Meshuggah

A sustained static gaze, oblivious to surroundings.
Empty, strained, unmoving eyes; Introverted, paralyzed
A burning mass of emotions denied, enraged by years of silencing.
An accumulation of feelings suppressed, returning to devour.
Bright rays of chaos, generated by subconsciousness.
A retribution by own thoughts; twisting the mind into fits
Fuelled with pains unveiled. Burning with contamination.
Set afire by disowned self-lies; they penetrate the eyes.

I... Am I the next? Self inflicted overload.
Thoughts returning to think me away.
I... Will I be reprieved,
or am I just awaiting the sentence of my exquisite,
internal machinery of torture

The turmoil arises, from the innermost core of denial.
Shining streams of putrefaction, reflugent with disease -
In outward motion to redress the balance by retaliation.
A terminal journey to relieve cognition of Ability
Minds lit like candles, by rejected senses and emotions.
Tearing flames, born in mind; Creations of self deception.
Strained, not to lose the grip - Humans locked in the new disease.
A light by eyes unseen has come to burn us clean.

(Chorus:) I... Am I the next?.......

I sense; The facilities of the bodily; Discorporated by the light
All my pleas; denied
By my psychological enemy
The inner light unseen

I... I'm deceived by my
Receiving eyes; - susceptible
to the endless killing-sights

Consciousness fails the grip. Substance now decreasing
Amorphous. Without shape - I'm vanishing; dematerialized
My own corrosive thoughts - Probes armed with acid tools
Disintegrated, I'm bleached out of reality
Scattered bits internally; My last transparent remains;
Floating objects inanimate; Spinning into my soul
Defeated by my contents. Tables turned, I'm a thought repressed
I'm swallowed into myself. Destination; nothingness

I... Am I the next? Self inflicted overload
Thoughts returning to think me away
I... Will I be reprieved
Or am I just awaiting the sentence of my exquisite,
internal machinery of torture
I... I've been the next. My self inflicted overload,
My neglected thoughts have thought me undone.
I... I was never reprieved
Now I know the sentence of me exquisite,
internal machinery of torture

I'm The Shallow, The Superficial.
I'm The Common Man.
Faithless, Narrow Minded, Indifferent, Impassive.
A Sycophantic Leech.
Tantamount To Disintegrity.
I'm The Vulture Feeding On Malignancy.

I'm The Sin,
The Lecherous Sneering At Prostration.
I Wallow In Disease.
I Rejoice At Degradation.
I Yawn At Misery.
Spit At Others Happiness.
An Advocate Of Manipulation.
I Embrace The Sickening.

I'm The Lost.
I'm Average.
I'm Common.
I'm Infection.
I'm Human.
I'm Common
A Worm Thriving In Seas Of Disgust.
I'm Common.
The Mouth Licking What You've Bled.
I'm Common

I'm The Pampered Degenerate.
I Indulge My Inclinations
The Only Words To My Attention Are Those That I My Self Create
Disorder.
Chaos.

I Debar All Order,
Repudiate All Purity.
Infatuated By Contentment.
I Laugh At Lies.
Come Behold The Sickness In My Common Human Eyes.

I'm The Greed.
The Cynic.
I'm The Indifferent Gaze.
Mendacity, Betrayal;
This Is Not A Phase
Ebullient With Human Filth, Here I Am.
Here I Stay.
Flourishing In Our Disgrace.
Blessed Be The Human Way

Lacerating pains of degeneration speed through your trembling mind
Still, in machine-like strife you gain another mile
The temporary elusive goal.
To reach the solace to feed once more
Upon the synthetic reaper of loss.
No matter the outcome the cost

Cold and stinging needs tearing through the halls
Of your defiled, flesh made temple with it's closing walls
Still you claim the worshipers pose and you bow, you kneel

Once superior now a docile pet at chaos feet
Pulling the leash as it trails the scent to where all the hurt recedes
Your past a blurry patch in mind.
Your future once: now thin dreams filed
Towards the lights of need you strive,
To drink into your vein the shine.

