Desultory

Dying days of despair
Are the mirrors of pain
The glass in which I stare
Are slowly building a palace in my mind
Where the memories breeds my fear
With halls of mourning and with walls of bitter loss

The world around me dies
As the seasons change
The water turns to ice
And another year will push the past
Further back into forgetfulness
Among the moments never to return again

Lives are spread by the wind
Growing further apart
Can't return what has been
I will never again touch those winters
Or the shadows of the fall
Never the innocence, the light of each day

Tell me now, where's the end to our strive
Shattered life, the point where freedom dies
Behold my eyes, can't you see I'm terrified
Desperate holding on to a distant time

Life Shatters

Lives are spread by the wind
Growing further apart
Can't return what has been
I will never again touch those winters
Or the shadows of the fall
Never the innocence, the light of each day

So paint the edge with tears
Of a perished emotion
A wound so severe
And much too deep to be erased
By the healing hands of time
That life has withered, and is gone forevermore

Dead lines my view
A hollow gaze in black
Reflecting bitterness
In sadness life is wrapped

Eye's veil conceal
Our pain that roam inside
Days gone forever
The years has drowned in time

Life flows away before my eyes
Waiting for light, another day dies

Searching a time
Beneath the nameless days
Echoes of weeks
The void that builds our way

Open your mind, and see things through my eyes
Their dead, lost eyes, and all the bitter lives

Cold reality
Is the bitter veil
Which divides our lives
From our dying dreams

Moments in flight
Light as the winds caress
Memories, whiter
Into forgetfulness

Life flows away before my eyes
Waiting for light, another day dies

The cold cleanses my soul
And reveal to me
The harmony that long was lost
It sets my spirits free
At last I feel, I feel at ease
The winter cold just grants me peace

The bitter cold is here
Light dies, I hear you cry
A dismal life appear
I live while others die

Softly caressed by silence
And by the darkest night
I make my way through shadows
Into the dying light
The pain inside, it withers away
The silence is here, it leads me astray

In the cold dead winter
My mind is free
In the grip of silence
Life is burning in me

At last I feel, I feel at ease
The winter cold just grants me peace

The bitter cold is here
Light dies, I hear you cry
A dismal life appear
I live while others die
I live while others die

Marching through reality
With a lie before your eyes
Adapt and die
In the endless maze of life

Embedded in apathy
See the future in the past
Too weak to try
To break the chain at last

I stare into your eyes
And I watch something die
I turn away and run
Into oblivion

Softly I buried now
Buried into the grey
Be silent, be dead
Just do what others say

I look at you
You strive to find the way
You're silent, you're dead
You do what others say

I can see right through you
You're not in harmony
Not in harmony with life
Just like me

Alive but dead
Alive but dead

Search for nothing
In this life that I abuse
A race against time
That I'm about to lose

I can read your mind
You think we've just begun
My friend you're lost
Towards the end we run

I rise again, I am immortal
I race through time, I live and breathe only fear

My time is here, Mortals suffer for me
I rule your fate, I decide what will be

I'll devour you all
You're mortal and weak
I'll take your soul
Domination I seek

Follow me now, Follow me human fool
I stand above, Among mortals I rule

I stand above you
I seal your fate
With rage and anger
I rise in hate

Release the fury
Upon you all
My words are eternal
I rise, You fall

I'll devour you all
You're mortal and weak

Stare into the unknown
See the truth reveal
Turn away in helplessness

Gaze upon the future
Gaze into the black
My bitter eyes reflects the pain

Tear down the images
Of what lies ahead
When sadness rules my every move
Tear down your hopeful thoughts
Try to realize
That no one ever guides your way

And I bleed
Bleeding
Blood from my soul
It drains away
And I bleed
I bleed for you
And I bleed for me

Just give me a reason not
To paint the future black
When all my hope just fades away, just fades away

I can see no future
Here in front of me
What's the point of living
When I could be free

Bleeding
Blood from my soul
It drains away
And I bleed
I bleed for you
And I bleed for me

Into the void of
Accusation
Into the point of
No return

Give me a shelter
From your rain
The fall of anger
Storm of pain
Our surface breaks in
Agony
Your bitter voice tastes
Tragedy

So here's the frozen silence
The shadow of our lives
The space between two spirits
A child of our lies

Turn away
Two shattered eyes in pain
Life betrays
Frustration of a dying flame
Mind decays
Words swallowed by the blame
Fall astray
Our feelings slowly fades

