Strangelove

Watch another day go drifting over
It really doesn't matter anymore
'Long as I keep slipping down my medicine
Gonna be a superstar for sure

You are superstar
You are star
You are superstar
The world's alright with me
Just for today

The people down on Picton Street
already are superstar
You can see it subtle in their eyes
The music of the traffic is a gentle symphony
'Long as you are by my side

You are superstar
You are star
You are superstar
You know you are
You are, you are, you are
Star
Star
Star
And the world's alright with me
Just for today
Oh

Thankyou for the coming up each morning
Thankyou for the taking down each night
Thankyou for the inside and the outside
I thank you from the bottom of my heart
From like the bottom of my heart

You are superstar
You are star
You are superstar
You know you are
You are, you are, you are
Star
Star
Star
Star
You are superstar

I live a life alone
Inside a plastic hole
Inside a cage of stones
I dug myself this hole

I'm a freak
I'm a freak
Oh ho I'm a freak
Good Lord I'm a freak

Stacked-up on platfrom shoes
I tried so hard to be so cool
I dyed my hair in Spain
I look a mess and I feel the shame

Of the freak
I'm a freak
Oh ho I'm a freak
Good Lord I'm a freak

* I walk the plastic streets
Just like a monkey
Just like a geek
My scraping knuckles bleed
I hear my Mummy crying out

He's a freak

I live a life alone
And all my friends are gone
It kind of turns me on
I hate them one by one by one

I'm a freak
I'm a freak
Oh ho I'm a freak
Oh Lord I'm a freak

* Repeat

He's a freak

Shut up
You're way down boring
All you got are modern stories
All about the money rolling
And your crank possession holdings
Back off
You don't know me
I don't care for modern talking
You just don't wanna buy me baby
And I think you're a cockroach for trying

* Someday
Someday soon
Life's gonna catch up
On you
Someday soon

** Someday
Someday soon
It's all gonna crash down
On you
Someday soon
But your money won't see you through

*** Gonna lose it all
Gonna lose it all
It's coming soon
Someday soon

Hands off
You don't impress me
Neither do your jewels undress me
Or your car to drive me home
As your diamond studded clown
Back off
You don't get me
Neither does your gold possess me
You just don't wanna buy me baby
Take me around on a lead

* Repeat

** Repeat

*** Repeat

You're gonna lose it all
Gonna lose it all
It's coming soon
Someday soon

* God is looking down upon the shivering ones
Shooting up down on the Wellington Road
And reaching out for their arms
But we don't wanna know
Down on the Wellington Road
Where all tomorrow's peace of mind
Is bought and sold

** Oh but he never gives up on you
Oh no he never gives up on you
No no he never gives up on you
No no he never gives up on you
Up on you
Up on you
Up on you

Life's a little longer on the Wellington Road
Grinding teeth down 'til the money goes cold
We shake our fists at the sky
'Cos we already know
Down on the Wellington road
The only saviours left behind
Are bought and sold

** Repeat
Up on you
Up on you
Up on you
Up on you

* Repeat

* Repeat
Up on you
Up on you
Up on you
Up on you

La la la etc.

He don't give up on you
He don't give up on you
He don't give up on you

I didn't want to write this song
Because I love you and
you've been my friend so long
We were the same when we were young
Living it two as one
All through the scrapes and all the narrow escapes
You pulled me through you made me feel like
I was not insane
We promised that we'd never change
Holding out on the edge

* Today - life's a different story today
Sad and yet not sad in a way
People never do stay the same
And the runaway brothers have had their day

Remember on your wedding day
I must admit I had the strangest feeling then
Outside the Church - we took some flak
Both throwing up round the back
But now when we meet up today
It don't seem right that we just don't know what to say
Not knowing what to do

* Repeat

You've got a job, I understand
You've got a wife, I got the band

I never thought I'd write this song
I never thought that we could change so much - so long
I won't forget you - oh my friend
Here's holding out 'til the end

* Repeat

Whatever happened to the runaway brothers?
Whatever happened to the runaway brothers?

La la la etc.

Rats are in the kitchen scratching
Whispering my name and laughing
Edging up the hall into my bed
Faces on the walls are screaming
Drifting out across the ceiling
Dropping off and falling in my head
All alone
They cut the phones
But then again
There's no-one left to ring
There's gonna be no peace
'til the bones break through my skin

Another night in
Another night in
I shiver within
A slow hand-clap begins
Another night in
Another night in
My skeleton is waiting in the wings
Of a Skeleton grin
Oh no
' Cos I don't know where he stops and I begin

A hundred million bugs are crawling
In and out of every opening
Up and down and over me all night
Looking through my old scrapbook
I search in vain for a pleasant memory
Tearing out my hair 'til it gets light
All alone
I'm heard to groan
My epitaph
"I regret everything"
There's gonna be no sleep
'til the bones break through my skin

Another night in
Another night in
I shiver within
A slow hand-clap begins
Another night in
Another night in
My skeleton is eager in the wings
Of a Skeleton grin
Oh no
' And I don't know where he stops and I begin
It's just another night in
Another night in
I shiver within
A slow hand-clap begins
Another night in
Another night in
Woah my skeleton is waiting in the wing
Of another night in
Just another night in
Woah another night in
Watching the wildlife drift by on the outside
Watching the movement on my bit of sky
Watching my face disappear in the mirror
All in the name of another night in

Woah another night in
Woah another night in
Oh no no this skeleton thing
Feeling the pain of another night in

Mary Poppins killed a dream today
Locked it up and threw the key away
It was a very old and dusty dream
Everybody knows -

There's no time for happiness today
Got a date for lunch a PLASTIC TRAY
Got a deal to sign her life away
Got an early grave she's gotta make
And we are all insane

* Hold on
Slow down
You'll never get to heaven
on this merry-go-round
Turn on
Turn round
You know you're going nowhere
If you keep on going round
The merry-go-round

Christopher Robin blew his friends away
Wrapped 'em up and moved up Barnsley way
Got a job he's milking PLASTIC TRAYS
Got a line in filling early graves

Round and round and round and round he goes
Where he stops well no-one seems to know why
They've forgotten just what he could be
He's the same the same as you and me
We are all insane

* Repeat

Go on
Slow down
You'll never get to heaven on this merry-go-round
Turn on
Turn round
You know you're going nowhere
If you keep on going round
The merry-go-round

La la la la etc.

