Maria Mena - Apparently Unaffected (2008) by Maria Mena (보컬) on maniadb.com

It must have been hard staying in line
knowing your influences did it all the time
It must have been strange living in blue
and see me shut down as though
it was an easy thing to do
But you could tell where I had been
by the way I held my gun
Trying to write anything while being
mocked b an off beat drum
But I was not honest
I was not healthy
I was not honest, honest.
You did the right thing, covered your scars
Challenged your faith
and closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew you were safe home
But you went through hell
whenever you were left alone
But you could see where I had been
in the pictures that they took
I tied to look positive at things,
Faced myself but didn't look
That was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest, honest.

I wish you could see yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling to unnecessary lies
The voice in your head whose spirit you stole
left you for dead but you dug the hole
And I could see where you had been
from the marks around your wrists
The red water washed around your sins
but are you as pure as this?
No you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest
No you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest

I down this bottle of wine
I don't know how to feel but
I don't mind the buzz

As the night moves slow you
Look more and more like someone I could
Love tonight
Without the fuzz

And the feelings
I don't know know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again
Yeah these feelings
I don't know know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again

Don't analyze me
There's no apparent link between
The day he said he'd leave
And my

Recurring dreams
And how I just can't sleep
Unless I've had a drink or five

Oh these feelings
I don't know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again
Yeah these feelings
I don't know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again

I down this bottle of wine
I don't know how to feel but
I don't mind the buzz

As the night moves slow you
Look more and more like someone I could
Love tonight
Without the fuzz

And the feelings
I don't know know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again
Yeah these feelings
I don't know know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again

All these feelings
I don't know know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again

Yeah these feelings
I don't know know if you've been there
I don't think I can go there again

I down this bottle of wine
I don't know how to feel but
I don't mind the buzz

I've run out of complicated theories
So now I'm taking back my words
and I'm preparing for the breakdown
Your t-shirt's lost its smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess
remind me why we decided this was for the best
Because I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you
love..
I know the distance is a factor
but I stretch as often as I can
my goal's to reach your hands any day now
please don't blame me for trying
to fix this one last time
I have a hard time as it is
Because I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love

Don't act like you don't know me
It's still me I've never changed
I'll be here when you come back
and I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you love
I miss you
love..

Tell me
Am I your baby?
You misunderstood me
Just want a piece of your ass, yeah

Impress me
After all, I'm a lady
And dude, if you bore me
I send you back to your wife

You're just a boy toy baby
You're just a boy toy baby

Boy toy baby , nananananana
Boy toy baby


Romance
I don't want no romance
You can grab me with your hands
And leave
When I'm done

Honey
You can keep all your money
I want you to owe me
It's just a game that I play

You're just a boy toy baby
You're just a boy toy baby

Boy toy baby
Boy toy baby
Boy toy baby
Boy toy baby

Tell me, am I your baby?
You misunderstood me
Just want a piece of your ass

You're just a boy toy baby
You're just a boy toy baby
You're just a boy toy baby
You're just a boy toy baby

I've never been confronted with my own thoughts
They don't bother me when I'm alone
Can you come over, save me, 'cause he won't stop
Now get him off his fucking throne

Caution, the floor's wet in here, been crying
I don't know why he seems convinced I'm lying
I don't know what he's capable of doing
But he's hurting me

It's not his fault I made him lose his temper
I should know better not to talk too loud
There's no one out there who could love me better
I'm not like you, you are too proud

Caution, the floor's wet in here, been crying
I don't know why he seems convinced I'm lying
I don't know what he's capable of doing
But he's hurting me

Don't leave me
Please believe me
Baby there is
I can explain
Please love me
Please need me

I've never been confronted with my own thoughts
They don't bother me when I'm alone
Can you come over, save me, 'cause he won't stop
Now get him off his fucking throne

Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i like rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all
But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i like rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
Poor little misunderstood baby
Noone likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days
And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Your patronizing stare can watch me heal.
What I would give for you to tae the wheel
It's just been a long time coming
The strong resemblance to my mother's womb
is the reason why I will not leave this room
It's been a long time coming

The lack of self-esteem has grown on me
I'm not as strong as I appear to be
It's been a long time coming

My lullaby sounds more like distant screams
I wake up sleep deprived after every dream
It's been a long time coming

My flesh makes little sense compared to yours
I wish my restlessness would open doors
It's just been a long time coming

What is this game we're playing?
Should I stick around for more?
Snap your fingers I'll come running
Leave again when you're bored with me
I'll make it easy

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small!
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll let myself out

This facade that I'm stuck with
Has got me wondering
Just tell me how you want me
And I'll be naked stumbling
Just to get a reaction, any signs of love

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small!
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me

Bottle up your smile
And pour it in a cup
I'll be on my way
Once I sobered up

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small!
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your wall
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll let myself out

I said I said I said
I would cater to your ego and fold my hands in
Prayer for your religion
If you would love me and walk me every day

You said, you said, you said.
You would not let your indecision get
In the way of my night but you still managed
To bring your bad temper
To my little show

I can not walk in these shoes
They hurt my toes
I can not stay in your grip
You hurt my nose
Because you squeeze too hard let go of my head

They said, they said, they said
I should get a hobby like learn
How to play the accordion
To sell some of my records
But my fingers
Can't keep up

I can not walk in these shoes
They hurt my toes
I can not stay in your grip
You hurt my nose
Because you squeeze too hard let go of my head

Our battles are repetitious if not broken poetry
And maybe that's the attraction that you're as
Self absorbed as me

You jumped to the conclusion and landed on my chest
Now how am I supposed to make you see

I'll just write this down with hopes that you'll understand
I will no longer be disciplined by the frustrations of an insecure man
And while I kissed your face don't know that I will no longer apologize for you former lovers mistakes

My past is mine to keep
Now who are you to question me
Perhaps, someday you'll learn to...
It's not our turn

You jumped to the conclusion and landed on my chest
Now how am I supposed to make you see

I just write this down with hopes that you'll understand
I will no longer be disciplined by the frustrations of an insecure man
And while I kissed your face don't know that I will no longer apologize for you former lovers Mistakes

You set the standard for my future
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard for my future (lovers)
You set the standard

I just write this down with hopes that you'll understand
I can no longer be disciplined by the frustrations of an insecure man
And as I kiss your face don't know that I will no longer apologize for you former lovers mistakes

I will write this down
Former lover's mistakes

I walk barefoot where the water drowns the sand
With you no longer here to hold my hand
I let go
I let go

The ocean makes my swelling heart feel small
With the sounds it makes you wont hear it if I call
I let go
I let go

There's a breeze in the air
There's a boat anchored out here
There's a calm under the waves
As I choose to sink

Your skin protected me from sunbeams
Your hands made sure I'd stay intact
I let go
I let go

You were always there to walk me home
With you not here, the streets I roam
I let go
I let go

There's a breeze in the air
There's a boat passing over there
There's a calm under the waves
As I choose to sink

With your voice in my head
I could float here instead
But there's a calm under the waves
So I choose to sink

I'm tired now
I'll see you when I wake up
I've heard it's pretty where you are
I let go
I let go