Fiona Apple

I'm gonna make a mistake-
I'm gonna do it on purpose
I'm gonna waste my time
Cuz I' full as a tick
And I' scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine
And when the day is done, and I look back

And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure
Had fun, so
I'm gonna fuck it up again
I'm gonna do another detour
Unpave my path

And if you wanna make sense
Whatcha looking at me for
I'm no good at math
And when I find my way back,
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I've acquired quite a taste
For a well-made mistake

I wanna mistake why can't I make a mistake
I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
Answer you, hell no
I've acquired quite a taste
For a well-made mistake, I wanna
Make a mistake, why can't I make a mistake
I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

The nickel dropped
When I was on
My way beyond
The rubicon
What did I do
And the games that I can handle
None are ones worth the candle
What should I do
I'm a frightened, fickle person
Fighting, cryin', kickin', cursin'
What can I do
Oooh, after all the folderol,
And hauling over coals
What will I do
Can't take a good day without a bad one
Don't feel just to smile until I've had one
Where did I learn
I make a fuss about a little thing
The rhyme is losing to the riddling
Where's the turn
I don't want a home, I'd ruin that
Home is where my habits have a habitat
Why give it a turn
Oooh, after all the folderol,
And hauling over coals Stops What did I learn
I am likely to miss the main event
If I stop to cry and complain again
So I will keep a deliberate pace
Let the damned breeze dry my face
Ooooh mister wait until you see
What I'm gonna be
I've got a plan, a demand and it just began
And if you're right, you'll agree
Here's coming a better version of me
Here it comes a better version of me
Here it comes a better version of me

Won't do no good to hold no seance
What's gone is gone and you can't bring it back around
Won't do no good to hold no searchlight
You can't illuminate what time has anchored down
Oh, Honey (I've gone a-)
Oh, Honey (I've gone a-)
Oh, Honey (I've gone away)
Won't do no good to sing no love song
No sound could simulate the presence of a man
Won't do no good asking no questions
Your divination should acquaint You with the plan
Oh, Honey (I've gone a-)
Oh, Honey (I've gone a-)
Oh, Honey (I've gone away)
My feel for you, boy, is decaying in front of me And all I want is to
save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away
Won't do no good to go no distance
The space between us is as boundless as the dark
Won't do no good to throw no fist, babe
You can't intimidate me back into your arms
Oh, Honey (I've gone a-)
Oh, Honey (I've gone a-)
Oh, Honey (I've gone away)
My feel for you, boy, is decaying in front of me
Like the carrion of a murdered prey
And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away
My feel for you, boy, is decaying in front of me
Like the carrion of a murdered prey
And all I want is to save you, honey
Or the strength to walk away

I've been a bad bad girl
I've been careless with
a delicate man
And it's a sad sad world
When a girl willbreak a boy
Just because shecan
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to
Suffer for my sins
I've come to you' cause I need
Guidance to be true
And I just don't know
where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from theevil deeds
Before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings
the consequence
At hand
But I keep livin' this day like
The next will never come
Oh help me but don't tell me
To deny it
I've got to cleanse myself
Of all these lies till I'm good
Enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm
Bettin' high
So I'm beggin' you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's allI ever knew of love

Let me know the way
Before there's hell to pay
Give me room to lay
the law and let me go
I've got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So what would an angel say
The devil wants to know
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's allI ever knew of love
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's allI ever knew of love

