She's on a beach in Maui her breasts are half uncovered I try to stop myself from staring at her butt I'm drawn like Dagwood to sleep The lawn may need mowing but still I can't prevent my thoughts From becoming obscene so I justify, she's only a page in a magazine She's not real, she doesn't feel. Eyes pierce her scraps of cloth. Her value is lost
Crown of all creation, bane of jealous angels She's nothing more to me than food for a fantasy And though I know it's a shame, I won't turn away My thoughts are so casually lead astray And I know it's not right it feels so unclean but she's just a page in a magazine She's not real, she doesn't feel. Eyes pierce her scraps of cloth. Her value is lost 49er, gold prospector. Her body is my claim As she assumes some cheesy pose, imagination see's no close And I don't even know her name Her body breaks my minds leash like Gus broke his chain
Hey there, Mr. Personality, was everybody wrong to think That you would have the world on it's knees Or perhaps we were too blind to see that all your grace would fall to entropy Leaving only fear and apathy and useless dreams
And the shadows that you cast so tall on the wall of possibility Grow closer to infinity with every word that goes unsaid Cause you could build your house of gold if you could only find a place to start But for now there's just a question mark hanging on your head
Cause you could be the best there ever was (3x) But you won't move cause you're to scared Potential shines so bright when never dared
And I never thought I'd find you gagged and bound by mediocrity Denying who you want to be how did your standards get so low? Or are you still content hang your feat in the pool of opportunity When everyone has yet to see a single thing to show
Hey Mr. World at your Feet did you finally accept defeat? Or was your bark more than your bite When you wake up from your dream to find your smile has lost it's gleam Well maybe then you'll see the light
Cause you could be the best there ever was (3x) But nothing's gained when nothing's shared Potential shines so bright when never dared
So break those chains and take the world It's yours to claim, or are you still afraid To take some value from those impotent dilapidated aspirations
So now your offering these hand me down beliefs You offer neither solace nor relief In a world of hate Your words hold no weight
So now your promising your Disney religion Living in your world without sin But I just don't relate Your words hold no weight
So just hold your tongue for a second And spare me your two bit advice Did God make me blind and give you my eyes? So just hold your tongue until you can hold my burdens Your ideas betray your fantasy Your anecdotes mock reality Your words hold no weight
So before you go and throw your pearls before swine Be warned you won't impress the likes of mine Cause I've heard your debate Your words hold no weight
So why do they ring in my ear And challenge my confidence? They heckle my pride My medicine never had this taste My words in your mouth now sound misplaced Your words hold no weight
So share my pain and bare my wounds with me Or don't pretend to call it sympathy But you're so quick mock my misery So quick to add insult to injury
Memory conveys that you were something to be When you weren't held captive in an aged body You had a family that needed you and job security You had everything a man could ever need But where did your children go? Where is your family? Did they turn into the adults that you always hoped they'd be? Did you finally retire from that job that tortured you? I thought all your dreams had come true So why are you depressed when your life is at it's best Is it really cause it's not what it seems? Or are you unable to see that you should be happy 'Cause your still living in yesterday's dreams
Your eldest son reminds you of the way life used to be When you didn't bear the chains of matrimony You had no job that you hated, no responsibility You were youthful and careless and free And the woman you wed, she seemed better in bed When there wasn't a ring on her finger Yes your life seemed all right when you partied all night Those days are gone, does the flavor still linger? Don't tell me life would be great if you were reprobate And had friends who were losers and fiends You've a family a wife and a meaningful life But you're still holding on to yesterdays dreams
Loneliness reduces you to disharmony Your life seems so hopeless and melancholy You're still young but you can't find the strength to move on Now that the woman who loves you is gone Did you find she wasn't so close when you needed her most Is it hard facing up to rejection? You might understand that she needed a man But you're still seeking maternal protection Don't give up you're still young and your life's just begun At every corner opportunity screams Sometimes life is abrupt but it's time to grow up And stop clinging to yesterday's dreams
Spoken word has lost it's way again Wondering through silenced apology An untamed mouth has not held words not meant And condescending eyes made shame to see
The stress to succeed has broken trust My flooding waters wash you out to sea You're drowning now as my forgiveness rusts To stiff to rescue what's dear to me
Could I be sorry enough to make you not be sorry For goodness sakes I'm sure you're sorry You met up with likes of one who can't be sorry for his.......
