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| 4:13 | 
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he moves efficiently
beyond security. great opportunity awaits. airport fluorescent creature of habit labored breathing and sallow skin recycled air moving sidewalks great opportunity blinks. great opportunity blinks. discounted. the people mover the people mover discounted. |
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| 2. |
| 4:34 |
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hey hey.
I was hell sarcastic silver swell. that day it rained tough spun. hard won. no ocean flower aquarium badlands. give a hand. honey dipt. flim flam hey hey. hey hey. that cat can walk like a big bad man. so happy to show us I ate the lotus. say haven't you noticed? I ate the lotus storefront window, I reflect. just last week I was merely heck tip the scale. I was hell picked me up, then I fell. who's this stranger? crowbar spine ...and I feel fine. let it rain, rain, rain bring my happy back again. so happy to show us I ate the lotus. say haven't you noticed? I ate the lotus let it rain, rain, rain save me from myself again wash away my ugly sins opposing thumb, dorsal fin that monkey died for my grin bring my happy back again let it rain, rain, rain bring my happy back again so happy to show us I ate the lotus. say haven't you noticed? I ate the lotus I ate the lotus I ate the lotus |
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| 3. |
| 5:37 |
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now my suspicion's on the rise
I have known, I have known your kind. please don't talk, don't make me think order up another drink let me let imagination drive. can't you see I need nothing too deep. imagination come alive suspicion tonight, I'll dream tonight. listen to the devils in my ear. tell me what, what I want to hear you're so funny, you're so fine. you're so perfect, you're so mine. that I never had an opportunity to hide no I never had a chance can't you see I need nothing too deep. imagination come alive suspicion tonight, I'll dream tonight. look into my eyes. they hypnotize. the lights, the drinks. let the music carry you away my eyes are blurred my sights are limited am I sensing a familiar twinge? please don't speak make me think it's all too deep imagination come alive suspicion step down, I'll dream tonight. step down, I'll dream you're so naked baby carry me away dream, dream |
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| 4. |
| 5:02 |
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you want to go out friday
and you want to go forever. you know that it sounds childish that you've dreamt of alligators. you hope that we are with you and you hope you're recognized you want to go forever you see it in my eyes. I'm lost in the confusion and it doesn't seem to matter you really can't believe it and you hope it's getting better you want to trust the doctors their procedure is the best but the last try was a failure and the intern was a mess. and they did the same to Matthew and he bled 'til sunday night they're saying don't be frightened but you're weakened by the sight of it you lock into a pattern and you know that it's the last ditch you're trying to see through it and it doesn't make sense but they're saying don't be frightened and they're killing alligators and they're hog-tied and accepting of the struggle you want to trust religion and you know it's allegory but the people who are followers have written their own story. so you look up to the heavens and you hope that it's a spaceship and it's something from your childhood you're thinking don't be frightened you want to climb the ladder you want to see forever you want to go out friday and you want to go forever. and you want to cross your dna to cross your dna with something reptile. and you're questioning the sciences and questioning religion you're looking like an idiot and you no longer care. and you want bridge the schism, a built-in mechanism to protect you. and you're looking for salvation and you're looking for deliverance you're looking for deliverance you're looking like av idiot and you no longer care. you want to climb the ladder you want to see forever. you want to go out friday you want to go forever. |
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| 5. |
| 3:35 |
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*I've found a way to make you
Ive found a way A way to make you smile I read bad poetry Into your machine. I save your messages Just to hear your voice. You always listen carefully To awkward rhymes. You always say your name, Like I wouldn't know it's you, At your most beautiful. *Repeat At my most beautiful I count your eyelashes, secretly. With every one, whisper I love you. I let you sleep. I know you're closed eye watching me, Listening. I thought I saw a smile.. *Repeat |
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| 6. |
| 4:29 |
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they call me the apologist.
and now that I'm at peak. you know at first it really hurt. we joke about these things. I've skirted all my differences but now I'm facing up. I wanted to apologize for everything I was. so I'm sorry, so sorry... did you understand me right? the people here are good. they tell me what I should have done and offer what I could. I'm good, all is good all's well, no complaints. when I feel regret, I get down on my knees and pray. I'm sorry, so sorry... I live a simple life unfettered by complex sweets. you think this isn't me? don't be weak. there I go. I'm so sorry. thank you for being there for me. thank you for listening, goodbye. I can forfeit selfishness I hope for you that you apply this happiness this peacefulness I'm sorry, so sorry... I live a simple life unfettered by complex sweets. you think this isn't me? that's so sweet. I'm so sorry |
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| 7. |
| 4:04 |
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if we're talking about love
then I have to tell you dear readers, I'm not sure where I'm headed. I've gotten lost before. I've woke up stone drunk face down in the floor. late afternoon, the house is hot. I started, I jumped up. everyone hates a bore. everyone hates a drunk. this may be a lit invention professors muddled in their intent to try to rope in followers to float their malcontent. as for this reader, I'm already spent. late afternoon, the house is hot. I started, I jumped up. everyone hates a sad professor. I hate where I wound up. dear readers, my apologies. I'm drifting in and out of sleep. long silence presents the tragedies of love. note the age. get afraid. the surface hazy with attendant thoughts. a lazy eye metaphor on the rocks. late afternoon, the house is hot. I started, I jumped up. everyone hates a bore. everyone hates a drunk. everyone hates a sad professor. I hate where I wound up. I hate where I wound up. |
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| 8. |
| 5:24 |
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you wanted a challenge that's calling you higher
