is there no solution? Post noise revelation CULT OF MY FRUSTRATION Post noise revelation IS THERE NO SOLUTION? What seems to be the CANCER? I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER Someone NEEDS to TELL ME WHAT THEFUCK YOU'RE TRYNA SELL ME? [Repeat] Someone needs to tell me NOW! |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
I found him on a night of fire and noise Wild bells rang in a wild sky I knew from that moment on I'll love him till the day that I died And I kissed away a thousand tears My lady of the Various Sorrows Some begged, some borowed, some stolen Some kept safe for tomorrow On and endless night, silver star spangled The bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Like I love you? He was given to me to put things right And I stacked all my accomplishments beside him Still I seemed so obselete and small I found God and all His devils inside him In my bed he cast the blizzard out A mock sun blazed upon his head So completely filled with light he was His shadow fanged and hairy and mad Our love-lines grew hopelessly tangled And the bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Like I love you? He had a heartful of love and devotion He had a mindful of tyranny and terror Well, I try, I do, I really try But I just err, baby, I do, I error So come find me, my darling one I'm down to the grounds, the very dregs Ah, here he comes, blocking the sun Blood running down the inside of his legs The moon in the sky is battered and mangled And the bells from the chapel go jingle-jangle Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Like I love you? All things move toward their end I knew before I met him that I would lose him I swear I made every effort to be good to him I made every effo |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000)
THE WAGES OF SIN HOLD MY HEART HOSTAGE MY MOUTH IS STILL CRUEL MY SKIN IS IN BONDAGE MY BODY IS SCARRED FROM LYRICS I'VE CARVED BRUISES I'VE HEALED LIPS THAT I'VE STARVED WOUNDS I'VE REPLACED WITH LOVE AND WITH HATE THE TRUTH SET ME FREE BUT MY FAITH WAS RAPED I'VE BROKEN MY SILENCE LIED TO MYSELF SPOKEN IN VIOLENCE BEEN SOMEONE ELSE SCREAMED AT MY DEMONS PRAYED TO MY GOD BEGGED FOR FORGIVENESS MY HANDS ARE STILL HOT |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
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I think I'll cut myself Cut myself free Now I'm somewhere else I need to be Wasted with no sleep Forgot to pray Jesus can you hear me? Nails keep pounding You push your fingers into holes Of what my questions left And as I drown your mouth in red You fear what I will ask next I violate your faith And wonder what you really taste like Feel the sensation of depth I lied... CAN'T HELP ME NOW IT'S UNDER MY SKIN NOWHERE TO GO BUT I WON'T GIVE IN CAN'T HELP ME NOW I'M BLEEDING WITHIN NOWHERE TO GO I'LL NEVER LET YOU IN (I have a fear of dying) I could I could worship you Make you behave I'd tell Tell you anything Just to be saved Baby... how's your faith theses days Do you feel safe? Kiss me Sunlight makes us sick As nails keep pounding You wrap your legs around my mind Ten times and hide in me The darker that it gets outside Your heats a 1000 degrees I'll make you swallow spit You're sick with it You're sick from me Don't say I didn't warn you I tried... CAN'T HELP ME NOW IT'S UNDER MY SKIN NOWHERE TO GO BUT I WON'T GIVE IN CAN'T HELP ME NOW I'M BLEEDING WITHIN NOWHERE TO GO I'LL NEVER GIVE IN What god created me? (your god) What god created us? (your god) What god created this... thing called lust? Your god created me? (what god?) Your god created us? (what god?) Your god created... FUCK YOUR GOD CAN'T HELP ME NOW IT'S UNDER MY SKIN NOWHERE TO GO BUT I WON'T GIVE IN CAN'T HELP ME NOW I'M BLEEDING WITHIN NOWHERE TO GO I'LL NEVER GIVE IN I won't let you in Won't let you in (let me in) Won't let you in (let me in) God won't let you... |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
come to me
as christ redeemed your make up hides your identity but i can see you're still diseased get off your cross get off your knees dare i see the same in me never thought that i could be so you just lick your wounds but it's too late trust will lead you to your own fate masochrist what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep and what you use is what you'll need but i can't stand to watch you bleed for me forgive me father for i'm not clean i'd rather be miss magdalene your vaseline won't heal my demons cause i don't talk to god i'm screaming dare i see the same in me you never thought that i would be so let me bruise my knees rape my faith scar myself with love and with hate masochrist what you sew is what you'll reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep what you use is what you'll need i can't stand to watch you bleed for me for me for me for me for me oh lord hear my prayer you look like you are scared i do what you taught me it's your turn to watch me oh lord hear my prayer pull me by my black hair stab me with your greed it's my turn to bleed what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you'll keep and what i use is what i need can you stand to watch me as i bleed i bleed i bleed i'm bleeding for you |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
where do i begin
i remember the first night we met it was 1996 at the splash club in London and i had a huge crush on you over the years i've grown to love you for so many reasons Manchester Bristol Exeter and Nottingham to name a few you've watched me bleed bruise sweat and scream and you've never been afraid of me i don't blame you for what they've written about us or our relationship no one really understands it not even me i love it when that happens' |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
IT'S TRUE...I'VE GOT DEMONS INSIDE ME
AND SOMETIMES...THEY NEED TO SPEAK MY DARK PLACES...MAKE ME FEEL UGLY MY LIPS ARE GLOSSED BUT MY HEART IS WEAK I'M DISEASED AS SEEN ON TV PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING PRETTY OR SEXY BUT GOD NEVER BLESSED ME HERE'S WHAT YOU'LL FIND NEXT TIME YOU UNDRESS ME... Scars Wounds I'm BRUISED... Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND ONCE AGAIN WITHOUT PERFECT TEETH I BEGIN THE DREAM AS I SLEEP SOON I'VE SINNED MY SKIN IS STILL THICK MY MOUTH AS ALWAYS IS BRUTALLY HONEST AT MY CALMEST I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING HOW IT FEELS TO BE EXPLOITED AND RATED NUMBER ONE, TWO OR SEVENTEEN FUCK WHAT THEY PRINT IN THOSE DAMN MAGAZINES Scars Wounds I'm USED... Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND STUCK INSIDE THIS MASK OF MINE There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't touch me DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME Don't touch me... WHY? Can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, my SHAPE, my ASS, my TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm the beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND Why can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, MY SHAPE, MY ASS, MY TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Stuck inside this |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
It doesn't matter what I SAY
Doesn't matter what I DO I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK About you Nowadays it's all FAKE Put some MAKE UP ON YOUR FACE Lookin like a FUCKIN chick In LIPSTICK There is nothing here for me DRESSED UP in your NEW DISEASE HOLLYWOOD is FULL OF SHIT DON'T ASK ME TO SEEL MY SOUL I would rather be myself You...DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to take a picture if you need WHILE I BLEED What makes you think... THAT YOU KNOW ME Dinner and an INTERVIEW But I'm not a fan you At least ... I tell the TRUTH... Damned if I DO, damned if I DON'T Damned if I WILL ..... if I WON'T STAB ME IN THE BACK And buy me one more DRINK SUCK MY TRUST until I'm FUCKED THEN YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKED ME! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to you're so SNEAKY with you're surprises you're so SWEET Underneath disguises I can't wait FOR YOU TO CRITICIZE THIS Don't think I don't KNOW HOW BIG YOUR KNIFE IS Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO... You don't know me like I know myself AND I WILL NEVER TELL you don't know me like I know myself YOU CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
Late night catechism speaks me to sleep
A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast I can't remember how I got my last scar... A prayer under pressure The bible tells us jesus... Was a rockstar A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish Early morning exorcisms keep me awake I can't remember why my knees are so sore Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint The bible tells us Mary... Was a whore A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish There once was a girl, and she suffered from sickness A prayer under pressure Her mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses Tried to pretend it was all in her mind God, are you listening? I hear you in my room But I know her voice... When I hear mine As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June Love is not safe in a world filled with hate There's no sleeping for me, I'm losing my faith Heartsick.. I'm sick.. Still sick.. My heart.. IS SICK |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
Sick with it
Sick with disease Deny addiction DOWN ON MY KNEES Feed my affliction SCARED TO BELIEVE My own decisions EAGER TO PLEASE Destroyed visions BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE LIE AND DECIEVE With no emotion FALSE PROMISES Loss of devotion SCARRED BY DECEIT My self destruction LOVE OBSOLETE Live in dysfunction BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE BLEED LIFE HEAL LIFE FEEL LIFE THE SWEET LIFE Is all I want... CAN I BLEED FOR THE RITUAL? Bleed for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL.... CAN I BREATH FOR THE RITUAL? Breath for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL? SICK WITH IT. Sick with it. SICK WITH IT, sick with it... (repeat) IT'S INSIDE ME I feel it growing NOWHERE TO HIDE My anger's showing Repeat chorus And on this DARK NIGHT OF MY SOUL I will continue to PRAY FOR US And try to remember only the good things... THE SWEET LIFE |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
We're going to a nice place..