Don't you know the party's over Queenie?
Why do you wait here alone?
The lights are cold - the music's over Queenie
All your dancing friends have flown
Everybody's grown

But you're still clinging to the old dreams Queenie
A frightened child you won't let go
You try so hard to fit them new clothes Queenie
You try so hard it makes you old
Christ, you look so old

* Give yourself a little treat
Give up these hopeless dreams
Give yourself a little treat
And set yourself free
Give yourself a chance to see
You're exactly what you're meant to be
You're beautiful to me
You're beautiful don't you see
You little Queen
You little Queen
You little Queen
You little Queen

Whilst you pushed against the whole world Queenie
You let your life all slip away
You try so hard to push the clock back Queenie
That you missed out on today
Living yesterdays

* Repeat

Throwing all your love into another commotion
Shooting off your mouth to keep the party in motion
Acting out the role where you don't feel no emotion
Why do you not see
You're already beautiful
Why don't you see
You little Queen
Why can't you see
You little Queen

Sha la la la la you little Queen
Sha la la la la you little Queen
Sha la la la la la you little Queen
Sha la la la la you little Queen
You little Queen
You little Queen
You little Queen

Walking home at 7.30
Past the creatures life's forgotten
She don't look nobody in the eye no more
Queuing up her nose is bleeding
Early morning papers screaming
Don't look up dear
News is out
They've all gone crazy

She's on fire
She whispers suicide
She's slow dissolving
She's every song that ever made you lonely

She don't wanna be so cruel
But it's oh so cruel
when you look in those wasted eyes
She don't wanna be so cruel
But it's oh so cruel
when you look in those wasted coloured eyes

There's no love when you're all wasted out
There's no love when you're all wasted out
There's no love when you're all wasted out

Staying in to kill a new day
Burning letters from her Ma
She lives with the splinters
Throwing up to keep her weight down
A butterfly goes by her window
A whole new world cries out to greet her
She's don't notice
In the darkness of herold room

She's on fire
She walks a suicide
You know she's holding
That picture of the world exploding

She's on fire
All tangled up and wired
She's always holding
She's only ever going to leave you lonely

She don't wanna be so cruel
But it's oh so cruel
when you look in those wasted eyes
She don't wanna be so cruel
But it's oh so cruel
when you look in those wasted coloured eyes

Oh yeah
No she don't mean to hurt you
But she's dying right in front of you tonight
Oh yeah
Oh yeah

There's no love when you're all wasted out
There's no love when you're all wasted out
There's no love when you're all wasted out
There's no love when you're all wasted out
You're all wasted out
You're all wasted out
You're all wasted out

Something in your eyes that says
you've seen the whole of time
A secret hidden in the dirt
That flashes on your smile
A secret we all lost today
Of something once divine
The beauty of the world has flown
I see it in your eyes

Mona Lisa
Mona Lisa smile
Mona Lisa
I'm captured by your disappearing smile

There's no-one left to see ya
'Cos there's no-one left alive
'Cos we're all drunk and Howling
Or stoned out of our minds
Or blind obsessed with shopping
Or clinging to our (husbands) wives
It's a graveyard on the upside
Of these city streets you'll find

* Mona Lisa
Mona Lisa smile
Mona Lisa
Mona Lisa smile

** I just wanna know how to get there
I just wanna know how to break clear

You are the world's forgotten love
Kiss me Mona Lisa
You are the world's forgotten love
Kiss me Mona Lisa

I don't know about you man
But she say I don't belong
I don't know about you man
But she say I don't belong

I don't belong here
I don't belong here

Something in your eyes that says
You've seen it all before
A mystery unfolding
You're a mystery for sure
The mystery gets deeper
when you look into it's eyes
Yes a mystery gets stronger
when you look deep in it's eyes

* Repeat

** Repeat

You are the love we left behind
Touch me Mona Lisa
You are the love we've left behind
Touch me Mona Lisa

I don't know about you man
But I feel that something's wrong
But I don't know about you man
But I feel that something's wrong

There's something wrong here
There's something wrong here

Tell me why she gave me wings
They took away the sky
Tell me why she gave me wings
They took away the sky

Mona Lisa
Do not leave me here tonight
Do not leave me
Do not leave me here tonight

Can you hear me Mona Lisa (X4)

I don't belong here (X4)

Don't you see I'm not from here
Don't you know I'm not from here
Don't you see I'm not from here
Don't you see I'm not from here

I'm counting down the days now
'Til I will reach your side
And cross this space that is between us
See the angels in your eyes
I miss you in the laughter of the river
I miss you in the evening skies
I miss you at the moment of my waking
And when I dream I pray for wings to fly

Got a lot of love to bring back this time
Got a lot of love to bring back this time

I'll love you more than this 'til I die
And you make me alive
You make me alive

Feel the pain of all the days now
Of all the days we spent apart
I remember how I love to watch you sleeping
I've kept your words all safe and warm and dry
I wish that you were here to see the sunrise
I wish that you were here to stop these nights
When I whisper out your name into the silence
How I wish how I pray for wings to fly

Got a lot of love to bring back this time
Got a lot of love to bring back to your side

You know our love will make everything alright
You know our love will make everything alright
Everything alright
Everything alright
Everything alright

Couldn't love you more than this is all I know
Couldn't love you more than this all the angels told
All the angels told
All the angels told

Hey Jesus, won't you come on down Why don't you show yourself We need you more than ever now Preacher, ever since you've goneThis world's been going crazy Going crazy, going wrong This is a message to the sky This is a message to the sky This is a message to the sky You gotta help me You gotta help me You gotta help me to find That certain something lacking here In everybody's lifeYou gotta give me something I can live for here today Give me something I can believe in for today There ain't one thing We got going here today That ain't just simply cruel Hey Jesus, who died for this technology Saving time, it's just saving time Saving time ain't what we need Hey, hey, hey, something's going wrong That something somewhat missing At the heart of everyoneCall out my message My message to the sky You gotta give me something We can believe in for today Give us something We can live for here today There ain't one thing We got going here today That ain't just sickly cruel Am I living with the human human, human machines Human, human, human machinesThis is a message to the sky This is a message to the sky This is a message to the sky You gotta help me You gotta help me You gotta help me somehow C'mon, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon Give us something We can live for here today Give us something We can believe in for today There ain't one thing We got going here today That ain't just simply cruel

I'm not the same as you That's always been the problem It's a problem that we hide away but true Something UNSAID That hangs between the future It's a future that we never had but true I remember stars above her Scattered through this sky just for her And how very much I loved her Beautiful Alone Some people say to you - They want to be your lover They want to turn you into something else not you Same people wait They're saving up their hatred Just for twisting knives into the back of you -I remember stars above her Scattered through this sky just for her And how very much I loved her Beautiful Alone I remember stars above her Scattered through this sky just for her And how very much I loved her Beautiful Alone Beautiful Alone -

SwayTo the breeze all around of this loneliest dayAnd pray I pray to this drink that can wipe me awayFar away For today My life don't belong to me Don't belong to me Don't belong to me So I sway SwayIn the city of grey and it's meaningless dayI crave, crave, crave For something or anything to wipe me awayFar away Far away My life don't belong to me Don't belong to me Don't belong to me Lovedon't belong to me Don't belong to me Don't belong to me The world's out of reach The world's out of reach The world's out of reach of me SwayWipe the blood of the eyes onto blood on the handsYou slave Slave of disorder keep scraping away Every day Becomes every day My life don't belong to me Don't belong to me Don't belong to me Love don't belong to me Don't belong to me Don't belong to me Let me tell you Nothing belongs to me It don't belong to me It don't belong to me The world's out of reach The world's out of reach The world's out of reach The world's out of reach of me The world's out of reach The world's out of reach The world's out of reach The world's out of reach of me SWAY yes I'll sway Forever to stumble across of the flickering dayYes I'll sway Reaching out for the bottle Reach out for the end of the dayReach out for the end of the day

The very next time that you get me wrongWill be the very last time that I ask you alongI'm just to uptight to be waiting around I've taken more than enough to make up my mind Unemotional - I know A futureless peep show All shimmering but it's empty and slow Since I lost my feeling some time ago 20th century cold- My head's plugged in where the sun don't shineWhere there's no room for anybody else Waging chemical warfare against myself Just to get through the day You see I gotta hurry it away Unacceptable - I know I'm an idiot sideshow I'm .. (blah-blah-blah) And I lost my caring some time ago 20th century cold-My heart still beats but I'm cold Don't you feel it Don't you feel it As you breathe it Don't you believe it Don't you see it Can't you feel it Can't you feel it's coldIt's coldApproaching Catatonia It's a quarter to three I see myself reflected In the television screen Somewhere very far away I can hear myself scream And I get that same old feeling Get that same old feeling Get that same old feeling-20th century cold

In my sleep I heard her voice so clearly Whispering my name I thought that she was here Walked the streets Trying to leave her ghost behind me I saw her face, in everything - so clear In the city streets around me In the things I left behind me In the sky that does surround me Everywhere, she's all around me She's all around me Forget your dreams Forget the very nature of your dreams Has gone away She's living with the straights of yesterday Forget yourself Forget the very essence of yourself Has gone away Though remember this - She'll never see you through Waiting for someone to take me to Somewhere I won't leave behind me Somewhere I won't leave behind me to In my life I've lost what I held dearly Thrown it all away And there's nothing takes her place I pace the bars Trying to fill the hole inside me She tore away And there's nothing in her place In the city's filth around me In the things I left behind me In the sky that does surround me Everywhere, she's all around me She's all around me Forget your dreams Forget the very nature of your dreams Has gone away She's living in the blood of yesterday Forget yourself Forget the very essence of yourself Has gone away Remember this - She'll never see you through Waiting for some voice to take me to Somewhere I won't leave behind me Somewhere I won't leave behind me to Somewhere I won't leave behind me to Everywhere she's all around me Everywhere she's all around me Everywhere she's all around me Everywhere she's all around me Forget your dreams Forget the very essence of your dreams Has gone away But remember this - She'll never see you through She'll never, she'll never see you through

