Markku Lappalainen

I wonder what you'll take from me today
Sanity or just my breath away
It's hard to say

Impossible for me to tell
We're always walking on eggshells
Who you're going to be from day-to-day-to-day

I wish that we could go back to what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see
How much you've changed since we first met
And how much that it's killing me

I know that I will always miss
The butterflies of our first kiss
And how you used to smile so easily

I wish that we could go back to how we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore
It's too hard to be pretending
It's too hard to ignore
I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I never thought that it would come to this

I know we'll never get back
To how we were before
'Cause I know that I don't love you anymore

It's too hard to be pretending
It's too hard to ignore
I know that I don't love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry

I wanna live, I wanna leave
I wanna open up and breathe
I wanna go, I wanna be
I wanna feel it constantly
Gotta show, gotta say
I've gotta feeling that won't go away
I've gotta know if they got away
My opportunities
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
Just one time I'd like to win the game
From now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
Just one, just one
I need to think, I need to feed
I need to see if I still bleed
I need a place, I need a time
Cause I need to step outside that line
Gonna give, gonna take
I'm gonna scream till I am awake
I'm gonna push, I'm gonna pull, open up the door
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
Just one time I'd like to win the game
From now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
Just one, just one
And if I knew when the door was open, I'd go through
I would go on through
And I can say, when I do I'll never be the same
Never be the same
Just one chance is all I ever wanted
Just one time I'd like to win the game
From now on I'll take the chance if I can have it
Just one, just one
(Just one) I'll take the chance if I can have it
(Just one) I'll take the chance if I can have it
(Just one) Yes, I'll take the chance if I can have it
Just one, just one

I wake up all alone somewhere unfamiliar
Been gone so many days I`m losing count
When I think of home I see your face
I know I have to wait
You`re so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
I miss hearing your laughter
All the little things
Forgotten what it`s like to hold you
Cuz where I am right now
So unforgiving
It`s numbing everything
u`re so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
(So promise)
No matter how long it takes for me to get back to u
You`ll wait for me
(I promise)
No matter how far away I go I`ll come back for u
Just wait and see
I miss being at home
I miss your face
Don`t think I can wait
we`re so close, yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close, yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
I promise,
It’s tearing me apart
No matter how far away I go I’ll come back for u
I promise It`s tearing me apart
What I would do-
What I would do-
What I would do to be there with you

I've been having trouble looking in the mirror
'Cause when I do I can't stand the person that I see
All though my face is still the same underneath something has changed
From all the shit you've said and done to me, oh no, no


Don't you ever realize the damage you were doing?
Are you aware of all the mess that I've cleaned up?
And now I see just who you are, I can't believe it got this far
And it's time to say enough is enough


So I'll be gone, gone, gone, we started off in heaven
I'll be gone, gone, gone, we ended up in hell
So don't waste my time with one more lie, it's too late to apologize
By the time this song is done I'll be gone



I should have listened when my friends said you were crazy
I should've shown a little spine and self-respect
But I couldn't see the signs, the so called love had made me blind
And tied me up and left me for dead



So I'll be gone, gone, gone, we started off in heaven
I'll be gone, gone, gone, we ended up in hell
So don't waste my time with one more lie, it's too late to apologize
By the time this song is done I'll be gone, I'll be gone


Don't beg me to reconsider
Don't bother getting on your knees
'Cause there's absolutely nothing you can say to change my mind
So save your breath, save your breath