Sweet and full of sin I prick myself on your thorns Your mouth blooms like a cut And I bleed within And I watch you die Your leaves fade to brown In my torture garden Under black sunshine He loves me not My beautiful flower He loves me He loves me not He loves me.. Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil Is where the evil grows And the weeds attack Your petals start to fall In my torture garden The blue sky is black My beautiful flower He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me Sweet and full of sin And I bleed within Your mouth blooms like a cut I prick myself on your thorns Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil I am earth.. Is where the evil grows Hear me breathe... You can feel me touch you Coz' it's my air that loves you And I am fire... You will feel me burn you Come inside... And I'll be water with you He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
come to me
as christ redeemed your make up hides your identity but i can see you're still diseased get off your cross get off your knees dare i see the same in me never thought that i could be so you just lick your wounds but it's too late trust will lead you to your own fate masochrist what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep and what you use is what you'll need but i can't stand to watch you bleed for me forgive me father for i'm not clean i'd rather be miss magdalene your vaseline won't heal my demons cause i don't talk to god i'm screaming dare i see the same in me you never thought that i would be so let me bruise my knees rape my faith scar myself with love and with hate masochrist what you sew is what you'll reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep what you use is what you'll need i can't stand to watch you bleed for me for me for me for me for me oh lord hear my prayer you look like you are scared i do what you taught me it's your turn to watch me oh lord hear my prayer pull me by my black hair stab me with your greed it's my turn to bleed what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you'll keep and what i use is what i need can you stand to watch me as i bleed i bleed i bleed i'm bleeding for you |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
One two freddy's commin' for you
Three four better lock your door Five six grab your crucifix... Something WICKED THIS WAY COMES PREMEDITATED EVIL numbs Cartoon KIDS crayola SMILES CHILDREN OF THE KORN FED STYLES But I don't buy your LIES I see through your disguise Don't feel your SCREAMS or CRIES WHY?........... chorus I'm sick of looking so sick I can't I'm SICK of the SYCOPHANT Sick of listening so sick I can't I'm SICK of the SYCOPHANT I see you BREATHLESS and DERANGED A LITTLE GIRL who's acting STRANGE Tryna SCARE us with your SCREAM But it's all ROUTINE And all you do is TAKE STEAL and IMMITAKE YOU and what YOU create YOUR FAKE!..... Repeat chorus I barely recognize... you in your new disguise COSMETIC COVERED EYES Just tell me WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? You put the MAKE UP on, take the MAKE UP off SEARCHING TO BE FOUND But you're so FUCKIN' lost.... Now THE ROAD TO HELL is paved with stones And some of them are FAKES and CLONES COUNTERFEITS which SUCK and BLEED US Wearin' FUCKIN' ADIDAS But something just ain't right, NO SUBSTANCE ONLY HYPE With FAITH you GOT THE LIFE that made you rich And a PUNK ASS BITCH!.... Repeat chorus Sick of you and anyone like you, sometimes I think I've lost my mind... or else this whole world's BLIND! |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love...And Bruises (2001)
I feel
The skies open wide See your blue eyes When worlds collide Sometimes Your'e by my side I've cried Wished it was me Wished it was me who died I can see you where i stand I can see you in the sunshine I can see you in the bright lights Let your light surround me I feel you hold my hand I loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me Something... so deep inside me Swore that I'd keep it Binds me with you Told me a secret Someday my friend So until then I'll keep our secret safe We'll meet again I can see you in the moonlight I feel you when i sleep I can see you on those dark nights I feel your arms around me Let your light surround me Let your love surround me In loving memory Shine down on me Shine on me We will always be bound Rockstar.. We will always be bound We will always be down We will always be down I feel you when i scream I am just a girl, that hurts Feel me when i scream Your words These words I am just a girl, that hurts I feel you when i scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts... I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl THAT HURTS |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
This is what you call me... I STRIKE TERROR AMONG MEN I can't be bothered with what they think I bare my cross, my soul, MYSELF I FORGIVE... BUT I NEVER FORGET I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form But I can handle myself with the best of you As well as THE WORST And I often have I have the right to remain silent But I choose to SPEAK, SING, SCREAM I am LIPS, HIPS, TITS... I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN STRONG like music TRUE like friendship But without my FRIENDS there would be no music... ONLY SPOKEN WORD FUCKER! I am able to change So I live without REGRET, without REMORSE only a REMIX I am DRUNK, I am SOBER HEAVEN doesn't want me and HELL'S AFRAID I'LL TAKE OVER Don't bother trying to CENSOR me or SHUT ME UP Because IT WON'T WORK I am COLD and DISTANT yet WARM and CLOSE To those who deserve to see that side of me PART OF ME... THE HEART OF ME You find ME so hard to understand in YOUR WORLD The world you perceive to be so NORMAL I AM DEFORMED... SCORNED, REBORN I am ME And I know exactly WHO I AM, WHAT I AM and THE WRATH I BRING The UGLY BEAUTY, the LYING TRUTH, the VIRGIN WHORE... the QUIET STORM A LOVER, a FIGHTER, a SAINT, a SINNER, a SISTER, a DAUGHTER OLD SCHOOL...... a BEGINNER I have decorated myself with LOVE, HATE, TRUTH.... YOU All of you, BOTH OF YOU, none of you... more than one of you With LIPS LIKE SUGAR, EYES LIKE MEAT I've watched MEN come, go and CHEAT I SLEEP to DREAM and DREAM of SLEEP I HAD A DREAM JOE That you were standing in the middle of an open road I HAD A DREAM JOE That your hands were raised up to the sky And your MOUTH WAS COVERED IN FOAM I've been CRUCI |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
It was a long time ago Longer now than it seems A place that perhaps you have seen in your dreams... Welcome to my world Is it what you thought it would be? I'm trapped inside this HELL Between BLOOD QUEEN and PURGATORY A COOP filled covered hall A tattooed BABYDOLL I've got the DEVIL in my corner And JESUS on my wall chorus Today is an OATMEAL day I feel like a MONSTER BABE PREACHER save me with your call And I will be your LITTLE MISS SCAREALL One eye's GREEN and one eye's BLUE DEMONS, ANGELS a LOVE that's TRUE Catch me as I start to fall Let me be your LITTLE MISS SCAREALL HALLOWEEN is over But I will keep you SCARED Take you to the FRIGHT SIDE I know you'll come prepared By your DEADLY NIGHTSHADE Turn your CHRISTMAS black And you can be my JOHNNY HOMICIDAL MANIAC Repeat chorus FORGIVE me PREACHER For I have SINNED It's been 3 weeks since my FIRST CONFESSION I AM THE ONE... hiding under your BED My TEETH are SHARP, my LIPS are RED I AM THE ONE.... Hiding under your STAIRS With SNAKES and SPIDERS in her hair I feel like a MONSTER BABE LITTLE MISS SCAREALL I feel like a MONSTER BABE |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
Sometimes I feel I've got to run away I've got to get away From the pain you drive into the heart of me The love we share seem's to go nowhere And I've lost my light For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night Once I ran to you Now I run from you This tainted love you give it I gave you all a girl could give you Take my tears and that's not really Oh, tainted love Tainted love Now I know I've got to run away I've got to get away You don't really want anymore from me To make things right You need someone to hold you tight And you think love is to pray But I'm sorry I don't pray that way Once I ran to you Now I run from you This tainted love you give it I gave you all a girl could give you Take my tears and that not really Oh, tainted love Tainted love Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease I love you baby you maybe so Now its time you packed your things and go Tainted love Tainted love Touch me baby, tainted love Don't touch me with your tainted love Touch me baby, tainted love Don't touch me with your tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
BLASPHEMOUS GIRL DRUNK with SIN SHE sits in her SKIN Filled with ANGER FUELLED by LIQUER DROWNS in DREAMS With no SAVIOR From the TRUTH NONE can SAVE HER HE is HER own PERSONAL JESUS And HE will not be HER last GOD wants a piece of HER ASS GOD WANTS A PIECE OF MY ASS... I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS Girl MAGNUM MOUTHED I shoot to KILL You MURDER ME with LEGS and GUILT STRANGLE ME... with TRAGIC HANDS GOD wants a piece of HER ASS GOD WANTS A PIECE OF MY ASS... I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... STAB ME...like a STALKER RAPE ME... like a HERO STAB ME... like a STALKER RAPE ME...and BE MY HERO BLESS ME DARLING and I will FORGIVE YOU ELOQUENT and FULL OF GRACE You SPEAK IN TONGUES behind my back A DRY LUNG VOCAL MARTYR I will SUFFER for my LOVER I will SUFFER for HIS SINS I will SUFFER for my LOVER I AM SUFFERING FOR HIM TORTURE ME with TIMELESSNESS WORSHIP my first with every KISS RESURRECTION of my PAIN Drag me down OUR MEMORY LANE INTRODUCE me to DEVOTION Leave me NUMB with no EMOTION STARS SURROUND YOU when I feel you YOU look better when I cannot see... you HONESTY... looks good to you But LIAR should be your tattoo |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
This place is HELL to me and I can NEVER get no SLEEP There's a DEVIL in my BED with me who's TALK is CHEAP You feel like HEAVEN to me all I want to do is SLEEP You're like an ANGEL lyin' next to me you look so SWEET CLOSE YOUR EYES And lets pretend REMEMBER WHY We're just friends My TANGLED HAIR will weave a WEB OF LIES within my SHEETS And in the MORNING I'll be NAILED where he CRUCIFIED ME Your BLACKENED HAIR will leave a STAIN inside my MIND SO DEEP And when TOMORROW comes I'll WISH that you would WORSHIP ME CLOSE YOUR EYES And let's pretend REMEMBER WHY We're just friends There must be a STORM IN LONDON tonight Because it's COLD and RAINING hard My BODY ACHES, my LOVER WAITS, I PICK THE SCABS FROM MY ARMS There must be a STORM IN LA tonight Because it's COLD and RAINING hard I miss YOUR KISS. I miss YOUR FACE, I MISS THE STARS OF YOUR ARMS The man that I LUST In HE do I TRUST For HE IS MY GOD MY ANTI JESUS HE IS MY SAVIOR MY SALVATION HE leads ME into TEMPTATION In my HIGHEST HOUR My LOWEST MOMENT HE IS MY TORTURE HE IS MY TORMENT And I will PRAY FOR HIM TO REMAIN MY FRIEND And SAVE ME FROM MY ENEMIES... FOREVER AMEN This place is HELL to me and I can NEVER get no SLEEP There's a DEVIL in my BED with me who's TALK IS...CHEAP |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
I wanna live in THE PRETTY SUN But DAYLIGHT just makes me NUMB So I COVER UP my SCARS Change my mood With VELVET DRAPES that KILL ROCK STARS TRUST will lead us to the TRUTH SLEEP WITH MY ENEMY LICK MY WOUNDS DROWN myself in MISERY DESTROY my DESTINY Erase the MEMORY... of you OPEN MYSELF TO REVEAL MY WOUNDS AND I FIND THE MEMORY OF YOU I wanna DIE on the DARKEST NIGHT When there's no one left to FIGHT SUFFER for my latest SIN fill my bed with LEOPARD FUR THINK OF YOU INSIDE of HER OPEN MYSELF TO REVEAL MY WOUNDS Until I'm HAPPY in my SKIN AND I FIND THE MEMORY OF YOU I ache for you... I ACHE FOR US I wait for you... I WAIT I pray for you... I PRAY FOR US DENY thy LOVER and REFUSE thy NAME FIRST, LAST and ALWAYS FIRST LAST and ALWAYS DENY thy LOVER and REFUSE thy NAME When will YOU tell YOU the TRUTH? When will YOU tell ME the TRUTH? When will YOU tell YOU... When will YOU tell ME the TRUTH? It will make you want to KILL YOURSELF My revenge on you will not kill you |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
I INVOKE HIM... and he comes to me IN MY DREAMS DRESSED IN BLACK, HE speaks in a LANGUAGE only I can understand His HANDS are WARM, his BREATH is HOT He is THE HORRIBLE PAIN WITHIN MY HEART My RELIGION, my SANCTUARY, my CHURCH, my SACRIFICE, my CONFESSION My EXORCISM... MY WORSHIP IN PROGRESS I have NO OTHER LOVER... NOW until FOREVER HE IS MAGIC and when HE KISSES ME I can TASTE HIM ON MY LIPS Like an ELIXIR Far from INNOCENT HE IS PURE EVIL A SINNERS PRAYER... a SAINTS DESIRE For him I would walk through fire For him... I HAVE WALKED THROUGH FIRE To draw him I WANT SO BAD... one gift I'll NEVER HAVE He drives a STAKE INTO MY SOUL MAKES ME BLEED, MAKES ME WHOLE DRINKS me, DEVOURS me, INTOXICATES me... With his LOVE, HATE, DEVOTION FAITH As beautiful as JESUS CHRIST He is as BRUTAL as THE DEPTHS OF HELL In my dreams I press my mouth against his And I feel HEAVEN... HORROR... TERROR He look at me with that look I call it his SERIAL KILLER LOOK Like he wants to FUCK ME and KILL ME all at the same time It SCARES ME.. it TURNS ME ON HIS EYES are BROWN HIS STARE is INTENSE... MEANINGFUL, POWERFUL maybe that's why HE's so FUCKIN' SCARY... because HE MEANS IT Sometimes HE TELLS ME HE LOVES ME as he looks at me with that LOOK Sometimes HE DOESN'T HAVE TO I've NEVER felt a MAN look at ME with THAT LOOK It's almost CREEPY.... UNCOMFORTABLE.... SEXY I guess I know he could never really CHOP OFF MY HANDS Or could he? |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
