Blue October - Approaching Normal (2009) by Blue October (보컬) on maniadb.com

A blackout in the room again
a busted lip and broken skin.
I wake up in the bathroom
and dare not bother asking
why the mirror's craked and all I see
are shards of glass inside of me.

There's voices there to dare me,
my father's here to scare me.
and My mother she sits beyond the door she's
curled up crying on the floor,
look at what her son's done.

When the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
wrong again.
Gone fucking wrong again.

Well liars they leave a guilty trail.
let me tell you I've been lying for years.
That must be why I'm standing in this space.
constantly over and over Im Disregarding that I've created these monsters
that are on both of my sides,
So I wipe the blood from both of their eyes.
From all four of their eyes.

And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sil,
your heart's torn out
a plastic spoon
when honesty lit up that room
so I stole the pillowcase to clean
this mess I've made of someones dream.
Now you've seen what I've done,

when the weight of all the world's gone wrong again
gone fucking wrong again.

This room is old and wise
and I fall onto the bed and wonder,
"How did I get here?"
I was a little boy who would argue with a tree
go ahead thump his head
he'll turn back to normal.

Now why is that what I see?
Don't bother trusting me
don't bother waiting
don't bother changing things that won't give into changing
just let me go away.
I'm packed down whenever.
Let's go.
Let's really really go.

It's all about steam, it's all about dreams
It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when you're fine, 'cause you'll talk like a mime
You'll fall on your face, you get back up
Man, you're doing fine
A considerate clown, a preachy preaching machine
is one of the sweetest things you would say about me
But I don't have the time for your distorted esteem
Why are you toying with my... mind?

I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
Now you're messing with my... pride

Look - you think you're smarter than me
Well, everyone knows
You will never be smarter than me
That's how it goes
I gained forty pounds because of you
Was there an "S" on my chest?
Well I confess you were too much stress
I'd have a heart attack at best
So now I breathe it out, I breathe it out
and I spit it on the crowd
As they lift me up, they lift me up
They lift me up when I'm feeling down
What am I spitting out, spitting out,
Something we never talk about?
It's called my... mind

I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
Now you're messing with my... pride

Well, I'm sick of standing in your line
So now you'll have to take it
Take this to heart
I will never let you fuck me over
Stop talking down to me
Your war is old, your game is over
So here's my coldest shoulder

I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
Now you're messing with my... pride
My pride...

Oh... Something we don't talk about!
Something we don't talk about.

I'm like a ghost
I'll be living in a dirt room
Waiting for the day to be closer
To the window in your home

I'll be standing by your back door
Reaching for the knife in my coat
I'm gonna put it to your throat
You sweaty piggy, you're a bad man

What a fucking sad way to go
Your mother raised you as a joke
I should've wiped away her burden
Used the curtain in the kitchen to choke you

You think you own me
You should've known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate

You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money but it's useless
When you see what I do to you
(What I'm doing to you)

Oh God, then you awoke
You start screaming through the duct tape
Don't ever think I'm letting you go
I'm busy digging you a hole

Now you'll be living in a dirt room
Breathing through the straw of your own (come on!)
I really think that this is fun for the money

I'll make you comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album

You think you own me
You should've known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate

You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money but it's useless
When you see what I do to you

You think you own me
You should've known me
You took the future, the food off my family's plate

You think you'll use me
But I'm stronger than you
You take my money but it's useless
When you see what I do to you

And now I see it all
‘Cause your back's against the wall
And finally you're mine

You're mine

(Come on!)
You think you own me
You should've known me
You took the future and the food off my family's plate

You think you'll use me
I'm stronger than you
You take my money but it's useless
When you see what I do to you

I really think that this is fun for the money
I'll make you comfy for the time wasted making you rich
I want to cover you in ants, bees and honey
Then take a picture for the cover of our album

I dreamt you seduced me
Just to walk away
I dreamt you inspired
Then rewired what I say
I dreamt you spread your bottom wings
And pulled me to the bed
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
You danced around my head
[Chorus:]
So tell me
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
Down
I dreamt you burned my fingers
An automatic sting
I dreamt you called me beautiful
But asked to hear me sing
I dreamt you sat, invited me
To crawl within your space
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
Girl, you danced around my head
[Chorus:]
So tell me
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
How long, how long have you been down?
Down, down
Why can't we work when we both try?
We try, we try, we try
Why can't we work, we both try?
Why can't we work when we both try
Try, try, we we we try
I dreamt you seduced me
Just to walk away
I dreamt you inspired
Then rewired what I say
I dreamt you spread your bottom wings
And pulled me to the bed
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
Girl, you danced around my head
[Chorus:]
Tell me
How long, how long have we been down?
How long, how long have we been down?
How long, how long have we been down?
Down, down, yeah
So don't, don't get so far
Oo, say again
Oh, we been down
How long have we been down?
How long have we been down?
How long have we been down?
How long have we been down?
How long have we been down?
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Yeah yeah

Will you think about me,
in time?
It`s never my luck,
So nevermind.
I wanna say your name,
But the pain starts
again,
It`s never my luck,
So nevermind.

