Chris Acland

(Berenyi)

In your green field sleep
Chasing through the trees
Do you still see me?
Do you still hear me?

Do you still meet me?

Before I met you I was blind
Pills and liquid filled my mind
Beneath your outline I was new
Overflowing with your tune
And don't you know you're beautiful

Next month I missed you like a child
Couldn't see past you though I tried
And don't you know you're beautiful
And don't you know you're beautiful

Now I think of every hour
When you still retained your power
And the precious nights we'd share
When we'd breathe in common air

The feeling now you've gone
This wretched life goes on
The knife inside of me
It turns just like a key

The sunlight always comes too soon
My body asks me what to do
I was so small and vulnerable
And you were only beautiful

The seasons shining in your hair
And it was more than I could bare
But I can see you in my smile
And you are only beautiful

I'd like to do
something for you
you want me to
she's just the same
she likes to play

I'll hide kisses in your hair

don't feel ashamed
you're not to blame
it's just a game
but just the same
what would they say

baby angel on my knee

our lips are sealed

come sit with me
slide on my knee
sing just for me
and for a while
I'll make you smile

baby angel on my knee
I know what you want from me

I'll make you smile

outside she's listening
to laughter and whispering
but she won't say nothing to him, see

she's just the same

I'm hiding inside me
eye sees through my smile
as I shine
for the eyes of another

let him inscribe
what he admires
let him inspire
so many lies
I can provide
any disguise

night folds me beside you
I hide from your eyes
for I know
this illusion is kinder
than what you'll find
inside
if I reveal
my crime

my deception
my invention
my obsession

you may despise
what you may find
hiding behind
all of the lies
let me provide
one more disguise

you won't understand me
I can't let you try
still I dream
of the day you discover

I am the spy

Come with me
Into a cool blue stream
Bleed into oceans green
Lips open wide
Drinking the tide
Reach for me
Here where the ocean sea
Melts and you sink with me
Deeper inside
I'll make you mine
Take me down
Down where their voices drown
Down where the only sound
Echoes for me
Floating away
Under the waves
Kiss me again
You'll tell me when
Salt on my lips
Cool fingertips
Under the sea
Stay here with me

(Berenyi)

Pretty little girl, she shines
Knowing she is young, she smiles
Happy just to be a prize
Happy just to see his smile

Silly little girl, she tries
Thinking she is good, and wise
Doesn't recognise the lies
Pouring from her lips, she sighs:

This is so real,
It's what I feel,
I look in your eyes and lose myself

Silly little girl denies
Every understanding why
Her face is full of sad surprise
Every time she hears him cry:

What do you feel
When you're with me?
I look in your eyes and see myself

But there's no connection,
Just his own reflection
Isn't this the way you wanted me?
(what do you mean?)
In love with you
(what do I feel?)
Do anything
(what do you mean?)
For you

She looked in his eyes to lose herself

And when it falls apart, she cries
Doesn't think to look inside
She just covers up her eyes
Doesn't see her own disguise

And though she feels this sorrow,
It will fade tomorrow
She'll pretend that this was really love
(what do you mean?)
She'll make their fall
(what did I feel?)
Seem beautiful
(what do you mean?)
She won't remember this at all
(what do you mean?)
She won't recall
(what did I feel?)
The truth at all
(what do you mean?)
She wants to fall
(what did I feel?)
Again
(what do you mean?)

(Anderson)

Me in the world
Losing tears, shedding fears
Strain for the sun
Make you run, make you come

You don't know
You don't know

I'm in my home
All the time, on my own
Low finger fine
Take what's mine, from behind

You don't know
You don't know
It's not there
You don't care

You're still inside of me
Beneath the cotton core
My pictures smile at me
And soon they'll rise and soar

Fill up my space
Turn around, fade and trace
Be absolute
Blue and white, fatal fruit

She nylon smile
Full of lies, shining eyes
Cover my grin
Take a chance, maybe win

It's not there
It's not fair
You don't know
You don't care

It's not easy
But try to picture this, do
You remember
That we were once together
Isn't it strange
Isn't it?
I'm sorry it's come to this but
Why are we here,
Bothering?
What was it we talked about? So...
Just remind me
Of why I'm wasting so much
Time pretending
That there is something more than
Only this
Only
This pointless accusation
Tell me again,
Why are we here?
I'm not offended by the things that you say
'Cause it's such a predictable way to behave
Talk and insult me
'til you're blue in the face
You were right, I was wrong
Now does that make you happy?
I'm quite aware of all the bad things I did
You don't have to remind me of why you dislike me
There's no solution
To the mess that we're in,
It's so sad and so boring
I wish you'd just leave me alone
But I understand the games you play
I'm ashamed of all the things I did to you

(Anderson)

When I'm home I listen hoping for a clue
And you know they can't tell us what to do
When you're gone, out of sight not out of mind
But you know this feeling took me years to find

And your eyes, they always know where it hurts
And your lips kiss me 'til I'm fit to burst
Each day you watch me with your static gaze
And smile, naked at my silly ways

Planets spin around your head
Milk and sugar in my bed
Even when you're far away
I can hear you every day

Wise hands grasping the delicate prize
I just wait for the time of our lives

My desires can't be bought in black and white
Only you make me feel secure inside
For I know you really love no one but me
And I smile because they think it's fantasy

No one knows what's going on
They don't know where we belong
Let you swim around my face
Live inside my special place

It's only you that holds the key
Don't know what you do to me
In our little secret world
I can be your little girl

My desires can't be bought in black and white
Only you make me feel secure inside
For I know you really love no one but me
And I smile because they think it's fantasy

(Berenyi)

He's perfect
At least within his dreams
He's perfect
To satisfy my scheme

He doesn't know my game
I don't recall his name

And though it's true
My flesh is new
Believe me dear
My mind is clear

He's smiling
(smiling at me)
He thinks he's won the night
I'm laughing
(laughing at him)
Imagine what you like

I know he's seen
Inside I'm green
But still he's blind
To what goes on inside my mind

He's smiling
(smiling at me)
He thinks he's won the night
I'm thinking
(thinking of me)
Imagine what you like

He claimed his prize
I had my price
I know it's cruel
But I refuse
To be the only one to lose