DESTROY ME As WANT turns to NEED You MURDER ME Just to WATCH me BLEED I live inside... my own MAKE BELIEVE I SACRIFICE... what you can't see I'm HISSING MAD And I'm DRIPPING WET I have no FATHER I have no PET And I'll be DAMNED The day I die Your ANTI MUSE Your ANTI LIE chorus CAN I SPEAK? I will DESTROY IF I SPEAK It will DESTROY HOW I SPEAK... I will DESTROY WHEN I SPEAK... It will DESTROY you Another LOVER, anther MAN Another VICTIM of CIRCUMSTANCE I close my eyes With NO REGRET I know your name BABY But I FORGET My MOUTH is CRUEL And my LIPS are mean I'm DIRTY MINDED And I'm OBSENE But I'll be SAVED The day I die I'll be your MUSE I'll be your LIE Repeat chorus I see GOD and he's MY FRIEND But THE DEVIL'S standing next to HIM HE says MY NAME and I feel so WEAK Just like a MONSTER who cannot SPEAK I'm like a MONSTER.... When I SPEAK Am I a MONSTER... when I SPEAK? Your just a MONSTER... when we SPEAK So I'm a MONSTER when I SPEAK... can I SPEAK? I'll be your MONSTER when we SPEAK and I SPEAK to DESTROY... SPEAK AND DESTROY.... SPEAK AND DESTROY Yeah |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
Sick with it Sick with disease Deny addiction DOWN ON MY KNEES Feed my affliction SCARED TO BELIEVE My own decisions EAGER TO PLEASE Destroyed visions BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE LIE AND DECIEVE With no emotion FALSE PROMISES Loss of devotion SCARRED BY DECEIT My self destruction LOVE OBSOLETE Live in dysfunction BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE BLEED LIFE HEAL LIFE FEEL LIFE THE SWEET LIFE Is all I want... CAN I BLEED FOR THE RITUAL? Bleed for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL.... CAN I BREATH FOR THE RITUAL? Breath for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL? SICK WITH IT. Sick with it. SICK WITH IT, sick with it... (repeat) IT'S INSIDE ME I feel it growing NOWHERE TO HIDE My anger's showing Repeat chorus And on this DARK NIGHT OF MY SOUL I will continue to PRAY FOR US And try to remember only the good things... THE SWEET LIFE |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
We're going to a nice place.. Sweet and full of sin I prick myself on your thorns Your mouth blooms like a cut And I bleed within And I watch you die Your leaves fade to brown In my torture garden Under black sunshine He loves me not My beautiful flower He loves me He loves me not He loves me.. Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil Is where the evil grows And the weeds attack Your petals start to fall In my torture garden The blue sky is black My beautiful flower He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me Sweet and full of sin And I bleed within Your mouth blooms like a cut I prick myself on your thorns Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil I am earth.. Is where the evil grows Hear me breathe... You can feel me touch you Coz' it's my air that loves you And I am fire... You will feel me burn you Come inside... And I'll be water with you He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
chorus This is a MANTRA For MYSELF This is a MANTRA For SOMEONE ELSE This is a MANTRA So be WARNED... HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED SWEETLY He smiles at me so bright it BURNS me TONGUE TWISTED SICK WITH WORDS She'll get what she deserves SHE GOT WHAT SHE DESERVED! See me I LOOK AT YOU SO DEEP THAT SHE FEELS ME Girl tricks make you believe BUT SHE STEALS ME I will be HER disease DIAVOLINA SCREAMS... Repeat chorus KEEP ME So safe inside your SINS are SECRET I watch you live your life in REGRET YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE! Sleepy You CLOSEYOUR EYES but you can't DREAM ME DIRTY girl so MEAN can't CLEAN me I will be YOUR disease DIAVOLINA SCREAMS... Repeat chorus And I SWEAR SACRED as this HEART of MINE STRONG as the TIES which BIND US HEAVY as this CROSS Which I FOREVER BARE ETERNITY will be the HELL we SHARE And what you want I DON'T CARE cos it doesn't concern me THIS IS ABOUT WHAT I NEED So BLEED as the needle goes in, I'm CREEPING under your SKIN SOAK you in SICKNESS and SCENT you in SIN So say YOU LOVE HER and I'LL BELIEVE YOU But if you CAN'T then you only DECEIVE YOU I said I LOVE YOU and I DON'T LIE... REMEMBER THAT Next time YOU KISS ME goodbye |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
Do you remember those words you whispered to me On that fateful day in Italy Mr. B? I can hear you singing FACE ON FIRE Blue skies, your eyes MY BEAUTIFUL LIAR I'm still breathing YOU CAN'T KISS ME Kill me darling I KNOW YOU MISS ME Can't resist me CALL ME MISS B.... I LOVE IT WHEN YOU CALL ME MISS B Can you hear me talking? CAN YOU SEE ME Red lights my lips SHE CAN NEVER BE ME... SHE CAN NEVER BE ME Now I'm screaming WHAT CAN I BREAK? My hearts broken... SILVERLAKE SAN FRANCISCO, SWITZERLAND, LACUNZA ENGLAND, BUDAPEST, MULHOUSE, JUNE 10TH JUNE 10TH Do you remember JUNE 10th? I CAN'T FORGET JUNE 10th.... I remember when we first met Do you remember or do you forget? You were so perfect, so pure Like an angel You were like an ANGEL... AMEN And I remember thinking... my god MY GOD HE IS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL So fuckin' amazing And every night I would watch you, I WOULD WATCH YOU WATCHING ME And we swore that nothing would come between us THAT NO ONE WOULD COME BETWEEN US Do you remember? ECSTASY in PARIS... laying down in the middle of the street In the middle of the night IN THE CENTER OF YOU I was humbled by your power, on the 9th plane... 666 ACACIA AVENUE, somewhere in HELL Diggin' the HELL OUT OF YOU, diggin' the HELL IN YOU... my CO CONSPIRATOR My EXECUTIONER, my SACRIFICIAL LAMB, my FRIEND, my LOVER, my MARTYR Are you my ENEMY now? You once asked me" IS EXISTANCE ALL WE SHARE?"... you tell me When you remember JUNE 10th, DO YOU REMEMBER JUNE 10th |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
ELEGANTLY WASTED and I can taste it Here I sit, trying not to fake this gift Of the BEAUTY MYTH I can't help but feel like this Bored... of the BEAUTY WHORE Cos my body just wants more SCARS... and I can feel them WOUNDS... I can't heal them RED BRING MY MOUTH TO LIFE BLACK REVIVE MY HAIR THAT'S DYED MAKE UP always helps me hide What I don't like on the outside chorus STARLIGHT, STARBRIGHT First star I see tonight I wish I may, I wish I might Have the wish I wish tonight A BIRTHDAY GIRL A BROKEN HEART You name the DRAMA she played the part Long lost DEMONS leave her GODLESS Like her powder Leaves her FLAWLESS Sugar coated HEART SHAPED POUT LIPSTICK just DESTORTS her MOUTH MASCARA puts her eyes to sleep Cos BEAUTY'S ONLY SKIN DEEP Repeat chorus BITCH du jour Served on a platter She's so PRETTY But does it matter MIRROR MIRROR on the wall Watch her BREAK and WATCH her fall STITCH HER SMILE BRUISE HER KNEES Walk among her enemies BLESSED AM I AMONG WOMEN TO LIVE AND LOVE IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL TEMPLE BLESSED AM I AMONG WOMEN |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
One two freddy's commin' for you Three four better lock your door Five six grab your crucifix... Something WICKED THIS WAY COMES PREMEDITATED EVIL numbs Cartoon KIDS crayola SMILES CHILDREN OF THE KORN FED STYLES But I don't buy your LIES I see through your disguise Don't feel your SCREAMS or CRIES WHY?........... chorus I'm sick of looking so sick I can't I'm SICK of the SYCOPHANT Sick of listening so sick I can't I'm SICK of the SYCOPHANT I see you BREATHLESS and DERANGED A LITTLE GIRL who's acting STRANGE Tryna SCARE us with your SCREAM But it's all ROUTINE And all you do is TAKE STEAL and IMMITAKE YOU and what YOU create YOUR FAKE!..... Repeat chorus I barely recognize... you in your new disguise COSMETIC COVERED EYES Just tell me WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? You put the MAKE UP on, take the MAKE UP off SEARCHING TO BE FOUND But you're so FUCKIN' lost.... Now THE ROAD TO HELL is paved with stones And some of them are FAKES and CLONES COUNTERFEITS which SUCK and BLEED US Wearin' FUCKIN' ADIDAS But something just ain't right, NO SUBSTANCE ONLY HYPE With FAITH you GOT THE LIFE that made you rich And a PUNK ASS BITCH!.... Repeat chorus Sick of you and anyone like you, sometimes I think I've lost my mind... or else this whole world's BLIND! |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
God wants to heal cancer... Christians are commanded alcohol.. is good!... evasion of crutches you partake of the dust of the ground... I know some of you are frightened about it... we can go to church and you are naked... and over the foul of the air and fire of course people said they're drunk and this my friend is my prayer for... |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (1999)
This is what you call me... I STRIKE TERROR AMONG MEN I can't be bothered with what they think I bare my cross, my soul, MYSELF I FORGIVE... BUT I NEVER FORGET I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form But I can handle myself with the best of you As well as THE WORST And I often have I have the right to remain silent But I choose to SPEAK, SING, SCREAM I am LIPS, HIPS, TITS... I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN STRONG like music TRUE like friendship But without my FRIENDS there would be no music... ONLY SPOKEN WORD FUCKER! I am able to change So I live without REGRET, without REMORSE only a REMIX I am DRUNK, I am SOBER HEAVEN doesn't want me and HELL'S AFRAID I'LL TAKE OVER Don't bother trying to CENSOR me or SHUT ME UP Because IT WON'T WORK I am COLD and DISTANT yet WARM and CLOSE To those who deserve to see that side of me PART OF ME... THE HEART OF ME You find ME so hard to understand in YOUR WORLD The world you perceive to be so NORMAL I AM DEFORMED... SCORNED, REBORN I am ME And I know exactly WHO I AM, WHAT I AM and THE WRATH I BRING The UGLY BEAUTY, the LYING TRUTH, the VIRGIN WHORE... the QUIET STORM A LOVER, a FIGHTER, a SAINT, a SINNER, a SISTER, a DAUGHTER OLD SCHOOL...... a BEGINNER I have decorated myself with LOVE, HATE, TRUTH.... YOU All of you, BOTH OF YOU, none of you... more than one of you With LIPS LIKE SUGAR, EYES LIKE MEAT I've watched MEN come, go and CHEAT I SLEEP to DREAM and DREAM of SLEEP I HAD A DREAM JOE That you were standing in the middle of an open road I HAD A DREAM JOE That your hands were raised up to the sky And your MOUTH WAS COVERED IN FOAM I've been CRUCI |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
where do i begin
i remember the first night we met it was 1996 at the splash club in London and i had a huge crush on you over the years i've grown to love you for so many reasons Manchester Bristol Exeter and Nottingham to name a few you've watched me bleed bruise sweat and scream and you've never been afraid of me i don't blame you for what they've written about us or our relationship no one really understands it not even me i love it when that happens' |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
IT'S TRUE...I'VE GOT DEMONS INSIDE ME
AND SOMETIMES...THEY NEED TO SPEAK MY DARK PLACES...MAKE ME FEEL UGLY MY LIPS ARE GLOSSED BUT MY HEART IS WEAK I'M DISEASED AS SEEN ON TV PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING PRETTY OR SEXY BUT GOD NEVER BLESSED ME HERE'S WHAT YOU'LL FIND NEXT TIME YOU UNDRESS ME... Scars Wounds I'm BRUISED... Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND ONCE AGAIN WITHOUT PERFECT TEETH I BEGIN THE DREAM AS I SLEEP SOON I'VE SINNED MY SKIN IS STILL THICK MY MOUTH AS ALWAYS IS BRUTALLY HONEST AT MY CALMEST I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING HOW IT FEELS TO BE EXPLOITED AND RATED NUMBER ONE, TWO OR SEVENTEEN FUCK WHAT THEY PRINT IN THOSE DAMN MAGAZINES Scars Wounds I'm USED... Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND STUCK INSIDE THIS MASK OF MINE There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't touch me DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME Don't touch me... WHY? Can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, my SHAPE, my ASS, my TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm the beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND Why can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, MY SHAPE, MY ASS, MY TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Stuck inside this |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
It doesn't matter what I SAY