I certainly
haven't been for shopping for
any new shoes and
I certainly
haven't been
spreading myself around
I still only travel by
foot and by
foot it's a slow climb
But I'm good at being
uncomfortable so
I can't stop changing all the time
I notice that my opponent
is always on the go and
Won't go slow so's not to focus
and I notice
He'll hitch a ride
with any guide as long as
They go fast from whence he came
But he's no good at being
uncomfortable so
He can't stop staying
exactly the same
If there was a better way to go
then it would find me
I can't help it the road
just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it
I'm an extraordinary machine
I seem to you to seek a new
disaster every day
You deem me due to clean my
view and be at piece and lay
I mean to prove I mean to
move in my own way and say
I've been getting along for long
before you came into the play
I am the baby of the family
it happens so
Everybody cares
and wears the sheeps
clothes While they chaperone
Curious you looking down your
nose at me while you appease
Courteous to try and help but
let me set your Mind at ease
If there was a better way
to go then it would find me
I can't help it the
road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it
I'm an extraordinary machine
Do I so worry you
you need to hurry to my side
It's very kind
But it's to no avail
and I don't want the bail
I promise you everything
will be just fine

If there was a better way to go
then it would find me
I can't help it the
road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it
I'm an extraordinary machine
If there was a better way to go
then it would find me
I can't help it the
road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it
I'm an extraordinary machine

I let the beast in too soon,
I don't know how to live
Without my hand on his throat
I fight him always & still
O darling, it's so sweet, you think you know how crazy
-How crazy I am

You say you don't spook easy, you won't go, but I know
And I pray that you will
-Fast as you can, baby run-free yourself of me
Fast as you can

I may be soft in your palm but I'll soon grow
Hungry for a fight, and I will not let you win
My pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will
Disprove your faith in man
So if you catch me trying to find my way into your
Heart from under your skin
-Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself
Fast as you can
Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself
Fast as you can

Sometimes my mind don't shake and shift
But most of the time, it does
And I get to the place where I'm begging for a lift
Or I'll drown in the wonders and the was
And I'll be your girl, if you say it's a gift
And you give me some more of your drugs
Yeah, I'll be your pet, if you just tell me it's a gift
Cuz I'm tired of whys, choking on whys,
Just need a little because, because

I let the beast in and then
I even tried forgiving him, but it's too soon
So I'll fight again, again, again, again, again.
And for a little while more, I'll soar the
Uneven wind, complain and blame
The sterile land

But if you're getting any bright ideas, quiet dear
I'm blooming within
Fast as you can, baby wait watch me, I'll be out
Fast as I can, maybe late but at least about
Fast as you can leave me, let this thing
Run its route
Fast as you can (x4)

How many times do I have to say
To get away, get gone
Flip your shit past another lasses' humble dwelling
You got your game
Made your shot
And you got away with a lot
But I'm not turned on
So put away that meat you're selling
'Cuz I do know what's good for me
And I done what I could for you
But you're not benefiting, and yet I'm sitting
Singing again, sing, sing again
I cannot deal with this, if he won't get with this
I'm gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it
Nothing to figure out; I gotta get him out
It's time the truth comes out -
That he don't give a shit about me
How many times can it escalate
Till it elevates to a place I can't breath?
And I must decide, if you must deride
That I'm much obliged to up and go
I'll idealize, and realize that there's no sacrifice
Because the price is paid, and there's nothing left to griev
Fucking go -
'Cuz I done what I could for you
And I do know what's good for me
And I'm not benefiting, instead of sitting
Singing again, sing, sing again
I cannot deal with this, if he won't get with this
And I'm gonna heal from this, he won't admit to it
Nothing to figure out, I gotta get him out
It's time the truth came out -
He don't give a shit about me

One man he disappoint me
He give me the gouge
and he take my glee
Now every other man I see
Remind me of the one man
who disappoint me
But wait till I get him back
He won't have a back to scratch
Yeah keep turning that chin
And you will see my
Face as I figure how to kill
what I cannot catch
So I say and on I go
To another one to
disappoint me so
Next one up
a contemptible snob
He live to put things
in their place
He did a commendable job
He put himself so low
He can hardly even
look me in the face
So wait till I get him back
He won't have a back to scratch
Yeah keep turning that chin
And you will see my
Face as I figure how to kill
what I cannot catch
O he made my blood just burn
I flipped so far I thought
that I would not return
But the last one I had who
was getting my hopes up
I might've been
a little fast to dismiss
I think he let me down
when he didn't disappoint me
He didn't always guess right
but he usually got my gist
So wait till I get him back
I'm gonna bring him home
and I'll watch him unpack
Yeah keep turning that chin
And you will see my face
is fixed on the one
I'm gonna get back
I'm gonna get him back
I am
I'm gonna get him back
I really am
I'm gonna get him back
I'm gonna get him back
I'm gonna get him back
I'm gonna get him back