(Anderson)

Mirror maid, tummy ache
Make-up run
Lipstick girl, black stick curl
In the new york sun

Inside out, you know about my
Silly game
Even though, you don't know
About my name

Where I've been
What I dream
What I've seen

Clumsy eyes realise how to
Write the word
Basically, you sing for me
When I am hurt

Stoned and blind, never mind
Luckie's song
Press the keys, I can be
Where you belong

I'm a fan
Of your hand
Ooh

And
I'm in love
Cry above
Ooh

And
I'm a fan
Of your hand
Every man
Ooh

(Anderson)

Wake with the sun
What's going on, when you're gone
Fall asleep when you're near
What's going on, when you're here

And sometimes I think if I stand by the phone it may ring
And sometimes I worry and fear what tomorrow may bring
And you sing
And you sing

Breathe with your sigh
Makes me high, don't know why
Touching your skin
Wishing you were within

Your eyes are like saucers but mine are just clouded in gray
I've so much to tell but I can't and you just go away
Anyway
Won't you stay

Wake with the sun
What's going on, when you're gone
And when I lost control
I was cold, and I felt old

The ground is beneath me but slowly it's falling away
You say we're like children so why won't you come out and play?
And sometimes I think if I look at the phone it may ring
And sometimes I worry and fear what tomorrow may bring
When you sing
When you sing

See my life (I've been so tired)
See my self (I've been uptight)
See my life (I've been so tired)
See my sight (I could disappear)

See with you memories fading fast
And with you it's never going to last

You are the sweetness in my eyes
You are an apple in disguise

See with you
I never seemed to look the other way

Only to stay, only to breathe
Only to see
That space and light is what I really need

I never wanted to tell lies
You are the sweetness in my eyes

You are the juice I need for life
You are the sweetness in my eyes

Sunbathing, and she came down from above
Close my eyes and I feel like I'm in love
Wrapped in silk, how I got here I don't know
Tastes like milk and there's nowhere else to go

Soft red lips, slowly open wide
Honey drips and I long to feel inside
Deep and warm, the only to place to be
Sleep til dawn, then she does the same for me

Drawn fine line, heal my bad spine
Close together, now its all mine
Wake in sunlight, sunlight bleak white
Realise she's gone

Pink cloud sits sky high
Skips to the starlight
Rains tinsel whispers
Breeze blows away

I crawl inside me
My eyes to heaven
Pink cloud sits sky high
Breeze blows away

Silver air everywhere, doesn't care
But silver winds cut my skin everywhere

Breathe in green velvet
My lips taste warm earth
Pink cloud sits sky high
Breeze blows away

Summer sun, so much fun, colours run
Hot summers kiss, cloudless bliss burns my tongue

I've been waiting on the slide
Suggest I open wide
No incentive to hide
Happy coursing through my veins
Don't even know my name
When I'm up you're coming down

Inside of me, some sight to see
Some sight to feel our earthy bed

When we're wrapped in polythene
What's that supposed to mean
Paper flowers bring me luck
No birds in sight I fear
Stick sticks in you my dear
When I'm up you're coming down

Some say I'm vague
And I'd easily fade
Foolish parade of fantasy

Drink in your eyes
Drink in you sighs
Grass in my thighs my aching legs

Dreams deep heat teasing my mind
Sleep peels sweet stealing my sighs
She breathes deep when he's inside
Dreams deep heat poisons my mind

Inside me there's a separate world
It's winning and I'm losing control
I'm coming but my eyes are closed
I'm coming but it leaves me cold

Night's bright lights dim in the day
Blind eyes smile at you today
I find I'm falling away
My eyesights never the same

Inside me there's a separate girl
She's winning and I'm losing control
She coming but my eyes are closed
She's coming but I wake up and it leaves me cold

(Anderson)

In me you'll see
Dirt flows freely
But you may find
That my thoughts are unkind

Pure life needs knife
Cuts off my life
But as you see
Hurting you you bless me

I always wanted to cry
After the act close my eyes
I always longed for the deep
Then I just wanted to sleep

Blood stream cruel dream
Never make clean

Down by my side I feel safe when I hide
So you can see that my thought are for me

(Anderson)

Come on little man now all's said and done
All tht I'm asking is you show me some fun
I need purple veins and scenic greens
They can make me soar and touch extremes

I just fell down from whitest skies
And now I start to realise
And all the colours talk to me

And if I had wings then I could take you in
I'd stay on the ground and I could teach you things
The grass is strewn with blades of gold
These sights and songs I have been told
All hopes desires that seem to sing

Come on little man now you're times nearly through
Colours are dripping down red and blue
I'm standing in the middle of a great glass ball
I'm told that I've nothing but I'm having it all

I just rose up from blackest seas
My eyes were opened so widely
And its a shame to end this way

Swallowed her down, she's inside me
She's struggling now, she can't break free
And my eyes are closed, my lips are sealed
She can't escape but I can feel

Kicks in me

Climbing my spine, she's inside me
Wants to escape, wants to breathe
And I wish I could tell you what she feels
And I wish I could hear when she speaks

In my sleep
In my dreams

(Anderson)

Come on little man now all's said and done
All tht I'm asking is you show me some fun
I need purple veins and scenic greens
They can make me soar and touch extremes

I just fell down from whitest skies
And now I start to realise
And all the colours talk to me

And if I had wings then I could take you in
I'd stay on the ground and I could teach you things
The grass is strewn with blades of gold
These sights and songs I have been told
All hopes desires that seem to sing

Come on little man now you're times nearly through
Colours are dripping down red and blue
I'm standing in the middle of a great glass ball
I'm told that I've nothing but I'm having it all

I just rose up from blackest seas
My eyes were opened so widely
And its a shame to end this way

(Anderson / Berenyi)

Nothing can eclipse
Tender fingertips
Youthful girlish hips
Crimson pouting lips

But what d'you say when nothing's meant
What d'you do when all is spent

Faithless faceless night
Drenched in empty light
Scarlet starlet's bright
Vanity's delight

Cream of life you'll find in her
First to come she's first to serve

Turned away you're out of luck
Spurned again
No one to fall in love

Just don't imagine that I'll still remember you
Don't even think I'll try
I'll take my memories and drown them in my glass
And then I'll drink a toast of bitterness and wash you from my heart