Strange does it seem to me now But I once loved that girl Though she tore out the heart of me I loved to see her smile And look into her eyes Though they told that she hated the sight of me She was the way That the love died inside of me It died inside of me Oh and I'll never feel again Oh no I'll never feel againHoly, holy, lowly, lowly Lowly, lowly, low Lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely Lonely, lonely, low Since the love died inside of me

Rat-a-tat-tat on the window Of a casualty dawn The wind's tapping out a message for us A message I already know The wind's picking up as our words becomeThe litter of the night before Words that seem so empty now Blowing round the room Getting twisted and torn Everybody's in their own world Everybody's staring at the floor No-one wanna see the sign in the sky Says people don't talk anymore I don't wanna stay here But I don't think I can go I don't wanna stay here But I really don't think I can go It must have been some evil one It must have been a twisted joke Whoever it was round here Turned on that radio My God it's a sick world Out there on the radio Any way you look at it man Were on our way out At the end of it all I gotta say it's a sick world In here it's a human disgrace Ru saying if we can get some We're gonna make it to the moon But I don't wanna go there But I don't wanna stay No I don't wanna stay here But I really don't think I can go No I really think I can go No I really think I can go No I really think I can go Oh no Oh no Nowhere to go Oh no 'Cause were all going down together, together Yeah, were all going down together, forever Yeah, were all going down forever, forever Yeah, were all going down forever, together Forever, together Together, forever Going down, down, down Going down

Called by the feeling that there must be something more To a place you've never ever been before Where noone goes Yet still you're not alone Yu wonder why As you look into the the sky The clatter-clatter-clatter of electric pylonsAre carrying chattering electric wires Like a spider's web Just above your head It's a spider's web just above your head It's the telephone dead on the internet FliesThe electric skys Sell your friends and Sell your mother You're not coming back forever Flies The electro-skys Of the new world It's the new world Meet the new world nobody can find Caught in the feeling that there must be something more Be a place you've never - ever seen before Where no-one knows Why can't you be alone You wonder why The answer's in the sky The clatter-clap-trap of electric wiring Is scattering stuttering electric lives Like a spider's web Just above your head It's a spider's web just above your head Signed the telephone dead on the internet FliesThe electric skys Kill your friends and Kill your mother You're not coming back forever FliesThe electro-skys Of this new world Meet the new worldGreet the new world nobody can find It's a spider's web Just above your head It's a spider's web Just above your head It's a spider's web Just above your head You FLIES! -

Calling out for someone to take this all awayCalling out for anyone to make it go away Try to kill the picture the flowers in her hairOr taking shots of anything so I don't have to careStaring at a paper cup The emptiness inside She's going high someday She's going high somedayLiving with a photograph is really not the same I've kept it in the suitcase where noone ever came Watching other insects as they feel around my walls They say that taking anything don't change a thing at all Stare again - the photograph The plastic is her mind She's going high someday She's going high someday Crawls up the walls yes she crawls up the walls-Staring at my body Christ! It isn't mine at allCrying out for someone to make it go awayTo take away this photograph so I can live againStaring at the plastic cups The emptiness inside She's going high someday She's going high someday- Crawls up the walls yes she crawls up the walls- Now I'm waiting for that day Yes, I'm waiting here that day Crawls up the walls yes she crawls up the walls-

I'll throw my stone life.......

These days I feel I've been left high and dry
In a land where the sea don't touch the sky
Where no moon
Bring no tide
Where no sail
Can arrive
For no ship can return her into mine
I hope that where I'm going won't be long

Because my heart has sunk
Into a sea of black
Because the end has come
And now the end has sunk
Into the sea of black
So deep and slow

I'll throw my stone life.......

I will drift 'cross this sea
With my wooden memory
I will drift 'cross this sea until I die
Hear no voice
See no smile
Feel no love
By my side
For no ship can return her back in time
Remember where you're going won't be long


And when your heart has sunk
There is no coming back
Because the end has come
And now the end has sunk
Into the sea of black
I throw my stone of stone lives
I 'll throw my stone life...
...into the sea of black

These days I feel I've been left high and dry
In this land where the feeling's just not right

And no moon
Bring no tide
Where no sail
Can arrive
And no ship will return her into mine
Remember where you're going won't be long....

I find it difficult to think
When I'm shaking this much
Why don't you try to understand
If you understand so much

I've been awake
I've been awake for so long

And the man in the moon
Has got it in for me
He's been a-messing with my mind
I've been a-messing with my own mind

Here comes the next line
I don't want to die
Waiting for the next line
Still don't want to die
Over it's over
No more
Never again

The whole of living invention
Has got it in for me
They've been a-listening in
OPO-radio listening in

I'm still awake
I'm still awake after so long

Here comes the next line
I don't want to die
Waiting for the next line
Still don't want to die
Over it's over
No more
Never again

Try to remember the time
for the rest of your life is close by
Christ - I've remembered again
that the rest of my life's wandering by
And it's killing me
It is killing me
It is killing me

Cause inside me it feels like I'm falling
But I can't let go, no I can't let go
Just holding on to the life that holds me
cause I can't let go
No I just can't let things go

The dream that I had
Was a dream in a waking world
Just a dream that I had
In my dreaming world
That I had was a dream in a waking world
And it's a waking world

So why do I always return here
just to try and forget for a while
Christ - what on earth will it
take me to realise
I can't get out of my mind

Cause inside me it feels like I'm falling
But I can't let go, no I can't let go
Just holding on to the life that holds me
cause I can't let go
No I just can't let things go

No-one will love you in a thousand years
No-one will love you in a thousand years
No-one will love you in a thousand years
No-one will love you in a thousand years