'Cause I'll be gone, we started off in heaven
I'll be gone, gone, gone, we ended up in hell
So don't waste my time with one more lie, it's too late to apologize
By the time this song is done I'll be gone, I'll be gone, yeah I'll be gone

i feel the wind rush acros my face
like an invisable wave crashing over me
i started holding my breath the moment i left
wondering what the day was gonna bring for me
but there is no way that i could ever prepare
for the scope of it all for the chill in the air
the cold of the rain the ... of the day
i'm never gonna be the same
the whole world is racing by
and no words can discribe
how this feels inside
you need to be here
you need to be here with me
they come and go so fast
these moments never last
so you need to be here
you need to be here with me
it's something new and beyond every corner is a mistery
cause every road that i have taken can never be mistaken
for the one that is now under my feet
and i realize with open eye's
every second that we ... is once in a lifetime
once in a lifetime
the whole world is racing by
and no words can discribe
how this feels inside
you need to be here
you need to be here with me
they come and go so fast
these moments never last
so you need to be here
you need to be here with me
cause something is incomplete
not quite how is should be
and i try and i try just to live in the moment
but everything i do
just leads me back to you
cause there is no thoughts
the whole world is racing by
and no words can discribe
how this feels inside
you need to be here
you need to be here with me
they come and go so fast
these moments never last
so you need to be here
you need to be here with me

Screams yeah*

No more lying to myself
Pretending to be someone else
And now I'm hiding how I feel behind a smile
Living in constant self denial

There's something I need to say

No more running from my fights
And no more giving up when I know I'm right
Sick of trying to fit in
Wondering what I could have been

There's something I need to say
Its growing everyday
Things are going to change

I wont apologise
For who I've come to be
Cos who the hell am I?
If I cant be me
I've wasted too much time
On insecurities
Cos who the hell am I?
If I can't be me

No more need to justify
Everything I do, everything I like
No more blood from biting my tongue
Too afraid to upset anyone

There's something I need to say

No more guilt for what I see
Had the mirror staring back at me

There's something I need to say
Its growing everyday
Things are going to change

I wont apologise
For who I come to be
Cos who the hell am I
If I cant be me
I've wasted too much time on insecurities
Cos who the hell am I
If I can't be me

And it feels like I am naked
Stripped for you to see
My scars and imperfections
But you don't seem to notice
Cos your too busy covering up your bruises and cuts
From who knows what
Just like me
So why apologise
For who I've come to be
Cos who the hell am I
If I cant be me
I've wasted too much time
On insecurities
Cos this is who I am and that's fine with me

tonight i'm letting go
of all the old excuses
the fears i built so close
cause inside i've always known
that no one else could ever do
or ever feel like home

theres so many things i'll never know
but this i know for sure

you're the one
i need you more than ever
it's taken too long
taken to long to say

my life began
the night we spent together
now i cannot live
i'd die any other way

i'm not afraid

you're the one

it's hasn't always been
the best of times
but if you'd ask
i'd do it all again

(are you ready to begin)

i'm ready to begin
a brand new chapter of our lives
just tell me where and when

(a brand new chapter in our lives)

cause theres so many things i'll never know
but this i know for sure

you're the one
i need you more than ever
it's taken too long
taken too long to say

my life began
the night we spent together
now i can not live
i'd die any other way
i'm not afraid

you're the one

(instrumental)

you're the one
who understands
who makes me better than i am
i do it all because of you
when all we had
had come undone
you stood and fought
and didn't run
you're the one who
pulled us through

you're the one
i feel it more than ever
it's taken too long
taken too long to say

our lives began
the night we spent together
now i can not live
i'd die any other way

i'm not afraid
you're the one

First you tell me it's over
Then you try to get me to stay
I'm so confused, what am I gonna do?
You pull me in so you can push me away?


The minute you tell me you need me
But it's right before you walk out the door
You're hot then you're cold and the game's getting old
Who am I supposed to be anymore?