I landed on my feet by crawling I remember standing alone trying to forget you idling I hate to admit that that's my reference point but there it is you say you want me I'm what you found I'm upside down you're in the air you're in the air and I am breathing brighten the stars the weather is lifting the heavens love a love like this it's pulling you higher twist it and turn this around it lights from within it dribbles your chin now brings a smile I'm lost again I'm lost again I'm what you found I'm upside down you're in the air you're in the air and I am breathing you I want the stars to know they've won if only to beguile the sky has opened up again in heaven reconciled I want you naked I want you wild I want the stars to know they win give me that smile just give it me just turn it on I'm lost again I'm what you found I'm upside down you're in the air I'm what you found I'm upside down you're in the air I'm what you found I'm upside down you're everywhere you're in the air and I am breathing you |
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| 9. |
| 4:34 |
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as the sun comes up, as the moon
goes down these heavy notions creep around it makes me think long ago I was brought into this life a little lamb a little lamb courageous, stumbling fearless was my middle name. but somewhere there I lost my way everyone walks the same expecting me to step the narrow path they've laid they claim to walk unafraid I'll be clumsy instead hold my love me or leave me high. say "keep within the boundaries if you want to play." say "contradiction only makes it harder." how can I be what I want to be? when all I want to do is strip away these stilled constraints and crush this charade shred this sad masquerade I don't need no persuading I'll trip, fall, pick myself up and walk unafraid I'll be clumsy instead hold my love me or leave me high. if I have a bag of rocks to carry as I go I just want to hold my head up high I don't care what I have to step over I'm prepared to look you in the eye look me in the eye and if you see familiarity then celebrate the contradiction help me when I fall to walk unafraid I'll be clumsy instead hold my love me or leave me high. walk unafraid I'll be clumsy instead hold my love me or leave me high. |
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| 10. |
| 4:03 |
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the concrete broke your fall
to hear you speak of it I'd have done anything I would do anything I feel like a cartoon brick wall to hear you speak of it you've been so sad it makes me worry why not smile? you've been sad for a while. why not smile? I would do anything to hear you speak of it. why not smile? you've been sad for a while. you've been sad for a while. |
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| 11. |
| 3:40 |
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Receiving dept., 3 a.m.
Staff cuts have socked up the overage Directives are posted. No callbacks, complaints. Everywhere is calm. Hong Kong is present Taipei awakes All talk of circadian rhythm I see today with a newsprint fray My night is colored headache grey Daysleeper The bull and the bear are marking Their territories They're leading the blind with Their international glories I'm the screen, the blinding light I'm the screen, I work at night. I see today with a newsprint fray My night is colored headache grey Don't wake me with so much. Daysleeper. I cried the other night I can't even say why Fluorescent flat caffeine lights Its furious balancing I'm the screen, the blinding light I'm the screen, I work at night I see today... Don't wake me with so much. the Ocean machine is set to 9 I'll squeeze into heaven and valentine My bed is pulling me. Gravity Daysleeper. daysleeper. Daysleeper. daysleeper. daysleeper |
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| 12. |
| 6:01 |
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I watched you fall.
I think I pushed. maybe I'm crazy maybe diminished maybe I'm innocent maybe I'm finished maybe I blacked out. how do I play this? I will give my best today I will give myself away I have never hurt anythig is the jury wavering? do they know I sing? maybe I'm crazy maybe diminished how do I, how do I play this? jealous lover, self defense protective brother, chemical dependence. I'll consult the i-ching I'll consult the tv ouija, oblique strategies. I'll consult the law books for precedents. can I charm the jury? I will give my best today I will give myself away I have never hurt anything is the justice wavering? does she know I sing that song? sing along sing along sing along (I will never hurt anything] I watched you fall. maybe they'll see me, maybe they'll say, "I can see the truth in his statement. smallpox blanket? no way." can I charm the jury, my defense? maybe I'm crazy maybe I'm diminished maybe I loved you baby I loved you baby I loved you baby I loved you baby I'm finished. I will give my best today I will give myself away I have never hurt anything is the justice wavering? does she know I sing that song? sing along sing along sing along (I will never hurt anything) I have given myself away I have given my best today I have never hurt anything is the justice wavering? does she know I loved you does she know I loved you? does she know I sing? |
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| 13. |
| 4:12 |
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you wake up in the morning
and fall out of your bed mean cats eat parakeets and this one's nearly dead. you dearly wish the wind would shift and greasy windows slide open for the parakeet who's colored bitter lime. open the window and lift into your dreams lately, baby you can barely breathe. a broken wrist an accident you know that something's wrong you fold the leavings of your past no one knows you've gone. the sunspot flares of the early nineties light up your wings. and scan the shortwave radio it's tracking outer rings. the tectonic dispatcher shifts to smooth the ocean floor and flattens out to warmer winds of Brisbane's sunny shore. where buddhas tend to mending wrists a tea made from the leaves of eucalyptus fragrances and coriander seeds. you wake up in the morning to warm Pacific breeze where mean cats chew on licorice and cannot climb the trees. open your window and lift into a dream baby, baby baby starts to breathe |
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| 14. |
| 5:06 |
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I'll take the position
assume the missionary part you work by committee, you had me pegged from the start. I'll be pounce pony, phony maroney, pony before the cart. I'll be pounce pony. this ceremony only fills my heart. who cast the final stone? who threw the crushing blow? someone has to take the fall why not me? a punch toy volunteer a weakling on its knee. is all you want to hear and all you want to see. romantically, you'd martyr me and miss this story's point it is my strength, my destiny this is the role that I have chosen. who cast the final stone? who threw the crushing blow? someone has to take the fall why not me? gentlemen mark your opponents fire into your own ranks. pick the weakest as strategic move. square off. to meet your enemy. for each and every gathering a scapegoat falls to climb. as I step forward, silently. deliberately mine who cast the final stone? who threw the crushing blow? someone has to take the fall why not me? why not me. had consequence chose differently had fate its ugly head my actions make me beautiful and dignify the flesh me. I am free. free. |
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