So be it, I’m your crowbar
If that’s what I am so far
Until you get out of this mess
And I will pretend
That I don’t know of your sins
Until you are ready to confess
But all the time, all the time
I’ll know, I’ll know

And you can use my skin
To bury secrets in
And I will settle you down
And at my own suggestion,
I will ask no questions
While I do my thing in the background
But all the time, all the time
I’ll know, I’ll know

Baby-I can’t help you out, while she’s still around
So for the time being, I’m being patient
And amidst this bitterness
If you’ll just consider this-even if it don’t make sense
All the time-give it time

And when the crowd becomes your burden
And you’ve early closed your curtains,
I’ll wait by the backstage door
While you try to find the lines to speak your mind

And pry it open, hoping for an encore
And if it gets too late, for me to wait
For you to find you love me, and tell me so
It’s ok, don’t need to say it.

You wanna make me sick
You wanna lick my wounds,
Don't you, baby?
You want the badge of honour when you save my hide
But you're the one in the way
Of the day of doom, baby
If you need my shame to reclaim your pride

And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry get off now, baby-
It won't be long till you'll be
Lying limp in your own hand

You feed the beast I have within me
You wave the red flag, baby you make it run run run
Standing on the sidelines, waving and grinning
You fondle my trigger, then you blame my gun

And when I think of it, my fingers turn to fists
I never did anything to you, man
But no matter what I try
You'll beat me with your bitter lies
So call me crazy, hold me down
Make me cry get off now, baby-
It won't be long till you'll be
Lying limp in your own hand

Love ridden, I’ve looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I’ve wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby, I wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over
So I can’t tonight, baby
No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you
I’ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave
My hand won’t hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I’m giving up on you

No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you
I’ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave
No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you
I’ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave

You'll never see - the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

But as the scenery grows, I see different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie

You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you

You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a pormise and you can't afford to lie

You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight

But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you

You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie

The early cars
Already are
Drawing deep breaths past my door
And last night's phrases
Sick with lack of basis
Are still writhing on my floor
And it doesn't seem fair
That your wicked words should work
In holding me down
No, it doesn't seem right
To take information
Given at close range
For the gag
And the bind
And the ammunition round
Conversation once colored by esteem
Became dialogue as a diagram
of a play for pun (blood?)
Took a vacation, my palate got clean
Now I could taste your agenda
While you're spitting your cud
And it doesn't make sense
I should fall for the kingcraft of a meritless crown
No, it doesn't seem right
To take information
Given at close range
For the gag
And the bind
And the ammunition round
This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out
This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I can't stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache
What is this posture
I have to stare at
That's what he said when I'm sittin' up straight
Change the name of the game 'cause he lost
And he knew he was wrong but he knew it too late
But I'm not being fair
'Cause I chose to listen to that filthy mouth
But I'd like to choose right
Take all the things that I've said that he stole
Put 'em in a sack
Swing 'em over my shoulder
Turn on my heels
Step out of this sight
Try to live in a lovelier life
This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact I cant stop falling out
This is not about love
'Cause I am not in love
In fact i cant stop falling out
I miss that stupid ache

I'm undecided about you again
I can be right that you're not here
It's double sided
cause I ruined it all
But also saved myself
by never believing you dear
Everything good
I deem too good to be true
Everything else is just a bore
Everything I have to look forward to
Has a pretty painful
and very imposing before
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
I have too been playing
with fifty two cards
Just 'cause I play so far
from my vest
Whatever I've got,
I've got no reason to guard
What could I do but spend my best
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
And after waiting
fighting patiently on my knees
All the other stuff tired itself
out first, not me
And in its wake appeared
the touch and call
of a different breed
One of the steps is getting wise
and got me there and then got me

