Earshot

I struggled with this pain inside, but it was too strong
you looked so catatonic, you knew it was wrong
destructive, tainted, heated words scraped off your tongue
singing wholly sinful song

if you feel the way I feel and you want to go to heaven for the first time
one more time

you wanna know why I am the way I am
you wanna hear the truth the love the way that only I can tell
you wanna hear a song that moves and hangs inside of you
you wanna feel and see the magic that only I can sell

I'm gonna plug it in, turn it up, settle in
and turn the self-indulgent matrons over belly up
I'm gonna find a way to touch you
and blow away the hate for you to hear this fallen angel's song

(chorus)

my dear friends out there, standing atop the mountain
did you find your faith in God
when you found that you were buried at the bottom

(chorus)

Stuck inside
A world inside my head
A place where I think too much
A place where no one can touch
My God forsaken fear
And though I don't pray enough I want to

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I want to thank you for the tears I've cried
And hope you gave to me
I want to show you what I've kept inside
That takes control of me

Thought somtimes
I was left behind
Alone here all by myself
Forced to look at myself
I never will believe
Things they say to me

Line up the bottles to complete the grief I've held on to for so long
An angry soul I reap unto the people that have ever tried to do me wrong

I hope that you're ok
I left in a hurry
As soon as they told me
So I prayed for you
Hang on till tomorrow
Just don't leave me here today
I'm coming home to you

(Should've been there)
Should've been there I wanted to
(Should've been there)
Should've been there right next to you
(Should've been there)
Should've been there to comfort you
(should've been there)
Should've been there to sing to you
(should've been there)
Should've been there to hold your hand
(should've been there)
Should've been there to be with you
After all that we've been through
Yes, it's hard to say goodbye
And what I wish right now is to somehow turn back time
With all of the love
And respect
That I hold right here for you
Hang on till tomorrow
Just don't leave me here today
I'm coming home to you

to moonn6pence from shootingstar(papayeverte)




Hollow
Seem the stars in the sky
Where my dreams
They seem to follow
Shadows
In the walls of my mind
And these thoughts
That seem so shallow

I can't make sense of all this
delivered to confusion from bliss
Suffered so long that I miss
feeling alive

No
I'm not scared to say goodbye
I've had enough
of your sick and twisted lies
And your cold and heartless words
When you're slowly coming to
no I wont be with you
do you feel the way I feel
do you feel me moving on

Again I find
I'm searching for
a place to run and hide
somewhere to rest my mind
A moment to feel myself again
and never say

I can't make sense of all this
delivered to confusion from bliss
Suffered so long that I miss
feeling alive

No
I'm not scared to say goodbye
I've had enough
of your sick and twisted lies
and your cold and heartless words
When you're slowly coming to
no I wont be with you
do you feel the way I feel
do you feel me moving on

I'm ok
now without you
time to finally turn the page
so hurt and I
won't forget
what you did to me
I can hardly breathe

No
I'm not scared to say goodbye
I've had enough
of your sick and twisted lies
and your cold and heartless words
When you're slowly coming to
no I wont be with you
do you feel the way I feel
do you feel me moving on

As I poner my
Thoughts and fears in life
I stand tempted to throw it all away
So I sit and I
Slowly loose my mind
Look for signs of you
Just to feel it again

<i>[chorus]</i>
Need to find my way back hom again
A place where I can feel myself again
Leave the world behind and start again
Again

As I gather myself I know that I
Still stand tempted to throw it all away
So I sit and I
Watch the world pass by
Look for signs of you
Just to feel it again

Another lonely day
As the sunlight turns to haze
I'm calling you to say
I miss you I'm ok

It's hard for me to say
I feel so far away
Soon one of these days
I'll be back home to stay

Now I need to find a way to get this strain off of my back
Sometimes we need to lock the door
And throw away the key
Sometimes we need to learn to let be

It's nice to feel the sun

So I awake to find that I'm in no danger
I finally found the strength I need still spinning on my back
And now I feel the sun
Shining down on me
Sometimes we have to live and be free

For days now I've waited for the light to shine
Shine down on me

I
Wonder what the day will bring tomorrow when I wake
Why
Do I decide to dwell upon mistakes I haven't made
Maybe I'm afraid
So I try (I try to find the words to explain)

