They say you're the way the light The light is so blinding Your followers condemn me your words used to enslave me
Jesus cured the blind man so that he could see the evils of the world Perchance blindness is but a dark thought overcome by the light Maybe Judas was the better man and Mary made a virgin just to save face I too am so ashamed on bended knees Prayin' to my pretty white Jesus
Brother John Paul convinced himself of his wisdom to judge to forgive to condemn Mother Mary full of grace I'm so confused by her pale white face God so loved the world he gave his only son But many mothers bear children martyrs of greed bitter love While the so called chosen make war So many suffer in the name of god their faith at a closed door
All I ever wanted was a nigger who would be true All I wanted was a nigger man
All I ever wanted was a nigger who would be true, be good to me While doin' the evil that niggers do My view of self was that of a divine ho Like the ones portrayed on the white man colonized minded rap shows Oh the afro dizzy act of my blak rebel I am a woman and to this world I accommodate myself My place is in my blak man's defiance my nigger divine for his Sadness So well complemented mine When I look at you so blak and blue My love for you sad but true
All I ever wanted was a nigger who would be true All I wanted was a nigger man
One night on a love high we metamorphasized into gigantic blak butterflies And for the first time I saw the god inside I realized my nigger redefined was the blak man divine and he could take me higher And the divine woman was what the blak man desired
But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, you shall not eat; for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die To them he said I will greatly multiply your pain and your conception; in pain shall you bring forth children, and you shall be dependent on your husband and he shall rule over you Then god said, let us make man in our image
Let's go back to the time when the mind and soul were divine faith unquestioned Mother father god said let us make man in our own image god was not alone as no one should be I search for a righteous hand to rule over me
For you are a holy people to the Lord your god; The Lord your god has chosen you to be a beloved people to himself, above all people that are upon the face of the earth
The Lord shall bring a nation against you from afar, from the ends of the earth, as swift as the eagle that flies; a nation whose language you do not understand
Your sons and daughters shall be given to another people and your eyes shall look on, and you shall grieve over them all the day long and there shall be no might in your hand to do anything
The fruit of your labors shall a nation that you know not eat up and you shall be wronged and oppressed always
The sun rises and the sun goes down and hastens back to the place Where it rose that from thence it may rise again Finding all things wearisome unsatisfied my eyes not satisfied with Seeing, my ears unsatisfied with hearing Wondering of that which is now that which has been and that which is to be For my time on earth I pay dearly for the past Confusion embraces my heart for to know self is to forgive self my Sojourn of truth
Free my heart so my soul may fly Free my mind of my worldly wants and desires I look towards heaven with my arms open wide Take my hand come and take my hand
Sadness fills my heart Too weak to get by, slave to disContntment self-pity I come forth from my mother's womb naked shall I return to the earth to go as I came Taking nothing of this supposed worldly gain
Free my heart so my soul may fly Free my mind of my worldly wants and desires I look towards heaven with my arms open wide Take my hand come and take my hand
Faggot better run learn to run 'cuz daddy's home His sweet lil' boy just a little too sweet Every night the man showed the faggot what a real man should be The man and the faggot will never see for so many can't even perceive a real man Tell me
Not that the faggot didn't find a woman fine and beautiful He admired desired their desires He wanted love from strong hands The faggot wanted the love of a man
His mother would pray Save him, save him, save him from this life
Go to church boy Faggot you're just a prisoner of your own perverted world No picket fence acting like a bitch that's all he sees ain't that what faggot means No love dreams Only the favors sweet Michael performed for money to eat 'Cause the man kicked the faggot out the house at 16 Amen mother let it be Before long he was crowned QUEEN for all the world to see bloody body face down The wages of sin are surely death that's what mama used to say So there was no sympathy
Let he without sin walk amongst the hated and feared and know true trial and tribulations See my dear we're all dying for something searchin' and searchin' Soon mama found out that god would turn his back on her too
Save me save me from this life I pray to my Lord above save me they say you're the way the light
I often watch you the way you whore yourself You're so beautiful You flirt and tease enviously I wish you'd flirt with me Perhaps I'm enticed by what you are I imagine us jumpin' the broom foolish I know that's not the life you live You live alone in a crowded bed never remembering faces Conversations just a body for the lonely Spend one night with me satisfy me for free and I'll love you endlessly I overheard you say you'd give them what they wanted So give me what I want
Tell me I'm the only one I want to marry you Tell me I'm the only one
In a harlot's dress you wear the smile of a child with the faith of Mary Magdalene Yet you wash the feet of unworthy men Come and I'll set you free into an endless valley of fruits both sweet and sour And whatever displeases your palate my kisses will wash away Stay. If you must dance, dance for me Blessed are the pure at heart for they shall see god so close your eyes and dream For the world will blind you and I'll judge not so that I may not be judged Please give me what I want
Tell me I'm the only one I want to marry you Tell me I'm the only one
Chorus: God Shiva is imminent love and transcendent reality God Shiva my supreme reality
I am here no longer a vision birthed into my body I accept praise, blame, joy, sorrow I realize we are in truth the truth we seek god Perfect this very moment
Chorus
Desire no more what you already possess
You are already free my nature is to love you My soul identical to god On a journey to return to my creator bliss
You are my mind of the mind My eye of eye Life of my life
A man he passed, just tried to stare me down And when I looked at you, you looked at the ground I don't know who he is but I think that you do Dag gummit, who is he and what is he to you?