Doesn't matter what I DO I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK About you Nowadays it's all FAKE Put some MAKE UP ON YOUR FACE Lookin like a FUCKIN chick In LIPSTICK There is nothing here for me DRESSED UP in your NEW DISEASE HOLLYWOOD is FULL OF SHIT DON'T ASK ME TO SEEL MY SOUL I would rather be myself You...DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to take a picture if you need WHILE I BLEED What makes you think... THAT YOU KNOW ME Dinner and an INTERVIEW But I'm not a fan you At least ... I tell the TRUTH... Damned if I DO, damned if I DON'T Damned if I WILL ..... if I WON'T STAB ME IN THE BACK And buy me one more DRINK SUCK MY TRUST until I'm FUCKED THEN YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKED ME! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to you're so SNEAKY with you're surprises you're so SWEET Underneath disguises I can't wait FOR YOU TO CRITICIZE THIS Don't think I don't KNOW HOW BIG YOUR KNIFE IS Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO... You don't know me like I know myself AND I WILL NEVER TELL you don't know me like I know myself YOU CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
Late night catechism speaks me to sleep
A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast I can't remember how I got my last scar... A prayer under pressure The bible tells us jesus... Was a rockstar A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish Early morning exorcisms keep me awake I can't remember why my knees are so sore Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint The bible tells us Mary... Was a whore A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish There once was a girl, and she suffered from sickness A prayer under pressure Her mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses Tried to pretend it was all in her mind God, are you listening? I hear you in my room But I know her voice... When I hear mine As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June Love is not safe in a world filled with hate There's no sleeping for me, I'm losing my faith Heartsick.. I'm sick.. Still sick.. My heart.. IS SICK |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
Sick with it
Sick with disease Deny addiction DOWN ON MY KNEES Feed my affliction SCARED TO BELIEVE My own decisions EAGER TO PLEASE Destroyed visions BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE LIE AND DECIEVE With no emotion FALSE PROMISES Loss of devotion SCARRED BY DECEIT My self destruction LOVE OBSOLETE Live in dysfunction BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE BLEED LIFE HEAL LIFE FEEL LIFE THE SWEET LIFE Is all I want... CAN I BLEED FOR THE RITUAL? Bleed for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL.... CAN I BREATH FOR THE RITUAL? Breath for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL? SICK WITH IT. Sick with it. SICK WITH IT, sick with it... (repeat) IT'S INSIDE ME I feel it growing NOWHERE TO HIDE My anger's showing Repeat chorus And on this DARK NIGHT OF MY SOUL I will continue to PRAY FOR US And try to remember only the good things... THE SWEET LIFE |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
BLASPHEMOUS GIRL
DRUNK with SIN SHE sits in her SKIN Filled with ANGER FUELLED by LIQUER DROWNS in DREAMS With no SAVIOR From the TRUTH NONE can SAVE HER HE is HER own PERSONAL JESUS And HE will not be HER last GOD wants a piece of HER ASS GOD WANTS A PIECE OF MY ASS... I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS Girl MAGNUM MOUTHED I shoot to KILL You MURDER ME with LEGS and GUILT STRANGLE ME... with TRAGIC HANDS GOD wants a piece of HER ASS GOD WANTS A PIECE OF MY ASS... I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... STAB ME...like a STALKER RAPE ME... like a HERO STAB ME... like a STALKER RAPE ME...and BE MY HERO BLESS ME DARLING and I will FORGIVE YOU ELOQUENT and FULL OF GRACE You SPEAK IN TONGUES behind my back A DRY LUNG VOCAL MARTYR I will SUFFER for my LOVER I will SUFFER for HIS SINS I will SUFFER for my LOVER I AM SUFFERING FOR HIM TORTURE ME with TIMELESSNESS WORSHIP my first with every KISS RESURRECTION of my PAIN Drag me down OUR MEMORY LANE INTRODUCE me to DEVOTION Leave me NUMB with no EMOTION STARS SURROUND YOU when I feel you YOU look better when I cannot see... you HONESTY... looks good to you But LIAR should be your tattoo |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
We're going to a nice place..
Sweet and full of sin I prick myself on your thorns Your mouth blooms like a cut And I bleed within And I watch you die Your leaves fade to brown In my torture garden Under black sunshine He loves me not My beautiful flower He loves me He loves me not He loves me.. Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil Is where the evil grows And the weeds attack Your petals start to fall In my torture garden The blue sky is black My beautiful flower He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me Sweet and full of sin And I bleed within Your mouth blooms like a cut I prick myself on your thorns Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil I am earth.. Is where the evil grows Hear me breathe... You can feel me touch you Coz' it's my air that loves you And I am fire... You will feel me burn you Come inside... And I'll be water with you He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
come to me
as christ redeemed your make up hides your identity but i can see you're still diseased get off your cross get off your knees dare i see the same in me never thought that i could be so you just lick your wounds but it's too late trust will lead you to your own fate masochrist what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep and what you use is what you'll need but i can't stand to watch you bleed for me forgive me father for i'm not clean i'd rather be miss magdalene your vaseline won't heal my demons cause i don't talk to god i'm screaming dare i see the same in me you never thought that i would be so let me bruise my knees rape my faith scar myself with love and with hate masochrist what you sew is what you'll reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep what you use is what you'll need i can't stand to watch you bleed for me for me for me for me for me oh lord hear my prayer you look like you are scared i do what you taught me it's your turn to watch me oh lord hear my prayer pull me by my black hair stab me with your greed it's my turn to bleed what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you'll keep and what i use is what i need can you stand to watch me as i bleed i bleed i bleed i'm bleeding for you |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
One two freddy's commin' for you
Three four better lock your door Five six grab your crucifix... Something WICKED THIS WAY COMES PREMEDITATED EVIL numbs Cartoon KIDS crayola SMILES CHILDREN OF THE KORN FED STYLES But I don't buy your LIES I see through your disguise Don't feel your SCREAMS or CRIES WHY?........... chorus I'm sick of looking so sick I can't I'm SICK of the SYCOPHANT Sick of listening so sick I can't I'm SICK of the SYCOPHANT I see you BREATHLESS and DERANGED A LITTLE GIRL who's acting STRANGE Tryna SCARE us with your SCREAM But it's all ROUTINE And all you do is TAKE STEAL and IMMITAKE YOU and what YOU create YOUR FAKE!..... Repeat chorus I barely recognize... you in your new disguise COSMETIC COVERED EYES Just tell me WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? You put the MAKE UP on, take the MAKE UP off SEARCHING TO BE FOUND But you're so FUCKIN' lost.... Now THE ROAD TO HELL is paved with stones And some of them are FAKES and CLONES COUNTERFEITS which SUCK and BLEED US Wearin' FUCKIN' ADIDAS But something just ain't right, NO SUBSTANCE ONLY HYPE With FAITH you GOT THE LIFE that made you rich And a PUNK ASS BITCH!.... Repeat chorus Sick of you and anyone like you, sometimes I think I've lost my mind... or else this whole world's BLIND! |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
i stick my finger down your throat
explore my thoughts of murder a journey through the human heart dark places filled with terror obsession lets me have my way devotion makes you stay this mercy seat you imitate wont let you get away in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away come kiss away my honesty exploit me with your pain learn to love this monster you created in your name confession lets you face your fear redemption leaves a stain the thought of me makes you so sick theres nothing left to hate in praise of him i pray in praise of him im saved in praise of him i gave myself away again in praise of him i've prayed in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i gave myself away a different sort of suffering i practise what i preach aromatherapeutic death can you smell me speak if violence is religion then everyones a star it doesnt matter what youve done only who you are who you are who you are underneath the hollywood cross underneath this holy wood cross my lover let me tie you down hold your heart my hostage i promise after i am through your skin will still taste salted my mouth is not your enemy my lips are not your friend if we were still together i would torture you again in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away in praise of him ive prayed in praise of him im saved in praise of him i hate myself today you never know what you will find until you look inside i never knew what i would find and then i looked inside let me torture you again torture you m |
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from My Ruin - To Britain With Love & Bruises (2001)
I feel
The skies open wide See your blue eyes When worlds collide Sometimes Your'e by my side I've cried Wished it was me Wished it was me who died I can see you where i stand I can see you in the sunshine I can see you in the bright lights Let your light surround me I feel you hold my hand I loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me Something... so deep inside me Swore that I'd keep it Binds me with you Told me a secret Someday my friend So until then I'll keep our secret safe We'll meet again I can see you in the moonlight I feel you when i sleep I can see you on those dark nights I feel your arms around me Let your light surround me Let your love surround me In loving memory Shine down on me Shine on me We will always be bound Rockstar.. We will always be bound We will always be down We will always be down I feel you when i scream I am just a girl, that hurts Feel me when i scream Your words These words I am just a girl, that hurts I feel you when i scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts... I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl THAT HURTS |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
Last night I had a dream I was drowning again You grabbed my hand and pulled me to safety As I looked into your eyes I saw my saviour The person that I knew had been there all along Just waiting for the chance to kill me We kissed and my mouth started to bleed Then all my teeth fell out... I hate it when that happens |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
IT'S TRUE...I'VE GOT DEMONS INSIDE ME AND SOMETIMES...THEY NEED TO SPEAK MY DARK PLACES...MAKE ME FEEL UGLY MY LIPS ARE GLOSSED BUT MY HEART IS WEAK I'M DISEASED AS SEEN ON TV PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING PRETTY OR SEXY BUT GOD NEVER BLESSED ME HERE'S WHAT YOU'LL FIND NEXT TIME YOU UNDRESS ME... Scars Wounds I'm BRUISED... Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND ONCE AGAIN WITHOUT PERFECT TEETH I BEGIN THE DREAM AS I SLEEP SOON I'VE SINNED MY SKIN IS STILL THICK MY MOUTH AS ALWAYS IS BRUTALLY HONEST AT MY CALMEST I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING HOW IT FEELS TO BE EXPLOITED AND RATED NUMBER ONE, TWO OR SEVENTEEN FUCK WHAT THEY PRINT IN THOSE DAMN MAGAZINES Scars Wounds I'm USED... Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND STUCK INSIDE THIS MASK OF MINE There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't touch me DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME Don't touch me... WHY? Can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, my SHAPE, my ASS, my TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm the beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND Why can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, MY SHAPE, MY ASS, MY TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Stuck inside this |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