And what a thing to know
what could be instead
Oh what a blessed curse to see
Took the agenda
from its place in my bed
Made a merry paramour of me
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards

I'm undecided about you again
I can be right that you're not here
It's double sided
cause I ruined it all
But also saved myself
by never believing you dear
Everything good
I deem too good to be true
Everything else is just a bore
Everything I have to look forward to
Has a pretty painful
and very imposing before
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
I have too been playing
with fifty two cards
Just 'cause I play so far
from my vest
Whatever I've got,
I've got no reason to guard
What could I do but spend my best
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
And after waiting
fighting patiently on my knees
All the other stuff tired itself
out first, not me
And in its wake appeared
the touch and call
of a different breed
One of the steps is getting wise
and got me there and then got me

And what a thing to know
what could be instead
Oh what a blessed curse to see
Took the agenda
from its place in my bed
Made a merry paramour of me
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
Then lettin' it go by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards
Oh sailor why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Given the eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards

What you did to me made me
See myself something different
Though I try to talk sense
to myself
But I just won't listen
Won't you go away
Turned yourself in
You're no good at confession
Before the image that you
burned me in
Tries to teach you a lesson
What you did to me made me
see myself somethin' awful
A voice once stentorian
is now again meek and muffled
It took me such a long time
to get back up the first
time you did it
I spent all I had to get it back
and now it seems I've been
outbidded
My peace and quiet was
stolen from me
When I was looking with
calm affection
You were searching out my
imperfections
What wasted unconditional love

On somebody
Who doesn't believe in the stuff

You came upon me like a hypnic jerk
When I was just about to settle
And when it counts you recoil
With the cryptic word and
leave a love belittled
Oh what a cold and common
old way to go
I was feeding on the need
for you to know me
Devastated at the rate you
fell below me
What wasted unconditional love
On somebody
Who doesn't believe in the stuff

All my life is on me now,
hail the pages turning
And the future’s on the bound,
hell don’t know my fury

*You’re all I need,
you’re all I need,
you’re all I need
You’re all I need,
you’re all I need,
you’re all I need
You’re all I need -
and maybe some faith would
Do me good

I don’t know what I’m doing, don’t know should I
Change my mind, I can’t decide, there’s too many
Variations to consider
No thing I do don’t do no thing but bring me
More to do,
It’s true, I do imbue my blue unto myself,
I make it bitter

Baby, lay your head on my lap one more time
Tell me you belong to me
Baby say that it’s all gonna be alright
I believe that it isn’t.

Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within
But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full
And sank in the burrows of my keep
And all my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
He goes along just as a water lily
Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats
Unweighted down by passion or intensity
Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts
And he finds a home in me
For what misfortune sows, he knows my touch will reap
And all my armour failing down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep
All my armour falling down, in a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm, as I'm singing him to sleep

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn’t stay, wouldn’t put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, ‘Honey, I don’t feel so good, don’t feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,’
he said
‘It’s all in your head,’ and I said, ‘
So’s everything
But he didn’t get it
I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

I opened my eyes
While you were kissing me
once more than once
And you looked as
sincere as a dog

Just as sincere as a dog does
When it's the food on your
lips with which it's in love
I bet you could never tell
That I knew you didn't
know me that well
It is my fault you see
You never learned that
much from me
Oh you silly stupid
pastime of mine
You were always good for rhyme
And from the first
to the last time
The sign says stop
But we went on whole hearted
it ended bad
But I love what we started
it says stop
But we went on whole hearted
it ended bad
But I love what we started

I took off my glasses
While you were yelling at
me once more than once
So as not to see you see
me react

Should've put em
should've put em on again
So I could see you see me
sincerely yelling back
I bet your fortress face
Belied your fort of lace
It is by the grace of me
You never learned what
I could see
Oh you silly stupid
pastime of mine
You were always good for rhyme
And from the first to all
the last time
All the sign says stop
But we went on whole hearted
it ended bad
But I love what we started
it says stop
But we went on whole hearted
it ended bad
But I love what we started

