Mudvayne

These symptoms suggested that our evolution, I suppose, from the
animal kingdom
into the human kingdom itself was catalyzed, or triggered by our
encounter with
these hallucenogenics, and

Yes, we are an ape with a symbiotic relationship to a mushroom, and
that has
given us self reflection, language, religion and all the spectrum of
effects
that flow from these things.

And one can only wonder how these hallucinogens might effect our
future
evolution as well...

They have brought us to this point, and as we make our relationship
to them
concious, we may be able to take control of our furute evolutionary
path.

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing

I would love to beat the face
Of any mother fucker that's thinking
they can change me
White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold
If you want a piece of me
I broke the mother fuckin' mold
I'm drowningin your wake
Shit rubbedin my face
Teethingon concrete
Gums bleeding

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing

I struggle in violated space,
Sell out motherfuckers in the biz that try to fuck me
Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight
I ain't selling my soul when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid in my space
Pissing in my face
Fuck you while you try
To fuck me

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was you ain't fucking changing me

Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock up to your head
Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank fuck

Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I am rearranging
Dig bury me underneath
Everything that I was slowly changing
Wish you were committing
Suicide suckin on a mother fuckin tailpipe
Dead man dangling from a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of a channelbob away

Cop provisions feed my addictions mistakes I made then
I opened up the holes and they crawled in,
Now when it's time for the feed they won't let me forget,
They ride upon my back and they'll fuck me with their need,
My invisible enemies all my monkeys

Their coming they're coming their coming they're coming to take me
away.

Disgusted with my position so submissive I am the only way we get
away is give in sharpen up the razors stab the needles into pipes to
kill cravings so sick of this in me can't stand the want to need
can't get free always got a grip on me

There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation
obedience subservience leads to substance

Do you want more give it to me

Leave my motivation to chemical dependency no room for patience
Don't want it need it come on right now

(chorus voice 2)
Everything I've become now is everything I didn't want to be

Every time I try to run away I fall on my face they drag me back
Every time I try to run away I fall on my face

Help! They won't leave me alone

If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back
If I would have known back then what I know now I 'd take it back,
I'd take it back I'd take it all fuckin' back

Stay away stay away
Hold me I'm shaking violently
Pull me out of my covering
Mold me into a new man
Lull me into a deep sleep

There's no use to fight this wrenching tourniquet of deprivation
obedience subservience leads to substance

Even if you want you can't stop

Internal primates forever

Losses, losers and more, gain of life's pleasures cohorts listen
behind the doors to a life meaningless less than 0 in me all my walls
falling down pains aloft misery
I'm sure that the lessons were learned I'm sure that the punishments
went well deserved by the pawn in the plan taste of shit bitterness
walk from me everything systematically

Come on youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live

Patience, pleasures and rewards, come in due time stare at the sun
I'm bored in a life meaningless soaking up all of me like the cross
you worship life is loss look at me I'm sure that some day we'll wake
up I'm sure that some day we'll wake from the dream
Of success and focus...tunneling to the light glowing deep inside of
me your taunting I wake up

Come on youweretheone youweretheone,
To dredge up shit inside of me in my pointless life of nothing
Tell me what I'm supposed to be
Tell me who I'm supposed to be
Tell me what it takes to ascend
Tell me what it takes to live
Tell me nOW!
Tell me nOW!

Pain misery distress dismal know where depressed idiot failure
In me......calling......loser......man I'm the
Loser......loser.....loser......in me......who I am....in me....

Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside
of me,
Don't need your sympathy or empathy, don't need your sympathy inside
of me,
Don't feel sorry don't feel sorry for me

Come on
I know youweretheone youweretheone
Numb to feelings inside of me why I've seized my vision
Don't need you to tell me who to be
Don't need you to tell me what to be
Don't need you to tell me how to ascend
Don't need you to tell me how to live

Cold seems crippling lame meander through corridors aroma's thick
with age mark off the day reflections of my life are fading

Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me

Past has found its place salvation is no more will god accept my
peace bleached will pardon me reflections of my life are fading
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing don't want it cast into,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me

I just want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery

I'm sick and tired of embracing reflections of past time receive me
or cast me away
...god please take me away
resistance futile suicidal ideas I will crucify my own being satisfy
selfish needs fuck the deities justify my own right to what's waiting
for me

On the other side the time has come lock and load I'm coming I'm
coming I'm coming I'm coming home

Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble frail and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me

I just want to run fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
The darkness overcomes soul soars to the other plain
Existence past the door I sail through purgatory's bay

I asked a god for poison cradle me sown to my dreams souls searching
death blossoms where clouds lie over me held in god's hands death
blooming

Dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and
fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid
petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a
tear
...death blooms.

Ooms... (dings of bells and dna) and the beginng of cradle

Breathe...
Push...
...I lost you, you were my god thought what do I do now
you were never there for me never there to carry me,
26 years looking back that time is gone it was you I believed in look
what you've done to me realize what you've done to

Me

I can't see going on in this darkness I'm blind beneath my cradle the
bough has broke, I exorcise my loss your lie the punishment

It takes time to try to mend the wounds of all the suffering,
What do I do now all I'm asking from you please send me a sign to
guide me through the times that lie in front of me I'll get by myself

Look at me now, a piece of shit like you.
Look at me now, you left me so fuck you.

Everybody leaves me, everybody's gone.
Watch my father leave me, there's nobody left.
Feels like I've never been loved.
Everybody leaves me, never gave a shit about me.
Everybody's gone, I'll rot in my head alone.
I don't give a fuck about you, go the fuck away .

Fake being, inside of my heart you are the liar.
Innocence displaced.
Been left.

Here I stand now and I'm alone,
With no one to comfort me.
One set of footprints in the sand.
No one to take my hand, I'll .
I'll walk through as long as I need.
I'll drift through my life though I'm alone.
Outgrown the cradle that once housed me
And I've found that all I need is
Me.

Found I've never needed you to push through
All the shit that stacks up inside of my life.
Endless plight that circulates through my body.
I'll keep stumbling, beating, pummeling
Teething on the rind and renounce my being.

I can't see going on.

I can't see
I'm so tired, of trying to mend the wounds of all my suffering.
What do I do now?
All I'm asking from you please,
Send me a sign
To guide me through the times that lie in front of me.
I'll get by myself

I can't see going on fuck it.

Soiled, soiled, soiled
Soiled, soiled, soiled
Soiled, soiled

Of ordinary, chemistry
There is a suggestion there, that uh, manipulation of no
Humal, compounds, brain-neuro transmitters
And that sort of thing
May in fact, open the door, to uh, untapped areas of
Human contortion
Lead us to our team

We swallow the spit,
Steal acceptance lend denial,
Telling me that my life is free and boundless,
Then I'm forced to stay between the lines,
They construct death to demolish life,
Plant the seeds to harvest loss,
Found empty truth is full of lies,

We're hoping for despair,
Starvation's gluttony,
Subtle chaotic peace,
War divided unity,
Pro life, pro choice,
Blinded insight,
Left wing, right wing,
Black, white,
Leaders following,

I am everything I am nothing,

Stop fuckin' with me, I'm the accused I'm not the enemy
You're so confused no way you could enlighten me,
No freedom trapped in slavery, deceitful honesty mother fuckin' human
not a machine

Lay your hands upon me,
In search for answers inviting,
Constant struggle inside me,
Guide me through this nothing that's everything

I am everything I am nothing

And we hide behind,
Lies, anger, Hate they shoo love away,
Build shells of ourselves outside,
It shelters body from cold reigns of reality,

Come on, Step out, of your rind, assemble strength, focus,

Release and run to me you can never look back to the visions from the
past they fade and wilt in time,
You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through,
Then I turn and walk away,

Eclipse you,
And bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur,
Eclipse you,
I spit up on my plate and I push everything away,
I need,
And we sever all ties,
It creates disruption midst circle of friends,
I become the sacrifice,
Spare your life and leave me to my misery,

Get off the cross, and save yourself, run away

Run now get away from me if I can get my grip I'll pull you down into
the hell I call my head you'll never get away
I sit down in my ugly place and build walls out of fragments from my
past of all the people that I needed and loved that walked away,

You've got to just trust me to hold your hand through then I'll turn
and walk away

I walk under the clouds of gray,
Sphere of storms in my head,

I'm trapped again in endless rain
I divorce the thoughts of you I love with me,
I divorce your innocence and my guilt,
I divorce the lying sellout confidence,
I'm divorcing every mother fuckin' thing
I divorce the love bled meaningless,
I divorce the makeshift harmony,
I divorce the taunting acts of violence,
I divorce the pastime of jealousy,
I divorce control,
I divorce the faith,
I divorce the virtue,
I divorce the rain,
I divorce the excuse,
I divorce the greed,
I divorce the need,
I divorce iniquity in this mother fuckin' bullshit life,
Just want it all to go away,
Just want to run away to die, take it, myself, my life
Text book fucking mental, off me and pitch me in a hole

I'll always be your shadow,
And veil your eyes from states of ain soph aur,
I can't be the hero anymore,
I spit up on my plate and then I turn and walk away,
I spit up on my plate and I disrupt the family,
I spit up on my plate and I sever the entity,
And I feel your warm sun on my face
Separate .