It doesn't matter what I SAY Doesn't matter what I DO I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK About you Nowadays it's all FAKE Put some MAKE UP ON YOUR FACE Lookin like a FUCKIN chick In LIPSTICK There is nothing here for me DRESSED UP in your NEW DISEASE HOLLYWOOD is FULL OF SHIT DON'T ASK ME TO SEEL MY SOUL I would rather be myself You...DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to take a picture if you need WHILE I BLEED What makes you think... THAT YOU KNOW ME Dinner and an INTERVIEW But I'm not a fan you At least ... I tell the TRUTH... Damned if I DO, damned if I DON'T Damned if I WILL ..... if I WON'T STAB ME IN THE BACK And buy me one more DRINK SUCK MY TRUST until I'm FUCKED THEN YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKED ME! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to you're so SNEAKY with you're surprises you're so SWEET Underneath disguises I can't wait FOR YOU TO CRITICIZE THIS Don't think I don't KNOW HOW BIG YOUR KNIFE IS Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO... You don't know me like I know myself AND I WILL NEVER TELL you don't know me like I know myself YOU CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
Late night catechism speaks me to sleep A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast I can't remember how I got my last scar... A prayer under pressure The bible tells us jesus... Was a rockstar A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish Early morning exorcisms keep me awake I can't remember why my knees are so sore Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint The bible tells us Mary... Was a whore A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish There once was a girl, and she suffered from sickness A prayer under pressure Her mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses Tried to pretend it was all in her mind God, are you listening? I hear you in my room But I know her voice... When I hear mine As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June Love is not safe in a world filled with hate There's no sleeping for me, I'm losing my faith Heartsick.. I'm sick.. Still sick.. My heart.. IS SICK |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
I feel The skies open wide See your blue eyes When worlds collide Sometimes Your'e by my side I've cried Wished it was me Wished it was me who died I can see you where i stand I can see you in the sunshine I can see you in the bright lights Let your light surround me I feel you hold my hand I loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me Something... so deep inside me Swore that I'd keep it Binds me with you Told me a secret Someday my friend So until then I'll keep our secret safe We'll meet again I can see you in the moonlight I feel you when i sleep I can see you on those dark nights I feel your arms around me Let your light surround me Let your love surround me In loving memory Shine down on me Shine on me We will always be bound Rockstar.. We will always be bound We will always be down We will always be down I feel you when i scream I am just a girl, that hurts Feel me when i scream Your words These words I am just a girl, that hurts I feel you when i scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts... I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl THAT HURTS |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
DIS...HONEST You came with your first kiss Blue eyes sold me your HEAVENLY PRESENCE Something was SUFFOCATING me...couldn't breath Had no idea that you would ever DECEIVE I tried to BELIEVE all the things that you TAUGHT ME CHRIST LIKE IMAGES OF TRUTH...they straight got me Now watch me DROWN IN SADNESS My lungs gasp for air cause I let you STAB THIS... HEART...and rip apart WOUNDS that exist Deeper and darker than any words I could SPIT ALL IS SHIT And it will NEVER be well Because the fires that burn Are my never ending .... HELL IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Your faith is lost IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Get off your cross GET OFF... BRIDGES Connect each other for necessity LIFELINES SCAR MY HANDS like the rest of me Asked me to TRUST you and yes I TRIED to CONSTANT APOLOGIES caused me to LIE too Tried to MEDICATE MY HATE with YOUR MAGIC How could something so SWEET end up so tragic RESSURECT me from this abyss IN DEATH EVERY BODY FUNCTION FAILS TO EXIST False commitments TONGUES twisted with RELIGION A HEART SHAPED ROCK of the same size incision OBSOLETE With no RELIEF or RELEASE Just INSOMNIA filled nights Of never ending...SLEEP IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Your faith is lost IS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Get off your cross Split a piece of wood and I am there Lift a stone and you will find me ARE YOU STILL SCARED? SANCTUARY SANCTUARY SANCTUARY There's no SANCTUARY IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL... GOD Is this Is this Is this WHAT YOU CALL LOVE Get off Get off Watch me Get off Get off Watch me Get off Get off NOW WATCH ME FALL...-acapo |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
you're so pretty when you lie lovesongs always make me cry i dont think you have a choice there no truth left in your voice remember when we used to laugh just try to forget all that wear my heart upon your lips i hope it tastes just lke shit! you're so pretty when you die just call me me, miss ann thrope lovesongs always make me cry i don't think you realise theres no blue left in your eyes remember when we used to sing just try to forget those things fill your hole inside with dirt just call me miss ann thrope i hope that it fucking hurts you have left a trail of deceit assault an flattery blasting through my wounds imprisoned me in god and poetry a ritual to mend my angry heart a bredding ground for your untruth if god created man in hisown image then fuck you ashes to ashes, dust to dust my hate for you defines my lust bridges to bridges your nothing to me welcome world miss ann thrope fuck cunt miss ann thrope miss ann thropefuck cunt |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
i stick my finger down your throat explore my thoughts of murder a journey through the human heart dark places filled with terror obsession lets me have my way devotion makes you stay this mercy seat you imitate wont let you get away in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away come kiss away my honesty exploit me with your pain learn to love this monster you created in your name confession lets you face your fear redemption leaves a stain the thought of me makes you so sick theres nothing left to hate in praise of him i pray in praise of him im saved in praise of him i gave myself away again in praise of him i've prayed in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i gave myself away a different sort of suffering i practise what i preach aromatherapeutic death can you smell me speak if violence is religion then everyones a star it doesnt matter what youve done only who you are who you are who you are underneath the hollywood cross underneath this holy wood cross my lover let me tie you down hold your heart my hostage i promise after i am through your skin will still taste salted my mouth is not your enemy my lips are not your friend if we were still together i would torture you again in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away in praise of him ive prayed in praise of him im saved in praise of him i hate myself today you never know what you will find until you look inside i never knew what i would find and then i looked inside let me torture you again torture you m |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
You believe everything you read You believe everything you read You believe everything you read I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT THE FUCK I READ... SCREAM...things that I believe FRIENDS...became my enemies THINK... before you speak DON'T...think you know me My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk SO KEEP TALKING KEEP TALKING KEEP TALKING... FIGHT...I say what's on my mind LIES...words you hide behind BE...careful what you say STAY ...stay the fuck away My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk KEEP TALKING... [repeat chorus twice] IN A WORLD OF LIES I find myself ADVISED To just PRETEND I'M NICE And NOT to SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND But in A WORLD OF SHIT I THINK YOU'RE JUST A BITCH Who couldn't FUCK or SUCK MY DICK Cause I'M A CHICK Don't even think I GIVE A DAMN I SAY THESE THINGS BECAUSE I CAN... HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE Honesty Honesty Honesty Honesty |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
I like the way you make me feel SYRUPY AND CLEAN You have a STRANGE EFFECT on me LOVING EVERY SCREAM BAPTIZE this thing that burns EVERYTIME YOU BATH ME If I confess too many sins WILL YOU STILL SAVE ME? RAIN RAIN RAIN LET IT RAIN AA BEAUTIFUL AS A SCAR There's NOTHING quite like you I CUT MYSELF on your lips LET YOU LICK MY WOUNDS So SOUTHERN is my SAVIOUR So SICK inside my head But if I let you RESCUE me WILL I BE LEFT FOR DEAD? RAIN RAIN RAIN LET IT RAIN Let it rain DOWN ON ME Let it rain DOWN ON ME Let it rain DOWN ON ME LET RAIN...RAIN!!! The skys illumination comes from the city below And I can taste every inch of your kiss Every inch of your soul from over here Do you feel FAITH or do you feel FEAR? |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
It seems you're always looking for a new RELIGION DROWN YOUSELF IN ABSOLUTION To excuse YOUR SINS NOWADAYS it's easy to be swayed By IMAGES portrayed THERE IS NOTHING YOU WONT DO... To get PAID SO FULL OF SHIT YOU MAKE ME SICK POST NOISE REVELATION Cult of my frustration POST NOISE REVOLUTION Is there no solution? IT SEEMS YOU'RE SUCKED INTO THE SCENE Of what the LASTEST RAGE is FORCE FED MTV The NEW DISEASE that is CONTAGIOUS VIDEOS that cost a MILLION BUCKS With FAKES DEGRADING LADIES Can I be a FAN OF YOU... BABY SO FULL OF SHIT YOU MAKE ME SICK POST NOISE REVELATION Cult of my frustration POST NOISE REVOLUTION Is there no solution? Post noise revelation CULT OF MY FRUSTRATION Post noise revelation IS THERE NO SOLUTION? What seems to be the CANCER? I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER Someone NEEDS to TELL ME WHAT THEFUCK YOU'RE TRYNA SELL ME? [Repeat] Someone needs to tell me NOW! |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
I found him on a night of fire and noise Wild bells rang in a wild sky I knew from that moment on I'll love him till the day that I died And I kissed away a thousand tears My lady of the Various Sorrows Some begged, some borowed, some stolen Some kept safe for tomorrow On and endless night, silver star spangled The bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Like I love you? He was given to me to put things right And I stacked all my accomplishments beside him Still I seemed so obselete and small I found God and all His devils inside him In my bed he cast the blizzard out A mock sun blazed upon his head So completely filled with light he was His shadow fanged and hairy and mad Our love-lines grew hopelessly tangled And the bells from the chapel went jingle-jangle Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Like I love you? He had a heartful of love and devotion He had a mindful of tyranny and terror Well, I try, I do, I really try But I just err, baby, I do, I error So come find me, my darling one I'm down to the grounds, the very dregs Ah, here he comes, blocking the sun Blood running down the inside of his legs The moon in the sky is battered and mangled And the bells from the chapel go jingle-jangle Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me? Like I love you? All things move toward their end I knew before I met him that I would lose him I swear I made every effort to be good to him I made every effo |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
THE WAGES OF SIN HOLD MY HEART HOSTAGE MY MOUTH IS STILL CRUEL MY SKIN IS IN BONDAGE MY BODY IS SCARRED FROM LYRICS I'VE CARVED BRUISES I'VE HEALED LIPS THAT I'VE STARVED WOUNDS I'VE REPLACED WITH LOVE AND WITH HATE THE TRUTH SET ME FREE BUT MY FAITH WAS RAPED I'VE BROKEN MY SILENCE LIED TO MYSELF SPOKEN IN VIOLENCE BEEN SOMEONE ELSE SCREAMED AT MY DEMONS PRAYED TO MY GOD BEGGED FOR FORGIVENESS MY HANDS ARE STILL HOT |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2001)
You're one of them
You say that you're my friend But you're one of them You don't want to see me live You don't want me to give Cos you're one of them My war You're one of them You say that you're my friend But you're one of them I might not know what a friend is All i know is what you're not Cos you're one of them My war You're one of them You say that you're my friend But you're one of them I have a prediction It lives in my brain It's with me every day It drives me insane I feel it in my heart that if i had a gun I feel it in my heart I'd wanna kill someone I feel it in my heart The end will come Come on My war You're one of them You say that you're my friend But you're one of them Tell me that i'm wrong Try to sing me your ego song You're one of them My war You're one of them You say that you're my friend But you're one of them My war This is my war baby Go home. Get the Hell outta here. |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
"the band began to tune up, though it seemed a pointless exercise considering the kind
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
This is what you call me...