Beaten to the unforgiving ground.
Lashed into submission,
By the inner starving demon.
By it's unrelenting hand
Still you claim the worshipers pose and you bow.
You kneel to the syringe

Answering only to the authorities of sedation.
Their calls the only ones heeded
A worn out soldier touched by their contagion.
A battered drone at their feet
You're the only one betrayed.
An outcast set afire by your inner war
Your burning self so far astray.
A combustion fanned from within your core.

I'm a carnal, organic anagram. human flesh instead of written letters.
I rearrange my pathetic tissue. I incise. I replace. I'm reformed.
I eradicate the fake pre-present me. Elevate me to a higher human form.
The characters i am, made into a word complete, then i'll be the new norm.

Self inflicted fractures; I replace my bones with bars.
Aluminum bleeding oxide; the drug of gods into my pounding veins.

My receiving eyes exchanged with fuses; blindness induced to prevent destruction.
Ceramic blades implanted past my ribs to save me from the dues of inhalation.
I tear my worldly useless skin. Staples to pin it over my ears.
Non-receptive of ungodly sounds - I disable the audio-generators of fear.

Hexagonal bolts to fill my mouth, sharpened to deplete the creator of all violence;
Without speech there will be no deceit

Baptized in vitriolic acid, a final touch, a smoothing of features.
Completion of the greatest art; to cast the godly creatures.
Humans, once astray; made divine, stripped of congenital flaws.
We're incandescent revelations in a world of darkened forms.

Disciples! Come join with me to save a failed humanity.
Follow the god of cyanide into the new eternity.
Behold! A sacrificial race a cleansing worshipping of pain.
The new millenium christ here to redeem all from lies.

What solace lies in the arms of fate
The ill embrace of uncertainty
When did I leave this in other hands
To be pulled down at chance

Ripped away by destiny-claws
Am I another of fate's possessions
Dwelling the lie of freedom
Just another straw pulled at random

Reclaimed by deceiving time
A silent judgment I can not overrule

Drawn back into the origin-vortex
Uprooted and ground to dust
Retracted into anti-existence
A magnet repelled by life's polarity

Denied the self control of fate
We flow suspended in semi-life
Until the ever imminent day
When oblivion claims our breath

Nowhere indefinitely
Not dead, not alive
Existence-patterns ripped of symmetry
As will and fate divide

Have I appeased the gods of fate
Am I allowed another day
Must I die to escape
The scanning eyes of death

No more ifs, no bias, no ambiguity
No wondering whether this is it
Clarity to brightly shining
The images so painfully absolute

No edges blurred on this awareness
No unknown weights to tip the knowledge scales
Eyes dilated to grasp it all
As ever illusion of what we are fails

An unquestionable picture, determined, complete
Its crystalline lines untouched by doubt
So vivid, so deprived of hesitation
Shining in its evil splendor

The burning hatred of ma
A million degrees on display
Human voracity delineated
The demons in us all by fumes portrayed

Stare, see, take in, grasp
Comprehend, assimilate, behold your reflection

Its framing, gold plated lies
The canvas, hurting souls caught and weaved
The artist, the human dream
Incinerated, devoured, deceived

The void clenches its determined jaws
A lethargic, careless motion to kill
Monstrous, prodigious, indifferent
Slow and deliberate its torturous skills

Its molars grind and shatter
Onerous, leaden bringers of hurt
Unhurried in its deadly intent
The undoer of all, dense and inert

Its design perfected through aeon's
Pure, immaculate, clean, homicidal god-machine

Calm, precise ambition
Untroubled by the roar of unending screams,
The droning blare of absolute doom
The down-pitched moan of collapsing dreams

Composed, cold, unconditional
Uncompromising till all is death
Extinction, ruin, its malicious cause
Till the last exhalation of human breath