I can't wait forever to know if we're together
I'm sick of hanging on
Anything sounds better than waiting on you forever
I'm sick of hanging on, sick of hanging on

Choose 'cause you can't have it both ways
Choose so I know what to do
'Cause I can't believe that's how you're going to be
You've had your cake and now you're eating it too


I can't wait forever to know if we're together
I'm sick of hanging on
Anything sounds better than waiting on you forever
I'm sick of hanging on, sick of hanging on


You need to make up your mind
I need to know where I stand
This is your only chance


I'm sick of hanging on
I'm sick of hanging on
Let me go or I'll let go


I can't wait forever to know if we're together
I'm sick of hanging on
Anything sounds better than waiting on you forever
I'm sick of hanging on, sick of hanging on
Sick of hanging on, I'm sick of hanging on

I write your name in my breath on the window
Sit and watch as it fades away
The painful memories
Of the tears of yesterday

The sky is cold and gray
Just like it was when we both went our separate ways
And the rain won't wash away
All the dirt of my mistakes
So I write your name in my breath on the window
Sit and watch as it fades away
The painful memories
Of the tears of yesterday

The deafening sound of rain
Its not enough to drown my thoughts to ease the Pain
So instead I'll soak it in
While I stare outside again
And I write your name in my breath on the window
Sit and watch as it fades away
The painful memories
Of the tears of yesterday
I try so hard but I can't seem to let go
I lost so much when you walked away
The painful memories
Of the tears of yesterday

The sun just won't seem to come out
Not since you walked away
Now I cannot escape
I cannot escape the rain
the rain

So I write your name in my breath on the window
Sit and watch as it fades away
The painful memories
Of the tears of yesterday
I try so hard but i can't seem to let go
I lost so much when you walked away
The painful memories
Of the tears of yesterday
yesterday
yesterday

to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeverte)







meet me there at midnight
same place we always go
be absolutely sure he doesn't know
those words jump off the letter
that i found behind our bed
haunting me they echo in my head
in my head.

its too late to try and work it out
there's no way to turn this thing around
its all there in the letter that I found
I've memorized it line for line
too bad that letter isn't mine, no

when can i next see you
I've been counting the days
i promise you our secret will be safe
no i just cant continue
reading thru my tears
the beating of the letter is so clear
so clear

its too late to try and work it out.
there's no way to turn this thing around
its all there in the letter that I found
i memorized it line by line
too bad that letter isn't mine.

u wanted me to find it
never tried to hide it
running never fades those words are here to stay
i hope u find this letter
i'm writing you today
these will be the last words that i say

its too late to try and work it out
there's no way to turn this thing around
its so hard, here in this letter that you've found
its too late to try and work it out
there's no way to turn this thing around
its so hard, here in this letter that you've found.
so memorized it line for line
i wont be there to say goodbye.
to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeve3rte)

Spill out my heart
But you don't hear a word
'Cus your busy thinking 'bout how long 'til its your turn
So you can go on and on, about yourself
Go on and on, about yourself
And my heart can go back on the shelf
Go on and go on and on, about yourself

But its not all about you,
all about you,
The more you speak the less I care about you, you, you, you
Its not all about you, the world turns without you
The more you speak, the less I care about you, you, you

Whatever I do, you've already done
Only you've done it better and way before anyone
'Cus you think, that its some game to win
You think, that its some game to wi
Accomplishments and places been
You think, that its some game to win

But its not all about you, all about you
The more you speak the less I care about you, you, you, you
Its not all about you, the world turns without you
The more you speak, the less I care about you, you, you, you
Care about you, you, you

You go on and on and on about yourself
You go on and on and on about yourself
The list of who you know
The places that you've been

Why can't you see nobody cares about you? Its not all about you
The more you speak the less I care about you, you, you, you
Its not all about you, the world turns without you
The more you speak, the less I care about you, you, you, you
Care about you

I wake up all alone somewhere unfamiliar
Been gone so many days I`m losing count
When I think of home I see your face
I know I have to wait
You`re so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
I miss hearing your laughter
All the little things
Forgotten what it`s like to hold you
Cuz where I am right now
So unforgiving
It`s numbing everything
u`re so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
so close yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
(So promise)
No matter how long it takes for me to get back to u
You`ll wait for me
(I promise)
No matter how far away I go I`ll come back for u
Just wait and see
I miss being at home
I miss your face
Don`t think I can wait
we`re so close, yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close, yet so far
It`s tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you
I promise,
It’s tearing me apart
No matter how far away I go I’ll come back for u
I promise It`s tearing me apart
What I would do-
What I would do-
What I would do to be there with you

Crawling in the dark



Song by
Hoobastank



I will dedicate

and sacrifice
my everything

For just a
seconds worth

of how
my story's ending

And I wish I could know
if the directions

that I take
and all the choices


that I make

won't end up
all for nothing

Show me what it's for
make me understand it

I've been crawling
in the dark

Looking for the answer
is there something more

Than what
I've been handed

I've been crawling
in the dark


Looking for the answer

Help me carry on
assure me it's ok to

use my heart
and not my eyes

To navigate
the darkness

will the ending be
ever coming suddenly

Will I ever get to see
the ending to my story

Show me what it's for
make me understand it

I've been crawling
in the dark

Looking for the answer
is there something more

Than what
I've been handed

I've been crawling
in the dark


Looking for the answer@

So when and
how will I know@

How much further
do I have to go

How much longer
until I finally know

Because I'm looking
and I just can't see

What's in front of me
in front of me

Show me what it's for
make me understand it

I've been crawling
in the dark

Looking for the answer
is there something more

Than what
I've been handed

I've been crawling
in the dark


Looking for the answer@

to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeverte)





I have been patiently waiting in line
Watching everyone passing me by
And I can’t seem to figure out
When’s it gonna be my turn
I’m sick and tired of payin’ my dues
Play the game till the end then I lose
So can somebody tell me
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
Yesterday I learn from
Tomorrow is uncertain
So why can’t I just make my turn today
I always followed and played by the rules
But the prize goes to those who are true
Still nobody can answer me
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
Yesterday I learn from
Tomorrow is uncertain
So why can’t I just make my turn today
Cause yesterday I learned from
Tomorrow is uncertain
So why can’t I just make my turn today
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn
Whoa
When’s it gonna be my turn
Whoa
When’s it gonna be my turn
Yesterday I learned from
Tomorrow is uncertain
So why can’t I just make my turn today
Cause yesterday I learned from
Tomorrow is uncertain
So why can’t I just make my turn today
When’s it gonna be my turn
When’s it gonna be my turn

I've become tired of wasting my time
Thinking about choices that I've made
Cause I can't move forward while looking behind
The only thing I can do now is
Change the way
That I used to be
Cause now it seems
Crystal clear to me

Yes you're so much more
Than a memory
Yes you're so much more
Than a memory

It wasn't fair
For me just to go
And act like I know what you've been through
Cause I wasn't fair
And I'll never know
I couldn't see from your point of view
But I'm doing all I can
For you to see
That I understand
That I understand

You're so much more
Than a memory
Yes you're so much more
Than a memory
So don't close the door
On what still can be
Cause you're so much more
Than a memory

Please don't go
Cause I finally know
That the past is gone
I know that I was wrong
I was wrong

You are so much more
Than a memory (Memory)
Yes you're so much more
Than a memory (Memory)

So don't close the door
On what still can be
Cause you're so much more
Than a memory

Please don't go
Cause I finally know
That the past is gone
I know that I was wrong

Please don't go
Cause I finally know
That the past is gone
I know that I was wrong
I was wrong

I thought it wasn't wrong
To hide from you
Simple truth
I was scared
I'd felt it all along
But it hurt too much for me to share
If only I
Had been less blind
I'd have someone to hold onto
If only I
Could change your mind
If only I had known
If only I had you
I finally understand
Why things have happened
And how it all could go so wrong
Will this pain ever end
Cause I don't think I can carry on
If only I
Had been less blind
I'd have someone to hold onto
If only I
Could change your mind
If only I had known
If only I had you
If only I
Had been less blind
I'd have someone to hold onto (I won't let go)
If only I
Could have spoke my mind
If only it were true
(We could start brand new)
I know I'd make it through
If only I had you
If only I had you
If only I had you

We`ve walked together down this winding road
Searching of something true
Together we grew