What I want to know
Is what I want to love
Is what I want to love now

Try to remember the time
for the rest of your life is close by
Christ - I've remembered again
that the rest of my life's wandering by
And it's killing me
It is killing me
It is killing me

Cause inside me it feels like I'm falling
But I can't let go, no I can't let go
Just holding on to the life that holds me
cause I can't let go
No I just can't let things go

No-one will love you in a thousand years
No-one will love you in a thousand years
No-one will love you in a thousand years

Just holding on to the life that holds me
cause I can't let go
No I just can't let things go

Quiet day
Reminds me of ice
Quiet sound
Lies stark against my life
For in my head there is a rattling noise
A carnival of so much meaningless noise
Tins a-clattering
Full of this and that
Urging me forward
Pushing me back

Turn away
Turn yourself away again
Screaming into sleep the pain of 
Quiet day

I see a grey girl from my window passing by
I put my drink down and cry
Things are shattering
Everywhere around
Is telling me something
Breaking me down

Turn away
Turn yourself away again
Screaming into sleep the pain of 
Quiet day

You can't do anything
You can't do anything
You can't do anything
No you can't
No you can't
No you can't

Quiet day
Reminds me of night
Quiet sound
Push still against my life
For in my head there is a movement of noise
The electricity of meaningless noise
Wires a-rattling
Sending this and that
Urging me forward
Pushing me back

You can't do anything
You can't do anything
You can't do anything
No you can't
No you can't
No you can't

And I'm standing in the sand above your head
I'm gonna pack my flag
and dance now, while I'm dying
And the pair of fools stood
there and I'm stood here
Because it's closer in my mind
and I don't have to tell'm just how I feel

And all the while I feign sleep
And all the while I feign sleep

Reflecting I can see nothing more
The words that I cannot understand
And people within faces I'll forget
I'm not real anymore

And all the while I feign sleep
And all the while I feign sleep

And now I'm working in the way of mystery
I'm gonna kill
that inspiration that might save me
And the shame
that's in my head it carved me through
It's a shame I can't explain why each moment
a confusion that is always

And all the while I feign sleep
And all the while I feign sleep

Good morning grey
Replace me for another day
And fill my time
So all that's here cannot remind
World and me
Tend to somewhat disagree
You and I
Are like the world and me

But I don't mind because I'm losing touch
Of the twisting in, of the senselessness
Of the words you spoke and yet
are still unlocked
They will return
I will burn

Goodbye my true
I can't forget you'd see me through
You'd see me
through Once upon a life unseen
Thoughts and you
They were the difference that I knew
Thoughts and you
The only difference that I knew

Walking from the day that just returns
And now before and now behind again
This memory I feel has yet to come
I will burn

So I bought another day
And sitting cold I watched it quietly slip away
I don't believe another day
They go so slow
they go so quickly in another way
But it don't matter anymore
Cause nothing thrills me anymore
Not anymore

My expectations were too much
I should have known the things that mean
That much can only ever fall
Disallusionment has hold
Though I'm not certain
what this means to me at all
Cause it don't matter anymore
Cause nothing touches me at all
No not at all

I can only go this far
People only go this far
I can only go so far
People only go so far 

So I'll buy another day
And sitting cold I'll watch it quietly slip away
I don't believe another day
They go so slow
they go so quickly in another way
But it don't matter anymore
Cause nothing thrills me anymore
Not anymore

I can only take so much
People only take so much
I can only take this much
People only take this much

Out there
Out so far I know you can't see
Oh so close, so close you can't see
They are living their lives just to crucify me

In here
I wonder what the meaning could be
I wonder why it's following me
I am living my life to pretend that I'm not me

World outside my window
Falling down
World outside my inside
Upside down

Out there
They are out to get me you know
They're trying to find out just what I know
They are using their time just to petrify me
Oh let me go
Let me go, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know

World outside my window
Falling down
World outside my inside
Upside down

Everybody has told me
That they know what is true
Everything that they've told me
Amounts to nothing I can use

In there
In so deep that no one can see
Over what they don't want to see
They are living this lie in order to single out me
In here
I want to stay in here, make it clear
Stay away from me, can't you see
I am living this way just to keep you away

World outside my window
Falling down
World outside my inside
Upside down

World absurd
World outside

I think I can rememberof a picture in my eyes
Something of dreams that was taken away
I'm trying to remember
through my clouded dull and restless mind
The thoughts they try and stop me now
From finding a way Like thorns in my way
It's something of dreams that was taken away
The return of the real me
The return of the real me

I feel I am recalling to a long-forgotten time
I'm making out a clearing
in my only once but useless mind
Somewhere I had that was taken away
The return of the real me

Oh, the return
Of this frightened child
Who could see through their lives
Who could see what he liked
Just what he liked
Just what he liked

Oh please say you'll never leave here
Now I've found me after so long
Time for one to take things over
I can sleep now this is over

Praise the return of the real me
Praise the return of the real me -

I'm a minstrel strolling through your garden
There's a place I ran free as a child
There's my face of innocent reflection
Living in the water and the sound
I will play my music while you're sleeping
You will wake and take me by the hand
I will wonder of this moment sometime later
Frozen by the change inside my head

And all because of you-

I can sing or stare across the ocean
Shout a cry beneath the various sky
Walk around in circles 'til I'm dying
Make the shapes accustom while I hide
But all of which I felt was of a meaning
Colours that would fascinate each time
The songs
that kept me living in a strange world
No longer hold a radiance in my eyes

And all because of you -

I forgot myself today
The living daylights far away
I made my pictures dance and say
"We're not feeling any pain"
There was no one even near
To remind me of the fear