The taste of tragedy engulf
The feelings that no longer lives

The thorn of disbelief
Raping souls
Our web of trust now
Filled with holes
Cold chains of everyday
Bleeding scars
Different living minds
Drifting apart

So here's the frozen silence
The shadow of our lives
The space between two spirits
A child of our lies

Fumbling in frustration, inside soul torn apart
Feel the loss of paradise, leave an empty heart
Closing eyes will shut out, the warm light of a life
Grip is fading slowly, for each day passing by

The soul is bleeding from thorns inside
Red blood is flowing in waves of tide

Shades of lies are playing, on pale and stone cold face
Eyes reflects compassion, take the empty space
Down on knees I'm weak, don't turn your back on me
Lips are full of lines, which only I can see

It hurts so bad, I cannot breathe
So lonely so lost, in misery

Breathing a lie, I am denied

Blindfold my eyes, I am to die

Push away in anger, a disappointed mind
The streak of truth I seek, It touch so deep inside
Illusions has been washed, away like grains of sand
In endless waves of sea, the shore of unknown land

Dead light is shining through
Spreading the years of grey
Leaving our past behind
Faces are turned away
I watch you spread your wings
With eyes of apathy
You're carried by the winds
Unchained and living free

Castle of dying life
Home of security
Within the heart of silence
I'm living in a dream
Inside my world of envy
Days filled with emptiness
Trembling in fear of facing
My growing loneliness

Lies now comes alive
Dead dreams flows away
Just fear for me to find
Pain lives, I'm left behind

The shades upon my face
Can't keep the pain inside
Hear cries beneath my laughter
See tears in every smile
I've always felt so clear
It had to end one day
But dreams could never tell
That it would hurt this way

I never thought that it would be
Something like this, something I can't believe
Life slips away, I'm begging for it to stay
Desperate to stay alive
Not ready for death, not ready for afterlife
My struggle for life devours my everything

Towards the light I strive
Towards my death I fly

A light in front of me appears
I'm at the end yet here it begins
Slowly I crawl away from the shining light
But something seems to hold me back
Halfway to death, into eternity
The light feels so warm, embraces my dying soul

My dying soul will enter the unknown
Harmony, this fear will disappear
The longing in my eyes for peace eternally
Tearing my soul in two, tears me apart

Eternity in front of me the light is all I see
Eternity devours me, will I be free

A doubt inside of me arise
Return to life, or facing my destiny
I feel myself drawn to the other side
Entering a world of light
Relief in my my mind, relieves my entire soul
At last I let go, I flow into emptiness

The passage to eternity

So here I stand
In this rain of falling tears
Time stands still
Everythig around is dead
I cannot see
I'm embraced by nothingness
But do I want
To find the passage back to life

Asleep again
Darkness is ruling
Within my mind
I feel I'm flying slowly
A dream so real
Alive and frightening
A grotesque sight
My senses shiver deep inside

These nightly scenes
Now twisting my eyes
I see it clear
Painted up before me
Forgotten place
Buried beneath sea
Mountain high
The lord of evil I behold

In silence I dream
Of things yet unseen
Through aeons I see
With closed eyes, in dreams

Deep in me, cries
Terrified
Lame inside, dead
Cannot fight

Awake at last
I'm cold and shaking
So terrified
I stare at my own hands
I have created
Deep in my sleep
A sick reflection
Of the horrid things I've seen

Soon after you finally passed away
Your body will rot, start to decay
No way to stop this repulsive destiny
Maggots will devour what's left of you and me
Intrude the inner organs, the flesh will not be saved
The putrid stench surrounds the place where you are laid
The veins that once was filled with blood so strong and red
Has now been dried up, such a shame it's to be dead

Now you have become a gruesome picture of yourself
Bacteria will revel, infesting every cell
Your eyes has been consumed, not much remaining of your face
You'll slowly disappear, death has no feeling for disgrace
Even though your life has ceased the abscess will arise
Cover all your body, grow to extensive size
The sight of you is now enough to drive a mind insane
Blanked bones and rotten flesh is all that will remain

Flesh begins to rot
Limbs are falling of
Bones begins to show
Skin has been dissolved
Should have done as they said
Choosed the flames instead

Disappearing like millions before
Unavoidable fate
Don't wanna end in disgrace
But now it's too late

Passed away
Passed away

(Repeat second verse)