Please please please
No more melodies
They lack impact, they're petty
They've been made up already
Please please please
No more maladies
I'm so tired of crying
You'd think I was a siren
But me and everybody's on
the sad same team And
you can hear our sad brain screaming
Give us something familiar
Something similar
To what we know already
That will keep us steady
Steady
Steady going nowhere

Please please please
No apologies
At best they buy you time
Until you next step out of line
Please please please
No more remedies
My method is uncertain
It's a mess but it's working
And maybe if you wanna tried it out
You won't like it when you're
crying out
Give us something familiar
Something similar
To what we know already
That will keep us steady
Steady, steady
Steady going nowhere

Please please please
No more melodies
They lack impact, they're petty
They've been made up already
Please please please
No more maladies
I'm so tired of crying
You'd think I was a siren
But me and everybody's
on the sad same team and
You can hear our sad brain screaming
Give us something familiar
Something similar
To what we know already
That will keep us steady
Steady, steady, steady
Steady going nowhere

I don't understand about
complementary colors
And what they say
Side by side they both get bright
Together they both get gray
But he's been pretty much yellow
And I've been cryin' blue
But all I can see is
Red, red, red, red, red now
What am I to do

I don't understand about
Diamonds and why men buy them
What's so impressive
about a diamond
Except the mining
And it's dangerous work
Trying to get to you too
And I think if I didn't have to
Kill kill kill kill
kill kill myself doing it
Maybe I wouldn't think
so much of you

I've been watching all the time

And I still can't find the track
And I wanna know is it okay
Is it just fine
Was it my fault
Is it my lack

I don't understand about
The weather outside
The harbinger to the words
That somebody lied
There's solace a bit for submitting
To the fitfully cryptically true
What's happened has happened
What's coming is already on its way
With a role for me to play
I don't understand
I'll never understand
But I'm trying to understand

I sense there's something in the wind
That seems like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have

The worst is just around the bend
And does he notice
My feelings for him?
And will he see
How much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may it doesn't last

And will we ever
End up together?
No I think not
It's never to become
For I am not the one

Once my lover now my friend
What a cruel thing to pretend
What a cunning way to condescend
Once my lover and now my friend
Oh you creep up like the clouds
And you set my soul at ease
Then you let your love abound
And you bring me to my knees
Oh its evil babe
the way you let your
grace enrapture me
When well you know I'd be insane
to ever let that dirty game
recapture me You made me
a shadowboxer baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
Cause I don't know when you're
gonna make your move

Oh your gaze is dangerous
And you fill your space so sweet
If I let you get too close
You'll set your spell on me
So darlin' I just wanna say
Just in case I don't come through
I was on to every play
I just wanted you
oh it's so evil my love
the way you've no
reverence to my concern
So I'll be sure to stay wary of you
love to save the pain of
Once my flame and twice my burn
So I'm a shadowboxer baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
now that I don't know when you're
gonna make your move
Yeah I'm a shadowboxer baby
I wanna be ready for what you do
I been swinging all around me
Cause I don't know when you're
make your move

I tell you how I feel, but you don't care
I say tell me the truth, but you don't dare
You say love is a hell you cannot bear
And I say gimme mine back and then go there - for all i care

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're not
at all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be
stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around,
I got my own hell to raise

I have never been so insulted in all my life
I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride
First you run like a fool just to be by my side
And now you run like a fool, but you just run to hide,
and I can't abide

I got my feet on the ground and
I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're not
at all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be
stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around,
I got my own hell to raise

Don't make it a big deal, don't be so sensitive
We're not playing a game anymore;
you don't have to be so defensive
Don't you plead me your case, don't bother to explain
Don't even show me your face, 'cuz it's a crying shame
Just go back to the rock from under which you came
Take the sorrow you gave and all the stakes you claim -
And don't forget the blame

