Laura Marling

He wants to die in a lake in Geneva
the mountains can cover the shape of his house
he wants to die were nobody can see him
but the beauty of his death will carry on so

i dont believe him

he greets me with kisses when good days deceive him
and sometimes wit scorn and sometimes i believe him
and sometimes I'm convinced my friends think I'm crazy
get scared and call him but he's usually hazy
at one in the morning the day has not ended
by two he is scared that sleep is no friend
and four he will drink but he can not feel it
sleep will not come because sleep does not will it
and i dont believe him
morning is mocking me

ill wonder the streets avoiding the meets
as the ring onn my finger slips to the ground
a gift to the gutter a gift to the city
the veins of which have broken me down
and i dont believe him
morning is mocking me

oh the gods that he believes
never fail to amaze me
he believes in the love of his god of all things
but i find him wrapped up in manner of sins
the drugs that decive him and the girls that believe him
i cant control you i dont know you well
these are the reasons i think that your ill
i cant control you i dont know you well
these are the reasons i think that your ill

and since last that we parted
last time i saw him
down by a river
scilent and hardened
morning was mocking us
blood hit the sky
i was just happy my mannequin and i
he couldnt see me the sun was in his eyes
and birds where singing to calm us down
and birds were singing to calm us down

and im sorry young man i cannot be your friend
i dont believe in a fairytail end
i dont keep my head up all of the time
i find it dull when my heart meets my mind
and i hardly know you i think i can tell
these are the reasons i think that we're ill
and i hardly know you i think i can tell
these are the reasons i think that I'm ill

and the gods that he believes never fail to disapoint me
the gods that he believes never ail to dis appoint me
my mess, my happy-man, my manic and i have no plans to move on
but birds are singing to calm us down
and birds are singing to calm us down

> I know I said I love you
But I'm thinking I was wrong
I'm the first to admit that
I'm still pretty young
And I never meant to hurt you
And I wrote you ten love songs
That guy that I could never get
Coz his girlfriend was pretty fit
And everyone who knew her loved her so
And I made you leave her for me
And now I'm feeling pretty mean
But my mind has thrown me over
More times than any man could ever know
Maybe I should give up giving
Give up trying to be thin
Give up and turn into my mother
God knows I love her
And I'm sorry to which ever man
Should meet my sorry state
Watch my steady lonesome gait
And be aware
I will never love a man
Coz love and pain go hand in hand
And I can't do it again
So we stay up late one night
To try and get our problems right
But I couldn't get into his head
Just what was going through my mind
And I think he knew where I was going
Coz he put Bryan Adams on
Coz I think he thinks it makes me weak
But it only ever makes me strong
I've got this friend who sounds just like him
And he's the man I'd leave you for
The man that I just adore like you
The same night he turns to me
Says I've got to tell you how I feel
If God could make the perfect girl for me
It would be you
And Michael told me not to tell her
And how much do you love your fella
I don't know, more everyday
Not in this new romantic way
I'll always be your first love
You'll always be my first love
And I'm sorry to which ever man
Should meet my sorry state
Watch my steady lonesome gait
And be aware
I will never love a man
Coz I can never hurt a man in this way
I will never love a man
Coz I can never hurt a man
Not in this new romantic way

I woke up and he was screaming, I'd left him dreaming
I roll over and shake him tightly and whisper
If they want you, oh, they're gonna have to fight me
Oh, fight me

I woke up on a bench on Shepherd's Bush Green
Oh, a candle at my chest and a hand on his knee
I got up it was dark, there's no one in the park at this hour
How do I keep finding myself here?
Oh, fight me

If I look back and he is screaming, I'd left him dreaming
The dangers fade
And I'll run back and shake him tightly and scream
If they want him, oh, they're gonna have to fight me
Oh, fight me

But if I wake up on a bench on Shepherd's Bush Green
Oh, a candle at my chest and a hand on his knee
I'll roll over and hold him tightly and scream
If you want him, oh, you're gonna have to fight me
Oh, fight me

Don't fight me

Again I let jealousy blind me today.
My oldest friend and I blew her away.
Just a few kind words and all I could say
was I've known you of ten years it feels like a day.
And oh I watched her cry, torn apart at the hands of a child.

