Darkest Hour

Gone are the days of evasion
existence is how you create it
what ever compels you to keep on
embrace it so long as the missing piece of the puzzle
split down the middle
we had better
prepare ourselves for perpetual winter
why do we do this to ourselves continuous
escape a living hell like those other lovers hidden under the covers
it's so empty in the arms of another
see what you've done
you're irresistible with your sordid stories the morbid glory of it all
remember when times were worth celebrating
pour the wine for the fallen friends and foes singing in unison
my hell is a blank piece of paper
staring back at me
my hell is wasted potential haunting me

Within a mechanical pose
And a heart pumping a need for control
Forced to fit inside a mold
Living to dehumanize is gonna take its toll
Take it in
And let it saturate
Under the skin
Until you can't even
Remember when
You first felt the sinking
Feeling that
Something's missing you
Traded for a gun
Did we inflate your sense of pride
And did it feed your lust for power
When you threw us to the ground
You took what's ours and sold it back
Another day another dollar for this town
Your uniform made a perfect burial suit

A grand deception
Disguised as god's redemption
Forcefed delusions of grandeur
Calling out for

A willing sacrifice
Of a nameless enemy
Necessary losses
Fulfill the bloodlust fantasy

A willing sacrifice
Of a nameless enemy
Necessary losses
Fulfill the bloodlust fantasy

See through this facade
Of retribution

This machine
Is marching to the killing rhythm
Spilling blood in vain
Subdues the vengeful masses
Spilling blood in vain
Subdues the vengeful masses

So put your blinders on
Replace your conscience with a flag
So you can forget
Money runs thicker than blood

So serene is the bleached white scene
Of a thousand crimes you'll never see on TV
Swept away only to pave the new way
This misinformation age is upon us all
Waking up to the sound
Another muffled cry for peace
Waking up to the sound
Another muffled cry for truth
Cut out the eyes
Of anyone and everyone
Who might see through the lie
Ignore the cries
Before it all
Becomes all to clear
Comes crashing down
Fill their heads with a false sense of security
Fill their heads with fear
Embracing ignorance is the new way
Of keeping the huddled masses in line
Silent servants rise up
And make yourselves be heard

You think it's easy to live the silent lie
But your second face is peeling
Every word spoken every blink of the eye
Deceit makes itself revealing
Sickening how easy trust can be offset
Blatant truth will burn right through your ??
I hope this happens to you
And I hope your soul's splitting in two
And you can look me in the eyes
Your stagnant poise generates a blame
Filtered through the heart that's dying
Self absorbed soon enough you'll be rung on
And in this pretentiousness attitude drown
The twisted truth is inhaled by all
But its purest form is thriving
This will happen to you
Someone you trust will be untrue
Rot on the inside
This will happen to you
And you'll feel the ache of being used

All you can hope for is
To make a slight connection with
All these clogged receptors it's
Not getting any better by the look of it
No people just numbers
If you had your way
The world would be
Just a market a fucking market
The meaning is lost when
You put a price tag on it
Well I bought it we all bought it
Warm greetings cold dismissals
It's all part of this game we play
I don't need it we don't need it
You put on your best face
That condescending smile makes me sick
I see through it we all see through it
I know now all you want
To reap the benefit of the loss
Well I took it we all took it
Your intentions transparent
And only now that it's too late
I regret it I regret it

We are the embarassment to market suicide
Without eyes full of genocide
We live where flags can buy more than others' lives
Where it's fashion to show your love homicide
Of the victim we haven't seen enough
For the victim it's the esape that keeps them drugged
It's the best blood money can buy
It's the best way to fund genocide
A violent missionary sect
Feeds a bullet for every word against
Salvation in a warhead
The patriot virus is being spread
The only antidote the give is to fear what's next
Prepackaged and advertised with a hymn
Singing anthems for the walking dead
Fear what's next

That's all right, because you wish you were dead
You live life with a hex over your head
A savior's mouth with a serpent's tongue
But don't forget, you're like this with the chosen one

And I forget about my losing streak
But you never slip at a chance to remind
It sounds like you should save a prayer for me
But I'll take my chances with the unworthy

And you know the quick path
The righteous, the way back
I'll end up the only one
I'll end up the lost son

And you know the quick path
The righteous, the way back
I'll end up the only one
I'll end up the forgotten

And you know the quick path
The righteous, the way back
I'll end up the only one
Swallow it all and wash it all down

It must be the weight of that crown
And all the lies seem to become me
Because it's easier than the truth
Failure; the only thing that seems to matter
It's not the fact that you're the walking dead
So save a prayer for me
Don't waste a prayer on me

And to reflect is to regret throwing it all away
And apathy, my one way street, it took so much from me
Separated by this divide I created through my fears
And in your tears you tried to show blind eyes and tell deaf ears
If we can make it through the landslide standing
We'll lift each other up to see the bliss on the horizon
Been looking in from the outside lately
I've seen who I used to be and it's not me
And we can keep healing
And we can keep holding on
I just want to take you where our time won't waste anymore
Through the mountains on the water
We'll stay engulfed in one another
And when I can wake up to see the sunrise in your eyes
Then we'll finally be free and I'll know I've made it home
So let's go out west and bask in the overcast
And walking through the rain we'll see the beauty in life again
And to reflect is to regret throwing it all away
And apathy, my one way street, it took so much from me
Separated by this divide I created through my fears
And in your tears you tried to show blind eyes and tell deaf ears
We can keep healing
Oh I know we can keep holding on

It’s been a long night, waiting to sleep the day away
and it's been a long time coming along with me every step of the way

the confinement binds you
and nothing scares me, nothing thrills me
I've fooled myself into believing
that nothing ails me, nothing kills me
the confinement binds you
and nothing scares me, nothing thrills me I’ve
fooled myself into believing
that nothing ails me, nothing can kill me

the stagnant time
is a breeding ground for regrets and wrongdoings
and resolutions take their time that's if they even come at all
always seeking redemption
through the echoes I’ve listened and still came up missing
always seeking redemption
through the echoes I’ve listened and still seeped through the cracks

the stagnant time
is a breeding ground for regrets and wrongdoings
and resolutions take their time that's if they even come at all

the confinement binds you
and nothing scares me, nothing thrills me
I’ve fooled myself into believing
that nothing ails me, nothing kills me
the confinement binds you
and nothing scares me, nothing thrills me I’ve
fooled myself into believing
that nothing ails, me nothing can kill me

These wounds will heal nothing can stop me now
These wounds will heal nothing can stop me now
These wounds will heal
These wounds will heal
These wounds will heal

I can still see
You sucking the life out of me
I can still feel the chill
Down my spine when you told me
Always one fateful night
That turns the tide
Always one fateful night
With nowhere to hide
To live and die
In a day there's nothing
Left to say
Time will not erase
The counting down of the days
You finally got
What you've been waiting for
A handful of pills
Didn't soften the blow
One month of sucking it in
It started to show
Waking up to realize
It's not a dream
Was the hardest thing

This moment marks the severing of senses comatose distinctions
the gathering of flies on a irrational mind filled with broken conviction
I've seen how lies take form in your eyes
your suspicious ways followed a hollow gaze
you fucking left me to rot
but one day you'll see first hand how I've paid for your biggest mistake
sound the surrender
embraced in vain
what will you gain from this
what will you lose
secrets hidden behind your back
your silence it serenades deceit
secrets hidden behind your back
your forever ideal fantasy
sound the surrender
you have gained all
you could from this
sound the surrender
but you've lost only one

Injected venom sucking the life from us away for eighty days
it's white noise just white noise
staying awake for the music's sake
they say they listen but never hear a thing
mass deception illusion deception
we say they listen to white noise
can this really be our time
are we found to find the line
disillusion me again
can we really be the only ones who see this charade
the meaning is fleeting
all these egos competing
searching for an identity through the series of misleading
disillusion me again

We are the expatriated
our fate cards have played us
neighbors displaced us
we’ve seen that these demographics are targets
shot down by the market
I’ve felt the wrath of the greedy
now complete with more monsters
I’ve seen the needs of a city completely ignored
surrounded by vultures
we are the sons and the daughters
expecting betrayal
neglecting out passions
we know your plans don’t include us
that’s why we’ve made our own destroyers of culture
insatiable their appetite
the gluttons who consumed their way to the top

My heart's been racing with my mind to the finish line of these fevered times
stuck down again
this turbulence has overcome
tranquility pounding the walls inside these thoughts
I can't control and shooting through my veins
these heightened senses overwhelming
confusion replaces clarity
a neurotic rearrangement
you know the feeling when down feels up to
it's old tricks again
so misleading when it hits like a ton of bricks to the chest
out of breath on the bathroom floor
and I'll make light of this night and night of this day
it's what I tell myself to sleep when I dream myself awake

After midnight's glow and morning's gloom has settled in its self-inflicted sense of self-loathing
waking up from the longest dream
where we're all running away
it's a sobering experience
still sinking still spinning still hanging by a thread
I've been thinking I'll stop wasting the days away and make life worth living
controlling these demons and stopping sirens from screaming
lapsing in and out of this great escape
a love-hate relationship
we're all stuck in our ways
and as we drown everyday we revel in our self-indulgence
and wonder why we feel so trapped in our bodies
in our rooms in our cities with our words

This decaying flesh is coming back to life
reanimate me
give me a chance and I'll be right here where the sun hits the sea
watching these waves wash the pain away
and it will radiate so brilliantly that we can keep pushing on and get on with life
cause we deserve it
now I know that the worst is behind us now onward and upward
we take flight on bruised and battered wings
we soar above our clouded thoughts
never looking back
we can regain a sense of balance that's been gone so long
give me a chance to reason with the odds
to pick myself back up
regain a balance gone so long