Drooling floods of Led
Armed with distorted belief
Sharp munition spat from our minds
Malignancy-rounds, automatic fire

Black, acidic bile
Seeping wounds of shattered souls
Still not pissing out fast enough
To quench our thirst for it to bleed us dry

Vile, ever-menacing intent
Repulsive belligerence shot from toxic minds
Blatant disregard for all but self
Proudly flaunting the depravity of a race condemned, malign

Iterate, repeat these my words
Recite the mantra of late
I will corrupt and impair
Vitiate, dispirit, debase, violate

Souls born with hateful intent
The deceitful spawn, descendants of lies
By the poisoned nails of history stung
If granted the will to injure
If granted the will to harm
The blades of hurt inexhaustibly swung

Squint your eyes to see clearly. Blur reality to make
it real
Let focus go from your deceiving eyes to know what's
been concealed
We've all been blinded - Subjects to visual
misinformation
A systematic denial of the crystalline

To see the fine grain, to read the hidden words
The context of parallel truth - Devoid of
fragmentation

Our light-induced image of truth - Filtered blank of
its substance
As our eyes won't adhere to intuitive lines
Everything examined, Separated, one thing at a time
The harder we stare the more complete the
disintegration. -Dissolution

Eyes re-opened, Reasoning focalized, Receptors
activated

Perspectives distorted
The ladder beyond our grasp
The twin-headed serpent forever hidden
Where's the true knowledge -
Where engines of the sane

Humanity peeled from our bones
Deprived of integuments that make us real
Shadows of flesh to maintain the system
Our own blood splashes as we kneel

So meticulously machined
Into these obedient devices
Puppets, fine-tuned submissive drones
Replicas of each other, clones

We're dormant accumulations of flesh
In a crimson filtered twilight
Mute witnesses to the game
Wrenches to keep the bolts of lies tight

We're the fabric concealing the stains,
The red tainted existence
The gullibles to bless your sins away
Rags to wipe your blooded trails

We give in to the atrophy,
To the twining of self-thought knowledge
The purpose of the human mind reviled
Everlasting ignorance realized
The scarlet flood inundates our powerless thoughts
Defenseless minds with lies overfed

Every thought stained, defiled
Painted the color, the shade of electric red

Trapped in a ceaseless fever of spite
An unending fit of resentment and anger
Caught in a moment of unforgiveness
In the snapshot of a hate filled second

The speechless flickering of uncomprehending eyes
Dilated in disbelief
Your vacant gaze distorted
Twisted in its accusing glare

Teeth glimmering in emotional rage
Spit of hate suspended mid-air
Bodies strained in fury
Devoured by jaws of despair

One single image frame I wish to forget
Now replayed in succession of millions
The one second I will always regret
My hell found in its reiteration

Held within the visualization
The continuous rerun of my own violence
A fraction of time perpetuated
By my regretful soul animated

Please forgive the evil in me
The darkness within
Ferocious, inherent demon
Adrenaline gland resident

Threatened subconscious snake
Repressed into striking coil
Surfacing that black second
Ascending with the boil

Assembled from dead incompatible pieces; Livid fragments regenerated.
Decomposing bits of organic matter, brought to life, revived.
A fluid, limbless, sickening shape, a faltering semi-floating cluster.
Its sole purpose of creation; To burst the imagination blood surge.

Defying the mould of human flesh. Smashing the wall of beliefs.
A sight to bring insanity to all dimensional reality.

Carved from thoughts unthought into a graphic, visible delusion of life.
A twisted display of dehumanized features, by cells reflected, refracted.
A frantic dancing of particles, in pathetic attempt at rendering flesh;
Swirling to project the illusion of shape, form, dimension and mass.

(Eyes not made for watching. Thousand watt obsidian bulbs;
Reflective, obversed. The only view is the barren self)

A walking translucent entity. Void, suspended. Inviolate by rules, all standards of existence.
An electrified vapor-cloud. A skein of bone and tissue.
An atrocity, a liquid form unshaped to the organic norm.