Laughing with everything-

I could stay here for a while
In a trance that lasts for miles
I'd make my words float round and smile
They're not feeling any time

Laughing with everything-

I forgot myself today
Prison ship tied far away
Words and pictures make me say
"I'm not feeling any pain"

Laughing with everything -

You are a lonely child
Nobody prays for you
Sadly, faces will remind
That you're not real anymore
Shadow sleep softly
Dreams will fill your mind

You are a frightened child
Nobody knows of you
Sadly, people that you never understood
Bring you more heartache
Sleep softly
Dreams will fill your mind

When I was young and scared of the dark
I used to just lie there and shake
'Til I built a dream that made this okay
Its music would sing me asleep
To a special place
Wherefore I know not
But the voices were soft all around
Over their breeze
Me and my kite friend
Would laugh at the heavy ground

You are the only one
Nobody cares for truth
Sadly, faces will remind
That you're not real anymore
Shadow, sleep softly
Dreams will fill your mind
Dream softly
Sleep will fill your mind

Dreams will fill your mind -

Voice that leads me on
As distant as the days before are gone
Something I have lost
Has left a space that keeps me stumbling on
Search through the rain and the sun
or the night for the day I will find
Watch all the moments are tumbling through
Like the clouds I will leave them behind
They fade
I want to fade

Is there a place for me
Somewhere
Is there a place for me
From stone against stone against stone
in my way

Cry that holds me down
Is closer than the fear of what's to come
Somehow I must change
Uncertainty has left me here undone
Search through the stars and the shapes in the
sky for the day I will find
Look for a sign with my eyes I could see
as it quiets my mind
They fade
I want to fade

Is there a place for me
Somewhere
Is there a place for me
From stone against stone against stone
in my way

Out,
Out of my hands
These prisoner's hands that carved me through
with stone
And that's the stone of my heart
A prisoner's heart that can't feel love
I'm told
Told of another time
Another place
Another
Is there a place for me somewhere

I've got to find somewhere

I'm getting younger every day
Every fading day, world
How could you possibly explain
My hatred of you

Don't want to sleep,
An empty eye
That look at me when I despise
Go anywhere, as far away
Lie quietly down
And die in shame

Hysteria - I'm giving my life to you
Unknown - It's all that's left to do
Hysteria - Throwing my life away
Unknown - For you to rip ways
Hysteria - Make me okay

And do you recall,
That we used to walk around in the very central point of this world
And shall I recall
Well the feelings felt, the force to the sun

Might I say
It's sometimes good to know that you're insane
Might I say
I get the feeling I could be the same

Hysteria - I'm giving my life to you
Unknown - It's all that's left to do
Hysteria - I'm throwing my life away
Unknown - For you to rip ways
Hysteria - Make me okay
Hysteria, hysteria, hysteria

I am divided every day
Every night to day, should
Oh should I not choose to explain
My hatred of you

That living me
That talking me
That hear the cry
I would be free
To anyway as far away
Lies quietly sound
Whose dying shame

Hysteria - I'm giving my life to you
Unknown - It's all that's left to do
Hysteria - I'm throwing my life away
Unknown - For you to rip ways
Hysteria - Make me okay

I look again at visions,
They won't go away,
Calling and changing and making me strange

I try to think them away
I close my eyes to the day
Is no one safe? I will pray
For time alone

See them everywhere
They know me well I know them well
They are everywhere
Sometimes near but always there

I stare once more at those shapes
That shine as the day
Turning and changing and hanging so strange

Caught up I've made me afraid
They dance to change me astray
I close my eyes to the day
For time alone

Round and around
Waiting for the silence
Too much, overwound
On my knees up from the ground

Visionary cares
Visionary cares

They are everywhere
Of every moment of every day
See them everywhere
Sometimes near but always there

I look again at visions,
That won't go away,
Calling and changing and leaving me strange

I try to think them away
I close my eyes to the day
Is nowhere safe? I will pray
For time alone

See them everywhere
They know me well I know them well
They are everywhere
Sometimes near but always there

They are everywhere
Of every moment of every day
See them everywhere
Sometimes near but always there

All the bright young things are talking
Showing off their wings and squawking
PLaying games and singing dirges
All in circles at the zoo

Pupil with the frigid eyes
Is pouring out the liquor prizes
Shrieking from inside my head
And all in cages at the zoo

You cruel zoo, you
Cruel zoo, you

Each desire is chosen
And provided courtesy the zoo
See each face - each blind indulgence
All in circles at the zoo

They will lock you up with dogma
You'll forget that it was there
Everyone will be the same one
All in cages at the zoo

You cruel zoo, you
Cruel zoo, you

So beware of supervision
Know your keeper
And destroy him
Changing mind until you find
There's no more cages at the zoo

You cruel zoo, you
Cruel zoo, you

You cruel zoo, you
Cruel zoo, you

You cruel zoo, you
Cruel, cruel zoo

The very next time that you get me wrong
Will be the very last time that I ask you along
I'm just to uptight to be waiting around
I've taken more than enough to
make up my mind

Unemotional - I know
A futureless peep show
All shimmering but it's empty and slow
Since I lost my feeling some time ago

20th century cold-

My head's plugged
in where the sun don't shine
Where there's no room for anybody else
Waging chemical warfare against myself
Just to get through the day
You see I gotta hurry it away
Unacceptable - I know
I'm an idiot sideshow
I'm .. (blah-blah-blah)
And I lost my caring some time ago

20th century cold-

My heart still beats but I'm cold

Don't you feel it
Don't you feel it
As you breathe it
Don't you believe it
Don't you see it
Can't you feel it
Can't you feel it's cold
It's cold