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're
not at all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be
stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around,
I got my own hell to raise
I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream
You got your head in the clouds and you're
not at all what you seem
This mind, this body, and this voice cannot be
stifled by your deviant ways
So don't forget what I told you, don't come around,
I got my own hell to raise

You moved like honey in my dream last night
Yeah, some old fires were burning
You came near to me and you endeared to me
But you couldn't quite discern me
Does that scare you? I'll let you run away
But your heart will not oblige you
You'll remember me like a melody
Yeah, I'll haunt the world inside you
And my big secret - Gonna win you over
Slow like honey, heavy with mood

I'll let you see me, I'll covet your regard
I'll invade your demeanor
And you'll yield to me like a scent in the breeze
And you'll wonder what it is about me
It's my big secret - Keeping you coming
Slow like honey, heavy with mood
Though dreams can be deceiving
Like faces are to hearts
They serve for sweet relieving
When fantasy and reality lie too far apart
So I stretch myself across, like a bridge
And I pull you to the edge
And stand there waiting
Trying to attain
The end to satisfy the story
Shall I release you?
Must I release you?
As I rise to meet my glory
But my big secret
Gonna hover over your life
Gonna keep you reaching
When I'm gone like yesterday
When I'm high like heaven
When I'm strong like music
'Cuz I'm slow like honey, and
Heavy with mood

Days like this, I don't know what to do with myself
All day -- and all night
I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath
I say to myself
I need fuel -- to take flight --
And there's too much going on
But it's calm under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

Is that why they call me a sullen girl -- sullen girl
They don't know I used to sail the deep and tranquil sea
but he washed my shore and he took my perl
And left and empty shell of me
And there's too much going on
But it's clam under the waves, in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
Under the waves in the blue of my oblivion
It's calm under the waves in the blur of my oblivion

Darling, give me your absence tonight
Take the shade from the canvas and leave me the white
Let me sink in the silence that echoes inside
And don't bother leaving the light on
'Cuz I suddenly feel like a different person
From the roots of my soul come a gentle coercion
And I ran my hand o'er a strange inversion
A vacancy that just did not belong
The child is gone

Honey help me out of this mess
I'm a stranger to myself
But don't reach for me, I'm too far away
I don't wanna talk 'cuz there's nothing left to say
So my Darling, give me your absence tonight
Take all of your sympathy and leave it outside
'Cuz there's no kind of loving that can make this all right
I'm trying to find a place I belong
And I suddenly feel like a different person
From the roots of my soul come a gentle coercion
And I ran my hand over a strange inversion
As the darkness turns into the dawn
The child is gone , The child is gone

I lie in an early bed, thinking late thoughts
Waiting for the black to replace my blue
I do not struggle in your web because it was my aim to get caught
But daddy longlegs, I feel that I'm finally growing weary
Of waiting to be consumed by you

Give me the first taste, let it begin heaven cannot wait
Forever
Darling, just stat the chase - I'll let you win but you must
Make the endeavor

Oh, your love give me a heart contusion
Adagio breezes fill my skin with sudden red
Your hungry flirt borders intrusion
I'm building memories on things we have not said
Full is not heavy as empty, not nearly my love,
not nearly my love, not nearly

Give me the first taste, let it begin heaven cannot wait
Forever
Darling, just stat the chase - I'll let you win but you must
Make the endeavor

I wouldn’t know what to do with another chance
If you gave it to me
I couldn’t take the embrace of a real romance
It’d race right through me
I’m much better off the way things are
Much much better off, better by far, by far
I wouldn’t know what to say to a gentle voice
It’d roll right past me
And if you chalk it up you’ll see I don’t really have a choice
So don’t even ask me
I’m much better off, the way things are
Much much better off, better by far

So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on
And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone
If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle
And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be
Able to move on
How can I fight, when we’re on the same side
How can I fight beside you
So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on
And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone
If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle
And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be
Able to move on

