James Labrie [Dream Theater]

Father watch me fall
Witness my mistakes
I have lost it all
I'm about to break

Before the sound of dawn
I turned my back on you
The life in me was gone
My consciousness withdrew

Fear... Tormenting me
Guilt... Won't let me be

I chose a different way
But there's nowhere I could hide
From one end of the world
To the other side

I've never felt as cold
As I do today
There's nothing here to hold
No reason I should stay

Crucify... Resist, deny
Kill the pain that dwells inside
Send your word
From on high
So this part of me will die

Can you hear my thoughts
I know what I have done
You are all I've got
And I don't want to run

Surrender to your will
From the ashes I am new
Your presence is revealed
Showing all that's true

Fear... Tormenting me
Guilt... Won't let me be

Crucify... Resist, deny
Kill the pain that dwells inside
Send your word
From on high
So this part of me will die

Crucify... Resist, deny
Kill the pain that dwells inside
Send your word
From on high
So this part of me will die

Don't want to lie to you
Don't want to cause you pain
But it's all I ever do
And it's driving me insane

So how much deeper will I sink
So how much further will I dare to go
I've gone so far that I can't think
Can't take it all away
But I want you to know

I never meant to hurt you
What did I turn into
And now... I just have this feeling
Sorry's lost its meaning
And I feel alone...

It's not the same tonight
And will never be again
I was wrong and you were right
Now I have this mess I'm in

I can't continue on my own
The guilt I carry now is much to bare
For Heaven's sake answer your phone
Can't take the past away
But honestly I swear...

I never meant to hurt you
What did I turn into
And now... I just have this feeling
Sorry's lost its meaning
And I feel alone

[spoken words/samples]

Uhh, uhh
Uhh, uhh
Uhh, uhh

Now...
I never meant to hurt you
What did I turn into
And now... I just have this feeling
Sorry's lost its meaning
And now...
I never meant to hurt you
What did I turn into
And now... I just have this feeling
Sorry's lost its meaning
And I feel alone

Look in the mirror
Does it look familiar
Cannot put my finger
Why he kinda looks like me

Used to like hooking up with you
After waking first thing I'd do
One sided sensation
Watching me watching you

Now I'm stuck how I feel
I don't know if it's real
I'm trying to find someone
Who's invisible

Now I'm stuck in the middle
My life is the riddle
Trying to find someone
Who's invisible

No way
I cannot lie
I haven't felt right
And I don't know why
Drowning
No coming up for air
And part of me
Just wants to be left there

Living a constant lie
How much longer
I'd rather die
So bitter
Tongue twisted
Has me paralyzed

They claim they know me
Who I'm supposed to be
A quick fix sure remedy
Another needly plunges deep

Now I'm stuck how I feel
I don't know if it's real
I'm trying to find someone
Who's invisible

Now I'm stuck in the middle
My life is the riddle
Trying to find someone
Who's invisible

No way
I cannot lie
I haven't felt right
And I don't know why
Drowning
No coming up for air
And part of me
Just wants to be left right there

No way
I cannot lie
I haven't felt right
And I don't care why
Drowning
No coming up for air
And part of me
Wants to be left right there

No way
No way
No way
No way out
No way
No way
No way
No way out

Sometime after five
I don't know what I've done
But I put my car in drive
And I'm blinded by the sun

In my rearview mirror
The colors start to fade
My past just disappears
And I am so afraid

I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost

Thought I saw the sign
Perhaps I should have turned
I really see just fine
Guess I'm not concerned

Maybe I'll forget
The way things were before
It's too late for regrets
Cause I've opened up the door

I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost

I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm lost
Show me the way
I'm...

Seems that we've lost our innocence
The pulpit the teachers
Have warned us

Blindly accepting
Their words as truth
And taking advantage of our trust

Don't expect an answer
Can't help that you're suspicious
Something is missing
So you can't decide
But you're letting them guide you

How can you listen
These empty words
In their messages meanings
Where's the beginning
If there's no end
Seems you're undecided

Fancy dress
Contrived rhetoric speech
The unlettered masses conforming
Rank and file members
Fearing change
But questioned their own faith
This morning

Don't expect an answer
Can't help that you're suspicious
Something is missing
Still you can't decide
But you're letting them guide you

