David Suycott

Voices whisper softly in the darkness
Cries of accusation, evil, lies
Voices echo - screaming, throbbing, laughing
Peel back my skull and look inside

Violent Mood Swings

Footsteps echo heavy off the pavement
Violence burning brighter in my eyes
Life within the flesh still diving deeper
and a random, victim businessman will die

Violent Mood Swings

Someone screaming softly in the distance
I run to seek my refuge from the light
until the darkness once more falls upon me
I'll kill again to live another night

Violent Mood Swings

Haunting Me
by Stabbing Westward



Everywhere I go I see your face
Every sound I hear is
the sound of your voice
Why are you haunting me
Why are you haunting me
Why can't I let you go
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?

Everything about me is a lie
At least it seems that way
when I look in your eyes
The truth scares the shit out of me
Whoever said love is real
and love is blind
has never felt the way that I do

What does it matter?
What's done is done
and I should get on with my life
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?

Well, I don't know what it means
But I can't seem to make myself forget
Was it something that you said
Was it all the guilt inside my head

Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?
Why are you haunting me?

There are times when I'm just a shell
When I do not feel anything for anyone
All I feel is hollow and bruised
Used up and misused
Forced to be someone I don't want to be
Have I failed somehow or some way
Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown
In the depths of despair
Where I am alone
Except for my rage

My rage
My pain
I hate my darkest days
My rage
My pain
I hate my darkest days
My rage
My pain
I hate my darkest days
My rage
My pain
I hate my darkest days
My darkest days

I know the tears you're ctying in your bed at night alone
I've cried those tears a thousand times
But those shallow empty songs about suicide are patronizing
You've got to learn to face your fears

Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away...
Do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
When I'm dead

I know the songs you're singing saying nothing loud and clear
I've heard that song a thousand times
But your noble empty lies about suicide are patronizing
You can never understand what I feel

Or do you think I'll be less lonely when I'm dead
It can't silence all the voices in my head
I close my eyes but I can't make it go away...
Do you think I'll be less
God I pray I'm less lonely when I'm dead
When I'm dead

Lost in a world of doubt and insecurity
Nothing that you hold sacred, nothing you believe
Your life is a contradiction
While you thrive on manipulation
I fight to just hold on to what I believe

I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become you

You treated me like I'm a worthless piece of shit
You think you're in control but you make me sick
I want to watch you suffer
The way That you've made me suffer
I want to fuck up everything you've ever loved

I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become you
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become the thing I hate
I won't become you

I keep breaking all the promises
That I keep making to myself
You'd think by now that I'd be over this
Instead I'm feeling sorry for myself

So why does everything feel so desperate now
I should be feeling so alive
But it feels like something's missing
Something's wrong somehow
It feels like something
Deep inside has died

I keep breaking all the promises
That I keep making to myself
But the promises mean nothing to me anymore

Circling the drain...
Spiraling to hell...
So why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel like dying
Why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel desperate now

I know your life is empty
And you hate to face this world alone
So you're searching for an angel
Someone who can make you whole
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

I know that you've been damaged
Your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
I am just as fucked as you
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me

My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone
I think I'd rather be alone

You can not save me
You can't even save yourself
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
Save yourself
So just save yourself

With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
Sex made me feel alive
But now I'm so bored with mindless passion
Drugs were somewhere to hide
But they've left me feeling cold and empty

How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to

I thought you were my friend
That you were someone that I could turn to
Now I realize
That you were a friend when you needed something

How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
How can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to

I can't hide it, I can't fight it
When every nerve is crying out for release
I can't recapture
The rapture
That passion that is burning inside me
I've lost so much
Chasing the perfect high
I've lost so much
I've never been as high as I was with you
Never been so high
I've never been as high as I was with you
I finally realized that's a perfect high
That's a perfect high
This hunger consumed me
I lost my soul as you came rushing in my veins
A pathetic little junkie
But I'm the whore that needs it one last time
I've lost so much
Chasing the perfect high
I've lost so much
I've never been as high as I was with you
Never been so high
I've never been as high as I was with you
I finally realized that's a perfect high
That's a perfect high
I've never been as high as I was with you
Never been so high
I've never been as high as I was with you
I finally realized that's a perfect high
That's a perfect high
That's a perfect high
That's a perfect high
That's a perfect high

I feel it slipping away
I gave it all and no one cared
I feel it slipping away
I got it slipping away
I gave it all and no one cared
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping

I feel it slipping away
No more pain, no more fear
I feel it slipping away
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

I just can't learn to forget
Now I'm choking on the memories
Choking on regret
I tried but I can't find a way
To untangle all the pieces
After they've been thrown away
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

I will not suffer this loss
Of you again and again and again
I refuse to continue to live
In this perpetual nightmare
I decide it ends right here
I feel it slipping
I feel it slipping away

I feel it slipping... slipping
Everything is slipping away

She's beem here so many times
Before she can't remember
When she last felt anything at all
But this fear and anger
She states intently at the door,
Listens for his footsteps
She knows exactly what's in store
And the knowing makes it worse
When he calls her daddy's little girl,
She doesn't keep him
And when he crushed her
She can't feel her screems are silent
Hides in the corner of her mind
Where she plays contentedly
She leaves this night more far behind
Escapes inside her dreams

Floating high above her bed
Staring at her father's head
Wishing one of them were dead
So this hell could finally end

I'm feeling that weight of the world and It's crushing me
I'm feeling the weight of everyday life And it's crushing me
How much more will it take? How much more until it breaks me?
This world...is crushing me
I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crashing me
I'm feeling the hate of everyday life And it's crushing me
How much more will it take?
How much more until it breaks me?
This world is crushing me

I'm feeling the hate of the world and it's crashing me
I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies
Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me
I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me

I swallow the hate, betrayed and lies
Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me
How much more will it take?
How much more until it breaks me?
This world is crushing me

wasted thoughts of you

desperate prayers to you

give me back my mind

I'm empty inside
And it's so wrong that I need you
it's so wrong that I need abuse
And it's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

what have I become?

everything's undone

a candle burns here in your honor
my soul, a shrine i've built for you
there's nothing left inside me
nothing left inside but you
And it's so wrong that I need you
it's so wrong that I need abuse
it's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

can't seem to pretend
this night needs to end
I can't fill this hole
you are all i know
And it's so wrong that I need you
it's so wrong that I need abuse
And it's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

I'm tangled and broken
Left scattered on the floor
Its useless now
There pieces
Can never make me whole
This is where it falls apart
You wither
You blister
I watch you burn and peal
It's not like you
Can save me
It's not like you even care
This is where it falls apart

I feel helpless as my everything comes
Crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart