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when I'm feeling capable
if I could only pace it out,
when I was only 9
try not to make it rhyme

suffer for a second chance
douse the ash and make it last
take a deep breath in
and slowly count to 10

bow down to an eastern site
geomancers know I'm right
I don't wanna spell it out
like you do

wake up for another day
we'll scheme of ways to waste away
well I just wanna know
where it is I'm going (gone)

move out to a southern town
with rosicrucians all around
fast from dusk to down
and welcome ramadan


bow down to an eastern site
geomancers know I'm right
I don't wanna spell it out
like you do

watch me drift away
fall; surprise it's grey
pace to, don't drown me out

watch me
I'm over it:
to one side
surrender feels fine
I'm over it:
to one side.
turn down.

I'm out of tune
But she's still in love with you
I'll falter forth
And pack my things for north
Parse the words you know
Don't sound them out

watch me
I'm over it:
to one side
surrender feels fine
I'm over it:
to one side.
turn down.

Decatur

I live inside
I keep my pockets full
My head is reeling
My house is peeling

I'm all right, throwing darts
We're just baking
Could've died, I don't mind.
we're still chasing.

I walk along the street
The sun sticks to my back
It's so hot I can't breathe
It's so dry I might crack

Bad to feel the way I am
Today is another day, you do what you can

Feel so sad, so bad today
All our friends have gone away

Here in my castle, lines crease me face
Take them away, take them far away
Feel so sad, so bad today
All our friends have gone away

I take time on my hands
And I'll make good on it, you'll see
Sometimes I think it's okay
Sometimes I don't know what to say

No one seems to know a whole lot more
I wish I couldn't feel the shame
Still take the blame

I tried to turn around, and
I tried to turn around, but
Gravity pulls hard on me astray

Sometimes I think it's okay,
Sometimes I feel all right inside
I'm gonna make good on it
You'll see

No one seems to know a whole lot more
I wish I couldn't feel the shame
Still take the blame

If there is one thing I can't forgive
It's making me feel the weakest, and limp
I should've hit you like I meant it
But I can't hear over those words
I'd knock you for that, and your eye's going black

This kind of hate makes me sick
But I'm onto it, I'm onto it.
My muscles are wasted, a useless red paste of it
Bluing the white in you, slapping your face with it.

My hook softening, as I listen
To the hollow sound that's drumming your ribs
I lose the grip on your neck
When it's over, and you're gone,
I'm sitting and crying.

This kind of hate makes me sick
But I'm onto it, I'm onto it.
My muscles are wasted, a useless red paste of it
Bluing the white in you, slapping your face with it.

What was that meaning, that breaking of skin
Have I proven it, have I proven it?

Please save me, from myself
Pull my hands from the wheel
There’s a tremble, and a rumbling
Inhale, feel the sting

Rewind the tape
Get back to your sleeping
Rub out your eyes
This ship is sinking

There’s a dust bowl, out in front of us
Blue lights in the mirror
Filled the tank up in El Paso
And rethought my career

Rewind the tape
Get back to your sleeping
Rub out your eyes
This ship is sinking

There was a side that I never knew
Either way it was something
Why are you asking, I don't know
But let me tell you something
I live, I live, I live right here
This is my life, it's just all right
This is the neighborhood I pass through
I'm passing you unnoticed

Hey Latasha, every place you made
Your face is everywhere
You don't know what your life has meant to me
Come on up, I'm on a tear

This city, it means nothing to me
It hurts to say it, worse to see it
You told me things I never knew
The rest of us will remember
This is a story I want to believe
I am afraid of it, it's a pity
How does it look down here, it's a mystery

Hey Latasha, every place you made
Your face is everywhere
You don't know what your life has meant to me
Come on up, I'm on a tear

Tell me everything's bad
Throw me all of your pain
It's there, it's plain
And I won't forget
I love your faces
I wanted you
To show some feeling
I needed you
To twist my arm

Come on over, I was wrong
Dry your eyes on my sleeve
All the rain in my ears
Rolls down my arm
Into my palms

I wanted you
To show some feeling
I needed you
To twist my arm

tell me something I wouldn't hear
tell me something I refuse to know
I didn't want to hear it
it didn't sound too good from here
it's the cover of a book
it's the cover I refuse to see
I didn't want to see it
it didn't look too good from here

I didn't think you'd notice
it didn't make a difference
if it mattered that much to you
it wouldn't matter that much to me
I tried harder than you could know
was I there, was I waiting?
that's me, I forget sometimes
are you never coming back?

it's something I can't ignore
its part of me everyday
it's something I couldn't say to you
something that takes the breath from me
something that makes me angry
something that's cheap and dirty
something that's cheap and dirty
something that takes my strength away

and I blame it on you
I blame it on you
I blame it on you

You’re sitting in front of me
Our bus isn’t coming
I think I’m going blind
Or is everything losing its color
I made it clear to you
My sleep is restless
My heart is divided
Quarters, halves, & eighths
I’m in love with this feeling
This invisible feeling.

What I wanted to say
Would have sounded all wrong
In that crazy pitch of my
Pidgin stammering knotted tongue

I’m used to it, this city
The smell of it, the gray dust of it
I know that’s rain coming to wash it over
clean it away

I’m used to it, this feeling
The comforting, the reviling
I’m used to it, this city
The comforting, the reviling

I could swear I was there
With my drink on the floor
Waiting out what I said to you
Maybe I said it, I sure didn’t mean it
I couldn’t forget the comfort of being next to you
Maybe I dreamt it, I don’t think I heard it
But what you said, I’ve got it stuck in my head
..