How can we listen
These empty words
In their messages meanings
Where's the beginning
If there's no end
Seems we're undecided

And those that will listen
They see their world
In these messages meanings
But I can't accept this as proof
I know
Neither one's provided

I lay awake
I'm feeling weak
Not sure I can go on
Please take me far
There's nothing I can give
All I had is gone

Buildings fell
Stealing people's dreams
A way of life
Guess we don't fit
Fit their plans

Familiar streets
Familiar sites
Places where friends meet

It's been a while
So much has changed since then
The future seems so bleak

Nothing stands
All's been lost
They silence our despair

Keep your cool
World is watching you
Act as though you care

Buildings fell
Stealing people's dreams
A way of life
Guess we don't fit
Fit their plan

Watched so many of my
Loved ones fall today
It's like I'm standing here
With all of my past erased
The man I have become
Is not walking away
It is the memories
That makes the man you see

Buildings fell
Stealing people's dreams
A way of life
Guess we don't fit
Fit the plan

Our buildings burn
Can't comprehend
The loss surrounding me
And does it end
When no one's left to bleed

Ahh, ahh, ahh
Lead me to the oceans white sands
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Where I can catch myself
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Let the water cool and soothe me
Ahh, ahh, ahh
A steady rhythm flows

I cannot deny it's holy
I know who you are
I can feel - You know me

Send your pretender
A man divine his power
Who dares judge or question
His words scripted by liars
Gross intervention

Proclaims their one desire
Distorting the facts
Ancient voices tired

Ahh, ahh, ahh
Forgotten words from long ago
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Speak volumes to me now
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Plagiarism is our truth
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Allegiance to a hoax

So these chosen few are holy
Perpetuate fear
Til the guilt consumes me

Send your Pretender
Designed for one Empire
Erase the offenders
Persecuted fires
They will not answer
For wars which they inspired
And those who surrender
Their voices growing tired

Shaped
Each one of us
Shadows of the
Third century
Our fate
A fatal error
Created our
Tragic history

Buried message
The writings of truth
Religions challenged
There not amused

Transformed vision
This truth recognized
No further deception
Their pious position

Send your Pretender
Designed for one Empire
Erase the offenders
Persecuted fires
Who dares judge or question
These words scripted by liars
They will not answer
For wars which they inspired

Parallels
Understanding
The message is clear
Fanned into full flame
Ideology
Beliefs in a system
Unlike philosophy
The failure to listen

Working so hard
What are you getting out of this
Commitment, have many nice things
But there's no time to take a rest
And you're spent

In the moment, you never seem to be
That time will come

Taken from those
You should be here, you look on
But you're not part of anything there
The days and the years are passing
Quite the man
With your worldly possessions
The crown upon you in all its glory

Driven around
Down these same ole roads
You've known far too long
Turning around's
Not an option in front of you
You're too far gone

And all the signs are warning him
A dead end street

Taken from those
You should be here, looking on
But you're not part of anything there
The days and the years have passed you
Getting old
With your worldly possessions
The crown upon you in all its glory

Not sure that you know
Any more, what you feel right now
To look back when you dreamed
That you'd have everything you want
It's so hard to just to get through

So much of the time
You were not here, you looked on
But were not part of anything there
The days and years have passed you
Now you're old
All your worldly possessions
Crumbling...
Now all of your time is spent there
They moved on
And they're not part of anything here
The days and the years have passed you
And you're old
With your worldly possessions
All crumbling round you
And all it's glory

Like a stranger in the waiting
Her arrogance a sure foot in
Could blow her cover
If I warned them
Letting them know
She's not who she pretends

My stomach in knots
A relentless force
Consumed with these thoughts
That kept on playing over
I sway back and forth
My face it contorts
Interpret obscene
Oblivious I seem
It never will end
Look at what I am
I have no more pride
It ditched my ride
I'm useless
It happened so quick
It makes me feel sick
A sheer heart attack
I guess I got my wish

Now - Where are you now
Now - Where are you now

So you think that you can handle her
She's not your type
But man she's pulling you in
I've seen the look
Think you've got her all figured out
But you don't know
It's her who's pulling your strings

Your stomach in knots
A relentless force
Consumed with these thoughts
That keep on playing over
You sway back and forth
Your face it contorts
Interpret obscene
Oblivious I seemyou
It never will end
Look at who I am
I have no more pride
It ditched my ride
I'm useless
It happened so quick
It makes me feel sick
A sheer heart attack
I guess I got my wish

