Run desire run Sexual being Run him like a blade To and through the heart No conscience One Motive Cater to the hollow
Screaming feed me here Fill me up again Temporarily pacify this hungering So grow Libido throw Dominoes of indiscretions down Falling all around In cycles In circles Constantly consuming Conquer and devour
Cause it's time to bring the fire down Bridle all this indiscretion Long enough to edify And permanently fill this hollow
Screaming feed me here Fill me up again Temporarily pacifying
Feed me here Fill me up again Temporarily pacifying
I don't want to be hostile. I don't want to be dismal. But I don't want to rot in an apathetic existance either. See I want to believe you, and I want to trust and I want to have faith to put away the dagger.
But you lie, cheat, and steal. And yet I tolerate you. Veil of virtue hung to hide your method while I smile and laugh and dance and sing your praise and glory. Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma as I smile and laugh and dance and sing your glory while you lie, cheat, and steal. How can I tolerate you.
Our guilt,our blame , I've been far too sympathetic. Our blood, our fault. I've been far too sympathetic.
I am not innocent. You are not innocent. No one is innocent.
I will no longer tolerate you Even if I must go down beside you. Because, No one is innocent.
It took so long to remember just what happened. I was so young and vestal then, you know it hurt me, but I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive even if signs seem to tell me otherwise. I've got my hands bound, my head down , my eyes closed, and my throat wide open.
Do unto others what has been done to you
I'm treading water, I need to sleep a while. My lamb and martyre, you look so precious. Won't you come a bit closer, close enough so I can smell you. I need you to feel this, I can't stand to burn too long. Released in this sodomy. For one sweet moment I am whole.
Do unto you now what has been done to me.
You're breathing so I guess you're still alive even if signs seem to tell me otherwise. Won't you come just a bit closer, close enough so I can smell you. I need you to feel this. I need this to make me whole. There's release in this sodomy. For I am your witness that blood and flesh can be trusted. And only this one holy medium brings me piece of mind.
Got your hands bound, your head down, your eyes closed. You look so precious now.
I have found some kind of temporary sanity in this shit blood and cum on my hands.
I've come round full circle. My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon. You look so precious.
There's a shadow just behind me, shrouding every breath I take, making every promise empty, pointing every finger at me. Waiting like a stalking butler who upon the finger rests. Murder now the path called "must we" just before the son has come.
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle something but the past and done?
* Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start things over. Why can't we drink forever. I just want to start this over.
I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave, I will work to elevate you just enough to bring you down.
Mother Mary won't you whisper something but what's past and done.
My compassion is broken now my will is eroded now desire is broken now it makes me feel alive im on my knees and burnin' my piss and moans are the fuel that sets my head on fire so smell my soul burn im broken lookin' up to see the enemy and i have swallowed the poison you feed me but i survive on the poison you feed me guilt fed, hatred fed, weakness fed and it makes me feel ugly on my knees and burnin' my piss and moans are the fuel that sets my head on fire im dead inside
shit adds up, shit adds up, shit adds up, shit adds up at the bottom
if i let you, you would make me destroy myself in order to survive you, i must first survive myself i can sink no further, and i cannot forgive you there's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you ive gone to great lenghts to expand my threshold of pain i will use my mistakes against you, there's no other choice im shameless now, im nameless now, im nothing now, im no one now but my soul must be iron 'cause my fear is naked im naked and fearless and my fear is naked
dead inside, dead inside, dead inside nameless now, shameless now, nothing now, no one now shit adds up (x4) and you see me naked now fearless now, naked now (x2) shit adds up it leaves me dead inside (x4)
hatred keeps me alive angriness keeps me alive weakness keeps me alive guilt keeps me alive at the bottom
You crawled away from me. Slipped away from me. I tried to keep ahold, but there was nothing I could say. You slid and crept away and there was nothing I could say. So what you're trying to say is you don't wanna play. But what you want and what you need doesn't mean fuck to me.
Because I can see your back is turning. If I could I'd stick the knife in.
My warning meant nothing. You're dancing in quicksand. Why don't you watch where you're wandering? Why don't you watch where you're stumbling? You're wading knee deep and going in. And you may never come back again.
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in when you're a stupid,dumb ass, beligerant fucker.
I hope it sucks you down.
Wander in and wandering. Noone even invited you in. But still you stumble in stumbling. So suffocate or get out while you can.
gone under two times. I've been struck dumb by a voice that speaks from deep beneath the cold black water. It's twice as clear as heaven, and twice as loud as reason. It's deep and rich like silt on a riverbed and just as undisturbing. the currents mouth below me opens up around me. suggests and beckons all while swallowing. It surrounds and drowns and sweeps me away.
But I'm so comfortable...Too comfortable.
shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up you're saturating me So how could I let this bring me back to my knees again again again
under for the third time. I've been baptized by your voice. it screams from deep beneath the endless water. and it's half as high as heaven and half as clear as reason. it's cold and and black like silt on the riverbed. But I'm so comfortable. Far too comfortable. Why don't you kill me, I'm weak and numb and insignificant, and I'm back on my knees. lost in euphoria. I'm back down. I'm in the undertow. I'm helpless and awake in the undertow. I'll die within your undertow. It seems there's no other way out of this undertow.
Locked up inside you, like the calm beneath castles, is a cavern of treasures that noone has been to. Let's go digging. Bring it out to take you back in.