I STRIKE TERROR AMONG MEN I can't be bothered with what they think I bare my cross, my soul, MYSELF I FORGIVE... BUT I NEVER FORGET I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form But I can handle myself with the best of you As well as THE WORST And I often have I have the right to remain silent But I choose to SPEAK, SING, SCREAM I am LIPS, HIPS, TITS... I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN STRONG like music TRUE like friendship But without my FRIENDS there would be no music... ONLY SPOKEN WORD FUCKER! I am able to change So I live without REGRET, without REMORSE only a REMIX I am DRUNK, I am SOBER HEAVEN doesn't want me and HELL'S AFRAID I'LL TAKE OVER Don't bother trying to CENSOR me or SHUT ME UP Because IT WON'T WORK I am COLD and DISTANT yet WARM and CLOSE To those who deserve to see that side of me PART OF ME... THE HEART OF ME You find ME so hard to understand in YOUR WORLD The world you perceive to be so NORMAL I AM DEFORMED... SCORNED, REBORN I am ME And I know exactly WHO I AM, WHAT I AM and THE WRATH I BRING The UGLY BEAUTY, the LYING TRUTH, the VIRGIN WHORE... the QUIET STORM A LOVER, a FIGHTER, a SAINT, a SINNER, a SISTER, a DAUGHTER OLD SCHOOL...... a BEGINNER I have decorated myself with LOVE, HATE, TRUTH.... YOU All of you, BOTH OF YOU, none of you... more than one of you With LIPS LIKE SUGAR, EYES LIKE MEAT I've watched MEN come, go and CHEAT I SLEEP to DREAM and DREAM of SLEEP I HAD A DREAM JOE That you were standing in the middle of an open road I HAD A DREAM JOE That your hands were raised up to the sky And your MOUTH WAS COVERED IN FOAM I've been CRUCI |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
It was a long time ago
Longer now than it seems A place that perhaps you have seen in your dreams... Welcome to my world Is it what you thought it would be? I'm trapped inside this HELL Between BLOOD QUEEN and PURGATORY A COOP filled covered hall A tattooed BABYDOLL I've got the DEVIL in my corner And JESUS on my wall chorus Today is an OATMEAL day I feel like a MONSTER BABE PREACHER save me with your call And I will be your LITTLE MISS SCAREALL One eye's GREEN and one eye's BLUE DEMONS, ANGELS a LOVE that's TRUE Catch me as I start to fall Let me be your LITTLE MISS SCAREALL HALLOWEEN is over But I will keep you SCARED Take you to the FRIGHT SIDE I know you'll come prepared By your DEADLY NIGHTSHADE Turn your CHRISTMAS black And you can be my JOHNNY HOMICIDAL MANIAC Repeat chorus FORGIVE me PREACHER For I have SINNED It's been 3 weeks since my FIRST CONFESSION I AM THE ONE... hiding under your BED My TEETH are SHARP, my LIPS are RED I AM THE ONE.... Hiding under your STAIRS With SNAKES and SPIDERS in her hair I feel like a MONSTER BABE LITTLE MISS SCAREALL I feel like a MONSTER BABE |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
Sometimes I feel I've got to run away
I've got to get away From the pain you drive into the heart of me The love we share seem's to go nowhere And I've lost my light For I toss and turn I can't sleep at night Once I ran to you Now I run from you This tainted love you give it I gave you all a girl could give you Take my tears and that's not really Oh, tainted love Tainted love Now I know I've got to run away I've got to get away You don't really want anymore from me To make things right You need someone to hold you tight And you think love is to pray But I'm sorry I don't pray that way Once I ran to you Now I run from you This tainted love you give it I gave you all a girl could give you Take my tears and that not really Oh, tainted love Tainted love Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease I love you baby you maybe so Now its time you packed your things and go Tainted love Tainted love Touch me baby, tainted love Don't touch me with your tainted love Touch me baby, tainted love Don't touch me with your tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love Tainted love |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
BLASPHEMOUS GIRL
DRUNK with SIN SHE sits in her SKIN Filled with ANGER FUELLED by LIQUER DROWNS in DREAMS With no SAVIOR From the TRUTH NONE can SAVE HER HE is HER own PERSONAL JESUS And HE will not be HER last GOD wants a piece of HER ASS GOD WANTS A PIECE OF MY ASS... I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS Girl MAGNUM MOUTHED I shoot to KILL You MURDER ME with LEGS and GUILT STRANGLE ME... with TRAGIC HANDS GOD wants a piece of HER ASS GOD WANTS A PIECE OF MY ASS... I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... A BLASPHEMOUS GIRL I AM... STAB ME...like a STALKER RAPE ME... like a HERO STAB ME... like a STALKER RAPE ME...and BE MY HERO BLESS ME DARLING and I will FORGIVE YOU ELOQUENT and FULL OF GRACE You SPEAK IN TONGUES behind my back A DRY LUNG VOCAL MARTYR I will SUFFER for my LOVER I will SUFFER for HIS SINS I will SUFFER for my LOVER I AM SUFFERING FOR HIM TORTURE ME with TIMELESSNESS WORSHIP my first with every KISS RESURRECTION of my PAIN Drag me down OUR MEMORY LANE INTRODUCE me to DEVOTION Leave me NUMB with no EMOTION STARS SURROUND YOU when I feel you YOU look better when I cannot see... you HONESTY... looks good to you But LIAR should be your tattoo |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
This place is HELL to me and I can NEVER get no SLEEP
There's a DEVIL in my BED with me who's TALK is CHEAP You feel like HEAVEN to me all I want to do is SLEEP You're like an ANGEL lyin' next to me you look so SWEET CLOSE YOUR EYES And lets pretend REMEMBER WHY We're just friends My TANGLED HAIR will weave a WEB OF LIES within my SHEETS And in the MORNING I'll be NAILED where he CRUCIFIED ME Your BLACKENED HAIR will leave a STAIN inside my MIND SO DEEP And when TOMORROW comes I'll WISH that you would WORSHIP ME CLOSE YOUR EYES And let's pretend REMEMBER WHY We're just friends There must be a STORM IN LONDON tonight Because it's COLD and RAINING hard My BODY ACHES, my LOVER WAITS, I PICK THE SCABS FROM MY ARMS There must be a STORM IN LA tonight Because it's COLD and RAINING hard I miss YOUR KISS. I miss YOUR FACE, I MISS THE STARS OF YOUR ARMS The man that I LUST In HE do I TRUST For HE IS MY GOD MY ANTI JESUS HE IS MY SAVIOR MY SALVATION HE leads ME into TEMPTATION In my HIGHEST HOUR My LOWEST MOMENT HE IS MY TORTURE HE IS MY TORMENT And I will PRAY FOR HIM TO REMAIN MY FRIEND And SAVE ME FROM MY ENEMIES... FOREVER AMEN This place is HELL to me and I can NEVER get no SLEEP There's a DEVIL in my BED with me who's TALK IS...CHEAP |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
I wanna live in THE PRETTY SUN But DAYLIGHT just makes me NUMB So I COVER UP my SCARS Change my mood With VELVET DRAPES that KILL ROCK STARS TRUST will lead us to the TRUTH SLEEP WITH MY ENEMY LICK MY WOUNDS DROWN myself in MISERY DESTROY my DESTINY Erase the MEMORY... of you OPEN MYSELF TO REVEAL MY WOUNDS AND I FIND THE MEMORY OF YOU I wanna DIE on the DARKEST NIGHT When there's no one left to FIGHT SUFFER for my latest SIN fill my bed with LEOPARD FUR THINK OF YOU INSIDE of HER OPEN MYSELF TO REVEAL MY WOUNDS Until I'm HAPPY in my SKIN AND I FIND THE MEMORY OF YOU I ache for you... I ACHE FOR US I wait for you... I WAIT I pray for you... I PRAY FOR US DENY thy LOVER and REFUSE thy NAME FIRST, LAST and ALWAYS FIRST LAST and ALWAYS DENY thy LOVER and REFUSE thy NAME When will YOU tell YOU the TRUTH? When will YOU tell ME the TRUTH? When will YOU tell YOU... When will YOU tell ME the TRUTH? It will make you want to KILL YOURSELF My revenge on you will not kill you
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
I INVOKE HIM... and he comes to me IN MY DREAMS
DRESSED IN BLACK, HE speaks in a LANGUAGE only I can understand His HANDS are WARM, his BREATH is HOT He is THE HORRIBLE PAIN WITHIN MY HEART My RELIGION, my SANCTUARY, my CHURCH, my SACRIFICE, my CONFESSION My EXORCISM... MY WORSHIP IN PROGRESS I have NO OTHER LOVER... NOW until FOREVER HE IS MAGIC and when HE KISSES ME I can TASTE HIM ON MY LIPS Like an ELIXIR Far from INNOCENT HE IS PURE EVIL A SINNERS PRAYER... a SAINTS DESIRE For him I would walk through fire For him... I HAVE WALKED THROUGH FIRE To draw him I WANT SO BAD... one gift I'll NEVER HAVE He drives a STAKE INTO MY SOUL MAKES ME BLEED, MAKES ME WHOLE DRINKS me, DEVOURS me, INTOXICATES me... With his LOVE, HATE, DEVOTION FAITH As beautiful as JESUS CHRIST He is as BRUTAL as THE DEPTHS OF HELL In my dreams I press my mouth against his And I feel HEAVEN... HORROR... TERROR He look at me with that look I call it his SERIAL KILLER LOOK Like he wants to FUCK ME and KILL ME all at the same time It SCARES ME.. it TURNS ME ON HIS EYES are BROWN HIS STARE is INTENSE... MEANINGFUL, POWERFUL maybe that's why HE's so FUCKIN' SCARY... because HE MEANS IT Sometimes HE TELLS ME HE LOVES ME as he looks at me with that LOOK Sometimes HE DOESN'T HAVE TO I've NEVER felt a MAN look at ME with THAT LOOK It's almost CREEPY.... UNCOMFORTABLE.... SEXY I guess I know he could never really CHOP OFF MY HANDS Or could he? |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