So keep on calling me names, keep on, keep on
And I’ll keep kicking the crap till it’s gone
If you keep on killing, you could get me to settle
And as soon as I settle, I bet I’ll be
Able to move on

Here’s another speech you wish I’d swallow
Another cue for you to fold your ears
Another train of thought too hard to follow
Chugging along to the song
that belongs to the shifting of gears
Please forgive me for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance

To your love, to your love, to your love
I would’ve warned you, but really, what’s the point?
Caution could but rarely ever helps
Don’t be down when my demeanor tends to disappoint
It’s hard enough even trying to be civil to myself
Please forgive me for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love

My derring-do allows me to dance the rigadoon
Around you
But by the time I’m close to you, I lose
My desideratum and now you, so
Now you have it, so tell baby me what’s the word?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with
What I lay down?
Please forgive me, for my distance
The pain is evident in my existence
Please forgive me for my distance
The shame is manifest in my resistance
To your love, to your love, to your love

Those boon times went bust
My feet of clay they
dried to dust
The red isnt the
red we painted Its
just rust
And the signature thing
That used to bring
a following
I have troble now
Even remembering So why
did I kiss him so hard
Late last friday night
And keep on letting him
change all my plans
I'm either sick in the head
I need to be bled dry to quit
Or I just
really used to love him
I sure hope thats it

I knew that
to keep in touch
Would do me deep in dutch
Cuz it isnt the
rush of remembering Its
just mush
And the signature thing
Is only growing harrowing
I should have no trouble now
To keep from followinig
So why did I
kiss him so hard
Late last friday night
And keep on letting him
change all my plans
I'm either sick in the head
I need to be bled dry to quit
Or I just
really used to love him
I sure hope thats it

Those boon times went bust
My feet of clay
they dried to dust
The red isnt the
red we painted Its
just rust
And the signature thing
That used to bring
a following
I have troble now
Even remembering So why
did I kiss him so hard
Late last friday night
And keep on letting him
change all my plans
I'm either sick in the head
I need to be bled dry to quit
Or I just
really used to love him
Or I just
really used to love him
Or I just
really used to love him
I sure hope thats it

If you don't have a song
To sing you're okay
You know how to get along
Humming
Hmmm
If you don't have a date
Celebrate
Go out and sit on the lawn
And do nothing
'Cause it's just what you must do
Nobody does it anymore
No I don't believe in the wasting of time,
But I don't believe that I'm wasting mine
- 간 주 중-
If you don't have a point to make
Don't sweat it
You'll make a sharp one being so kind
And I'd sure appreciate it
Everyone else's goal's to get big headed
Why should I follow that beat being that I'm
Better than fine

I was staring out the window
The whole time he was talking to me
It was a filthy pane of glass
I couldn't get a clear view
And as he went on and on
It wasn't the outside world
I could see
Just the filthy pane that
I was looking through
So I had to break the window
It just had to be
Better that I break the window
Than him or her or me
I was never focused on
just one thing
My eyes got fixed
when my mind got soft
It may looked like
I'm concentrated
on a very clear view
But I'm as good as asleep
I bet you didn't know
It takes a lot of it
away if you do
I had to break the window
It just had to be
Better that I break the window
Than him or her or me
I had to break the window
It just had to be
Better that I break the window
Then forget what I had to say
Or miss what I should see

Because the fact in fact
Whatever's in front of me
is covering my view
So I can't see
what I'm seeing in fact
I only see what
I'm looking through

So again I've done the right thing
I was never worried about that
The answer's always
been in clear view
But even when the window's clean
I still can't see for the fact
That when it's clean it's so clear
I can't tell what
I'm looking through
So I had to break the window
It just had to be was in ma way
Better that I break the window
Than him or her or me
I had to break the window
It just had to be it was in my way
Better that I break the window
Or miss what I should see
I break the window
It just had to be it was in my way
Better that I break the window
Then forget what I had to say
Or miss what I should see
oh break my heaet a mean
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