And again I used arrogance as something to depend
and condemned all religion to pitiless end.
And a politician's resonance rang through my mind.
Patriotic in one sense the other just blind.
Oh so many died, torn apart at the hands of a child

And I'll keep on going I've got nothing to lose.
I gave up morals when I took up you
and it's boring to hear of another young truth
and what a typically shit thing to do.

I was so shallow to the one man that'd stuck around
sunk so low that I nearly drowned
and I screamed of his heart when he wasn't around
Consoled him recklessly, I knew you were down.
Oh I watched him cry, a broken heart at the hands of a child.

And I'll keep on going I've got nothing to lose
I gave up morals when I took up you
and its boring to hear of another young truth
and what a typically shit thing to do.

I have felt heartbreak too and I know what it feels like.
I have felt heartbreak now you can leave me alone right.
I have felt loneliness and I know what it feels like.

But I kept on going I had nothing to lose,
and I gave up morals when I took up booze.
And it's boring to hear of another young truth
and what a typically shit thing to do.

God's work is plans
I stand here with a man that talked to me so candidly
More than you need to.

My lips once roosed
I feel again the blues of longing, ever longing, to be confused

He wrote me a letter
Saying he would love me better
When my poor sons begetter the rules

Spoke of love like hunger
He at once was younger, ever younger, in my hunger for a muse

Finest man that I've seen ever since my eyes have been
But his honesty did gleam me blind

Keep those thoughts from sight
Follow me into the night
And you can call on me when you need the light

Don't you be scared of me
I'm nothing but the beast
And I'll call on you when I need to feast

You know what I need
Why won't you giveth me?
Must I fall down at your feet and plead?

Stole my children, left my son
Of all of them, he's the only one who did not mean that much to me
I tip my cap to the raging sea

My daughter, she's the pretty one
I married her off to the reverend's son
Now she lives in a sin-free world
Tip your cap to the brave old girl

Now all my rage been gone
Now all my rage been gone
I'd leave my rage to the sea and the sun
I'd leave my rage to the sea and the sun

Stole my children, left my son
Of all of them, he's the only one who did not mean that much to me
I tip my cap to the raging sea

Oh cover me up, I'm pale as night
With a mind so dark and skin so white
Is this the devil having fun?
I'd tip my cap to the raging sun

Now all my rage been gone
Now all my rage been gone
I'd leave my rage to the sea and the sun
I'd leave my rage to the sea and the sun

Now all my rage been gone
Now all my rage been gone
I'd leave my rage to the sea and the sun
I'd leave my rage to the sea and the sun

I choose to stay far away
From the ones that think
Money is money to share
Don't ask me why
And i'll tell you no lies

Sonny don't come here no more
He don't drink from this well
O he's done with the world
And done with the girl
And i don't ask him why
And he tells me no lies

Those of us who are lost and low
I know how you feel
I know it's not right but it's real
But it's real.

I don't ask for love
And i don't beg for money
I'm just asking for grace and forgiveness
Now honey don't ask me why
And i'll tell you no lies.

Been looking for answers
In unsavoury places
On the highest of mountains
And on the lowest of bases
And i still don't know why
I still don't know why.

Those of us who are lost and low
We know how you feel
We know it's not right but it's real
But it's real.

I took the wind from the sea
I took the blood from an arrow
I took the wisdom of spring
And i was thrown and blown and tossed and turned until
Time found its hand and called an end
Me and time we go way back when
I was a child
And i always knew why.

I knew my name
I knew my road
And i stayed away from heavy loads
I'm still, i'm low
O lord am i low

Those of us who are lost and low
We know how you feel
We know it's not right but it's real
But it's real.