Had to clean up the mess
and nurse the cuts on my head
It’s no fun getting gone without you
There was a time, that I would have cried
but...that part of me has up and died

That part of me has up and died.

I was so close to it
Your words had a sting
For the first time I noticed
A tick in your cheek
One hand on the jaw
One hand on my heart
Thinking about it
I’m thinking about it
I was so close to it
I was so close to it
Your words had a bite
Your words had a ring
Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I forget
And your problems seem unreal to me
Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I forget
And your problems seem so unreal

I get a taste of it
Where there is pain
In a town like this
In a town that’s like death
I could taste the soot in the rain in the words
Stuck in my mouth, to the roof of my mouth
I am certain, I am able
To walk right by without wincing
I’m ashamed, that I waited
To cross the street to avoid your look
...

Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I forget
And your problems seem unreal to me
Sometimes I forget
Sometimes I forget
And your problems seem so unreal

Sometimes I forget.
Sometimes I forget

Sometimes I forget.
Sometimes I forget

It was over in my head
And I was thinking those things
I should be guilty as sin
I should be shaking
I did the things that can’t forgive
Stealing the things that i gave to you
But from this moment I will walk
And from this moment I will be true

I looked away, I didn’t mean to
I’m sorry, I’m sorry
I can’t believe what it’s become
It’s over, it’s over, it’s over
And I’ll be there
I’ll be there
And I’ll be there
I’ll be there.

Anytime you can find me there,

I'll be waiting

I walk past the place to meet without turning

All day, I've been thinking of you

All week, I've been running from you, and I hate it

I turn out the lights when I'm thinking about you

I'm feeling guilty just for being afraid

I am painted, like a sea snake
But I don't mind, and I won't forget
I don't mind, and I won't forget

From the chips in my nails,
I feel fuzzy and hot like a sun
Swallowed whole in a storm far away
in the sky behind you

I am with you
I can see you
I am with you
I could kill you

I am with you
I am with you
I am with you
I am with you

Take picture of me, I wanna sleep in
At the base of my neck, I've been aching
I've been taken away, I've been taken away
From everything that's me
From everything that's me
Take a picture of him, he's dying
His face in a fist, and his face in lights
I took a pen out, put the cap back on
What will I write

I've been taken away, I've been taken away
By a shark-skinned man with a raccoon tan
His skin peeling back, as we drove by
Into the dust of a city that was calling us...
"Hello"

step into my shoes for a while
but you might find that they don't fit
or that you can't walk in a straight line
that's most of it, that's the hardest part of it

take me over in a plane
take me someplace I've never been to
take me over in a train
show me something I haven't seen

step into my room for a while
it's the same old floors and the same old walls
somebody's waiting with a map of all the stars
every long player and every stack of pictures
everything for you and from me

take me over in a plane
take me someplace I've never been to
take me over in a train
show me something I haven't seen

I turn red, I turn back in defeat
Take an arrowhead through my neck
And it’s time to turn away
To where I walk, where I stand
Where it cuts, where it binds
Where it stings, where I hide

Don’t tell me you really know, I know
Don’t tell me you really care, I know

Until the sky clears
And the saints fall from the sky
Dropping like rocks
and I
I know I know I know I know I know I know

I bought it yesterday
Took a friend to the river
That's where I told him
I was a little sick
And I was sick of trying
And I was sick of trying

I let my chin drop 'cause I don't want to
Tell the truth now, 'cause I've been torn up

My friend dropped his head
Shook off my complaining
I didn't feel too good
I couldn't blame him, but
I couldn't blame him

I thought I'd feel okay
After a little while
But that wasn't in me
There's always something burning

I bought it yesterday
Plugged it in and watched it buzzing around
It's taken me for someone else
It's taken me for something new
It's taken me for someone else
It's taken me for something new

Thought I'd feel okay
Thought I'd feel okay
And the floodwall broke in the river,
Wash me away

Thought I'd feel okay
Thought I'd feel okay
My town stopped living and I started giving

I feel old here
I'm turning hard inside
And my lips sound strange
Or is it just that I've gone insane?
I feel old here
Like a watch that ticks
My throat's shrinking
Somebody's laughing
And the song sounds wrong
Or is it just my ears playing tricks on me?
And these heads look strange
And they're out of time
I'd better go outside
Just walk away

I turn red, I turn back in defeat
Take an arrowhead through my neck
And it’s time to turn away
To where I walk, where I stand
Where it cuts, where it binds
Where it stings, where I hide

Don’t tell me you really know, I know
Don’t tell me you really care, I know

Until the sky clears
And the saints fall from the sky
Dropping like rocks
and I
I know I know I know I know I know I know

I take time on my hands
And I'll make good on it, you'll see
Sometimes I think it's okay
Sometimes I don't know what to say

No one seems to know a whole lot more
I wish I couldn't feel the shame
Still take the blame

I tried to turn around, and
I tried to turn around, but
Gravity pulls hard on me astray

Sometimes I think it's okay,
Sometimes I feel all right inside
I'm gonna make good on it
You'll see

No one seems to know a whole lot more
I wish I couldn't feel the shame
Still take the blame