Straylight Run

And all our sins come back to haunt us in the end.
To hang around, and tap us on the shoulder.
And smile, silent.
"It's all implied. You'll die trying to live this down.
You might as well forget it."

Still, I'm convinced wondering 'what if' is the worst thing there is.

So we bottled and shelved all our regrets.
Let them ferment and came back to our senses.
Drove back home, slept a few days.
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be.

And all these lines fall short of what I had in mind.
The failed attempt to capsilize a feeling.
So I just try, fail, and try and try again.
And someday I swear I'm gonna get it.

Cause I'm convinced giving in is ther worst thing there is.

So we bottled and shelved all our regrets.
Let them ferment and came back to our senses.
Drove back home, slept a few days.
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be.

We'll get over it.
Sad, strong, safe, and sober.
We'll move forward and know where we went wrong.

But you can't go home again.
You can't go home again.
You can't go home again.
You can't go home..
You can't go home again!
You can't go home again!
You can't go home again!

So we bottled and shelved all our regrets.
Let them ferment and came back to our senses.
Drove back home, slept a few days.
Woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be.

You know
You can be
The first of
This century
To bleed through
To find truth
To know what
You should do
You know
It could be
Anything
Sometimes (sometimes)
You might find (you might find)
A crack or (a crack or)
A fault line (a fault line)
But dressed down (but dressed down)
Or made up (or made up)
You'll find (you'll find)
A real love (a real love)
A place to
Come home to
At night
So what did we pay for
And why did we care
What were we after
And why was it there
Desire gave way to a false sense of hope
And we fell for the lie that its what we all chose
And I yelled to my friends, "It'll all be OK!"
But they didn't believe me
They still don't today
They never do anything the haven't before
In the same
In the same solemn room with no lock on the door and over and over and over again
The same failed solutions to all the same problems
They scream "Why? Why? I can't understand
Why the things that I do never go as I've planned!"
And the vultures begin
Their slow circling
The dogs lick their teeth
Bright white and gleaming
But just hold your tongue
Barely begun to fight until now
Let's see what you've got
This wide open shot
Take it or leave it
Cause we're getting out
We're getting out alive
And you'll never
Find us again
You'll never find us again

Taken in context,
It's not a bad thing,
But when you start to pick it apart,
It gets so depressed,
It's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity,

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There are no perfect endings,

You peel back the layers
And get down to the inside,
But sometimes you loose sight,
Of what it was you were trying to find,
And it's that sort of thing,
That makes you think too much,
It's that sort of thing,
Makes you lose your objectivity

So if you made it,
Just be glad that you did and stay there,
If you ever feel loved or needed,
Remember that you're one of the lucky ones,
And if it's over,
Just remember what I told you,
It was bound to happen so just...
Keep moving on,
There are no perfect endings,
No perfect endings.

All the boys voices cracking,
Oh, the moaning half tones,
Come summer time,
We're all the same age here,
All the tension and the terror,
Thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling,
And I'm going straight to hell,
All the possibility and promise just,
Weighs on me so heavily,

And I try but I'm not convincing,
Your lips they pout and twist and,
I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you,
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing please,

Oh darling all of these awkward jump-start-stalling conversations,
Mean much more to me than anything,
So it comes down to me and you and,
Whether were supposed to or not we still will,
We're so much better off than them,
All the possibility and promise just,
Weighs on me so heavily,

And I try but I'm not convincing,
Your lips they pout and twist and,
I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you,
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing please!

A look,
A laugh,
A smile,
A second,
Passes by and I regret it,
Words just aren't right,
Sometimes I just can't explain,
All the ways you devastate me,
Always on my mind,

I try but I'm not convincing,
Your lips they pout and twist and,
I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you,
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing,

I try but I'm not convincing,
Your lips they pout and twist and,
I die trying just to keep myself from kissing you,
You take in everything with a certainty I envy
It's somehow all I need just keep me guessing please.

When the sun came up,
We were sleeping in,
Sunk inside our blankets,
Sprawled across the bed,
And we were dreaming,

There are moments when,
When I know it and
The world revolves around us,
And we're keeping it,
Keep it all going,
This delicate balance,
Vulnerable all knowing,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, kill for this

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would...

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
we're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would, you would....

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything.

And oh, the awkward ways,
That you recoil when I get close,
And oh, the awful grin,
That greets me when I know I'm wrong,
So down on hands and knees,
Choking, gasping, dripping spit,
I just can't make good on any of these promises,

Then he asked me,
What does that mean?
What's another word for desperate?
Repetition makes an impression,
What's another word for desperate?
I won't be around here for to very long,

So tip the bottle back,
Bubble foam,
And watch it break,
We can all be sure,
Something awful's coming this way,
So take this medicine,
In measured doses,
Take your time,
Cause they'll tear into you!
They will, they will...
They will, they will...