You won't do what you'd like to do. Lay back and let me show you another way. I'll kill what you want me to, take what's left and eat it. Take all or nothing. Life's just too short to push it away. Take it all. Take it all in. All the way in. Let it go. Let it go in. You won't feel what you'd like to feel. Lay back and let me show you another way.
If you knock me down I'll come back running, knock you down, it won't be long now All the way in. All the way. Take it up higher. 4 degrees warmer. Give in now and let me in. You'll like this in Don't pull it out. It brings us closer than dying and cancer and crying. Come on . You can take it all. Just like that.
All I knew and all I believed are crumbling images that no longer comfort me. I scramble to reach higher ground, some order and sanity, or something to comfort me.
So I take what is mine,and hold what is mine, suffocate what is mine, and bury what's mine. Soon the water will come and claim what is mine. I must leave it behind, and climb to a new place now.
This ground is not the rock I thought it to be.
Thought I was high, and free. I thought I was there divine destiny.
I was wrong. This changes everything.
The water is rising up on me. Thought the sun would come deliver me, but the truth has come to punish me instead.
The ground is breaking down right under me. Cleanse and purge me in the water.
And the angel of the lord came unto me, snatching me up from my place of slumber. And took me on high, and higher still until we moved to the spaces betwixt the air itself. And he brought me into a vast farmlands of our own midwest. And as we descended, cries of impending doom rose from the soil. One thousand, nay a million voices full of fear. And terror possesed me then. And I begged, "Angel of the Lord, what are these tortured screams?" And the angel said unto me, "These are the cries of the carrots, the cries of the carrots! You see, Reverend Maynard, tomorrow is harvest day and to them it is the holocaust." And I sprang from my slumber drenched in sweat like the tears of one million terrified brothers and roared, "Hear me now, I have seen the light! They have a consciousness, they have a life, they have a soul! Damn you! Let the rabbits wear glasses! Save our brothers!" Can I get an amen? Can I get a hallelujah? Thank you Jesus. Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on........
This is necessary.
It was daylight when you woke up in your ditch. You looked up at your sky then. That made blue be your color. You had your knife there with you too. When you stood up there was goo all over your clothes. Your hands were sticky. You wiped them on your grass, so now your color was green. Oh Lord, why did everything always have to keep changing like this. You were already getting nervous again. Your head hurt and it rang when you stood up. Your head was almost empty. It always hurt you when you woke up like this. You crawled up out of your ditch onto your gravel road and began to walk, waiting for the rest of your mind to come back to you. You can see the car parked far down the road and you walked toward it. "If God is our Father," you thought, "then Satan must be our cousin." Why didn't anyone else understand these important things? You got to your car and tried all the doors. They were locked. It was a red car and it was new. There was an expensive leather camera case laying on the seat. Out across your field , you could see two tiny people walking by your woods. You began to walk towards them. Now red was your color and, of course, those little people out there were yours too.
Something has to change. Un-deniable dilemma. Boredom's not a burden Anyone should bear.
Constant over stimu-lation numbs me and I wouldn't have It any other way.
It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.
Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Relax, turn around and take my hand.
I can help you change Tired moments into pleasure. Say the word and we'll be Well upon our way.
Blend and balance Pain and comfort Deep within you Till you will not have me any other way.
It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.
Knuckle deep inside the borderline. This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to. Relax. Slip away.
Something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be. Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety?
How can it mean anything to me If I really don't feel anything at all?
I'll keep digging till I feel something.
Elbow deep inside the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Shoulder deep within the borderline. Relax. Turn around and take my hand.
He had alot to say. He had alot of nothing to say. We'll miss him.
So long. We wish you well. You told us how you weren't afraid to die. Well then, so long. Don't cry. Or feel too down. Not all martyrs see divinity. But at least you tried.
Standing above the crowd, He had a voice that was strong and loud. We'll miss him. Ranting and pointing his finger At everything but his heart. We'll miss him.
No way to recall What it was that you had said to me, Like I care at all.
So loud. You sure could yell. You took a stand on every little thing And so loud.
Standing above the crowd, He had a voice so strong and loud and I Swallowed his facade cuz I'm so Eager to identify with Someone above the ground, Someone who seemed to feel the same, Someone prepared to lead the way, with Someone who would die for me.
Will you? Will you now? Would you die for me? Don't you fuckin lie.
Don't you step out of line. Don't you fuckin lie.
You've claimed all this time that you would die for me. Why then are you so surprised to hear your own eulogy?
You had alot to say. You had alot of nothing to say.
Come down. Get off your fuckin cross. We need the fuckin space to nail the next fool martyr.
To ascend you must die. You must be crucified For your sins and your lies. [sic] Goodbye...
What's coming through is alive. What's holding up is a mirror. But what's singing songs is a snake Looking to turn this piss to wine.
They're both totally void of hate, But killing me just the same.
The snake behind me hisses What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me Open up my heart again.
And I feel this coming over like a storm again. Considerately.
Venomous voice, tempts me, Drains me, bleeds me, Leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity.
The snake behind me hisses What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me Open up my heart again.
And I feel this coming over like a storm again.
I am too connected to you to Slip away, to fade away. Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me, And considerately killing me.
Without the skin, Beneath the storm, Under these tears The walls came down.
And the snake is drowned and As I look in his eyes, My fear begins to fade Recalling all of those times.
I could have cried then. I should have cried then.
And as the walls come down and As I look in your eyes My fear begins to fade Recalling all of the times I have died and will die. It's all right. I don't mind.
I am too connected to you to Slip away, to fade away. Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me,