A mind not filled with thoughts, but a random flickering static.
A soulless creature un-alive; I'm the un-human elastic.

I'm The Concrete Leper Sickness Repulsion
Embodied But Hear The Sermon Escaping My Vermin Mouth
You Might Even Stay With Me
In The Dirt I'm Soaked In Putrid Sewage
Risen From Empty Words To You
A Legion Of Nausea
I'm Your Sins
I'm Your Crown Of Thorns
I've Seen The Blood Of Generations
The Ravenous Mouth Called System
We're All Shaped By Vulgar Hands The Grip Of Hate And Lies
The Sustenance To Our Bellicose Ways An Ignorance
Almost Justified As The Gap Of Humanity Fraction Grows
The Skull Of Life Lobotomized
Hear Me I'm Ignominy
There's No Renaissance In Bleeding No
I've Flown A Million Minds Black In Despair
The Liquids Of Uncertainty Spit Into Their Eyes
Our Flesh Embedded In Counters Of Iniquity
It Seems Like
We Are All Just Merchandise
Not Civilized No Words
We Adapt In Our Silence Paralyzed To Changes Erasing The Last Denial
Lines Attitudes Crucified Still
We're Going On Crawling Toward Submissive Suicide

Come And Hear My Twisted Lies,
The Way I Bend And Falsify
A Master Of Deception,
User Of An Untrue Smile
A Rapist Of The Truth,
Adapting It To Fit My Cause
I'm The Human Lie,
A Sad Composition Of All Things Vile

Come And Read My Tainted Lies.
Lies.
Come See My Wretched,
Tainted Mind

Bury, Cover Up, Repress.
I Betray The People I "Possess"
What Ever Enemy - I'll Disable With Mendacity
I Make My Way,
Extend My Ground,
I Clear My Future-Path
When It Comes To Joys,
Manipulation Is My Game Of Choice

How I Shine. I ...
The Perfect Freak.
Confide In Me
Me... Believe In Me

My Intentions Soon You Will See
The Sway Of My Scheme, Imposed Upon All
Come Follow Me, My Puppets To Be,
I'll Attach My Strings, Manipulation Begins

Sane Me
Sane Me
Sane Me
Sane Me

I'm The Way, I'm The Truth
Gather With Me, I'm The Future Guide

Sane Me
Sane Me
Sane Me
Sane Me

Gather With Me, Join My Ministry
I'm The Way, The Future Guide
I'm The Self-Acclaimed God Of Wicked Games
Sinister, Repugnant Bringer Of Pain

Subdued And Repressed.
A Son Of The Vortex In Faceless Progress,
Coaxing,
Tugging,
Grinding.
So Elevated So God.
Refit This Vessel Of Confusion To Bring The Eloquence Of The Mute.
Incorporate This Forfeit Cause,
Assimilate And Fake It Mine.
I Bow My Head And Taste The Lies That I'm Fed,
All To Claim My Reward.
Master And Servant.
One For All And All For None.
Ignorant To The Distant Hymns Of Chaos,
The Progressive Stand Before Me.
Their Eyes Fixed In The Distance,
Default To Conform To The New.

They Animate Me.
In Confidence I Thrive.
My Reign: Supremacy.
I Speak No Word Unheard.
Re-Motivate Me.
I'm All There Is To Be.
An Omnipotent Being So Complete In My Diversity.

Ripples Race Across My Eyes.
Breaking Out In Acid Sweat.
Wills Shrivel And Crack.
Disintegration Of My Inner Self.
I Find The Substance Lost.
A Shed Shell Of A Being Of Disgust.
Done Is The Cleansing.
Complete Is The Surgery Of The Soul.

