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| 1. |
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| 2. |
| 2:00 | 
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Everyone I ever loved
Went down in history... The blue eyes came The brown eyes left... And the rest is misery Dreams are trash On the side of the road All starry eyed - tongue all tied There's something you should know I could have died with you And Boston is the reason I'm feeling so blue - damn you City lights and colder nights I'm innocent (minus the fights) Praying out loud for a winter of quiet Friday nights are killing me I fall asleep - pen in hand There's something you should know I could have died with you And Boston is the reason I'm feeling so blue Cities aren't a way to cure a disease And I don't even know Why you listen to me A razor wristed kid Looking forward to ends If love was a bridge You'd be the one in the fens "All the kids are fucking dead" I write "with love and a gun to my head" these days aren't going to last too long (i know - i know - i know) I'm drawing words from a tired heart I'm drawing blood from a tired heart |
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| 3. |
| 2:35 |
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I was counting
The good things about this city The only good thing is you are not here When you're around it Makes it hard to be what I need to be I was trying to breathe I was dying to breathe I was hoping I'd never Have to write this song again The kind of song that makes You want to hang Your headached - head And I was hoping That I would never fall in love again 'Cause that would be the end Of everything (you're everything) My parents fell in love And all I got was life And all I ever wanted Was to not be alone I've been wearing this new outfit called "Quit while you're ahead" Your smiles are the end Your eyes are the end I was hoping I'd never Have to write this song again The kind of song that makes You want to hang Your headached - head And I was hoping That I would never fall in love again 'Cause that would be the end Of everything (you're everything) Just hang your head Just close you eyes Just hide your heart Hide your heart I believe that when I'm gone My love will live in song This is not where I wanted to be I wanted to be I believe that when I'm gone My love will live in song This is not where I wanted to live I wanted to live |
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| 2:52 |
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I've never seen to many stars
(And I'm never gonna see them again) I've never known such perfection (And I'm never gonna know it again) I've never felt so at home (And I'm never gonna feel it again) I want to open these veins And never breathe again Because the beauty is dead... Since February 79' I've O.D.'ed on "lonesome" 22 times (But who's counting?) You'd think by now - you would've died I'm sorry girls - I tried (Scream these words to me) If imperfections are illegal Then you should call the cops And they should lock me up You're such a slave to the crying game (Scream these words to me) We'll die alone Picture me in brighter days With smiles on my innocent face (Did you forget me?) I only wanted to be loved I only wanted to be in love (Scream these words to me) If imperfections are illegal Then you should call the cops And they should lock me up You're such a slave to the crying game (Scream these words to me) We'll die alone Could you love a face Full of tears soaked in song? I can't decide... I don't know if its worse to live or die I am stuck on "never enough" And the corner of "never again" Here is a hint - don't call someone Who just sits by the phone Leave them alone I loved the first few days But its not fun playing a game You always lose I couldn't talk to save my life I couldn't talk to save my life |
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I took a shot at the world
And I missed (amo te') Traded my bow for a new year's kiss Broken arrows and loveless wrists Tell "J.C." I'm dying in Mass And if it wasn't so cold I'd swear this was hell |
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| 6. |
| 2:15 |
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I am bleeding through
Writing songs for you If I could say what I felt Then I would draw for you I'm just a boy letting go of his heart Because the days are like knives And the knives are so sharp One more kiss - so I don't forget And then I'll open my arms To embrace the regret Fragile dreams - fistfight kings Slowdance queens... Oh pick me please Sending "get well" cards to former stars 'Cause I know how it feels To have fallen so far Talentless yet nothingless Than hopelessly in awe of you I want nostalgia forever If we throw this life away Will we ever have to live again? Say "no" and I'm all yours Say "yes" and I'll still pull Tell the boys I'll see them soon Your lips were the softest yet North, east, south and west... I gave you my very best I left my heart in yesterday (Remember how it used to be) I shot myself full of memory (Before the world turned on me?) Forget what you know Forget that it hurts The "new days" are coming... They're getting worse I am bleeding through Writing songs for you They're all for you |