I count the blessings that took you away from me
I laugh to think I cried
I don't need what you got I don't miss what you do
'Cause I can raise my glass and drink a toast of bitterness to you

And now my mind recalls no memory of you
And so I raise a smile and drink a toast of bitterness to you

Just don't imagine that I still remember you
Don't even think I care
You took your love elsewhere and I drank mine away
With bitter thoughts of you that washed my memories of you away

Peel back empty night
Grey dawn breaks into white
Sun climbing the sky
Your eyes reflecting the light
Clouds out of sight
But when the day is through
Will I see you again

Keep your eyes on me
Don't let go of my hand
Running together
We go together so well
I can tell

Run where I run
Play what I play
Do what I do
But when this day's through
Will I see you again

I know it hurts to see
That in the end they sympathized with me
And though it hurts to say
It couldn't happen any other way

I remember when you were free
No one else then you came to me
Cursed you then that it couldn't last
All the laughs we had in the past

And if it hurts you too
I hope you know that I'm still fond of you
And if its still unfair
Remember that I thought you never cared

Sing to me, comfort me, turned away
Someone else takes my place

And so you made your choice
When I needed most to hear your voice
But you were never there
And that was when I thought you never cared

So at last you're free
It's the way you wanted it to be
It's the price you paid
To become a woman of today
Is it worth the pain to see the children cry
Does it hurt when they ask for Daddy

Hey hey Helen
Now you live on your own
Hey hey Helen
Can you make it alone

Though you're free at last
And beginning to forget the past
Does it make you sad
When you think about the life you had
But you're right, you had to take a second chance
So you fight to find your freedom

Hey hey Helen
Now you live on your own
Hey hey Helen
Can you make it alone
Hey hey Helen
What's the matter with you
Hey hey Helen
Don't you know what to do
Ahah, yes you do yes you do
Ahah, yes you do yes you do

Hey hey Helen
Now you live on your own
Hey hey Helen
Can you make it alone
Hey hey Helen
What's the matter with you
Hey hey Helen
Don't you know what to do

Nothing can eclipse
Tender fingertips
Youthful girlish hips
Crimson pouting lips

But what d'you say when nothing's meant
What d'you do when all is spent

Faithless faceless night
Drenched in empty light
Scarlet starlet's bright
Vanity's delight

Cream of life you'll find in her
First to come she's first to serve

Turned away you're out of luck
Spurned again
No one to fall in love

Here we go. I'm hanging out in Camden.
Drinking with my girlfriend on a Saturday night.
This guy says "Come and meet my girlfriend.
She's sitting in a corner looking rather uptight."
So I say "hello," and I try to be nice.
But I see he's feeling itchy.
Trying to play us off each other
"Girls, Girls, Please don't fight."
(You get the picture).

Hey you, with muscles and the long hair.
Telling me that women are superior to men.
Most guys just don't appreciate this.
You just try convincing me you're better than them.
So he talks for hours 멳out his sensitive soul.
And his favorite subject is sex.
I don't even think he really wanted it,
But Christ, this guy's too much.
(I want to tell him...)
I'm as human as the next girl.
I like a bit of flattery.
But I don't need your practiced lines.
Your school of charm mentality. So...
Save your breath for someone else, and
Credit me with something more.
When it comes to men like you, I know the score,
I've heard it all before.

(Here comes the next one)
Blondie was with me for a summer.
He flirted like a maniac, but I wouldn't bite.
I'm weak, and he was so persistent.
He only had to have 멵ause I put up a fight.
Oh, God. The boy had such an ego.
He liked to talk about himself all day and all night.
You think you're such a ladykiller.
But you were nothing special, till you turned out the light.
When he's nice to me, he's just nice to himself,
And he's watching his reflection.
I'm a five-foot morror for adoring himself.
Here's seven years bad luck.
(I want to tell him...)
When you say you love me,
You're just flattering your vanity.
But I don't need your practiced lines.
Your school of charm mentality. So...
Save your breath for someone else, and
Credit me with something more.
When it comes to men like you, I know the score,
I've heard it all before

Ooh. You're such a Ladykiller.
Always on a winner, thinking that you're in there.
Oh, boy. You're such a Ladykiller.
Super-sexy mister, call it what you will, oh.
You think you're such a Ladykiller.
I'll just bet you're still there, posing in the mirror.
Hey, Girls. He's such a Ladykiller.
But we know where he's coming from, and we know the score.

Just because they seem to understand the way you feel,
It doesn't mean that thhey feel the same way too.
Just because they seem to hold a mirror to your lives,
It doesn't follow that they'll be just like you.

Take no heroes, it's no good.
They don't stand up to you
Just take the bits you think that you can use.

I remember when I was younger,
I thought the answers were locked in people.
So I admired the ones whose lives were
the source of envy to people like me.

But do you really want to meet,
the ones who write your dreams?
Believe me it's a fantasy.
You won't like the reality.
If you want heroes keep them safe.
They don't stand up to life.
So lock them in your soul and lose the key.

I love you. I don't want to meet you.
(Repeated 12x in background)

When I see you it makes me feel,
there's someone else out there like me.
You touch my soul with what you do.
It all makes sense when I'm with you.
You understand the way I feel.
I know exactly what you mean.
It's like I've known you all my life.
I think of you and I feel alright.

But in the flesh how would it be,
if you could really see
the weaknesses you never knew
Alive and staring back at you?
If you want heroes keep them safe.
They don't stand up to life.
So lock them in your soul and lose the key.
Lock them in your soul and lose the key.
Lock them in your soul and lose the key.