I was just a card, caught up in the stars,
Looking down to Mars.
You know, you know
He knows, he knows something
About me that I don't want him to know.

Never found a solid hand till I found that man,
Till I found that man of mine.
You were looking at me, thinking,
"Who is she?"

Never knew the sky was white till I took that flight,
Till I took that flight to him,
Tonight.

I was just a card, caught up in the stars,
Looking down to Mars.
You know, you know
I know, I know something
About you that you don't want me to know.

Could've sworn I had that man when he took my hand,
When he took my hand down near you.
You were looking at me, thinking,
"Who am I?"

Didn't even see the night till I said goodbye,
Till I said goodbye to him,
Tonight.

My friends, my dear friends
And lovers, oh my lovers
I'd leave you for them

They got a hand on my back

Mama has money now and Mama has friends
She's making rags for some uptown hags
With their money in bags
And why are you so sad?

Why are you always so sad?
Why do I not understand?
Why don't I see what it is you see?
Why can I live and just be?

I'm full of guilt
I am full of guilt
You're very tall, you're very handsome
You have it all, your skin smells like man

And I, you never know how I ache
You will never know how I ache
Don't touch that in grace

Ever considered the sea?
I heard you had to be strong
Why not float around with me?
It won't take you so long

You can go where I'm at
You can hang around with me
And a few good men will go where they all
Where they all not be
And a few good mothers go for what they,
What they all not teach

And I long for a touch or reminder of us but,
But it must not be

And a few strong branches over water reach for what they all not reach

I hope your mother knows where it is you have been
I hope your mother knows what it is you have seen
She'd be so proud
She will never know how I ache

Darling I loved you
I long to become you
And know what it is that you feel
We dance the sorrow
Forgive me tomorrow
I pray
Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken
My mind drift away?

Dear lover forsaken
Our love is taken away
You were my speaker
My innocence keeper
I don't
Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken
And my mind drift away?

Dear lover forgiven
My love is driven by rage
O I should just leave you
Instead of deceive you
But I don't
Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken
And my mind drift away?

I count as no one
Hold nobody's ear
I showed you my hand once
And you hit me in fear
I don't stand for the devil
I don't whisper in ears
I stand on the mountains
And call people to hear

Sudden bursts of light
It's a fate foretold
It is knowing
It is knowing

He longs for the answers
As all of us must
He longs for the woman
Who will conquer his lust
He screams in the night
I scream in the day
I weep in the evening
And lie naked and pray

Night after night
Day after day
Night after night
Day after day
Would you watch my body weaken
And my mind drift away?

A tempting communion
It's a fate foretold
It is knowing
It is knowing
What it is that you're told

There lies a man of my heart
A fine and complete work of art
Here I his woman
His home and his heart
And proud to be playing that part
And proud to be playing that part

Rest in the bed of my bones
All that I want is a home
And all you can do
Is promise me bold
That you won't let me grow dark
Or cold
As long as we both shall live.

The sirens come
Feel your call as a sound as I
Believe in you

The first deal's the hardest I'm sure
Where our shadows come to the shore
Know that it's you and I till the end
And all I want from life is to
Hold your hand

All that I have are these bones
And all that I want is a home
And all you can do
Is promise me bold
That you won't let me grow dark
Or cold
As long as we both shall live.

The sirens come
They always will
But the dart between my heart and his
Is as good as a diamond chain

Rest in the bed of my bones
All that I want is a home
And all you can do
Is promise me bold
That you won't let me grow dark
Or cold
As long as we both shall live.

I am from Salinas
Where the women go forever
And they never ever stop to ask why
My mother was a saviour
Of six foot of bad behaviour
Long blonde curly hair down to her thigh
O my mother
O my friends
Ask the angels
Will I ever see heaven again?