<i>[chorus]</i>
Why I feel so down

Don't ask why
I could care less of the world outside
One more time
I'll come out of the dark of my mind
Who knows what I find
Still I try (I try to find the words to explain)

So I look for a dark place to hide
Must be a reason I do
Why do I
Seem unsatisfied?
(I try to find the words to explain)

Once was a time
I'd give the world to you
But it was never enough
Sworn by your hand
But you never told the truth
That's when I saw myself in you

[chorus]
I'm rotten inside
I'm weak and I'm frightened of the things that you might find

What could I
Do to make everything alright
Left me again
Like I always thought you'd do
That's when I saw myself in you

And though I try
I can't forget
The way you looked at me and said.

And if you could make up
For every single time you lied
I'd probably whisper this
Hello, goodbye
And so it begins again
Harder each and every time
I start to reminisce
I never seem to ever find

<i>[chorus]</i>
Someone I can trust
Someone I believe
Someone who will never try
To bring me to my knees
Someday I will find again
Someone just like me
Someone who will take the time
In understanding me

And if I could make up
For every single tear you cried
I'd probably never miss
Your hand in mine
I never could understand
Mistakes I repeat again
I've been through this so many times
I never seem to ever find

And I've stopped searching
To take my time
And to really clear my head
And I believe it was meant to be
And I feel it's time to go

And if you could make up
For every single time you lied
I'd probably whisper this
I never seem to ever find

So you finally found the way
To lessen all your pain
What you’d give to feel again
For even just a day
And as you search to find the words
For someone to relate
You realize all your faults
Will never mend the mistakes
And everything starts to fall apart
Covered in ink to hide these scars
And everything ends the way it starts
I just want to feel like I belong
Could this be the one last time
That brings about the change
The moments in your life
Well did you know it has to change
Another waste of time
Another dream in flames
And once you feel the fire
You’ll never be the same
And everything starts to fall apart
Covered in ink to hide these scars
And everything ends the way it starts
I just want to feel like I belong
I belong (x’s 3)
All my life, I’ve done nothing but hide from myself
Over and over
All my life, I’ve done nothing but lie to myself
Over and over again
And everything starts to fall apart
Covered in ink to hide these scars
And everything ends the way it starts
I just want to feel like I belong

Something's wrong
Trying to conquer these fears I thought were gone
And it's been so long
I'm dying to live in a world, I don't belong
I can't wait for someone to hear me
And wait for someone to touch me
And wait forever to be dull
and forever alone
I can't wait for someone to feel me
And wait for someone to heal me
And wait forever to be dull
and forever alone
On my own
I've show myself what it means to be alone
And the tears I've cried, haved washed away
All the scars of my disguise
I can't wait for someone to hear me
And wait for someone to touch me
And wait forever to be dull
and forever alone
I can't wait for someone to feel me
And wait for someone to heal me
And wait forever to be dull
and forever alone
I'm forever alone
I'm forever alone
I'm forever alone
I, I'm not waiting here this time
I can't wait for someone to hear me
And wait for someone to touch me
And wait forever to be dull
and forever alone
I can't wait for someone to feel me
And wait for someone to heal me
And wait forever to be told
I'm forever alone
I'm forever alone

Strapped down and heavy, tied up
and bound
This weight I carry, this weight
I've found
So, let me be the one to say I've
really had enough

Downfallen on
(Yes, you meant the world to me)
My sweet love
So headstrong
(Are you?)
Strong

One time too many
You've let me down
Won't think what could be
Can' feel much now

Downfallen on
(Yes, you meant the world to me)
My sweet love
So headstrong
(Are you?)
Strong

Does it realy meant that much to you,
To hide your fear, to test the way I feel

Watch me fall
Watch me break
Watch me crawl
Watch me throw it all away

I can't believe the things you say, so
wrong for how I eel this way
I'm sleeping to relieve this strain so...
Calmly, slowly, softly, just let it all
just drift away

I wanna be sure
I wanna make clear
I want you to know
I love you my dear
me, I'm so dirty, covered in spite
maybe you'll come back cuz you want me, maybe you won't

But you were so young
don't you feel dumb?
you're not the only unfortunate one

Held in your head
the things that they said
and all of the lies and bad things they did
me, I'm unworthy, callous and cold
maybe you need me cuz you're lonely, maybe you don't
and we all live
and make mistakes
and build up walls that make us safe
spitting on all that make us sick

I can't stay forever
and you're too insulting to me (darling)
I can't live forever and be who they want me to be and...