Imperfection driving battery The lingering spirit begins to fold Spoiled angst rots the adult in me As childish antics now are growing old
Now an emptied room to play to (No one to hear this song) No more innocence left to be hurt Now the silence that I wait through (Speaking oh so loud) Of this fitting end that I deserve
Could I be sorry enough to make you not be sorry For goodness sakes I'm sure you're sorry You met up with likes of one who can't be sorry for his.......
Another way fought and anger fed again Another day lost, we've found more hate to send Some other past time we found some way To see thee others flaws as small and still forgive other's mistakes We had no time to let unity ever binding lose control Or let some standard conditioning our likeness take it's toll When the differences settle and when the spite comes to an end We'll be reminded of a time when me and you used to be friends (Always change in me)
Lying idle in my room, telling my thoughts to the moon: Why do I always feel so unimportant? To other egos my mind clings and inside these voices ring That I'm just a carbon copy of everyone else
And now I'm searching out my own identity Something down inside telling me that I'm like no one else but me But as of yet I still don't know Who is this guy that I am and for his life what does he have to show? Who am I? What am I for?
I wait for answers from the sky, the only audience I find But no comfort finds my ears just silent mocking And I know I was created but I just can't figure out why
And now I'm searching out my own identity Something down inside telling me that I'm like no one else but me But as of yet I still don't know Who is this guy that I am and for his life what does he have to show? Who am I? What am I for?
Still searching. Who am I? Some answers I don't ever find I just want to know I have a place Come from and return to dust, but I don't want to feel that useless I want to see something in me that is unique. I just want to know. Who am I? What am I for?
Winter breaks upon that lonely girl A tell-tale stomach and a broken world and only grief December finds her in a world of care Nine months swollen and abandoned there without relief from all this grief
Her fear matched only by her appetite Not knowing one day she would see the night When all these troubles had been made all right And that child would praise her
Hide your tears now put your pain away Let your fears belong to yesterday you're not alone
December makes it's yule tide round again A lonely girl lies lost in labor pain beyond relief Water breaks inside that lonely girl A child is brought into this broken world So small so weak he knows no grief
He only knows the one who brought him here Gave him life and made his value clear If he could speak his lips would know no fear They would only praise her
When he was young so many looks he never caught so much love he hadn't bought Seen peering through the pane left out standing in the rain Soaking in his rearing only wishing to be dry It seems he never knew that no one cut much deeper in the Young boy who strains his ears to hear No one come calling no one to tell his deepest fear No one to brag his trophy no one for him to make proud No one to answer this life that was in doubt These times he's not forgotten, he swore he'd never be that nobody still haunting All his past that brings his longing for times that all would come from when he was young
So many times he'd knelt and prayed begging for these present days When all his youth was done to be standing with his son No one would ever know him no one for him not to hear No one to answer his father being near These times he's not forgotten and did he ever know that nobody still haunting All his past that brings his longing for all my strength to come from when he was young
It seems he never knew that nobody Still staring in at something lost that could not be All of this spent preparing harmony He'll never be forgotten For all he's lived and sought in Flying from wings he'd hide in Hiding his son from when he was young And in his bleeding I've been receiving no pain that would come from when he was young.
