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| 4:13 | 
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I am alive I am alive
let all doubts fall let all doubts fall into the grave which I once called home the breath of life expels the blackness renew the passion embrace the sun I am alive I am alive I search for a grain of truth In this endless sea of false hope my quest begins on this day drowning slowly drowning dare I breathe? What can I say that has not been said? what can I do, that has not been done? in my hour of desperation who else could I turn to I guess I only have myself to blame |
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| 2:31 |
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neglected Forgotten You were cast aside
casting stones at an open target what did you think that I would just smile and then walk away no that was never in my nature and it won't change now I didn't leave to teach you a lesson I left because you never even looked my way strange that pain brings my name to your lips but I am not complaining maybe this is the rebirth we always whispered about the one thing that would bind us together start over start over start over start over those foreign days will cease to exist to me I dare you to look past the scope of your vision in spite of the empty promises I will not be denied |
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| 3. |
| 4:00 |
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now with my voice I call your name
and with those hands I reach for you this search is over I covet your taste you are the gift I have longed for beautiful dreamer sleep eternal and dream of me a face that follows a face that haunts deprivation awaits but still I ignore what exhumes and destroys my trust and I walk this precipice and I fear the fall and the two intertwine there is nothing but you and I be still for I am now your god fall into my arms and weep for me your dying breath a song of love remember me this body means nothing my only sin was the longing every object so fleeting you were chosen you were special I pray for innocence you were chosen you were special and once again the hunger begins anew and there is blood on my hands |
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| 1:46 |
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never-ending
this barren land is never-ending never-ending when will this season of bloodloss end? hope falls through the holes in my hands every hour is a shackle I curse my captor every divinity has forsaken me I curse my birth I curse this life I worship the God of slumber for death and sleep walk hand in hand these eyes will never lie |
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| 3:04 |
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never asked you for a thing
yet you pushed me aside on bended knee I served and that day was the birth of a slow death defiler I was meat at your table I would pay not to fall from your grace my blood and my tears were tokens I was waste to be expelled to you I was just a number forgotten on the chopping block my blood flows like any others to find pleasure in my disgrace you held my life in your hands your exceptance the air I breathe day after day I always wonder will I exhaust myself from this effort cursed to an existence of being drawn to you grant me tomorrow or let me die your expectations grip my throat and choke my very life everyday that you appear I succumb to your pleading will this be the day of intervention? |
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| 6. |
| 2:58 |
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well I hope you are satisfied
you gave me the push I needed ostracised for nothing at all by all those I hold dear you aren't the same maybe we should talk this is my suggestion death to all emotion let this be the end of us bitter cold engulfs the soul no more contact forget my face stop knocking I am not smiling behind the door no eloquent words no desire to impress I'm not lookng for an apology from you I'm looking for an opportunity to see you in pain there will be no lookng back again dig your fingers slowly into my wrist white knuckle the blade in hopes that I subside I want to see the shade fall on your eyes no longer my lover pray you better pray pray to every god you know and every forgotten deity you better pray |
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| 7. |
| 2:34 |
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you were always my everything
but sometimes ou were all I had don't be surprised at the contempt in my voice why should you be? you have used your every word against me you are deception personified your illusions no longer hold me I lost faith in what my eyes beheld sightless my every turn has been met with futility what little I could perceive ensnared my progress lost lost in darkness i only fell faster I followed you faithfully it was to no avail I held you in the highest of places and you let me down you failed me I want my blood to ignite you hands and you let me down you failed me |
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| 2:07 |
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I always thought I knew the right thing to say
but something died in you long ago your words echo inside like screams in an empty well always wondering what I could have done but I couldn't save you you have always been my secret regret your nails dug furrows in my wrist as you slipped away a reminder of my failed nobility you were all I ever wanted reincarnation - resurrection call it what you will if everything I've done could reverse these days what would you say? will you forgive me? am I your sacrifice? I stand before you like a fallen angel |
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| 9. |
| 2:33 |
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I know we have been here before
Countless times engaged In an empty embrace Your every word the touch of satin Everything you do is a cold blade in my ribs Leaving me breathless Suffocating my thoughts And I am helpless to your beauty My eyes and woulds are still weeping Let it dry up so I can fly again Biting my tongue in hopes that words Of weakness don't escape Counting the days Counting the moments To dream of you again Waiting always waiting |
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| 1:29 | 
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| 11. |
| 3:17 |
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dark clouds line the sky and descend
to the shallow heart of the man enraptured by the burning flames of animosity the hammer falls and penetrates and preys on my demons darkest desires my soul is now a womb you are flesh of my flesh forever we embrace I see my reflection on the bloodstained floor a clenched fist that holds no compassion tranquility an escape I will never know conception - the breeding labor - the pain I bear birth - of scorn reproduction |
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