Approaching Catatonia
It's a quarter to three
I see myself reflected
In the television screen
Somewhere very far away
I can hear myself scream

And I get that same old feeling
Get that same old feeling
Get that same old feeling-

20th century cold

In my sleep
I heard her voice so clearly
Whispering my name
I thought that she was here

Walked the streets
Trying to leave her ghost behind me
I saw her face, in everything - so clear

In the city streets around me
In the things I left behind me
In the sky that does surround me
Everywhere, she's all around me
She's all around me

Forget your dreams
Forget the very nature of your dreams
Has gone away
She's living with the straights of yesterday
Forget yourself
Forget the very essence of yourself
Has gone away
Though remember this -
She'll never see you through
Waiting for someone to take me to
Somewhere I won't leave behind me
Somewhere I won't leave behind me to

In my life
I've lost what I held dearly
Thrown it all away
And there's nothing takes her place
I pace the bars
Trying to fill the hole inside me
She tore away
And there's nothing in her place

In the city's filth around me
In the things I left behind me
In the sky that does surround me
Everywhere, she's all around me
She's all around me

Forget your dreams
Forget the very nature of your dreams
Has gone away
She's living in the blood of yesterday
Forget yourself
Forget the very essence of yourself
Has gone away
Remember this -
She'll never see you through
Waiting for some voice to take me to
Somewhere I won't leave behind me
Somewhere I won't leave behind me to
Somewhere I won't leave behind me to

Everywhere she's all around me
Everywhere she's all around me
Everywhere she's all around me
Everywhere she's all around me

Forget your dreams
Forget the very essence of your dreams
Has gone away
But remember this -
She'll never see you through
She'll never, she'll never see you through

I'm not the one that you wanted
I'm not the one that you need
You hold my hand, but it's not me
Who's holding your hand in your dreams
I'm not the one that you wanted
No, I'm not the one that need

Oh, but it's cruel to me
Cos I'm holding on, holding on, holding on, holding on to you
I'm holding on to you

I'm not the one you so hoped for
I'm not the one you so need
I watch you sleep but it's not me
You search through in your dreams for each night
I'm not the one that you wanted
No, I'm not the one that you need

Jeremy Handlebars loved Sarah Jane Thomson,
Sarah Jane Thomson loved Jeremy Handlebars,
They were going to be married,
And they were going to spend the rest of their lives together
And be very very happy
And that, as Jeremy Handlebars so often said, was that.

Sarah giggled,
It wasn't quite the proposal she'd imagined,
But that was Jeremy all over once he'd made his mind up
He was just so decisive she thought,
And she wished that she could be like that to.

Jeremy said that it was destiny that had brought them together
And that no one, not even he, could defy the will of God,
So there was no use in either of them fighting it,
Or even pretending to,
It was more a case of ironing out the practical details
And making sure everything ran smoothly on the day.

I mean, there was the question of the cake,
And the flowers of course,
And then, who to invite,
And then, who not to invite,
I mean, where did you draw the line with a thing like this?

Sarah smiled as she stopped listening, and drifted off,
It was true, she could still remember that first day they'd met,
As vividly as if it was now,
And her attention swung back to five years ago,
And that car boot sale in Norwich,
When she thought of how she might nearly not have gone,
She shuddered.

Sarah's parents lived quite near Norwich,
And on the weekend in question,
She had gone back there on a sort of a visit,
Her mum had phoned her up in one of her hysterical states.
Between the sobbing, Sarah learnt that Dad had started drinking whiskeys in the morning again
This time he'd threatened Miss Hand-me-down-lightly, the Lollypop Lady.
By sticking a shotgun in her throat,
And calling her a 'Handmaiden of the devil'
Before unloading into the air and falling down unconscious.
It was just another incident in a long line of them,
But Sarah's mum went through stages where she just could not cope anymore,
And then Sarah would have to go back there for a while,
"Shit!", she thought,
And got on the next train home.

She knew there was nothing anyone could do about Dad,
But she felt sorry for her Mum,
And liked to tell herself that she loved her,
And anyway, there was no point in changing the rules of the game this late in the second half,

It was the usual carry-on when she arrived,
Her mother cried and cried,
While Sarah cooked food for her father,
Which he threw against the walls,
Then at about seven-thirty each evening,
And always a little worse for it,
He'd go outside and sit in his car,
Wind the window up,
Shout the word "Slags!"
Over and over again
As loud as he could,
Til he fell down into a drunken sleep.
Then they'd carry him inside,
And put him to bed.

It was these screams of her father,
That accompanied Sarah upon the walks she took,
After she'd sneaked out of the house,
And strolled along the B1172,
As it meanders its way into Norwich.

Absentmindedly, she happened upon the car boot sale,
And really didn't know why or what she was doing there,
Until she saw it,
And then everything went clear.

The gun cost seventy-five quid,
And, after a moment's dilemma, followed by some mental calculations,
She decided seventy-five was well worth it to blow that bastard's brains out.
With glazed eyes, and, to be quite honest, looking like a bit of a nutter,
She stretched out her hand, with the intention of making the gun hers.

Now, at that exact moment, a truly rare occurrence in this universe,
As it really was that exact moment,
Somebody else she hadn't noticed, and who hadn't noticed her,
Stretched out his hand to take the very very same gun.
It was Jeremy.

