Oleander

i would say i'm sorry if i thought that it would change your mind
but i know that this time if have said too much been too unkind
i would break down at your feet and beg forgiveness plead with you
but i know that it's no use cuz now there's nothing i can do

i try to laugh about it
cover it all up with lies
i try to laugh about it
hiding the tears in my eyes

'cause boys don't cry
boys don't cry

i would tell you that i love you if i thought that you would stay
but i know that it's too late 'cause you've already gone away

misjudged you limits
pushed you too far
took you for granted
i thought that you needed me more, more, more, more

i would do most anything to get you back by my side
but i'll just keep on laughing
hiding the tears in my eyes

'cause boys don't cry
boys don't cry

it's a corner that you turn
it's a lesson that you learned in time

it's a worry that you feel,
another scar that you conceal from sight

have i been away to long for me to say,
have i been away to long for things to change

from a runaway train,
caught beneath the wheels of a runaway train

every moment of that day
i felt it crumbling away,
if i only had myself to blame
for all the cracks within the frame that i find

from a runaway train,
caught beneath the wheels of a runaway train
i know how it feels,
to be a runaway train

it's alright, it's ok, it's alright

Here we go
Closer to the end
Let me know
I'll be your only friend
Things you thought you understood
Are all the things I lack
So sorry

And I'd leave it all behind
With no regard for what I'll find
In time you'll see
That you can't breathe without me
Life and times go by

Well I know nothing is ok
Will it show if I try to numb the pain?
Things you thought you understood
Are all the things I'm not
So sorry and so afraid

There's nowhere left to turn
There's no one left to burn
There's nothing left to gain
There's no one left to blame

Time after time
Didn't mean to let you down
Tried to turn it all around
Time after time
If I tell you that I'd try
It's be another lie

Cause I'm the king of good intentions
I always let you down
I'm the king of good intentions
I'm never around
Don't it blow your mind to see
Honey you are just like me
You're just like me

There's nowhere left to go
Nothing left to show
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you

Don't it blow your mind to see
Honey you are just like me

You got to get it to give away
You got to give it to get away

Outside feelin' kind of faded
Inside I'm holdin' conversations

You got to give it to get away
You got to get it to give away

You got to get some
Come on and get some
You know you want some
Come on and get it then

Landslide comin' up behind you
Joyride hope they never find you

You got to get it to give away
You got to give it to get away

Get it to give away
Give it to get away

Get it

Some say life is what you make it
Some say life is for the taking
As for me I'm only getting by

Somewhere somebody is waiting
Somewhere someone is escaping
As for me I'm only killing time
It's your time

Sometimes you set the bar too high
Well better luck next time
Looks like you took the turn too wide
Better luck next time
Another dent is in your pride

Searching headlights on the ceiling
I need something more revealing
Cause I feel stranded here in my own life
In my life

Better luck next time

Another rainy day, sunlight in your eyes
I sleep the day away, without you by my side
I want to save the world, I want to save my self
But I covered over grey, another rainy day

Raise my hand and wave goodbye
I tell myself I'll be alright
Another hour, I'll be sky high
Doing my best to hold on tight
I close my eyes and come back down
Lose myself inside your smile -
and stay there for awhile

Another Rainy Day, and all I have is time
I waste the day away, and watch the world go by
You wanna save the world, you wanna save yourself
But you covered over grey, another rainy day

Raise my hand and wave goodbye
I tell myself I'll be alright
Another hour, I'll be sky high
Doing my best to hold on tight
I close my eyes and come back down
Lose myself inside your smile -
and stay there for awhile

Raise my hand and wave goodbye
I tell myself I'll be alright
Another hour, I'll be sky high
Doing my best to hold on tight
I close my eyes and come back down
Lose myself inside your smile -
Be home for awhile

Hey, you can't complain about the sunshine
When you're feeling a flatline
And you're stuck in a low

Hey, don't want to hear about the way you feel
When you're the only one to sign the deal
Your bed is made and you're lying in it

I can't remember my name
Strung out and feelin' the blame
Somebody said that you can't deny it
You're too high again

Hey, you can't complain that you went too hard
Abused your body with no regard
And now you feel like shit

Hey, you'd like to think that nobody knows
You'd like to think that it never shows
You'd like to think that you got away with it

You're too high again

What's my name

What can I say?
When every word you won't believe anyway
No promise made
Just means there's nothing wrong today

What can I do?
Cause I could never make things up to you
And we both knew
That if things didn't change it'll all be thrown away

Don't break my fall
Cause things look better from down here
To lose it all
Just means another chance for you to
Gain it back again
And maybe even have a laugh my friend

What can I hide?
When every feelings locked down deep inside
My hands are tied
But I'm hangin' on
And I'm hangin' in

Sure do like the sound of it

Don't, don't it make you sad
To lose the things you love
For what you never had.
Don't, don't it make you cry
To feel the broken time
And always wonder why.