Then he asked me,
What does that mean?
What's another word for desperate?
Repetition makes an impression,
So what's another word for desperate?
I won't be around here for to very long,
I won't be around here for to very long!

What it was wasn't my fault
If i would have known
But who could have known
Cameras and the kids
Candids and the kindling (?)
We're fighting them off
They've done it again
What did her friends say
Who was involved
Oh call it all off
Cause i should have known but
Who could have known
Who could have known
The needles the space
Time cant erase
And buttoned down
You'll get the best of me
But throughout it all
The rise and the fall
Buttoned down
You'll get the best of me
On the way back to the bank
His heads sinking low
He should have known
How hard did it come
When was it that you
Lost your soul
What does it take
What did they make you
What do you know
Would you have done it again again again
Now we'll let you in but we should have known
We should have known
The needles the space
Time cant erase
And buttoned down
You'll get the best of me
But throughout it all
The rise and the fall
Buttoned down
You'll get the best of me
Now buttoned down
You'll get the best of me
Buttoned down
You'll get the best of me

Damage control.
They're so thoroughly modern.
We'll tell you how it goes.
It's not a serious problem.
So...

We can be convinced
And we can get convinced.
But either way the truth is bound to get twisted.
You can take a break when the fate of the world is waiting on your next decision.

So I focused on what I'd been promised
Then they tore us open,
And bled us dry of our dignity and money.

It's all under control.
Keep holding it together.
Things just fall apart.
But you know, we can't wait forever.
So...

Come on, try and keep this, keep this.
You can grit your teeth and do your job.
They'll never know the difference.
Keep it going one day, a month, a year, or more.
Ignore that sinking feeling.

So I focused on what I'd been promised
Then they tore us open,
And bled us dry of our dignity and...

So I focused on what I'd been promised
Then they tore us open,
And bled us dry of our dignity and money.

Should have seen it coming.
Should have seen it coming.
Should have seen it coming.
We left ourselves wide open.

So I focused on what I'd been promised
Then they tore us open,
And bled us dry of our dignity and...

Maybe we can all retain a bit of ourselves.
Remember who we were and keep on moving.
Put things to perspective, try and learn a lesson.
It's not life or death, it's only business.

No, no, no.
No, no, no.
No, no, no.
No, no, no.

Your Name Here (Sunrise Highway)

Your name here, believe me its not what you think
Wish what you want, its all the same to me
Well, not really, but anyway
Its just nothing so simple,
Nothing so silly
Nothing so mundane

Chorus
Go east on Sunrise Highway
Turn left at Carmen’s Avenue
Go right at the first stoplight
And I’ll be outside waiting for you
Ohh, I’ll be waiting for you

Your name in lights, it was only a matter of time
Your name in parenthesis, you cant see
Cuz after this mess, I guess you bet
That I’d collapse before you do
Well maybe that’s true, or maybe its not at all

Chorus
Break
Chorus

Replacing old dreams with flattery from new loves,
A hurricane self help into this evacuation from this.
You never meant to,
You never meant to...
Call me...
Call me...
I'll answer...

Do you think that this could work out?
Do you think you could come around?
Do you think that this could work out again?
I don't...
I don't wanna be forgotten,
While you're putting all your time in,
Into the things that don't mean anything to me,

It's too bad,
It's even sadder,
I'm losing everything that I thought,
This was a lost cause,
It was! And I never knew it.
I never knew it.

Try 'em on and let 'em go,
It might be best to just forget me,
You walk away,
You know you're better off to,
Your better off to...
Call me...
Call me...
I'll answer...

Do you think that this could work out?
Do you think you could come around?
Do you think that this could work out again?
I don't...
I don't wanna be forgotten,
While you're putting all your time in,
Into the things that don't mean anything to me,

Wasting faster than the hourglass,
It's slow but I'm not ready,
Not okay,
Don't make this harder than it already had to be,
Call me...
Call me up...
I'll answer...

Do you think that this could work out?
Do you think you could come around?
Do you think that this could work out again?
I don't...
I don't wanna be forgotten,
While you're putting all your time in,
Into the things that don't mean anything to me,

Do you think that this could work out?
Do you think you could come around?
Do you think that this could work out again?
I don't...

It takes more time than I've ever had,
Drains the life from me,
Makes me want to forget,
As young as I was,
I felt older back then,
More disciplined,
Stronger and certain,
But I was scared to death of eternity,
I was saved by grace,
But destroyed by naivety,
And I lied to myself,
And said it was for the best,

And now faith is replaced with a logic so cold
I've disregarded what I was,
Now that I'm older,
And I know much more than I did back then,
But the more I learn,
The more I can't understand,
And I've become content with this life that I lead,
Where I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything,
And I lie to myself,
And say it's for the best,

We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come,

We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come,

We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come,

We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come,

We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come,

We're moving forward,
But holding ourselves back,
And we're waiting on something that will never come.

moving in slow like the smoke from your cigarette.
every step closer's a step that we both will regret.
keeping a tally, but who can keep track?
your overreacting is taking me back to a time better left alone.

