Von Benzo

You wanted me to be there, but I was so far away
My head was so far from clear and I had nothing to say
so you can't be defined

So I guess I'm the one, the only one that is me
But I am seriously doubting that it's the right way to see
Kill my mind so

Feed me so I can stay high 'cause I try to
Hit me so I feel alive 'cause I don't, I'm telling you
And I try my best to hide, yes I try and I try
But it just feels so good

I wake up, I get lost, I'm in a frozen mistake
Lost in time, can't get fine, got too much feelings to take
Kill my mind so I can

Feed me so I can stay high 'cause I try to
Hit me so I feel alive 'cause I don't, I'm telling you
And I try my best to hide, yes I try and I try
But it just feels so good

Feed me so I can stay high 'cause I try to
Hit me so I feel alive 'cause I don't, I'm telling you
And I try my best to hide, yes I try and I try

Left me on my knees, and I only shiver
Take my breath from me, time is the enemy
And I don't believe, that I could be the

Still not feeling free
And I don't think you can handle anymore of me

Left myself a dead 'cause I wasn't strong
Tried to fall free, but I fell to long
I'm not waking up, 'cause I can't be saved
But I wanna change
I tried everything just to numb the pain
When I came back was it all in vain
So my head, clear, but all I feel is shame
And there's a me, but I'm afraid
Afraid that I am still the same
Can't let go until forever
(ever) ever (ever)
Please let go, please let go now
And just let me die beautiful
Please let go, please let go now
And just let me die beautiful
Die beautiful, die beautiful
(Please let go, please let go now)
(And just let me die beautiful)
Can't let go, 'cause I'm afraid
And I won't let myself be saved
Can't forgive myself ever
(ever) ever (ever)
Please let go, please let go now
And just let me die beautiful
Please let go, please let go now
And just let me die beautiful
Die beautiful, die beautiful
Can't let go of all my tears
To weak to face my inner fears
An endless nameless feeling eats me up inside
(please let go)
I want to break and run away
The fire wanted me to stay
Now can't let go until forever
(ever) ever (ever)
Please let go, please let go now
And just let me die beautiful
Please let go, please let go now
And just let me die beautiful
Die beautiful, die beautiful

No fire now, No smoke
Bloody fingers and I'm feeling soaked
Bad father gets Bad son
Bad everything Bad no one
Cuz I need the fire
And I need the smoke
My face in a smirk
'Cuz life is a joke
The sun seems to shine
On everyone I know
So why am I in the shadows
Cuz I choke
Life takes love
Breaks almost everyone
I've tasted the color of sunshine
Lives will destroy
Kill all the joy
I'm sorry but
I was just a boy
And I need the fire
And I need the smoke
My face in a smirk
'Cuz life is a joke
The sun seems to shine
On everyone I know
So why am I in the shadows
'Cuz I'm a joke
No fire now
Life takes somethin' away
Bloody fingers yet
I have nothin' to say
No diving gray?
Will take the pain away
Hope I make it clear
Hope I get free some day
'Cuz I need the fire
And I need the smoke
My face in a smirk
'Cuz life is a joke
The sun seems to shine
On everyone I know
So why am I in the shadows
Cuz I choke

Innocence, it gets lost with every simple
And through hell will I still try to make things better
And the liars, as I try to hypnotize you
For it all to seem like it was somewhere near you
Cause I don't wanna know
Sad sad me
And even if you show
And then I'll leave you screaming
Cause I don't wanna know
Dead dead me (yeah-eah yeah)
And even if you know
I won't believe you're happy here
Cause it all just seems to break you
And for everytime I try I can't get further
Cause I don't wanna know
Sad sad me
And even if you show
And then I'll leave you screaming
Cause I don't wanna know
Dead dead me (yeah-eah yeah)
And even if you know
I won't believe you're happy
So please scream my name
I'll kill my spririt for fame
So please scream my name
I'll kill my spririt for fame
for fame for fame for fame
Cause even if you show
And then I'll leave you screaming
Cause I don't wanna know
Sad sad me (yeah-eah yeah)
And even if you know
I won't believe you're happy here
Sad sad me, dead dead me, sad sad me

After all this you might just say don't hold your breath inside
and maybe we can make it anyway.
And there's so many reasons why,
and now I found myself and maybe I can hold my head up high
And then it hits me and it feels like drowning
under the surface I'll stay.
And every second when I feel like cryin'
I let myself go anywhere.
You push me further then I can go
and then I find myself believing everything you had to show.
So everywhere I should have gone,
and everthing I might have known before I started living stoned.
And then it hits me and it feels like drowning
under the surface I'll stay.
And every second when I feel like cryin'
I let myself go anywhere.
And then it hits me and it feels like drowning
under the surface I'll stay.
And every second when I feel like cryin' I let myself go,
No I can't let myself go.
No, I can't let myself go anyway!