Late into the evening
They would take each other screaming
Looking back into the back of her eyes
A careless beast was bleating
That the air behind was breathing
That they musn't ever look up to the sky
There no answers
There are found
Ask the angels
Am I heaven bound?

Mmmm put it down to me
I, who speak awkwardly
Any word if it is heard is not intended to be
Not for him and not for her
And not for them and not for me
O and that gun would turn
Before the sun starts to burn
Understand

Mmmm when the clouds roll in
And we start to pay for our sins
With a gun in my hand
And my son at my shoulder
I believe I will run
Before that boy gets older
O when that gun will turn
Befor the sun starts to burn
Understand
O when that gun will turn
Befor the sun starts to burn
Understand

I am from Salinas
Where the women go forever
And they never ever stop to ask why
My mother was a saviour
Of six foot of bad behaviour
With long dark curly hair down to her thigh
O my mother
O My friends
Ask the angels
Will I ever see heaven again?
Will I ever see heaven again?
Will I ever see heaven again?

Punish them all for they speak too much
Hate the world what it did to us
Will I ever see heaven again?

Oh I have been wondering where I have been pondering
Where I've been lately is no concern of yours
Who's been touching my skin
Who have I been letting
Shy and tired eyed am I today

I'm wounded by dust
All I have been wondering where I have been pondering
Where I've been lately is no concern of yours
Who's been touching my skin
Who have I been letting
Tried and tired eyed am I today

Sometimes I sit, sometimes I stare
Sometimes they look and sometimes I don't care
Rarely I weep, sometimes I must
I'm wounded by dust

When the bell toll, when the bell gon' chime
You better call for your woman up high
And when the bell tolls for your last day,
You'll be getting down on your knees to pray
I'm a good woman and I never did say whatever it was that you did that day
I'm not a woman that is going to place claim but you said that it was coming on judgement day

Now Sophia
I'm wounded by dust

When the bell toll, when the bell gon' chime
You better call for your woman up high
And when the bell tolls for your last day,
You'll be getting down on your knees to pray
I'm a good woman and I never did say whatever it was that you did that day
I'm not a woman that is going to place claim but you said that it was coming on judgement day

Now Sophia
I'm wounded by dust
Now Sophia

Where did our love go
You will never know
How did you get home
You will never know

Did you catch yourself in the mirror?
It's a sight i understand
You considered it all for a second
And put it down to slight of hand

You know i've been running 'round for hours
Calling my egyptian blood to bear me flowers
Calling sophia, goddess of power

Instead i got the beast
And tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here comes to beast

You're okay now, i suppose
You're not pulled by the rope
I'm pulled by the pull on my throat
I'm pulled by the rope
I swing from the trees into the slope
Hold my head high, just by the tip of my toes
And he lies, he lies so sweet that i choke

Tonight i choose the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here comes the beast

Put your eyes away
If you can't bear to see your old lady laying
Down next to the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here comes the beast

Look at yourself in the mirror
It's a sight i understand
You consider it all for a second
And put it down to slight of hand
I give you the best, the best that i can

I suggest that you be grateful
That it's your blood on my hands
And assume yourself weaker, the fall of man
And look out for the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here comes the beast

Put your eyes away
If you can't bear to see your old lady laying
Down next to the beast
Tonight he lies with me
Tonight he lies with me
And here comes the beast

God's work is plans
I stand here with a man that talked to me so candidly
More than you need to.

My lips once roosed
I feel again the blues of longing, ever longing, to be confused

He wrote me a letter
Saying he would love me better
When my poor sons begetter the rules

Spoke of love like hunger
He at once was younger, ever younger, in my hunger for a muse

Finest man that I've seen ever since my eyes have been
But his honesty did gleam me blind

Keep those thoughts from sight
Follow me into the night
And you can call on me when you need the light

Don't you be scared of me
I'm nothing but the beast
And I'll call on you when I need to feast

You know what I need
Why won't you giveth me?
Must I fall down at your feet and plead?