Don't it make you feel like your hands are off the wheel
Like your hands are off the wheel
Don't it tear you down don't it turn your world around
Don't it love to let you down.

Don't, don't it make your day
To gather up your strength
And feel it slipping away
How, how much can you take
Before you fall apart
Before you start to break

Don't it make you feel like your hands are off the wheel
Like your hands are off the wheel
Don't it tear you down don't it turn your world around
Don't it love to let you down.

Close your eyes it's only no surprise you're not alone.

Don't it make you sad to lose the ones you love

Don't it make you feel like your hands are off the wheel
Like your hands are off the wheel
Don't it tear you down don't it turn your world around
Don't it love to let you down.

Don't it make you feel don't it make you feel
Like it's carrying you down down down down
Like your hands are off the wheel
Like your hands are off the wheel

some of us never see the light
until it's out of sight
give up without a fight
some of use fall and never get up
swear that it's not their fault
swear that it's not their fault
evolution will turn your life around
from feeling safe and sound
to the lost and found
you and me, well, we are the same
I feel you loss, your joy, your pain
shouldering the blame

cuz, I've been there
never again, never again
will I allow myself to drown

some of us never take advice
so then we pay the price
with every toss of the dice
some of us never see the light
until it's out of sight
give up without a fight

evolution will turn your life around
from feeling safe and sound
to the lost and found
you and me, well, we are the same
I feel you loss, your joy, your pain
shouldering the blame

cuz, I've been there
never again, never again
will I allow myself to drown
cuz, I've wasted too much time
too many years of my life letting others down

heard it from a friend who
heard it from a friend who

cuz, I've been there
never again, never again
will I allow myself to drown
cuz, I've wasted too much time
too many years of my life letting others down
cuz, I've been there
never again, never again
will I allow myself to drown

some of use never wee the light
until it's out of sight
give up with out a fight

Halo
by Oleander




And it's always little things
That to the surface brings
The comfort in the pain
The fear behind the smile
We lose along the way
The things we leave behind
Along the precipice
Of things we should not climb
And I'm the first in line
There's an anchor around my heart
Dragging me down
Beneath the waves in silence I fall
There's a halo above my head
Spinning me 'round
'Cause I don't know if I'm alive or dead
A dagger in my hand
Bleeding me dry

And it's always little things
That to the surface brings
The space you need to breathe
Before the curtain call
The light that leads the way
Before you hit the wall
The mountain that you climb
Just to take a fall
For blind among the blind

There's an anchor around my heart
Dragging me down
Beneath the waves in silence I fall
There's a halo above my head
Spinning me 'round
'Cause I don't know if I'm alive or dead

There's a dagger in my hand
Bleeding me dry

And all we have to lose is time
And what lose we leave behind
Stay around and we will shine

Memories and silence fills each room
Overwhelming heavy as the tidal waves consume
Buried underneath the dust & gloom
Relics are reminders of my family of two

Pictures of a happy bride and groom
Ferry rides around the harbor on our honeymoon
Wedding gifts of pots and pans
Sleeping while were holding hands
It's grace he lays upon us as we spoon

How could I ever be so blind that I could not see
How could I ever stray from what has meant so much to me
How could I ever gain her trust without the guarantees
Of who I am or where I'll be

So now we live in fear of the unknown
Insecure and skepticle her trust in me is blown
Despite the past we face we both have grown
Through the pain to find the strength together or alone

How could I ever be so blind that I could not see
How could I ever stray from what has meant so much to me
How could I ever gain her trust without the guarantees
Of who I am or where I'll be

How could I ever be so blind that I could not see
How could I ever stray from what has meant so much to me
How could I ever gain her trust without the guarantees
Of who I am or where I'll be

the deeper you get the more you sink into it
faster you fall the more you crawl away from it
we're siamese at the knees she said and we're weighted
we're siamese if you please and she said and we're weighted

we are right here with you
we are right here with you

the more that you make the less you should take from others
the longer you live the more you should give to your brothers
we're siamese at the knees she said and we're weighted
we're siamese if you please and she said and we're weighted

we are right here with you
we are right here with you
you came the wait is over
and now your mine
and you 'll never ever be alone

can't believe how much you've grown in such a short time
can't believe how much you've grown and are growing
ornery, but lovingly you scream when your hungry
can't believe how much you've grown and are growing
right in front of my eyes

we are right here with you
we are right here with you
you came the wait is over
and now your mine

sooner or later you and me will be lost dumb blind and free
sooner or later you and i won't have anywhere to hide
sooner or later everone catches up to the things they've done
sooner or later everone will get down as and kick it
unwind, cut the ties, open wide and wait

sooner or later things you say catch up and they make you pay
sooner or later things you do they hurt only me and
sooner or later everone catches up to the things they've done
sooner or later everone will get down as we kick it

unwind, cut the ties, open wide and wait

oh, where were you then
oh, where were you then
honey, sorry hey hey la la
oh, where were you then

sooner or later things you say catch up and they make you pay
sooner or later things you do they hurt only me and

oh, where were you then
oh, where were you then
honey, sorry hey hey la la
oh, where were you then

even if we say we do, it don’t mean that we will
it don’t mean that we’re going to
even if we say we’ll try it don’t mean
that we’ll have the opportunity

all this time weighed out unrefined
twisted and unkind. all mine
all this pain suddenly arranged
a relationship that i’ve denied

my backs against the wall
i stumble and fall down
sometimes i scream
I’m scratchin’ at my head
I’d rather be dead than not in your arms
in your arms, in your arms

even if we say we do it don’t mean that we will
it don’t mean that we’re going to
even if we say we’ll try it don’t mean
that we’ll have the opportunity

my backs against the wall
i stumble and fall down
sometimes i scream
i’m scratchin’ at my head
i’d rather be dead than not
in your arms, in your arms, in your arms
my backs against the wall
i stumble and fall down
and sometimes i scream

my backs against the wall
i stumble and fall down
sometimes i scream
i’m scratchin’ at my head
i’d rather be dead than not
in your arms, in your arms, in your arms
my backs against the wall
i stumble and fall down
and sometimes i scream

i can't take this anymore
and i'm almost pretty sure
i've been here before
i can't take this any longer
i won't heal until im stronger
strong enough to not be afraid
of what anybody thinks
of what anybody says
about the way
about the way i am
i'll wait until the day
when those feelings fade away
then i'll make my break

i can't take this anymore
and i'm almost pretty sure
i've been here before
i can't take this any longer
i won't heal until i'm stronger
strong enough to not be afraid
i'll leave it up to you
yeah i'll leave it in your hands
respect your wishes and your demands
oh if it was up to me
honey we'd already be back at home
and living out our dreams
living out

everybody everything i've known
never taught me how to stand up on my own
had to learn it from the one who let me go
now i walk alone, yeah i walk alone, yeah

living blissfully

guess you had to step away
to make me want to be
a bigger man, a bigger man than that
i need you by my side
as i take it all in stride
I put away, i put away my pride
oh i leave it up to you
yeah i leave it in your hands
respect your wishes and your demands
oh if it was up to me
honey we'd already be back at home
and living out

everbody everything i've known
never taught me how to stand up on my own
had to learn it from the one who let me go
now i walk alone
yeah I walk alone, yeah
i walk alone
i walk alone
i walk alone
i walk alone
i walk, oh yeah

It's the reason for my pain
In a season to celebrate
I don't wanna be full of hate
For anybody, but it's too late

Everyone has been in my face
Tellin' me that I'm a disgrace
Showin' me things that I must face
Tellin' me that they need their space

I can't love you anymore
I'm scared of the sound of it

It's the reason why I'm down
I'm beaten, been pushed around
Hit the ceiling without a sound
Everyone I know considers me a clown

I can't love you anymore
I'm scared of the sound of it
And woman, I just wanted more

I can't love you anymore
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm scared of the sound of it
And woman, I just wanted more

Ooh, ooh
It's the reason why I'm here
It's the reason why I'm here
It's the reason why I'm here
It's the reason