Step Inside And Taste The Shackling Thoughts That Devour All Confidence.
Realizing I'm Lost.
Being No More Than A Mutt With A Fake Pedigree.
Stillborn Soul Shaped And Molded.
I Can Live An Eternity In A Minute's Time.
A Borrowed Talent Filled With Copied Goals.
The Carcass Of Hope Lies Dead Beneath The Fabric Of Dreams.
Facing The Truth Within The Mirror Of Souls -
Ha Ha This Is What I've Become.
Always Been In This Emancipated State.
Submerged, Battered And Numb.
Just A Mindscape Fit For Illusion To Make Fear Into Reign And Fulfillment Of Pain.
Kneeling In Perm
The Minions Of The Inside Claim Me

Re-Animate, Me Cause I Was Once Alive.
Defeat Smears Out My Focus.
Consciousness Subsides
Unmotivated.
Beheld By Scorching Eyes.
Infinity Stares Back At Me.
The Surging Darkness Coils To Strike

Corridor Of Chameleons
We're The Carriers Of A New Anomaly;
Fold,
Unfold.
Bend,
Shift Color.
Always Turning Our Backs To The Wind.
Deaf To The Inner Voices Screaming.
Purpose, Profit, Act Only To Gain.
Blistered Tounges From Licking Greedward.
Taste The Enemy.
Throw Up Their Means.
Swallow The Bits That Fit Your Needs.

Keep Your Eyes Searching In All Directions,
Scanning For Opportunities Off You Go.
Begin Your Climb.
Aim For The Topmost Twig Of Lies.

Put On A Shape To Pass Undisturbed.
Pick A Color To Blend With Surroundings.
Choose A Voice Suiting,
Appropriate For The Never Benignant Purpose.
Spin Your Eyes To Read The Court.
Smoothen Your Path Before The Start
Even Out,
Fill The Holes With The Toxic Clay Of Your Rotting Heart.

A Contagious Neuro-Ego-Disease.
A Virus Sticking To Liars.
We're The Self-Centered Fuel To Boost The New Strain Of Fire.
Adapting, Shifting, Lacking Opinion.
Our Numbers Exceeding The Billions.
Everly Walking Among Ourselves Down The Corridor Of Chameleons.

Continue Through The Skein Of Boughs,
Navigate To Keep You Straight On Track.
Make The Right Ramification-Turns.
Conceit Will Be Your Allied Guide.
Climb The Hierarchy Ladders Invisibly,
Veiled By The Canvas Of Putrid Dreams.
Every Obstacle Surmountable To The Clouded Vision You've Conceived.

Scan The Wall Of Truth For Cracks.
Your Prey: The Secrets Hiding Therein.
Feed Upon Its Nourishing Intestines To Bring You Forth In The "Game"
With Every Single Step Taken On The Road Of Games Called Success,
There's A Fee For Every Lie.
The Currency: Your Dissolving Integrity.
Will You Make It To The Top Of The Tree?
Is The Fortune There To Be Found?
Chameleons Are A Short-Lived Breed.
Maybe Fate Will Find You Dead On The Ground.

(Fate Will Tell.....)

A stale organic cage.
Incarceration.
I'm in the stranger: Me.
The user of my face;
Beneath it's guise I rot.
A paradox in terms.
Interconnected, fused.
My words are it's thoughts.
I now share myself with my reflection.
Straining to divide our twined formation.
Duality within singularity.

Plug me in, re-connect me to myself.
Plug me in, re-connect me to my soul.

Coalescence done.
The merging complete.
The sentence carried out.
The confluence,
Our interwound flows;
Surges not to be fused.
In this mental cage we absorb ourselves.
The only certainty is my suffering.
My mind in constant pleas for an end to this concatenation.
A struggle all in vain,
We're both the same.

Plug me in, re-connect me to myself.
Plug me in, re-connect me to my soul.

Gone is all my hope,
All my vain illusions.
Deceived, I dwell in me,
In the core of my agony.
I fade in this duress,
I'm weakening.
The one who claimed my front is now the claimant of my soul.

Into the core of self, The neuro-axis, I fade.
Within the fading core of self, I am.....
Gone-bound, lost, away, phased out, non-existing.