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

keep a tight grip like a child holding onto a swingset.
waiting and hoping to find what i can't figure out yet.
please don't unless this is something to me.
another nightmare instead of a dream.
better left alone.

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

i never lost so much.(x3)

holding onto the phone, holding onto this glass, holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
waiting for better words, they'll never come.
so dry your eyes, it's better.
now it's done.

You just can't relax,
And you can't rely,
On anyone for anything,
So you make your complaints,
And all everyone's let you down,
You just cant,
Ever win,
Convinced there's a war on,
It's always everybody versus you,
Convinced that your critics are watching,
And you've always got something,
You've always got something to prove,

So tie the noose,
And raise the cross,
The martyr's arrived,
A desperate plea for sympathy,
It's all you'll need,

A laundry list of problems,
Doesn't make you interesting,
And never getting help doesn't make you brave,
Not listening to reason doesn't mean that you have faith,
Your just cutting off your nose to spite your face,

So tie the noose,
And raise the cross,
The martyr's arrived,
A desperate plea for sympathy,
It's all you'll need!

And you want it all
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all.

So please be honest
What's it mean
Now what have you done
Cant it just be another risk you're running tonight
It's simple soaked and always on my mind
I'm dying

We got these lives to lead
Cut it out
Dont think about it
Cut it out
Dont think about it
Not now
We'll get through some how

This is only temporary
No this is only temporary
Not now
But soon
We'll be living in the future
And please be honest
Whats it mean
Now what have you done
Can't it just be another risk you're running
It's simple soaked and always on my mind
I'm dying

We've got these mouths to feed
Food and drink and hand shaked drugs
Food and drink and hand shaked drugs
And we've
We've got something up our sleeves
No ones gonna see it coming
No no ones gonna see it coming
Not now but soon
Well be living in the future

Please be honest
Whats it mean
Now what have you done
Cant it just be a another risk you're running
Whats it mean
Now what have you done
Cant it just be another risk you're running
It's simple soaked
And always on my mind
It's simple soaked
And always on my mind
Im dying

I don't want this anymore
Don't wanna wanna give anymore
Don't wanna be...
Don't wanna be stuck here
I am...
We are not moving ahead

I don't want this anymore
Don't wanna wanna give anymore
Don't wanna be...
Don't wanna be stuck here
I am...
We are not moving ahead
We are not moving ahead

Taking up my time again,
The one thing I can't stand,
The coffee and the conversation never ends when
All I really need to find,
Is one short clever line,
To pinpoint my disgust it's always just too much or not enough,
And I'm overwhelmed.

So I'll keep it simple for obvious reasons,
And I'll say what I should and just hope you believe me,
But it never gets easier,
No it never gets easier,
No, no, no.

Sing it to myself again,
I can't hear a word you said,
The syllables, the sounds just aren't sentences and,
All I really want to do,
Is tear straight into you,
Explode, unload a hail of insults until you finally get it,
I'm sick to death.

But I'll keep it simple for obvious reasons, (I'll keep it simple)
And I'll say what I should and just hope you believe me, (Say what I should)
But it never gets easier,
No it never gets easier,
Oh no, no.

A strong distaste for confrontation,
Leaves no room for self expression,
such a strain to remain so docile,
Though don't you know it all takes its toll...

But I'll keep it simple for obvious reasons, (I'll keep it simple)
And I'll say what I should and just hope you believe me, (Say what I should)
But it never gets easier,
Aw, it never gets easier,
Hell it never gets easier (all I really want to do),
Yeah it never gets easier (is tear straight into you),
Well it...

So Later that year, the bodies came home,
To Dover wrapped in flags and lined up in rows,
With no one to see and no one to know,
They had to keep morale from getting low:

And the voice inside my head just repeating,
"This is not the way we were told that it was going to be:
This is not the way we were told that it was going to be:"

(And we know who's to blame)
(And we know who's to blame)
(And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all,
We did the math, it wasn't worth it after all, (And we know who's to blame)
We did the math
We did the math (And we know who's to blame)
(And we know who's to blame)

I'm tired.
Cynical and broken, but wiser.
Heavy with a sense of resentment,
but i used to be so much different,
I used to have so much faith
when I started.
You knew that I always meant it.
I knew I could make a difference,
I struggled to be heard
and then finally, one day people started listening.
and I knew it
but as soon as it began it was ruined.
A slow descent from unique to routine,
over and over,
"just do it again and this time with feeling".
The spotlight.
The focus on the friends and the feelings.
That made those stupid songs all worth singing.
And don't you say a word
unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed.
So we drove
for what seemed like days
over roads
and four lane highways.
We said all we had to say
and I realized in time that it didn't mean anything.
Never,
not ever again.
Not like that.
"It's only a matter of time".