(Anderson)
Shake, baby, shake, you know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake, taking me in with all you're charms

I've never been inside you but you're so alluring
They call you "little mouse" by name in Rome and Turin

Looking now at your famous shape
They don't make them like anymore

Shake, baby, shake, you know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake, taking me in with all your charms

When things are looking good there's always complications
I can't be with you so I'm at the railway station

Let's run away and be so alive
Escape the drudgery of this nine to five

Shake, baby, shake, you know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake, taking me in with all your charms

Shake, baby, shake, you know I worship from afar
Brake, baby, brake, how I wish you were my car

(Anderson)
I've tried to be strong, I've tried to be tough
But I think that this time I've had more than enough
I've seen too much of your games and your immature stuff
You're a waste of time

All the people I've known thoughout all the years
Too many vodkas and too many beers
And I've learnt a few lessons from all of the tears
You're way out of line

I feel so lucky sometimes
I sit down and look at all my friends
They mean more than the stupid fools that pass my way

I used to prefer those who weren't good for me
Somehow the attraction beat reality
Now all the rubbish they spill, it means nothing to me
I'm just much more wise

Some people grow up and some only pretend
They're all over the place, these children dressed up as men
They can't imagine how a woman can be only a friend
And they deal in lies

I feel so lucky sometimes
I sit down and I listen to my friends
They say more than the empty words that pass my way

And I feel so lucky sometimes
I've got a feeling I've been here before
I can see the world for what it really is

You think that I'm jealous, well don't be so vain
I can tell in your voice you think I want you again
Well, if I did you know I think I'd be a little insane
You just leave me cold

Ooh, you and her in your sad little world
You can only exist with the help of a girl
Well, I'm glad it's not me, I've got my life to unfurl
You're just way too old

I feel so lucky sometimes
I sit down and I look at all my friends
They mean more than the stupid fools that pass my way

And I feel so lucky sometimes
I've got a feeling I've been here before
I've been here before

(Berenyi)
Maybe I should make you stay away
So you can really concentrate on where you are today when you phone,

I sit and think alone
And wonder if your life with her is really as you say

Then again, you're still a friend
I'll be loyal to you 'til the end

Come to me with wounds you want to heal
I'll listen and I'll try to understand the way you feel

Never fear that I'll be gone from here
I'll always be around for you to talk to me, my dear

We can try to justify reasons for and reasons why
Some are true and some are only lies

With fingers crossed you close your eyes
And hope that things will turn out fine

There's not a lot that I can do
If you're too weak to face the truth

'Cause if the things you tell me are
The way you really claim they are
Then I can only pity you for being such a fool

Single girl, I don't want to be a single girl
Single girl, I don't want to be a single girl
Don't want to be on my own again tonight
Don't want to put out the light

Single girl, I don't want to be a single girl
Single girl, who would want to be a single girl
Don't want to talk to myself again tonight
Don't want to put out the light

When you abandoned me
Well, it was heaven sent
When I abandoned you
It was what you meant
Well, it was me that knew it
And it was you that went
Haven't changed our minds it was meant to be

Oooooooooooooooooo-wa!

(instrumental break)

Don't want to clean up your mess again tonight
Don't want to be in a fight
And I can do what I want again tonight
With who I choose, it's alright

Single girl, I just want to be a single girl

(Berenyi)
I've been so happy since I walked away
I never thought that I could feel as great as I do today
'Cause you were nothing but a big mistake
And life is wonderful, now that I'm rid of you

Oh I must've been crazy to have stayed with you
I can't believe I thought I was in love with you
But now the scales have fallen I can really see
And I say go to hell, 'cause thats where you took me

Well, I've felt better since I slammed that door
You always cramped my style, I never noticed before
It's been a non-stop party since I flew the coop
I can't believe I fell for such a loser like you

And is it any wonder that I felt so blue
When I was always having to put up with you

Oh, here we go again, just lay the blame on me
Don't say another word, 'cause sweetheart, you're history

I know that you miss me really, bet you wish that you still had me
You'll never find someone like me but I've got no regrets at all

'Cause I've met this girl and she's so good to me
She's really beautiful, fantastic company
Oh, when I'm with her I realise what love can be
'Cause she's fifty times the person you will ever be

Good luck, mister, do you think I care?
Since you've been gone the offers have been everywhere
I've got a million guys just lining up for me
I've turned a corner, boy, my life is ecstasy

Well, I've been in heaven since I walk away
I never thought that I could feel as great as I do today
'Cause you were nothing but a waste of space
And life is wonderful now that I'm over you

(Anderson)
In this world I live in, I care for number one
Hell is round the corner, never trust no one

Funny how the people came to gather round
Oh, so many people when I was on the ground

I've never known what love is, there's no Mr.Right
If they want to treat me good, then that's their sorry plight

Funny how the people came to give their voice
Are they really people or just silly little boys?

Say what you want, I don't mind, I don't mind
Say what you need, I don't mind, I don't mind

I want all the people to notice who I am
Gotta show them what you've got or they won't give a damn

Say what you want, I don't mind, I don't mind
Say what you need, I don't mind, I don't mind

(Anderson)
And even in your darkest hour
The recipe I cook for you
Can release its latent power
And make your body feel brand new

Can't you hear the music play
Being center of what you want
Try to leave the past behind
Memories don't appeal

All the things we said
All the things we did
All the things that passed
Were satisfied....

(Berenyi)
Come on boy, I wanna dance now
Line by line we talk all night, yeah

Hold me down, I think I'm flying
Everybody's eyes are shining
Runaway to where the world is fine

Hold on boy, you're falling fast now
Line by line you go no where, yeah

Drag me down I feel I'm sinking
Can't relate to what you're thinking
Runaway to where the sun don't shine

Hello, hello, are you still there?
You don't answer me 'cause you just don't care
Act so young but you look so old
And you're too far gone to find your own way home

Life's so hard for you to handle
You can't live without your devil
Boy, you think that you're so special
Well, life is hard for everyone, believe me

Hello, hello, do you still care?
You don't answer me 'cause there's no one there
Run away from your own sweet soul
And you're too far gone to find your own way home

"Baby," he says,
"You are like the clean white page and I the pen.
The innocence I find between your girlish thighs
is like the fountain of youth to my old bones."
And she replies,
"Daddy's little girl's a precocious child
I love to please, I'll do anything that you ask of me
Eager to fulfill all of Daddy's needs."

"Baby, he says,
"I can never love older girls like I love you.
You're easier to please and you never give me grief
'cause you accept everything I say and do."
And she replies,
"I'm in no position to make demands.
I have no past, no one else has done to me what you do.
I've got no one else to compare you to."

[Bridge]
"And as you grow older,
try to stay sixteen all your life,
Old women grow bitter,
don't let that happen to you."

(Instrumental Break)

[Philip King reads the poem "The Bloom of Youth" by Billy Childish in background]
"And why is it charming
pretending I'm younger than my years?
Why can't I grow up with dignity?
Set me free."

"Baby," he says,
"Now that you're older I feel our love has died.
Once upon a time you never criticised me.
Oh, I much preferred you as a child."
And I reply,
"Everything you said to me was a lie.
I know your kind,
you just want a daughter without the wife.
You don't need a girlfriend you need a life."

(Anderson)
Will I ever be Olympia?
Will I ever be a girl like her?
Will I ever have to say the word
And instantly I'll be adored?

Could I ever deign to have the look
Instead of have to read a book?
Will I ever be Olympia?
Will I ever be a girl like her?

And if ever there's a will
There's a place in Notting Hill
You can go and visit still

And if ever there's a way
To find a hopeful ray
Will I find it all today?

Will I ever be Olympia?
Could I ever have a cat like her?
Could I ever lie around all day eating chocolate and marmalade?

Now it's time to find the perfect world
Dress myself up like the perfect girl
Could I ever be Olympia?
Could I ever be in love like her?

In chaos of our lives
Can we ever find the time
To cherish feeling fine

And in the aftermath of pain
Can the balance be regained?
Can we ever be the same?

And now, time to switch off
Sit down, turn the lights off
Lie back, treat this sofa like your own

Look out, here comes trouble
Look out, we're in a muddle
Keep running 'til you find you've reached your home

Could I ever be Olympia?

In the chaos of our lives
Can we ever find the time
To cherish feeling fine

And in the aftermath of pain
Can the balance be regained?
Can we ever be the same?

And now, time to switch off.

He lives his life in a world full of women
And he takes what he wants from their love
And he throws the rest away
I cling to him and pray
But still he slips away
And now it's just too late
To wish him back again

She won't put up with this life so she leaves him
And she finds someone else, falls in love
And she travels far away
I say that it's ok
And swallow all my pain
And now it's just too late
To wish her back again

They left me here on my own in a nightmare
And I just can't forgive any more
So I smile and turn away
Don't listen when they say
They wish that I could stay
And now it's just too late
To wish me back again

(Berenyi)

Tiny children on their own, they learn so fast
How to make new friends, how to play their new games

I remember a man he had shiny hair
Always hanging around when you went away

Little eight year old, she knows too many secrets
Much too young to understand what it means

I remember a woman with silver hair
And the smell and the taste of the bed we shared

And that's how I behaved
Every time that you went away
And now, though I'm older nothing's changed
(playing the same games)

And I knew every day
Came a chance that you'd leave me
So I found what I could to take your place

Told me not to cry
Said that I'd survive
As he waved goodbye

And I want to try
Not to make you cry
Want us to survive
Never say goodbye

But that's how I behave when you go away
Because though I'm older nothing's changed
(playing the same games)

And I know every day
There's a chance that you'll leave me
So I find what I can to take your place

I'm not interested in what you have to say
You're just a vacant space
Other people's lives upon which you prey it's a permanent disgrace
Why do you think you know what's best for me
What I should and shouldn't do
Why do you judge my history
And tell me to improve in the confines of your mind
You think we're all the same I've left them all behind
Though you wish I hadn't in finding fault in others I can't see
What you have to gain I know that you get pleasure from
Other people's pain


You're not so perfect and I realise the scene
That you're all coming from
When you say you care I know what you mean
You're really lying
All the people around here
Love to hear about a fall
They all surface and disappear
In an instant in the confines of your mind
You think we're all the same, I've left them all behind
Through you wish I hadn't

Silly girl I run around and never know my reasons
And though you're laughing with me I know what you say about me
I can't explain
It's not your business anyway
So don't say you understand
And don't pretend you're on my side

And I remember when you hated her for sleeping next to him
I see your smiling face but I know you've done worse than me

You hypocrite
Don't talk to me cos you're not fit to know me
So don't pretend that you could've ever been a friend
And still I'm sure you think it's OK what you've done to me
Cos I'm so bad to him
Don't even try to hide behind that stupid lie
I know your kind and I know where your loyalties lie

Silly girls we run around and never know our reasons
And though I understand I guess I say that you betrayed me

I'm a hypocrite
I dish it out but I can't take it I know
You think its wrong but maybe you're right but this is my song
And still I'm sure you think that it's OK what she did to me
Cos I'm so bad to him
Dont even try to hide behind that stupid smile

I know our kind, and I know where our loyalties lie

(Anderson)

You are the one
In your concrete arms I adore you
Dirty and dear
Block out the sun
In your twists and turns I invade
You show me no fear

We blow around like tiny leaves in a big storm
Finding there's nothing left to breathe or to keep warm
You ebb and flow and your rhythm beats my head
Leave me alone while you swallow up your dead

You are the one
You cradle me and kill
Caressing my face

Leave me undone
You suffocate and have me
This is the place

Every door conceals a dream and a nightmare
Nothing is ever really pure in the stale air

And when it's dark everything becomes more clear
Lie in the park when I want to have you near

You are the one
In your concrete arms I adore you
Dusty and dear
Block out the sun
In your twists and turns I invade
You show me no fear

Left it unsung
I shall leave but I'll return
Poison my lungs, my blood is full of lead
Things unsaid
My love for you still burns

(Anderson)

It's raining in this room
And it's so hot outside this room

I don't know no one here
I don't want to be here
In this room

We hold parties in our sleep
We fill ourselves up in our sleep

And I'll heal you when you're ill
Though it's hard keeping still
In our sleep

Pries the hair out of her mouth
Whilst the circus is heading south

While we search in the sand
Don't ask them to understand
Why they cover up their hands
And their mouths

Oooh
Outside you are waiting for me, hiding
You catch me when I am
Needing a friend to hold
You can soothe me, lie above me
Press hard
Then you strike
And I think that I'll die
'Cause I can't breathe, can't breathe
Please let me start screaming
Please let me start screaming
Please let me start screaming

Oooh
Please let me start screaming
Eyes are open seeing nothing
Hands are tied and I can't function
Please let me start screaming
Please let me start screaming
Please let me start screaming
Please let me start screaming
Please let me start screaming

So you want to be alone
Run and hide inside your home
Watch you fall away from me
Sinking into misery
Taste your smile and hold my hand
Make you laugh and make you dance
I remember this
Everything was in our kiss
Sink my hands into the sea
Reach your fingers up to me
Trust me one more time I can only try
Throw yourself to me
And I'll try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free
Let me try to pull you free

Only children sometimes comprehend
Loneliness can often be a friend

Have to shut yourself in
Don't know how to begin
Telling it to someone
Who doesn't fit in

I am sunken in biology
I cannot control that part of me

I don't want to hurt you
But I know I will do
Maybe we could find out
What are we to do

I don't have long fingernails to use
Would we care if we were black and blue?

We're both sick but still you hold my hand
We're together but I understand

Walk along the seaside
This is not a joyride
Tell me in the meantime
It's ok

(Anderson)

You feel like I do
Like the whole world's forgotten you

And your life is so dull and predictable

Your room seems like a cell
And you don't sleep very well

And your friends only talk to point and to mock
And to ridicule

One day things won't seem the same way, I know

Morning in the mirror
Things will suddenly seem much clearer I promise, it's alright

His words don't flatter me
And they're printed for all to see

I don't care, he's not there
It's all history

The future's yours to hold
And you're really not very old

And your life is so white, so clean and so bright
And holds mystery

Morning in the mirror
Things will suddenly seem much clearer I promise it's alright

One day things won't seem the same way, I know

One day things won't seem the same way, I know

One day things won't seem the same way, I know

(Anderson/Berenyi)

Walking at midnight
In the darkness, alone
Standing in the shadows
And I'm watching your glow

Standing in the red light
And I'm smiling at you
Dreaming of the starlight
Just waiting for you

I'll do anything to
Make you mine, make me shine
Take me if you want me
I don't care, I don't mind

I want your starlight
Make it mine, make me shine
Touch me with your light
And I'll burn like a star

(Anderson)

If you walked in now
I wouldn't start I wouldn't frown
And if you just appeared
I wouldn't cry or think it weird

'cause you are still around
You're in the air, you're in the ground
And you can't go away
I am afraid you're here to stay

Friends don't understand
They close the door, they raise their hands

She says she heard your voice
Of course she does, she has no choice

I was hours ahead
When they removed you from your bed

They drank all the while
Until you said goodbye

Why are we sitting here in ourselves?
Why are we sitting here in ourselves?
Why are we sitting here in ourselves?

I don't look up, I don't look down
I look ahead and make no sound
My love was there,
I only stare

Healthy in my dreams
Is what you are, is what is seems

What does it all mean?
You're only hiding behind a screen

Curse the English day
For what it forces us to say
Banish all the pain

'cause when I die, die
I'll see you again.

We have walked in ancient times
And we've been burned for many crimes
We have ended many lives
But we never really died

You have the sun, I have the moon

You have to fly around the world all day
To keep the sun upon your face
I'd like to come and comfort you
But I'd be blinded by the blue

You have the sun, I have the moon

You're going to die under the sun
And I'll be doomed to carry on
You have become like other men
But let me kiss you once again

You have the sun, I have the moon

Here we go, I'm hanging out in Camden
Drinking with my girlfriends on a Saturday night
This guy says, "come and meet my girlfriend"
She's sitting in the corner looking rather uptight

So I say "hello" and I try to be nice
But I see he's feeling itchy
Trying to play us off each other
"Girls, girls, please don't fight"
(You get the picture)

Hey you, the muscles and the long hair
Telling me that women are superior to men
Most guys just don't appreciate this
You just try convincing me you're better than them

So he talks for hours 'bout his sensitive soul
And his favourite subject is sex
I don't even think he really wanted it
But, Christ, this guy's too much

(I wanna tell him)
I'm as human as the next girl
I like a bit of flattery
But I don't need your practised lines
Your school of charm mentality so
Save your breath for someone else and
Credit me with something more
When it comes to men like you
I know the score, I've heard it all before

(Here comes the next one)
Blondie was with me for a summer
He flirted like a maniac but I wouldn't bite
I'm weak and he was so persistent
He only had to have me 'cause I put up a fight

Oh God, the boy had such an ego
He liked to talk about himself all day and all night
You think you're such a ladykiller
But you were nothing special 'til you turned out the light

When he's nice to me he's just nice to himself
And he's watching his reflection
I'm a five foot mirror for adoring himself
Here's seven years' bad luck

(I wanna tell him)
When you say you love me
You're just flattering your vanity
But I don't need your practised lines,
Your school of charm mentality so
Save your breath for someone else and
Credit me with something more
When it comes to men like you,
I know the score, I've heard it all before

Ooh, you're such a ladykiller,
Always on a winner, thinking that you're in there
Oh boy, you're such a ladykiller,
Super sexy mister, call it what you will, oh
You think you're such a ladykiller,
I just bet you're still there, posing in the mirror
Hey girls, he's such a ladykiller,
But we know where he's coming from and we know the score.

Single girl I don't wanna be a single girl
Single girl I don't wanna be a single girl

Don't wanna be on my own again tonight
Don't wanna put out the light

Single girl who would wanna be a single girl

Don't wanna talk to myself again tonight
Don't wanna put out the light

When you abandoned me
Well it was heaven-sent
When I abandoned you
It was what you meant
Well it was you that knew it
And it was you that went

Having changed our minds it was meant to be

Don't wanna clean up your mess again tonight
Don't have to be in a fight
I'm going to what I want again tonight
Living without you - it's alright

Single girl I just wanna be a single girl

I've been so happy since I walked away
I never thought that I could feel as great as I do today
'Cause you were nothing but a big mistake
And life is wonderful, now that I'm rid of you

Oh I must've been crazy to have stayed with you
I can't believe I thought I was in love with you
But now the scales have fallen I can really see
And I say go to hell, 'cause that's where you took me

Well, I've felt better since I slammed that door
You always cramped my style, I never noticed before
It's been a non-stop party since I flew the coop
I can't believe I fell for such a loser like you

And is it any wonder that I felt so blue
When I was always having to put up with you

Oh, here we go again, just lay the blame on me
Don't say another word, 'cause sweetheart, you're history

I know that you miss me really, bet you wish that you still had me
You'll never find someone like me but I've got no regrets at all

'Cause I've met this girl and she's so good to me
She's really beautiful, fantastic company
Oh, when I'm with her I realise what love can be
'Cause she's fifty times the person you will ever be

Good luck, mister, do you think I care?
Since you've been gone the offers have been everywhere
I've got a million guys just lining up for me
I've turned a corner, boy, my life is ecstasy

Well, I've been in heaven since I walked away
I never thought that I could feel as great as I do today
'Cause you were nothing but a waste of space
And life is wonderful now that I'm over you

Shake, baby, shake
You know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake
Taking me in with all your charms

I've never been inside you but you're so alluring
They call you "little mouse" by name in Rome and Turin
Looking now at your famous shape
They don't make them like you anymore

Shake, baby, shake
You know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake
Taking me in with all your charms

When things are looking good there's always complications
I can't be with you so I'm at the railway station
Let's run away and be so alive
Escape the drudgery of this nine to five

Shake, baby, shake
You know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake
Taking me in with all your charms

Shake, baby, shake
You know I worship from afar
Brake, baby, brake
How I wish you were my car

Shake, baby, shake
You know I can fit you in my arms
Brake, baby, brake
Taking me in with all your charms

Shake, baby, shake
Shake, baby, shake
Shake, baby, shake
Shake, baby, shake
I will

He lives his life in a world full of women
And he takes what he wants from their love
And he throws the rest away
I cling to him and pray
But still he slips away
And now it's just too late
To wish him back again

She won't put up with this life so she leaves him
And she finds someone else, falls in love
And she travels far away
I say that it's ok
And swallow all my pain
And now it's just too late
To wish her back again

They left me here on my own in a nightmare
And I just can't forgive any more
So I smile and turn away
Don't listen when they say
They wish that I could stay
And now it's just too late
To wish me back again

( written by stuart moxham / hypocrite ep)

I was waiting at the station,
When your train came in,
Wasn't you I was tiptoeing for,
But you gave me a grin,

Felt my heart in my throat,
Felt my soul going out to you,
Could this be love at first sight?
I just didn't know.

I was waiting at the station,
When your train came in,
Wasn't you I was tiptoeing for,
But you gave me a grin,



Felt my heart in my throat,
Felt my soul going out to you,
Could this be love at first sight?
I just didn't know.

I didn't know,
I didn't know,
I didn't know,
I didn't know.

Don't you feel insecure,
All about your love for me?
There's nothing I adore,
More than a faker bleeding.

Silly girl I run around and never know my reasons
And though you're laughing with me I know what you say about me
I can't explain
It's not your business anyway
So don't say you understand
And don't pretend you're on my side

And I remember when you hated her for sleeping next to him
I see your smiling face but I know you've done worse than me

You hypocrite
Don't talk to me cos you're not fit to know me
So don't pretend that you could've ever been a friend
And still I'm sure you think it's OK what you've done to me
Cos I'm so bad to him
Don't even try to hide behind that stupid lie
I know your kind and I know where your loyalties lie

Silly girls we run around and never know our reasons
And though I understand I guess I say that you betrayed me

I'm a hypocrite
I dish it out but I can't take it I know
You think its wrong but maybe you're right but this is my song
And still I'm sure you think that it's OK what she did to me
Cos I'm so bad to him
Dont even try to hide behind that stupid smile

I know our kind, and I know where our loyalties lie

(Anderson)

It's raining in this room
And it's so hot outside this room

I don't know no one here
I don't want to be here
In this room

We hold parties in our sleep
We fill ourselves up in our sleep

And I'll heal you when you're ill
Though it's hard keeping still
In our sleep

Pries the hair out of her mouth
Whilst the circus is heading south

While we search in the sand
Don't ask them to understand
Why they cover up their hands
And their mouths

(Anderson)

You are the one
In your concrete arms I adore you
Dirty and dear
Block out the sun
In your twists and turns I invade
You show me no fear

We blow around like tiny leaves in a big storm
Finding there's nothing left to breathe or to keep warm
You ebb and flow and your rhythm beats my head
Leave me alone while you swallow up your dead

You are the one
You cradle me and kill
Caressing my face

Leave me undone
You suffocate and have me
This is the place

Every door conceals a dream and a nightmare
Nothing is ever really pure in the stale air

And when it's dark everything becomes more clear
Lie in the park when I want to have you near

You are the one
In your concrete arms I adore you
Dusty and dear
Block out the sun
In your twists and turns I invade
You show me no fear

Left it unsung
I shall leave but I'll return
Poison my lungs, my blood is full of lead
Things unsaid
My love for you still burns

(Anderson)

If you walked in now
I wouldn't start I wouldn't frown
And if you just appeared
I wouldn't cry or think it weird

'cause you are still around
You're in the air, you're in the ground
And you can't go away
I am afraid you're here to stay

Friends don't understand
They close the door, they raise their hands

She says she heard your voice
Of course she does, she has no choice

I was hours ahead
When they removed you from your bed

They drank all the while
Until you said goodbye

Why are we sitting here in ourselves?
Why are we sitting here in ourselves?
Why are we sitting here in ourselves?

I don't look up, I don't look down
I look ahead and make no sound
My love was there,
I only stare

Healthy in my dreams
Is what you are, is what is seems

What does it all mean?
You're only hiding behind a screen

Curse the English day
For what it forces us to say
Banish all the pain

'cause when I die, die
I'll see you again.

(Berenyi)

Pretty little girl, she shines
Knowing she is young, she smiles
Happy just to be a prize
Happy just to see his smile

Silly little girl, she tries
Thinking she is good, and wise
Doesn't recognise the lies
Pouring from her lips, she sighs:

This is so real,
It's what I feel,
I look in your eyes and lose myself

Silly little girl denies
Every understanding why
Her face is full of sad surprise
Every time she hears him cry:

What do you feel
When you're with me?
I look in your eyes and see myself

But there's no connection,
Just his own reflection
Isn't this the way you wanted me?
(what do you mean?)
In love with you
(what do I feel?)
Do anything
(what do you mean?)
For you

She looked in his eyes to lose herself

And when it falls apart, she cries
Doesn't think to look inside
She just covers up her eyes
Doesn't see her own disguise

And though she feels this sorrow,
It will fade tomorrow
She'll pretend that this was really love
(what do you mean?)
She'll make their fall
(what did I feel?)
Seem beautiful
(what do you mean?)
She won't remember this at all
(what do you mean?)
She won't recall
(what did I feel?)
The truth at all
(what do you mean?)
She wants to fall
(what did I feel?)
Again
(what do you mean?)

(Anderson)

Wake with the sun
What's going on, when you're gone
Fall asleep when you're near
What's going on, when you're here

And sometimes I think if I stand by the phone it may ring
And sometimes I worry and fear what tomorrow may bring
And you sing
And you sing

Breathe with your sigh
Makes me high, don't know why
Touching your skin
Wishing you were within

Your eyes are like saucers but mine are just clouded in gray
I've so much to tell but I can't and you just go away
Anyway
Won't you stay

Wake with the sun
What's going on, when you're gone
And when I lost control
I was cold, and I felt old

The ground is beneath me but slowly it's falling away
You say we're like children so why won't you come out and play?
And sometimes I think if I look at the phone it may ring
And sometimes I worry and fear what tomorrow may bring
When you sing
When you sing

I've been waiting on the slide
Suggest I open wide
No incentive to hide
Happy coursing through my veins
Don't even know my name
When I'm up you're coming down
When I'm up you're coming down

Inside of me, some sight to see
Some sight to feel our earthy bed

When we're wrapped in polythene
What's that supposed to mean
Paper flowers bring me luck
No birds in sight I fear
Stick sticks in you my dear
When I'm up you're coming down
When I'm up you're coming down

Some say I'm vague
And I'd easily fade
Foolish parade of fantasy

Drink in your eyes
Drink in you sighs
Grass in my thighs my aching legs

When we're wrapped in polythene
What's that supposed to mean
Paper flowers bring me luck
No birds in sight I fear
Stick sticks in you my dear
When I'm up you're coming down
When I'm up you're coming down

Inside of me, some sight to see
Some sight to feel our earthy bed

Drink in your eyes
Drink in you sighs
Grass in my thighs my aching legs

Do do doo...

See my life (I've been so tired)
See my self (I've been uptight)
See my life (I've been so tired)
See my sight (I could disappear)

See with you memories fading fast
And with you it's never going to last

You are the sweetness in my eyes
You are an apple in disguise

See with you
I never seemed to look the other way

Only to stay, only to breathe
Only to see
That space and light is what I really need

I never wanted to tell lies
You are the sweetness in my eyes

You are the juice I need for life
You are the sweetness in my eyes

I know it hurts to see
That in the end they sympathized with me
And though it hurts to say
It couldn't happen any other way

I remember when you were free
No one else then you came to me
Cursed you then that it couldn't last
All the laughs we had in the past

And if it hurts you too
I hope you know that I'm still fond of you
And if its still unfair
Remember that I thought you never cared

Sing to me, comfort me, turned away
Someone else takes my place

And so you made your choice
When I needed most to hear your voice
But you were never there
And that was when I thought you never cared

Swallowed her down, she's inside me
She's struggling now, she can't break free
And my eyes are closed, my lips are sealed
She can't escape but I can feel

Kicks in me

Climbing my spine, she's inside me
Wants to escape, wants to breathe
And I wish I could tell you what she feels
And I wish I could hear when she speaks

In my sleep
In my dreams

(Anderson)

Come on little man now all's said and done
All tht I'm asking is you show me some fun
I need purple veins and scenic greens
They can make me soar and touch extremes

I just fell down from whitest skies
And now I start to realise
And all the colours talk to me

And if I had wings then I could take you in
I'd stay on the ground and I could teach you things
The grass is strewn with blades of gold
These sights and songs I have been told
All hopes desires that seem to sing

Come on little man now you're times nearly through
Colours are dripping down red and blue
I'm standing in the middle of a great glass ball
I'm told that I've nothing but I'm having it all

I just rose up from blackest seas
My eyes were opened so widely
And its a shame to end this way

(Anderson / Berenyi)

Nothing can eclipse
Tender fingertips
Youthful girlish hips
Crimson pouting lips

But what d'you say when nothing's meant
What d'you do when all is spent

Faithless faceless night
Drenched in empty light
Scarlet starlet's bright
Vanity's delight

Cream of life you'll find in her
First to come she's first to serve

Turned away you're out of luck
Spurned again
No one to fall in love

Just don't imagine that I'll still remember you
Don't even think I'll try
I'll take my memories and drown them in my glass
And then I'll drink a toast of bitterness and wash you from my heart

I count the blessings that took you away from me
I laugh to think I cried
I don't need what you got I don't miss what you do
'Cause I can raise my glass and drink a toast of bitterness to you

And now my mind recalls no memory of you
And so I raise a smile and drink a toast of bitterness to you

Just don't imagine that I still remember you
Don't even think I care
You took your love elsewhere and I drank mine away
With bitter thoughts of you that washed my memories of you away

Peel back empty night
Grey dawn breaks into white
Sun climbing the sky
Your eyes reflecting the light
Clouds out of sight
But when the day is through
Will I see you again

Keep your eyes on me
Don't let go of my hand
Running together
We go together so well
I can tell

Run where I run
Play what I play
Do what I do
But when this day's through
Will I see you again

I know it hurts to see
That in the end they sympathized with me
And though it hurts to say
It couldn't happen any other way

I remember when you were free
No one else then you came to me
Cursed you then that it couldn't last
All the laughs we had in the past

And if it hurts you too
I hope you know that I'm still fond of you
And if its still unfair
Remember that I thought you never cared

Sing to me, comfort me, turned away
Someone else takes my place

And so you made your choice
When I needed most to hear your voice
But you were never there
And that was when I thought you never cared

(Anderson)
And even in your darkest hour
The recipe I cook for you
Can release its latent power
And make your body feel brand new

Can't you hear the music play
Being center of what you want
Try to leave the past behind
Memories don't appeal

All the things we said
All the things we did
All the things that passed
Were satisfied....