All that will remain

Why tell me why, we all have to die

Pain and sorrow, inside of me
Resurrection, will never be
No holy father, no holy son
Can bring you back now, forever gone

Deathly loss rips apart everything that once was living
Nevermore happiness, hopeless thoughts overwhelms me
Sorrowfilled, agony, die inside, deadly silence
Desperate cries inside no one can ease my sorrow

Open your eyes and you will see
Nothing will remain eternally
Apathy arise inside of me
Forced into this new reality

Silence surrounds me, mind filled with fear
Darkness approaches, death calls I hear

[Repeat 1st verse]

As the moon lays its veil
Over the blanket of snow
The dark and ice-cold water
Swirling by deep below
I stare with absent eyes
Into foam so white
Water now in furious rage
I'm paralyzed by this sight

Waves storms as if in dance
Making a living bed
They climb and rise so high
Only to fall down dead
Chaos strikes my mind
A dreamlike battle inside
And though my conscience shivers
My body wants to fly

So fragile is it, the flame of life
That burns within us, so deep inside
It is so easy for me to fall
It is so easy to lose it all

So close now, so easy
I want to see, yet stay alive
Emotions frustrate me
Too scared to see what dwells behind

My twisted mind-cries
This weird emotion-I defy

Just a single step
And into the end I'll fall
Life is just a shadow
It's so easy to lose it all
I silently sigh and turn,
around and walk away
I've finally decided to live another day

So close now, so easy
I want to see, yet stay alive
Emotions frustrate me
Too scared to see what dwells behind

Visions sweeps across my mind
The final call I hear
Darkness falls eternally
Inside embraced with fear
Breeding fear comes over me
Scared of what I'll find
Darkest recollections
Death intrudes my mind

With open eyes I shall behold
I'm not afraid to see

What will I find, who will I meet
What visions will I see
Chaos sinks into my mind
What will become of me
Descend into another world
The place of final peace
A new dimension far away
Where everything will cease

Now, silently I'll march towards the end
Life is hidden well beyond the veils of pain

Go beyond, experience
What no one did before
To the place where time is dead
And stay forever more
Darkest place, emptiness
No visions left to see
This is the place where I will spend
Eternal destiny

You yearn for the sleep that will never come
You cry out for relief
Visions of a future that you'll never see
Memories of the past
Traces of sanity is soon to be gone
Confusion is all around
Truing to seek new ways out of this
Only to fail once again

[Chorus:]
The illumination is a false betrayal
You fall deep into the mind that will destroy you
Dying seems to be the only way to end it
Try to clear your blurry sight but there is no use

Suffer day and night
Slowly my mind will collapse
Fearing the last day of life

Darkness is falling inside your mind
Loosing your last hope
You'll have to go far beyond the veils of life
To find the truth
You stare into the past and try to understand
The answers disappear
Lost in yourself there's no way to get out
Slowly you'll fade away

[Chorus]

Suffer day and night
Fearing the last day of life

Tears from my eyes
Burning my skin, down on their way
Bitter tears
Filled with dreams, they flow away

I had it all
Like water it slipped between my hands
It disappeared
Lonely and cold, abandoned I stand

All I was living for
Now suddenly is gone
All my hopes and thoughts
That I had were wrong

Dreams made my world
I raised a wall, with visions filled
Before my eyes
It turned to dust, this lie I've built

I lay myself down
I close my eyes, and resign
Feelings die
I leave my past far behind

So now it seems
Like my tears will never stop to fall
With tearfilled eyes
I watch my dreams just slip away

Let me pass
Away into eternal sleep
Greeted by silence
Embraced by darkness, by arms so deep

I let it go
I'm falling weightless, emotion flies
I fade away
The wind softly moves me as I die...

Depression touch me, deep inside
Emptiness fills my mind
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow ending nears
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust

No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality

Confusion rules me, leads astray
Happiness so far away
Loss of interest, loss of hope
Life pass by far too slow
Loss of senses, apathy
Shades of black blindfolds me

Causing wounds
That time won't heal
A grim reality
Will now reveal

Now life seems to cease
Nothing will be the same again

No one hears my cries
Loneliness arise
Trying to break free
Severe reality

Illusions leads me to agony
Trapped inside, disharmony
Loss of lifelust, loss of tears
Veils of sorrow, ending nears
Loss of feelings, loss of trust
All my visions turns to dust