I
I cannot pretend
I will not surrender these dreams in my head
I
I will not disguise
they cannot cover the stars in my eyes
asleep I lie

Fall, like I do
will this be the first time for you?
walk on me, I walk on you
stuck on me, stuck on you
[chorus]
All the things they're telling me
make me wanna up and leave
but I'm not sure that now's the time
and I'm not sure of anything
but even if I crossed the line
at least I'm being true to life
It's me out with the stars tonight [repeat]
[chorus]

I never cared much for this world
(I just want to be someone like you)
but I never said I wouldn't reach deep down to blow them all away

I can feel it
but I don't know where my life's supposed to go
I can see it
but I'm covered by the fear of the unknown
I could hear it
but my head's too sick to listen on my own
wanna do it my way

I never had much of my own
(I just wanna feel the sun like you)
but I never said I wouldn't spread these wings to rise and fly away
[chorus]
Will I be here for you?
of course I will
just remember when you're by yourself...
I've faced trying times, and I've seen pain
I've been through many different walks of life
and just because I haven't seen them all
doesn't really matter cuz I'm floating
[chorus]

Fall to my knees just to be close to God
and I fall to the floor from your love
I am weakened by your tenderness
and touched by your innocence
I search just to find that you're enough
I'm here, call on me
everything, you and me
every moment I think of you is...(every thought that shatters)

All this time just to break up
I'm bored and so alone
wake up
I'm bored and so alone
wake up

I will be your protector
guided by the light from heaven
I will stand and never be undone
like a flame with a million hours
keeping warm this enchantment
all that goes inside this grace is yours
I'm here, call on me
everything, you and me
every moment I think of you is...(every thought that shatters)
[chorus]
Love me, love me before you tell me all the reasons why you wouldn't have me
everything's so fucked up in my head
I don't know for sure that's what she said
tell me, tell me please won't you let me tell you how inside I feel so empty
nothing left just thoughts of better times
letting heal this broken heart and mind
I can't find your will to be saved
waking all this fear inside me
I can't find your will to be saved
wake up find yourself inside me

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing it all
abused and beat down and thrown to the wall
how can they do this to someone at all?
something so awful
woke up this morning I hoped and I prayed
nothing can stop me I'm well on my way
if I can have anything that I want
why does this happen?

We gain, we lose, we fall
and we stand right up again
we gain, we lose and we fall
and we stand right up again
I can be anything I want to be
losing myself in a world that can't be
coming together and falling apart we stand....we fall....

I can see clearly the crack in your soul
looking for something to patch up the hole
if you need someone to reach for, console, just call my name...
you have been searching for so long inside
a meaningful calling your heart can't deny
I try so hard just to stand on my own
how can this happen? (again)
[chorus]
I can finally see the light
no more darkness
I feel so much more alive

Wait, there is too much on my mind
are we here just to simply pass the time?
all these questions awake inside my head
all these questions awake inside me...[repeat]

Now, what I would give
what I would try...
to be with just an ordinary girl
what I would give again, only if I...
could be with just an ordinary girl

Stop, I'm not happy anymore
you bring heartache and anger to the core
I have nothing to give inside me now
I have nothing to give inside me...[repeat]
[chorus]
Doesn't really matter, I'm alone now
thrown out to the world
do you feel the same?
cuz we all feel the same...sometimes

Don't leave me alone
I'm feeling so numb
I need you to be here, I need you to call
and everything's wrong
a beautiful shame
everything's ugly, hazy, and gray
doesn't it hurt?
trick and control you
deceive and destroy you
doesn't it hurt?
forget and move on
I'm here and I'm strong
I've got you to blame when it's finally done

I'm not afraid
of these feelings here inside
I'm sure someday I'll let go of all this hate for you...
I'll let go of all this hate

Does it make you feel inside what you've never felt before
does it promise you a life, but that left you all alone
doesn't it hurt?
trick and control you
deceive and destroy you
doesn't it hurt?
forget and move on
I'm here and I'm strong
I've got you to blame when it's finally done
[chorus]