Yeah yes, something in my heart and in your eyes That tells me he's not someone just passing by And when you cleared your throat, was that your cue Dag gummit, who is he and what is he to you? Who is he and what is he to you?
Now when I add the sum of you and me I get so confused, I keep coming up with three My, you're much, too much, too much, too much for one An' not enough for two Dag gummit, who is he and what is he to you?
Now, now I know you think I'm one not much for my intuition, yeah Is that what you really think or are you wishin'? Before you wreck your old home be certain of a new Dag gummit, who is he and what is he to you? Dag gummit, who is he and what is he to you?
Who is he and what is he to you? Come here, let me talk to you Who is he and what is he to you? Let me know what's going, come here now Who is he and what is he to you? Tell me, you gotta let me know
Who is he and what is he to you? Hey, you gotta let me know Who is he and what is he to you? Hey girl you treat me nice and foolish Who is he and what is he to you? Who is he and what is he to you? Who is he and what is he to you? ...
I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay
I know you think it's wrong being here alone with me But I wanna understand you and the way you feel You must feel something or you wouldn't have let me get this far So don't be afraid just give in
Ooh baby, come on and just let me Ooh baby, come on and just let me
I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay
If you let me have you just this once I promise never to want you anymore 'Cuz what's happening here just feels so good I must admit the forbidden always arouses my temptations
Ooh baby, come on and just let me Ooh baby, come on and just let me
I know you want me to lie to you, to myself And pretend that I don't care You just don't understand You're all I ever think about
I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay
Do you think about me? Do you feel the way I do? I want you
I want you, I can't get you off my mind Ooh, you turn me on, stay
Yeah baby, it's like you seem to understand me
I want you, I want you I want you so bad, I can taste you
You enchant me so my bittersweet flower Mystery of the sages come into my realm of imagination let me digest you
You enchant me so my bittersweet flower Shall we make love feel the waves of the ocean come to rest in the eye of a storm
I cry myself to sleep over you You come then you go The more I fall the more you let go The sweet taste of you stains my lips Even through the pain it's only you I miss
Unlike those before I wanna free you Let the sweetness of your kiss rush over me I search so many lifetimes Let my soul rest in your arms And I'll let you inside
When we make love I feel it so deeply When we make love I cry When you kiss me my lips they burn with fear For even a love that crowns may crucify In the cradle of creation between the hand of love I died and there you were I was warmed amidst the gaze of your eyes, our minds wounded by The need for understanding, our bodies betrayed by time
Do you hear me can you taste my pain for love has no other desire but to fulfill itself But to deny yourself the pleasure of that pain is to love selfishly
I stood there
Your heart lay captive in a cage fashioned by your fears not knowing what to say You have many lovers and yet I alone love you far beyond any lily white fairy tale
I would not exchange the sorrows of my heart for the joys of the multitude And I would not have the tears that sadness makes to flow from my every part turn into laughter I want the hunger for your love and beauty to fill me from the depths of my spirit
Let me disappear inside your arms Let me have you Only you can take away this pain Let me hold you Let me disappear inside your arms Let me have you Only you can take away this pain
Here alone I sit and wait For your call Can ya get away Just for a little while, hey What will it take? To show you To persuade you You're the only one
You're the only one
Let me hold you Let me hold you Let me disappear inside your arms Let me have you Let me have you Only you can take away this pain My pain
Let me hold you Let me disappear inside your arms Let me have you Let me have you 'cause only you can take away this pain
Can't you understand that I Can't you understand that I I can't get over you, baby 'cause my heart breaks for you What will it take? What will I say? Yes You're the only one
Let me have you Let me have you Please Let me
Let me have you ? Feels so good Baby, baby Baby baby Feels so good Take away this pain.
미셸 은다지오첼로 라는 아주 어렵고 독특한 이름의 뮤지션.
Bitter 앨범 수록곡인데 99년도 앨범이다.
울 나라에서 앨범 몇 장이 발매되긴 했는데 내가 너무 늦게 알아서 그런지 어쩐지
딱 한 장 구해서 ㄱ자고 있다. 바로 이 앨범.
듣고 넘 좋아서 선물도 하고 그랬는데 좋았는지 어쨌는지 말도 없고 잠잠한 걸 보니
별로였나벼ㅋㅋㅋㅋ...
Me’shell Ndegeocello이라는 이름이 우리에게는 다소 생소하게 들리는 것은 어찌 보면 당연하다. 정규앨범을 넉 장 발매했지만 정작 국내에 라이센스 된 앨범은 단 한 장도 없으며 이번 앨범도 수입으로만 발매되었다. Me’shell ndegeocell는 아티스트의 이름 자체도 발음하기 어려운데다 무엇보다 문제는 이 가수의 음악은 물론 추구하는 음악장르, 전하고자 하는 메시지 등 그녀 자체를 읽어 내려가는 것은 마니아가 아니고서는 거의 불가능해보인다. 그런데 왜 미국은 지금 이 여가수의 앨범 때문에 평론계가 들썩거리는가? 이름부터 확실히 짚고 넘어가 보도록 하자. 국내에서 미셀은데지오첼로, 미셀느데지오셀로 등의 이름으로 일부 평론가들에 의해 자의적으로 불렸지만 정확한 발음상의 이름은 ‘미셸엔...