I
I think I'll cut myself Cut myself free Now I'm somewhere else I need to be Wasted with no sleep Forgot to pray Jesus can you hear me? Nails keep pounding You push your fingers into holes Of what my questions left And as I drown your mouth in red You fear what I will ask next I violate your faith And wonder what you really taste like Feel the sensation of depth I lied... CAN'T HELP ME NOW IT'S UNDER MY SKIN NOWHERE TO GO BUT I WON'T GIVE IN CAN'T HELP ME NOW I'M BLEEDING WITHIN NOWHERE TO GO I'LL NEVER LET YOU IN (I have a fear of dying) I could I could worship you Make you behave I'd tell Tell you anything Just to be saved Baby... how's your faith theses days Do you feel safe? Kiss me Sunlight makes us sick As nails keep pounding You wrap your legs around my mind Ten times and hide in me The darker that it gets outside Your heats a 1000 degrees I'll make you swallow spit You're sick with it You're sick from me Don't say I didn't warn you I tried... CAN'T HELP ME NOW IT'S UNDER MY SKIN NOWHERE TO GO BUT I WON'T GIVE IN CAN'T HELP ME NOW I'M BLEEDING WITHIN NOWHERE TO GO I'LL NEVER GIVE IN What god created me? (your god) What god created us? (your god) What god created this... thing called lust? Your god created me? (what god?) Your god created us? (what god?) Your god created... FUCK YOUR GOD CAN'T HELP ME NOW IT'S UNDER MY SKIN NOWHERE TO GO BUT I WON'T GIVE IN CAN'T HELP ME NOW I'M BLEEDING WITHIN NOWHERE TO GO I'LL NEVER GIVE IN I won't let you in Won't let you in (let me in) Won't let you in (let me in) God won't let you... |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
Sick with it
Sick with disease Deny addiction DOWN ON MY KNEES Feed my affliction SCARED TO BELIEVE My own decisions EAGER TO PLEASE Destroyed visions BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE LIE AND DECIEVE With no emotion FALSE PROMISES Loss of devotion SCARRED BY DECEIT My self destruction LOVE OBSOLETE Live in dysfunction BREED LIFE NEED LIFE BREATH LIFE KEEP LIFE BLEED LIFE HEAL LIFE FEEL LIFE THE SWEET LIFE Is all I want... CAN I BLEED FOR THE RITUAL? Bleed for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL.... CAN I BREATH FOR THE RITUAL? Breath for it GOT A NEED FOR THE RITUAL? SICK WITH IT. Sick with it. SICK WITH IT, sick with it... (repeat) IT'S INSIDE ME I feel it growing NOWHERE TO HIDE My anger's showing Repeat chorus And on this DARK NIGHT OF MY SOUL I will continue to PRAY FOR US And try to remember only the good things... THE SWEET LIFE |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
We're going to a nice place..
Sweet and full of sin I prick myself on your thorns Your mouth blooms like a cut And I bleed within And I watch you die Your leaves fade to brown In my torture garden Under black sunshine He loves me not My beautiful flower He loves me He loves me not He loves me.. Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil Is where the evil grows And the weeds attack Your petals start to fall In my torture garden The blue sky is black My beautiful flower He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me Sweet and full of sin And I bleed within Your mouth blooms like a cut I prick myself on your thorns Our love starts to spoil Your lips bleed like a rose Underneath the soil I am earth.. Is where the evil grows Hear me breathe... You can feel me touch you Coz' it's my air that loves you And I am fire... You will feel me burn you Come inside... And I'll be water with you He loves me not He loves me not He loves me He loves me |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
chorus
This is a MANTRA For MYSELF This is a MANTRA For SOMEONE ELSE This is a MANTRA So be WARNED... HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED SWEETLY He smiles at me so bright it BURNS me TONGUE TWISTED SICK WITH WORDS She'll get what she deserves SHE GOT WHAT SHE DESERVED! See me I LOOK AT YOU SO DEEP THAT SHE FEELS ME Girl tricks make you believe BUT SHE STEALS ME I will be HER disease DIAVOLINA SCREAMS... Repeat chorus KEEP ME So safe inside your SINS are SECRET I watch you live your life in REGRET YOU'LL GET WHAT YOU DESERVE! Sleepy You CLOSEYOUR EYES but you can't DREAM ME DIRTY girl so MEAN can't CLEAN me I will be YOUR disease DIAVOLINA SCREAMS... Repeat chorus And I SWEAR SACRED as this HEART of MINE STRONG as the TIES which BIND US HEAVY as this CROSS Which I FOREVER BARE ETERNITY will be the HELL we SHARE And what you want I DON'T CARE cos it doesn't concern me THIS IS ABOUT WHAT I NEED So BLEED as the needle goes in, I'm CREEPING under your SKIN SOAK you in SICKNESS and SCENT you in SIN So say YOU LOVE HER and I'LL BELIEVE YOU But if you CAN'T then you only DECEIVE YOU I said I LOVE YOU and I DON'T LIE... REMEMBER THAT Next time YOU KISS ME goodbye |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
Do you remember those words you whispered to me
On that fateful day in Italy Mr. B? I can hear you singing FACE ON FIRE Blue skies, your eyes MY BEAUTIFUL LIAR I'm still breathing YOU CAN'T KISS ME Kill me darling I KNOW YOU MISS ME Can't resist me CALL ME MISS B.... I LOVE IT WHEN YOU CALL ME MISS B Can you hear me talking? CAN YOU SEE ME Red lights my lips SHE CAN NEVER BE ME... SHE CAN NEVER BE ME Now I'm screaming WHAT CAN I BREAK? My hearts broken... SILVERLAKE SAN FRANCISCO, SWITZERLAND, LACUNZA ENGLAND, BUDAPEST, MULHOUSE, JUNE 10TH JUNE 10TH Do you remember JUNE 10th? I CAN'T FORGET JUNE 10th.... I remember when we first met Do you remember or do you forget? You were so perfect, so pure Like an angel You were like an ANGEL... AMEN And I remember thinking... my god MY GOD HE IS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL So fuckin' amazing And every night I would watch you, I WOULD WATCH YOU WATCHING ME And we swore that nothing would come between us THAT NO ONE WOULD COME BETWEEN US Do you remember? ECSTASY in PARIS... laying down in the middle of the street In the middle of the night IN THE CENTER OF YOU I was humbled by your power, on the 9th plane... 666 ACACIA AVENUE, somewhere in HELL Diggin' the HELL OUT OF YOU, diggin' the HELL IN YOU... my CO CONSPIRATOR My EXECUTIONER, my SACRIFICIAL LAMB, my FRIEND, my LOVER, my MARTYR Are you my ENEMY now? You once asked me" IS EXISTANCE ALL WE SHARE?"... you tell me When you remember JUNE 10th, DO YOU REMEMBER JUNE 10th |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
come to me
as christ redeemed your make up hides your identity but i can see you're still diseased get off your cross get off your knees dare i see the same in me never thought that i could be so you just lick your wounds but it's too late trust will lead you to your own fate masochrist what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep and what you use is what you'll need but i can't stand to watch you bleed for me forgive me father for i'm not clean i'd rather be miss magdalene your vaseline won't heal my demons cause i don't talk to god i'm screaming dare i see the same in me you never thought that i would be so let me bruise my knees rape my faith scar myself with love and with hate masochrist what you sew is what you'll reap you're only sick as secrets that you keep what you use is what you'll need i can't stand to watch you bleed for me for me for me for me for me oh lord hear my prayer you look like you are scared i do what you taught me it's your turn to watch me oh lord hear my prayer pull me by my black hair stab me with your greed it's my turn to bleed what you sew is what you reap you're only sick as secrets that you'll keep and what i use is what i need can you stand to watch me as i bleed i bleed i bleed i'm bleeding for you |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
ELEGANTLY WASTED and I can taste it
Here I sit, trying not to fake this gift Of the BEAUTY MYTH I can't help but feel like this Bored... of the BEAUTY WHORE Cos my body just wants more SCARS... and I can feel them WOUNDS... I can't heal them RED BRING MY MOUTH TO LIFE BLACK REVIVE MY HAIR THAT'S DYED MAKE UP always helps me hide What I don't like on the outside chorus STARLIGHT, STARBRIGHT First star I see tonight I wish I may, I wish I might Have the wish I wish tonight A BIRTHDAY GIRL A BROKEN HEART You name the DRAMA she played the part Long lost DEMONS leave her GODLESS Like her powder Leaves her FLAWLESS Sugar coated HEART SHAPED POUT LIPSTICK just DESTORTS her MOUTH MASCARA puts her eyes to sleep Cos BEAUTY'S ONLY SKIN DEEP Repeat chorus BITCH du jour Served on a platter She's so PRETTY But does it matter MIRROR MIRROR on the wall Watch her BREAK and WATCH her fall STITCH HER SMILE BRUISE HER KNEES Walk among her enemies BLESSED AM I AMONG WOMEN TO LIVE AND LOVE IN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL TEMPLE BLESSED AM I AMONG WOMEN |
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from My Ruin - Speak & Destroy (0000)
God wants to heal cancer...