Eclipse you and bleed you strip you of your states of ain soph aur,
I need you,
It's always been this way, I push it all away,
From me

Emotions inside us troubling,
The hatred inside us escalating,
The sickness inside us keeps us weak,
The masses inside of us suffering they are bleeding,
The calling inside us sick with greed,
The voices calling to us deafening we're not listening

Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Swat at the flies omit disgust

The leaders inside us posturing,
The pollution inside of us suffocating me,
The science inside us menacing
The will that's inside of us its dying end is coming

Cannot receive the obvious
Line up cattle and cut the necks
Drain us of life and cleanse the mess

Wash me off inside, wash me off inside

We're killing ourselves killers
Goddamn we fucked up the circumstance,
Too late to save us from ourselves,
Callous minds against trust and confidence,
Too late to give a damn now
Too late to save us from ourselves, too late to make it all go away,
Too late to beg pardons from the mother, too late to give a damn

Now we'll sit and wait

Wait wait for the coming. of the end
Wait for the coming the killing the ending the plight of man
Deserving no mercy expelling by god's hand,
It's okay the ending it's over no more pain .

Emotion the hatred the sickness the calling

does your god come in a capsule,
to sedate you tear the walls down,
headless prison cannibals chew,
to consume you bring the alien,

halcium and morphine,
5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine,
brushite, darvaset, valium, caffeine, cannabis, and lsd,
ayahuasca, harmine give it all to me i want it
psilocybin, mescaline, aspirin, histomine,

these are just a few of my favorite things x 2

trisolam and zanex, serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine,
tetra-hydro-chloride, atenolol,
amanita muscaria,
boric oxide, arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine,
give it all to me i want it
cylotec and harmaline

does your god come in a capsule to sedate you,
tear the walls down, headless prison,
cannibals chew to consume you,

bring the alien
you can't kill me,
inside my hole,
i'm already dead
inside my head,
it's all about escaping,
numb to me,
we just beg for any way to be sedated,
numb body from this hell,

i can feel them holding, i can feel them moving,
i can feel them pushing, i can feel them pulling
i can feel them prying, i can feel them prodding,
i can feel them living, i can feel it,
i can feel them stabbing, i can feel them scoping,
i can feel them breathing, i can feel them digging
consume, take in, plunging, plumbing,
instruments prying, aliens inside me,
tooling the machine,
intoxicating,
feel it unfolding, riddles in me
it's all about escaping, we just beg for any way to get away
who do you bow down to, does your god come in a capsule or on a plate

they're trying to sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien
i'm already dead to this world you tried to kill me, i'm already dead to this world

Nailed inside my head,
Fuck this I don't need your shit,
All the lies deceit and arrogance,
Talk your shit like my life is some kinda game,
Like you fuckin' know me,
Just go far away and be small,
Run far away and be small,
Go lie in a hole and be small,

Thorns, splinters, pushing,
Under my skin,
They want in,
If you really think you got what it takes to be me,
Sharpened tongue to penetrate me,

Then walk a mile in the skin of my head case mental being,
So you want a piece of this life that belongs to me,
Well make a cut on the line and take a deeper look inside of the freak,


That is me, fucker, come on,
To get in lance the core to penetrate me,
Disturb, search me, prying up all my scales

So you want inside of me,
So you want a piece of this,

So you want to tear me down, for your own selfish wants and needs
To get in, lance the core to penetrate me,
So you want inside of me
Disturb, search me, prying, up all my scales,

So you want a piece of me,
So you want to drag me down,
For your own selfish wants and needs

You were there like a punk,
Just to get in my face,
Wanted in me wanted to be
Till I gave you a taste
Frontin' stress I'm superman motherfucker
Don't need your goddamn pressure
Without the "s" on my chest
Hurricane fist full of Novocain for the pain
Trying to step in my circle I'm leaving you purple and black
On your back drop your ass like a heart attack
Rippin' through your life like a motherfuckin'
You're nothing in my life in my head
You're nothing in my life in my land

Nailed inside my head
You're under my fuckin' skin!
I have cleansed my life now of the people who pry
Always in my scene always in my sight,
And threaten place always in my face I think it's time for them to
Go away always in my fuckin' space,
You're dead to me punk ass fuck .
Always in my way


There's nothing left

I am the sin of man

I ..... so just let me out

I'll be back again

I see through the cracks

To pollute the soil in which you stand

I contaminate what you grow

To be inside of you again



Fertilizing your seed

I've got a riddle for you

I'f you're wise, you'll listen to me

Listen to me

Listen to me

Again...