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| 2:09 |
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When your "golden days"
are "that was just a phase..." Lose yourself to reminisce Pictures and innocence Try to remember when you felt free and The smiles Just came so naturally... You can't control your age But you can control how you feel Breathing dead air into broke lungs that Once filled your heart With the will to live So when are you Gonna cash in your raincheck? (And on and on and on...) Every second that goes by Is one that's gone for good Are you throwing away Possible memories to a fevered life Of "woulds" and "coulds?" We may have missed our chance and We may never be young again but fuck Living a sick day life Fuck dead beat kids And fuck your falsehoods So when are you Gonna cash in your raincheck? (And on and on and on...) I'm not dead yet Ambitions... sorry, but I have none... I'm just a confused kid With the masses telling me To join tradition... But I just can't... I'd rather die than live like you Do you get it? I'd rather die than live like you You don't get it Fuck your falsehoods |
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| 1:04 |
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Dear eastern prom
I know what's wrong... But it's suicide eyes That wrote this song For all I'm worth Writer's block is a bitch Words falling like bricks For a New England wish... I was an easy male fuck In the town of "naive-ity" All I wanted was a shot in the dark But like a knife through the heart I choke on spit covered words... Oh my god - It happened again What's wrong with me? Screaming gets you nothing One more night in this town And I swear that I'm dead... I drew a heart Around the name of your city... |
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| 9. |
| 2:01 |
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I ran through
Storm stained city streets Paved with pain To bring these roses to you And with sore throat insecurity You pulled the thorns From my bleeding side There were winter days Spent in - sulking - side Try to heat cold sheets Hide allergy eyes... I'm now hanging out with destiny And begging it to get the best of me What else can I do? Why do you read me Like no one else? Used to live headaches Now they're somewhere else... We are handguns, angel, Waiting to explode... We've lived cold lives But now we know The sun may hide But the night is always there So don't anticipate It's not worth the wait... What did you expect? Status report: I've called it a day... There's a world of people Different than me... Status report: I've lost my voice... Trying to be heard over this noise Die young, or live forever? I'm just trying to get through the night See there's this voice Dragging me down Die young, or live forever? I'm just trying to refind my heart It was always there Just hard to see in the dark... You weren't even looking Sleeping like there's no tomorrow Sleeping like there's no tomorrow |
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| 10. |
| 2:48 |
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Addicted to monotonous crush
I even dropped out of school To catch up on sleep Take the train for hours And then try to forget Where you left your heart Read the free form poem To your locked door Then I swept those fucks Under the cement floor If you find them They were never mine If you don't - well - nevermind Porcelain hope... Why do you always break on me? (It all makes no sense to me) Porcelain hope... Why do you always break on me? I set the alarm to remind myself That I spent the day by myself This is my story - love... Day one to now... Background music to a silent film You see - the curtains falling down... I helped this city burn to the ground They said it tried to make amends But I never heard a sound Porcelain hope... You're not much, but you're all I got Porcelain hope... You're not much, but you're all I got |
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| 2:23 |
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Whatever this becomes
Whatever words I say We are the fortunate ones... And when the days are done I won't forget All I see in you and me Is a light in the dark of humanity And when the days are done I won't forget Timid steps - come walk with me And with your useless words Come talk to me There are broken hearts Now on your stereo But the broken beats are just too slow You'll cry - it doesn't change a thing Kill the lights - and let the rain fall Recall - the memories Of yesterdays and better ways And know - the innocence is gone... Move on - from this day on We'll never be the same... The saddest songs Make sense to me... So with your sunken eyes Come talk to me Two hour drives Are two hours alone But two hour drives Are better than home You'll die - it doesn't change a thing You will - kill the lights And let the rain fall - recall The memories of yesterdays And better ways And know - the innocence is gone... Move on - from this day on We'll never be the same... Faster words - and faster kids Faster songs - and faster ends The one thing that's stayed the same... I've lived through days I've lived through nights I've had my loves I've had my fights You gotta know - you have my heart |
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