In two. Alone he'll forget the time Burn money to ashes. Be drunken with wine A fool, not knowing his left from right He's losing direction his home within sight (Staggered in with no where to begin)
I've left you again now I'm back to amend. No word that I say will be true I'm fine on my own except for I'm all alone. I'm just incomplete without you
Undo the bondage of faith that ties Unsevered connections just holding too tight End pretending thoughts stop sending surface his new home Won't think to long he's incomplete without you (Staring over the shoulder to sin)
I've left you again now I'm back to amend. No word that I say will be true I'm fine on my own except for I'm all alone. I'm just incomplete without you
Away he's walking to the sun Blinded in light of what he's done and echoed voices burning He's trying hard to clear his mind But digging deeper he'll only find buried treasure forgotten face
Here I am on my own now coming home
I'm fine on my own except for I'm all alone. I'm just incomplete without you
We met in seventh grade in History. Then just another one Friendship was a few years to come But I knew who you were. I knew what you stood for That much we had in common, but you had so much more And I saw a joy in you I did not see in me You were a light for all to see
Graduation came we moved to L.A. (it was) so good to know a face, A friend I didn't have to make Those long drives home to Santa Cruz. I grew so close to you, Friends from then on through life. Such a short length of time Left here with thoughts of you that still inspire me To be a light for all to see
And one day we will be together in our final goal in the presence of He, The one that made us be, the one you served, the one that your light helped us all to see
And I wonder how Franklin felt in '42 The war's still new, but I? tired of fighting Bloody boys sobbing fears all somehow died brave men Exalted then, so wrong yet somehow inviting. Like a dream moving in slow motion The smell of death spreads across the ocean Despite the masses that hate the notion Bending every purpose toward war
And the bombs start falling, tight fists of rage hurled Searching for sanity in such a crazy world I guess I thought when we got in our boats and sailed away We wouldn't be here today; we left behind all that fighting In a place where they're still debating feudal rights And boundary lines, and ancient agreements But I know that I? only dreaming Any day I could wake up screaming Taking orders in a far away land Marching round with a gun in my hand
And the bombs start falling, as the trigger fingers pull Searching for sanity in such a crazy world
Floating like driftwood Enslaved by the sea Resolutely refusing to die Without amnesty
He? tossed by the waves He? all out of flares Nobody saves Nobody cares Dehydrated lips speak words of despair In unanswered prayer Amidst a sea of words He only hears the sound of sea birds Who only whisper of a world beyond the waves And all those points of light The gently winking stars of night Not out of sight but still his eyes are glazed And though his eyes perforate the horizon He still can't find escape from his world He lifts his head in unwanted motion But he can't see himself tonight Just broken starlight And waves
Stupid and headstrong She stands on the beach She? calling his name out But he doesn't hear her voice from where His vessel so small Boat? bullied by waves To nowhere at all Dehydrated lips speak words of despair In unanswered prayer Amidst a sea of words He only hears the sound of sea birds Who only whisper of a world beyond the waves And all those points of light The gently winking stars of night Not out of sight but still his eyed are glazed
Keep calling his name Keep calling perhaps he'll hear you Keep calling his name Maybe now he's not the one
The one who? exiled form the world of you and me The one who can't be reached the one who's lost at sea The one whose social skills have gone to atrophy The one who drifts apart the one who's lost at sea The one who? lost at sea.
Living a life, without any future Just unending appetite, for petty amusement And you with your woes You?e food on the table You?e cash in your pocket So why are you crying Prince of America, hay does your tears run so rampantly Are you not satisfied, in your world without context? Where everything's trivial, and nothing has meaning Not even the throne you're heir to Prince of the world So much to see, so much information The people in Kosovo, the villages burning It? all entertainment, quickly forgotten It doesn't make any sense to me So why are you crying How could you know which rung you stand on? You never had to make the climb You never thought to look beneath you Ignoring the throne you're heir to Prince of the world Prince of America
I guess there's only one place to go from here I think the options are clear anyway I? sure you?e tired of waiting for me To figure out where you fit in I guess I? afraid of what we could be Cause I don't want to sell you short of your dreams I? sorry for making you wait for me Cause I don't want to hold you down But I don't want to set you free I don't want to make you run from me
I guess it's hard to believe that I Could make myself give up After all this time you and me Trying hard to make sense of our differences Pretending we both had everything I guess I believed in our fantasy You only loved the one you wanted me to be I? sorry for breaking your faith in me I don't want to hold you down
But what if you're more than I could please Could you accept apologies? I don't want to squander all your time I don't want to mislead you I think we both knew that it was done Sorry I had to be the one Sometimes I wish it were the other way around
I'm sure you're in a lot of pain, But it's supposed to feel this way I never did this to you Despite the beauty we create I just can't stand beneath your weight I don't know what to do I? sure you need a helping hand But you're stuck in sinking sand And you're pulling me in with you Look at the mess you drug me through Look at the pity you pursue I? falling out with you
Help me I? falling out with you
So make my instincts leave me be Cause I don't want to fight or flee But there's not much more you can take from me Despite the pleasure we invoke I? so sick of being broke Will it hurt this much when I?e broken free?