But now our journey has come to an end
And it`s on to something new
For me and you

So goodbye my friend, until we meet again
Some other day, I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn`t change a day
I hope you can say the same


So many memories we got to make
And the challenges we met
I`ll never forget
`Cause those lessons made us who we are today
And we`re taking the next step, without a regret
No regrets


So goodbye my friend, until we meet again
Some other day, I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn`t change a day
I hope you can say
I hope you can say the same


All I`m telling you (All I`m telling you)
When I get through the end
I would do it again, do it again
All I`m telling you (All I`m telling you)
When I get through the end
I would do it again, do it again


Goodbye my friend, until we meet again
Some other day, I know so much will change
But looking back I can say
I wouldn`t change a day
I hope you can say
I hope you can say


That you understand the only life we have
Is here in now, not up in the cloud
With every breathe we can say
It has a brand new day
I know I can say
I know I can say
I know I can say the same

I still remember the time
When this all felt like a dream
So completely out of reach
Frustrating
We kept our nose to the grind
Make the days turn into weeks
Hoping time will heal the pain of waiting
How it seems so long ago

Just look back on
How far we've come
We made it somehow
Look where we are now
All we've done
Our battles won
We made it somehow
Look where we are now

I used to wonder if I
Would ever have the chance to be
Something more than what you see
I doubt it
We learn to open our eyes
Now I both think we'd agree
That we're better off than when we started
There's still so much left to go

Just look back on
How far we've come
We made it somehow
Look where we are now
All we've done
Our battles won
We made it somehow
Look where we are now

And the best is yet to come
Cause our story isn't done
No
No
No
No
Oh
Oh woo
Oh woo

Just look back on (Look back on)
How far we've come
We made it somehow
Look where we are now
All we've done (All we've done)
Our battles won
We made it somehow
Look where we are now
Look where we are now
No
No
No
No
No
Look where we are now
Look where we are now
No
No

Don't tell me that you are ready to change.
Don't tell me that from now it won't be the same.
It doesn't matter, 'cause at the end of the day,
it isn't what you say, it's what you do!
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!
What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises all fade away.
What you keep will last forever.
Don't tell me you'll make things better for us.
Don't tell me that you're some one I can trust.
It doesn't mean a thing to me because,
it isn't what you say, it's what you do!
Your actions will speak louder than you!
What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises all fade away.
What you keep will last forever.

So show me that you really figured it out.
And show me everything that you are about.
But if you can't then just shut your mouth!..
'cause I don't care what you say or what you do,
You can't take back what you've put me through.
Your actions will speak louder than you!..
What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises all fade away.
What you keep will last forever.
What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises all fade away.
What you keep will last forever.
What you keep will last forever.
What you keep will last forever.
Forever...

WHOOOOO
Wake up, our life is calling
We're smoke, but not a fire
Give us a sign that we're alive
Snap out of indecision
Have we been hypnotized
To think that everything's alright?

(The clock is counting down)
The clock is counting down
(The seconds tick away)
The seconds tick away

This is our time
Without a doubt
Time to ignite
We're not going down
(Without a fight)
This is our time
Get up off the ground
Take what is mine
We're not going down
Without a fight

Let's go, the curtain's opened
Get this show on the road
I want to feel my heart explode
No more procrastination
Dragging my feet below
Now I want everyone to know

(The clock is counting down)
The clock is counting down
(The seconds tick away)
The seconds tick away

This is our time
Without a doubt
Time to ignite
We're not going down
(Without a fight)
This is our time
Get up off the ground
Take what is mine
We're not going down
Without a fight

YEAH
COME ON
COME ON
COME ON

COME ON
COME ON
COME ON

We must pick up the pace
No time to play it safe
Before you know it's much too late

This is our time
Without a doubt
Time to ignite
We're not going down
(Without a fight)
This is our time
Get up off the ground
Take what is mine
We're not going down
Without a fight

FIGHT (16x)
WOO HOO
hahahahahahahaha