*Sticker this, Censor this, Ban this We got something to say Police this, Condem this, Damn this We'll be heard anyway Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm silenced Listen here Is it a possiblity that were all just equal Slam the power down, Abusing You lead us with false morals, And shelter reality Does it piss you off, To be beat at your own No more, Were not buying your product when your selling the words preaching silence Insult me in my home, When you were never invited To live life on your curve, Frustrating Throw sticks into the spokes to relieve insecurites Stiffle all assencion, And sticker our freedom of speech * Repeat Dont tell me what I want, Dont tell what I need Dont tell me how I need to feel, I feel goddamn nothing Dig the eyes out of my face, I can still see right fuckin thru you Closed mind with a forum to critize, Keep your policy, Iv got mine Exploit me, Fabricate your lies, We empower these cowards just to be left in silence Fuck you and everything you are, Im me, We're us, And thats all Listen here Prevail thru what is me, And step on your beliefs Stand on my soapbox, And speak my own peace Whatever you may think, Its real Thieving spineless sellouts, Robbing our integrity Bring it on Sticker this, Censor this, Ban this We got something to say Police this, Condem this, Damn this We'll be heard anyway Middle finger is the flag that I wave when I'm........

Do I deserve these beatings? Hating me, of you well then, Cut, cut the noose and let me fall away... I'm, growing weak and tired and your little shoving games fucking... pushing me. trapped in, You pulled the trigger, the wake, of your Dream You're all killers. Always fucking pushing me; insulting me; I have found the strength of gods in me. I've overcome; Crushing All unwilling; This is so unstoppable. Hard as nails, reach down and find the strength of many in you. hook that holds, My sanctuary... calling my name, to the light, weeping through a cloud. so I run through... by a tainted dream, of me, Darkened, being pummeled by the tide, crushing, killing me But I can't wake up, trapped in, the wake of a Dream You're all killers. Always fucking pushing me; insulting me; I've overcome; I have found the strength of gods in me. Crushing All unwilling; This is so unstoppable. hook that holds, Hard as nails, Call it; reach down and find the strength of many in you. call a truce. I'm believing in it more and more. Comfort; purge the truth, I'll belive it. Hide and seek, I'm so weak and sore, shadowed but you never looked. call out; I wait behind the door bite the hand that is feeding... Compassion no more. I hope I never wake up. Dream-sewing, filters, distort reality of what is mine through light this mind awakens I draw the line from then and now, awake and dreaming, forgotten past future becomes mine. Throw the chains, all away, take control, Powers known, of your life. this is my... Throw the chains, all away, take control, of your life. Powers known, this is my... Dream Always fucking pushing me; insulting me; You're all killers. I've overcome; I have found the strength of gods in me. Crushing All unwilling; This is so unstoppable. Hard as nails, hook that holds, reach down and find the strength of many in you.

Always Noted on my time A little left of center now Reflect As I realize That all I Need is to find The little bit about to sit like the sun like a star in the sky It just makes Enough Cast the stars in me I, I stand Not crawling Not falling down I, I'll beat The demons That drag me down I, I stand (For nothing) Not crawling (Descending) Not falling down (Your nothing in the end) I, I'll bleed (For no one) The demons (But myself) That pull me down (For me and no one else) Goodbye, Sunshine I put it out again Sun I'm over The sanelities Convicting I don? need you Or anyone by me I'll just be Living my own life I feel like growing cynical Infecting I feel alive and sharper Turn on the lime Planted on myself to sit like the seed in the comforts of every Just makes Enough What you think isn't me --------------------I, I stand Not crawling Not falling down I, I'll beat The demons That drag me down I, I stand (For nothing) Not crawling (Descending) Not falling down (Your nothing in the end) I, I'll bleed (For no one) The demons (But myself) That pull me down (For me and no one else) Come play kill (Refuse my to fall, today refuse my shadow) Stone cold will (Refuse to need this, refuse to follow) Bitter pills (Refuse to be this, refuse to swallow, I feel godless) Come play Come play god Test me Test me Test me Test me Test me I, I stand (For nothing) Not crawling (Descending) Not falling down (Your nothing in the end) I, I'll bleed (For no one) The demons (But myself) That drag me down (For me and no one else) -