Well I try but I can't understand why I have to hold your hand Every step of the way, day after day, you depend on my strength to pull you through But I? just as weak as you
Late at night all alone in the bathroom Youæ?®e freaking out cause you just can't control everything That happens around you Set in stone with no proof of validity Your so-called faith keeps you terrified in anything That threatens your standing
The eyes of the world, the eyes of the church, the eyes of your peers The wagging of tongues, whispering shame, upon eager ears
Have all the plans that you laid out so carefully Fallen short of your neo-Victorian fantasy You cling to so desperately So look at all your hard work is coming to Despite your effort you still can't buy security So what is your money worth? And maybe it's right and I should feel pain for bending the rules But Iæ?| not the one who's trying to choose between fools
Back and forth the orchestra plays But neither side is tuned to the other Back and forth the orchestra plays But neither side is tuned . . .
Pull the shutters and tighten the blindfold Turn away anyone who doesn't fit the mold The story goes untold Despite the righteous beliefs that you profess You still can't cover the stain that marks your Sunday dress No need to confess
Maybe your view of quality is more than you can be You bear your ideology so stoically That all that you can see, is inferiority Here I am, my head in a cloud Can? you see my feet dangling, down there on the ground? I guess I? fool, cause I thought I could recognize The people who cared for me, I thought I could draw the line That surrounded my friends
Oh I, I? not going to give up
And I don't mind the quitters, so much as the thieves It? tolerable company, given the means I won't waste my time crying If I? the last to understand The difference between us, be it preference or circumstance I? losing the faith that youth hold in longevity I guess that? the price for bartering naivety Preferring the comfort that the skeptic takes in disbelief
She's breaking up, she's falling down She's holding her fists up now Her eyes meet my face but we don't look the Same She walks away, on bloody knees Her swollen face hides her tears My mind strains for words but my tongue won't obey
You're just a shadow now of the girl I used to know Your broken song is maimed and slow You strain your face to bear that smile Your teeth clenched tightly all the while and though you search so thoroughly for some place to put the blame It only rests on angry shoulders and you don't look the same Your pretty face now contorted haggard with shame I try to recognize your anger I try to recognize your hatred I try to find some purpose for your pride
So cease your screaming now because your voice is worn and hoarse your song insinuates divorce your poison love I won't pursue your not the lover I once knew and though you speak so firmly of maxims so bold your lips mouth words of love but still your voice is callused and cold I try to understand what made this mess unfold I'm sure you couldn't be blamed your features haven't changed and yet I can't Imagine why you don't look the same
and your song of broken trust is grating on my ears I'm tired of standing passive while you're preying on my fears I'm tired of trying to fight, I'm tired of taking sides you say that you're not angry but I see it in your eyes I'm tired of hearing rumors, I'm tired of hiding shame I'm tired of pointing fingers and never taking blame I'm tired of trying to talk I've nothing left to say I'm tired of going on so I'm going away
Nothing was wrong and the future looked better than it ever looked before So I thought The trouble was gone; it felt as if a bond had been restored
It? over, he plead the fifth too long Deserving to walk the plank and fall No longer blind, the light hurts his eyes In hope that time, will help anesthetize Annul the hurt, the shame, that's eating him alive He? praying more than friendship will survive OK so far I? not impressed, when does it get good And how much time is left No way, she can't end up with him Did the hero die, don't he good guys win
Don? the good guys win, don't they win Don? they win in the end?
No longer bound, it's freedom he defies In shock cause I?e been hit between the eyes I guess it's fair; I made the bed where I will lie There? got to be some way now I? sure he'll find some way now The pain of losing you should fade in time