Christians are commanded alcohol.. is good!... evasion of crutches you partake of the dust of the ground... I know some of you are frightened about it... we can go to church and you are naked... and over the foul of the air and fire of course people said they're drunk and this my friend is my prayer for... |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
Last night I had a dream
I was drowning again You grabbed my hand and pulled me to safety As I looked into your eyes I saw my saviour The person that I knew had been there all along Just waiting for the chance to kill me We kissed and my mouth started to bleed Then all my teeth fell out... I hate it when that happens |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
IT'S TRUE...I'VE GOT DEMONS INSIDE ME
AND SOMETIMES...THEY NEED TO SPEAK MY DARK PLACES...MAKE ME FEEL UGLY MY LIPS ARE GLOSSED BUT MY HEART IS WEAK I'M DISEASED AS SEEN ON TV PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING PRETTY OR SEXY BUT GOD NEVER BLESSED ME HERE'S WHAT YOU'LL FIND NEXT TIME YOU UNDRESS ME... Scars Wounds I'm BRUISED... Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND ONCE AGAIN WITHOUT PERFECT TEETH I BEGIN THE DREAM AS I SLEEP SOON I'VE SINNED MY SKIN IS STILL THICK MY MOUTH AS ALWAYS IS BRUTALLY HONEST AT MY CALMEST I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING HOW IT FEELS TO BE EXPLOITED AND RATED NUMBER ONE, TWO OR SEVENTEEN FUCK WHAT THEY PRINT IN THOSE DAMN MAGAZINES Scars Wounds I'm USED... Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm your beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND STUCK INSIDE THIS MASK OF MINE There's no place for me to hide Won't you please come suck me dry Don't touch me DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME Don't touch me... WHY? Can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, my SHAPE, my ASS, my TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Watch me bleed I'm no beauty Watch me bleed Beauty queen Watch me bleed I'm the beauty Watch me bleed BEAUTY FIEND Why can't you see beyond my skin SIZE, MY SHAPE, MY ASS, MY TITS I am not your PRETTY FACE I'm just a girl THE GIRL YOU LOVE TO HATE!!! Stuck inside this |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
It doesn't matter what I SAY
Doesn't matter what I DO I DON'T REALLY GIVE A FUCK About you Nowadays it's all FAKE Put some MAKE UP ON YOUR FACE Lookin like a FUCKIN chick In LIPSTICK There is nothing here for me DRESSED UP in your NEW DISEASE HOLLYWOOD is FULL OF SHIT DON'T ASK ME TO SEEL MY SOUL I would rather be myself You...DO WHAT YOU'RE TOLD! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to take a picture if you need WHILE I BLEED What makes you think... THAT YOU KNOW ME Dinner and an INTERVIEW But I'm not a fan you At least ... I tell the TRUTH... Damned if I DO, damned if I DON'T Damned if I WILL ..... if I WON'T STAB ME IN THE BACK And buy me one more DRINK SUCK MY TRUST until I'm FUCKED THEN YOU CAN SAY YOU FUCKED ME! STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to STICK IT TO ME I know you want to STICK IT IN ME You know you're going to you're so SNEAKY with you're surprises you're so SWEET Underneath disguises I can't wait FOR YOU TO CRITICIZE THIS Don't think I don't KNOW HOW BIG YOUR KNIFE IS Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO Stick it in me I KNOW YOU WANT TO Stick it to me YOU KNOW YOUR GOING TO... You don't know me like I know myself AND I WILL NEVER TELL you don't know me like I know myself YOU CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL! |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
Late night catechism speaks me to sleep
A lethal dose of narcissism conquers the beast I can't remember how I got my last scar... A prayer under pressure The bible tells us jesus... Was a rockstar A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish Early morning exorcisms keep me awake I can't remember why my knees are so sore Seven stars surround me as I burn like a saint The bible tells us Mary... Was a whore A prayer under pressure Of violent anguish Of violent anguish There once was a girl, and she suffered from sickness A prayer under pressure Her mouth was distorted from razor sharp kisses Tried to pretend it was all in her mind God, are you listening? I hear you in my room But I know her voice... When I hear mine As hot as the moon on the tenth day of June Love is not safe in a world filled with hate There's no sleeping for me, I'm losing my faith Heartsick.. I'm sick.. Still sick.. My heart.. IS SICK |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
I feel
The skies open wide See your blue eyes When worlds collide Sometimes Your'e by my side I've cried Wished it was me Wished it was me who died I can see you where i stand I can see you in the sunshine I can see you in the bright lights Let your light surround me I feel you hold my hand I loving memory Let your love surround me Shine down on me Shine on me Something... so deep inside me Swore that I'd keep it Binds me with you Told me a secret Someday my friend So until then I'll keep our secret safe We'll meet again I can see you in the moonlight I feel you when i sleep I can see you on those dark nights I feel your arms around me Let your light surround me Let your love surround me In loving memory Shine down on me Shine on me We will always be bound Rockstar.. We will always be bound We will always be down We will always be down I feel you when i scream I am just a girl, that hurts Feel me when i scream Your words These words I am just a girl, that hurts I feel you when i scream your words I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts... I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl that hurts I am just a girl THAT HURTS |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
DIS...HONEST
You came with your first kiss Blue eyes sold me your HEAVENLY PRESENCE Something was SUFFOCATING me...couldn't breath Had no idea that you would ever DECEIVE I tried to BELIEVE all the things that you TAUGHT ME CHRIST LIKE IMAGES OF TRUTH...they straight got me Now watch me DROWN IN SADNESS My lungs gasp for air cause I let you STAB THIS... HEART...and rip apart WOUNDS that exist Deeper and darker than any words I could SPIT ALL IS SHIT And it will NEVER be well Because the fires that burn Are my never ending .... HELL IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Your faith is lost IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Get off your cross GET OFF... BRIDGES Connect each other for necessity LIFELINES SCAR MY HANDS like the rest of me Asked me to TRUST you and yes I TRIED to CONSTANT APOLOGIES caused me to LIE too Tried to MEDICATE MY HATE with YOUR MAGIC How could something so SWEET end up so tragic RESSURECT me from this abyss IN DEATH EVERY BODY FUNCTION FAILS TO EXIST False commitments TONGUES twisted with RELIGION A HEART SHAPED ROCK of the same size incision OBSOLETE With no RELIEF or RELEASE Just INSOMNIA filled nights Of never ending...SLEEP IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Your faith is lost IS WHAT YOU CALL GOD? Get off your cross Split a piece of wood and I am there Lift a stone and you will find me ARE YOU STILL SCARED? SANCTUARY SANCTUARY SANCTUARY There's no SANCTUARY IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL GOD IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL... GOD Is this Is this Is this WHAT YOU CALL LOVE Get off Get off Watch me Get off Get off Watch me Get off Get off NOW WATCH ME FALL...-acapo |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
you're so pretty when you lie
lovesongs always make me cry i dont think you have a choice there no truth left in your voice remember when we used to laugh just try to forget all that wear my heart upon your lips i hope it tastes just lke shit! you're so pretty when you die just call me me, miss ann thrope lovesongs always make me cry i don't think you realise theres no blue left in your eyes remember when we used to sing just try to forget those things fill your hole inside with dirt just call me miss ann thrope i hope that it fucking hurts you have left a trail of deceit assault an flattery blasting through my wounds imprisoned me in god and poetry a ritual to mend my angry heart a bredding ground for your untruth if god created man in hisown image then fuck you ashes to ashes, dust to dust my hate for you defines my lust bridges to bridges your nothing to me welcome world miss ann thrope fuck cunt miss ann thrope miss ann thropefuck cunt |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
i stick my finger down your throat
explore my thoughts of murder a journey through the human heart dark places filled with terror obsession lets me have my way devotion makes you stay this mercy seat you imitate wont let you get away in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away come kiss away my honesty exploit me with your pain learn to love this monster you created in your name confession lets you face your fear redemption leaves a stain the thought of me makes you so sick theres nothing left to hate in praise of him i pray in praise of him im saved in praise of him i gave myself away again in praise of him i've prayed in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i gave myself away a different sort of suffering i practise what i preach aromatherapeutic death can you smell me speak if violence is religion then everyones a star it doesnt matter what youve done only who you are who you are who you are underneath the hollywood cross underneath this holy wood cross my lover let me tie you down hold your heart my hostage i promise after i am through your skin will still taste salted my mouth is not your enemy my lips are not your friend if we were still together i would torture you again in praise of him i pray in praise of him i'm saved in praise of him i give myself away in praise of him ive prayed in praise of him im saved in praise of him i hate myself today you never know what you will find until you look inside i never knew what i would find and then i looked inside let me torture you again torture you m |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
You believe everything you read
You believe everything you read You believe everything you read I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT THE FUCK I READ... SCREAM...things that I believe FRIENDS...became my enemies THINK... before you speak DON'T...think you know me My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk SO KEEP TALKING KEEP TALKING KEEP TALKING... FIGHT...I say what's on my mind LIES...words you hide behind BE...careful what you say STAY ...stay the fuck away My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk My heart is an EMPTY hole HANDS WANNA WRAP AROUND YOUR THROAT Legs BRUISE everywhere you walk Mouth SPITS all the SHIT you talk KEEP TALKING... [repeat chorus twice] IN A WORLD OF LIES I find myself ADVISED To just PRETEND I'M NICE And NOT to SAY WHAT'S ON MY MIND But in A WORLD OF SHIT I THINK YOU'RE JUST A BITCH Who couldn't FUCK or SUCK MY DICK Cause I'M A CHICK Don't even think I GIVE A DAMN I SAY THESE THINGS BECAUSE I CAN... HONESTY IS THE HOLIEST DISEASE Honesty Honesty Honesty Honesty |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
I like the way you make me feel
SYRUPY AND CLEAN You have a STRANGE EFFECT on me LOVING EVERY SCREAM BAPTIZE this thing that burns EVERYTIME YOU BATH ME If I confess too many sins WILL YOU STILL SAVE ME? RAIN RAIN RAIN LET IT RAIN AA BEAUTIFUL AS A SCAR There's NOTHING quite like you I CUT MYSELF on your lips LET YOU LICK MY WOUNDS So SOUTHERN is my SAVIOUR So SICK inside my head But if I let you RESCUE me WILL I BE LEFT FOR DEAD? RAIN RAIN RAIN LET IT RAIN Let it rain DOWN ON ME Let it rain DOWN ON ME Let it rain DOWN ON ME LET RAIN...RAIN!!! The skys illumination comes from the city below And I can taste every inch of your kiss Every inch of your soul from over here Do you feel FAITH or do you feel FEAR? |
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from My Ruin - A Prayer Under Pressure of Violent Anguish (0000)
It seems you're always looking for a new RELIGION
DROWN YOUSELF IN ABSOLUTION To excuse YOUR SINS NOWADAYS it's easy to be swayed By IMAGES portrayed THERE IS NOTHING YOU WONT DO... To get PAID SO FULL OF SHIT YOU MAKE ME SICK POST NOISE REVELATION Cult of my frustration POST NOISE REVOLUTION Is there no solution? IT SEEMS YOU'RE SUCKED INTO THE SCENE Of what the LASTEST RAGE is FORCE FED MTV The NEW DISEASE that is CONTAGIOUS VIDEOS that cost a MILLION BUCKS With FAKES DEGRADING LADIES Can I be a FAN OF YOU... BABY SO FULL OF SHIT YOU MAKE ME SICK POST NOISE REVELATION Cult of my frustration POST NOISE REVOLUTION Is there no solution? Post noise revelation CULT OF MY FRUSTRATION Post noise revelation IS THERE NO SOLUTION? What seems to be the CANCER? I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER Someone NEEDS to TELL ME WHAT THEFUCK YOU'RE TRYNA SELL ME? [Repeat] Someone needs to tell me NOW! |
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