The gun, her hand, and his hand, all made contact at the exact same instant,
Eyes and barrels all meeting simultaneously,
Giving rise to what can only be described as something like a sort of true human communication,
A real one off, that allowed understanding to flood through and from and into each other,
All Sarah's murder impulse was exactly and oppositely reconverted into a passionate desire,
Meant with a deep-felt admiration, respect and love for this stranger.
Jeremy said he felt the same,
So they went for expresso's at Caldidge, which is so convenient when it's just round the corner,

They laughed as their stories unravelled,
Especially when Jeremy revealed coincidentally,
That he was there looking for a gun to empty all over his Mum,
And she drank too,
And when he'd been away on a two week Communications Course, which work had sent him on,
She had forgotten to feed his fish,
And he's returned to find them sunny-side down and motionless, mid-tank.

He'd loved them fish,
And he believed that they knew and loved him too,
They were in fact, unbeknownst to his mum,
His closest and most treasured companions,
He told how he sat frozen for a week after he found them,
And how his only contact reality,
Had become the sound of the distant tinkling of smashing glasses,
Mixed in with the cackling laughter of his mother,
As she entertained the local drunks upstairs,
And the stench of ghost haddock,
Which seemed to permeate the entire accommodation block.

He told how he'd remained in this trance,
The gun theory slowly revealed itself to him,
And as it cleared, he woke to find himself driving through the outskirts of Norwich.

As he later went on to explain to Sarah, he had never been to Norwich and it held no fascination for him whatsoever,
In this sense at least, he seemed a normal and sane man, Sarah reasoned,
And indeed, in many ways, we may assume that he was.

They, of course, bought the gun as a token of their love,
Jeremy paid for it like proper men do.
That was five years ago now,
And Sarah sighed as she returned to what she understood to be the present time.

Their wedding came and went in relative safety,
It was not interesting,
In fact, the next significant event to occur in their lives,
Was some five years later.
With some understanding this intermediate period is necessary,
For fuller understanding of what was to follow.

Jeremy and Sarah melted,
They abandoned their own identities and grew into each other,
As time dragged on their branches became so complicatedly intertwined
That it was impossible to tell from which person they had originated.
They choked the individuality of each other in a frenzy that only the terror of loneliness will allow.

Now, neither knew the other, or themselves,
But clung to feigned personalities,
They believed the other required of them.
Their truly sickening and spineless existence,
Based upon complete reliance upon one another.
But at least they were not lonely!
And respite did occur in the form of hobbies,
Which they pretended to share and enjoy,
But, in fact, did not.

The irritation they so often felt for one another,
They denied,
But it would surface occasionally in sporadic eruptions of screaming and violence,
Usually directed at the useless artefacts society offered them as distractions from each other;
The TV, the microwave, and the dish-washer,
Sat as cold and silent witnesses to their futility,
But they did have their uses,
As the time spent working to get them,
Would have been time they'd have to have spent with each other,
In other words, and put much more simply than this,
They became what is commonly known as a right couple.

The next significant event, then,
Was some five years after they'd tied the knot.
Jeremy was at work, doing his job at "Fishy Business Aquariums",
Where he looked after the fish,
And Sarah was at home rearranging their possessions,
She never did seem to be able to get it quite right,
She sat down and sighed absent-mindedly,
Picked up and toyed with the gun which had brought them together,
Ten years ago that day,
Which was kept, pride of place, on their mantelpiece,
And which Jeremy insisted on being kept loaded,
When it just went off.

The bullet went straight through her,
Where her liver was,
Blood and bile and pancreatic juice,
Splattered against the wall behind her,
The three different fluids started dripping down the wall,
And it looked like some weird kind of a race,
And when one drop mixed in with another, they would hurry each other along,
On the descent to the floor.
Or when one drop strayed into the path another one had already taken,
That would speed it along too.
And when the dripping stopped,
And it dried up,
It looked good.

When Jeremy arrived home to find his beloved floating mid-tank, as it were,
Something snapped inside him,
Maybe it could have been something to do with electricity,
Or maybe not
But anyway his brain, his brain just shut off,
And he stood there for about an hour completely motionless,
And then, when he started moving again,
He was talking as if nothing had happened!
He playfully scolded her, as one scolds a small child, for the mess she'd made on the wall.
And then he cleared it up with a new kind of liquid,
Which did do the job really well,
And as he did so, he carried on talking normally to her,
The fact Sarah had never been much of a talker, and tended to drift off,
Was an enormous help in maintaining his delusion,
He also found, that as he dragged the corpse from room to room with him,
It was best if he heightened his conversation to an excited jabbering,
And unloaded all the banalities and problems he'd encountered at work,
Or just talked anxiously about his money worries.
Either way, it really helped.

The fact that their coupledom had made them extremely uncomfortable in front of other people,
Due to the absurdity of their false roles,
Had meant that visitors had not been welcome in the flat for many years,
So that was 'no problemo' either.

In fact, Jeremy soon found this new state of affairs rather to his liking,
Even when the body started to putrefy and fall apart,
He lovingly transported the separate bits from room to room,
And carefully reassembled them,
Just the way he remembered her,
He really didn't feel lonely at all.

His favourite bits were her beautiful eyes,
Which, after they had become detached from the mother-head,
He kept in his pocket,
And would affectionately fondle,
Especially when he felt nervous,
Or he was outside,
And sometimes when the mood was right at night,
He'd pick up an ear, and place it to his mouth,
And mumble secrets about love and desire,
And if he could find all the right bits,
He'd lovingly carry them to his bed,
Where he'd fall upon them and wriggle and moan,
On these special occasions, he'd take the eyes out of his pocket,
And place them on the pillow,
And as he lay there writhing on what was left of the body,
Her eyes would stare frozen cold and emotionless at the ceiling.

Jeremy Handlebars didn't feel lonely at all