Now - Where are you now
Now - Where are you now

Hey Dad
Did you get my picture
Your girl turned out
Being just like you
You bought my love
And I'm rotten to the core
Don't know what's love
It's my tribute to you

My stomach in knots
A relentless force
Consumed with these thoughts
That kept on playing over
I sway back and forth
My face it contorts
Interpret obscene
Oblivious you've been
It never will end
Look at what I am
I have no more pride
You ditched my ride
I'm useless
Entangled in this
You know you're the prick
And can't take it back
Hey Dad but you knew best

Now - Where are you now
Now - Where are you now
Now - Where are you now
Now - Where are you now

Know how it came to this
The hit on me his kiss
Stripped of all dignity - The Man

I set him up - He brought me in
Portrayed the goon to trust - Befriend
Fed the machine - And lived the lie
Concealed the truth to stay alive

Two faced - Can't trace
Convinced what they see

Thick skinned - I'm in
Can't risk - Transparency

Rehearsed - well versed
Who I'm supposed to be
My nerves - I mask - Silence
The fear in me

This plan had better work
Their tapped I'm wired research
No swear I'll blend right in - Right in

Set them up - Knock em dead
Hesitate it's me instead

Lose my nerve - I'll take it all
And I pray he takes the fall

Two faced - Can't trace
Convinced what they see

Thick skinned - I'm in
Can't risk - Transparency

Rehearsed - well versed
Who I'm supposed to be
My nerves - I mask - Silence
The fear in me

Digging in
I'm digging further
I know I'm In Too Deep
Now in the game
I must deliver
To end what's happening
Digging in
I'm digging further
I know I'm In Too Deep
And I intend
To blow their cover
To end what's happening

Keep talking this way
Got something to say
Information you want more
Just gotta even the score
Can't stop the balls in play
Their trust they'll make you pay
White shark loans you
White shark owns you
Which side's gonna save you
Which side's gonna play you
Shake down won't take long
Bulletproof vest on
Witness protection
Gave me their direction
You fucking moron - Defecting

Digging in
I'm digging further
The dampness setting in
Six feet too deep
I feel the madman
Slowly creeping in
Digging in
I'm digging further
The worst is happening
I lie, I breathe the air they feed me
Would welcome smothering
Digging in
I'm digging further
The dampness setting in
Six feet too deep
I feel the madman
Slowly creeping in

The air's so thick
It blurs my vision
I can't think straight
In this condition
This dim lit hall
Is stretching further
Not knowing
What I might discover

Through a door half open
A painted light bulb swings
Casting someones shadow
Reaching towards me

Something draws me here
Not sure
Feeling Drained
Still I am curious
Haunts me
Taunts me
Now I start to Gravitate

Remain composed
I hear some laughter
The darkness in me
Moving faster
A handle turned
A door is opened
Ashtrays
Cigarettes still smoking

And there again before me
The painted light bulb swings
And see I cast the shadow
The one I saw moving

Cannot catch my breath
Can't cope
His face turns toward me
Can't be
Not me
The man in the mirror

It's all too clear
As I stood there
Acknowledged him
In reflective glare

I don't quite understand
Why any of this
Is who I am
I'm damned cause I doubt
It's part of me
Trick of the mind
Schizo you see

It's like awakening
I'm in
Someone elses skin
Molds me
Holds me
Controlled
Left me Drained and empty

Transformed
Shifting
I peer inside
Like quicksand
You pulled me
Down deeper
All twisted inside of me

Give me all the now that I can borrow
Let me have this moment for a while
This storm will be here at this time tomorrow
And I'll have just a memory of her smile

And ill be left to wonder
Could I've done more?
Fighting the stress and under
Waiting for control

Let it out
Let it out
Let it out

I accept the circumstance of truth now
Too petty I'm facing it alone
I've got to summon strength within me somehow
As I head into a future thats unknown

And ill be left to wonder
Could I've done more?
Fighting the stress and under
Waiting for control

Let it out
Let it out
Let it out

More down then I'm up untied
It makes no sense The mess that I'm in
But I can't give up till the both of you
Are here in my life again

Let it out
Let it out
Let it out
Let it out
Let it out