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn`t my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a summersault.
And that doesn`t happen to me
I`ve never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven.

Will you wait for me,
In time,
It`s never my luck,
So I`ll say: never mine.
And i lost a lot of what i
never expect to ever
return
I tend to push it `till the pushing turns from
hurting to burn,
I always take them to the place they always wanted
to go,
Then end up dancing `round
this clown commands,
applause at a show...

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn`t my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a summer salt.
And that doesn`t happen to me
I`ve never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven
heaven,
inside her heaven,
heaven

And i could only dream of you and sleep,
but i won`t see sunlight again,
i can try to be with you , but some how i`ll end up just losing a friend,
And i can only reach for you
relate to you,
I`m losing my friend...
Where did she go?
where?

Chorus:
I had a dream that you where with me ,
And it wasn`t my fault,
you roll me over,
flipped me over,
like a summer salt.
And that doesn`t happen to me
I`ve never been here before
I saw forever in my never,
And i stood outside her
Heaven
I stood outside her heaven(3x)

Will you let me into your heaven?

Stop staring, you're the reason I feel so unhappy all the time look
I've given you everything I know how
You're standing on the top of my shoe
You're keeping me from gaining ground yeah
Look I'm sorry if you feel like I let you down
Can you tell me what have I done so wrong
To you
Tell me what am I supposed to do
I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I cant breathe when you're around!
I should be held at night
That I know is right
I cant breathe when you're around!
You're too scared,
Scared of all of it …I get that feeling I'm talking to the wall
Can you hear me at all
Look my world was shaking my mind was quaking, my heart kept breaking
I threw it against the wall
Can anyone feel me at all
Can you tell me what have I done so wrong
To you
Tell me what am I supposed to do
I got a feeling, you're falling out of love
With me
Tell me who am I supposed to be
I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I can't breathe when you're around!
I should be held at night
That I know is right
I can't breathe when you're around
Yeah I can't breathe when you're around
Look I can't breathe
Whoa whoa whoa
Whoa whoa whoa
(papayevert)
I should be loved by you
That I know is true
I can't breathe when you're around!
I should be held
I should be held
I can't breathe when you're around!
No I can't breathe when you're around
No I can't breathe

Losing my control
Here it is the day I have to go
Just sit beside me
I cant let this show
How sick I feel to leave you so alone
God I'm terrified
We've lost respect for decency
When one can turn our world into an ant pile
We run circles, no direction do I see
The dust has blinded you, the dust has blinded me
I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I've seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live
And you choose to break our families
Tell me you've used all precautions known
And I'll stand beside the ones who stood alone
How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home?
Well let the prayers start healing, what times been stealing
We only want to feel as close as we can be
Use hands for holding on to your precious family
Just believe in all who shine
The light to help you see
Cause if I believe in you, will you believe in me?
I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look Ive seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live
And you choose to break our families
Tell me you've used all precautions known
And I'll stand beside the ones who stood alone
How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home?
Well let the prayers start healing, what times been stealing
been stealing
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Well let the prayers start healing, when times been stealing
Start healing
Start healing

I really need to talk with you
I keep stepping on the vein
That keeps my lifeline flowing thru
I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
But I don’t feel perfect at all
Sad and insecure flaw
I find it hard to hold conversation
I get sweaty sick and I wanna walk away
Its not you its strictly me in this situation
I’m wondering will it ever go away…just go away
sometimes I feel like weeping
awake and when I’m sleeping
perfecting how to put a game face on
this puzzle I’ve been keeping
has been in hiding creeping out the closet door
spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up pieces
How long will I be picking up my heart
I’ll be as honest as I feel
I’m getting more paranoid and I’m hearing things
And they never turn out real
It feels like my heart is made of pure steel
It’s just so heavy all the time
Yea I’m scared of death
And I’m scared of living
I gave up on the past cause it’s unforgiving
I misplaced my trust
I watched my word begin to rust
I’m a balloon about to bust
I need a place for reliving
But sometimes I feel like weeping
awake and when I’m sleeping
perfecting how to put a game face on
this puzzle I’ve been keeping
has been in hiding creeping out the closet door
spilling out onto the floor
How long will I be picking up pieces
How long will I be picking up my heart
How long (in another space and time)
Will I be picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
How long (its getting oh so hard to find)
Keep picking up pieces in the corner of my mind
But I still walk on

Remember how you used to say
u couldn`t wait till tomorrow for a brand new day
And no fuss when ya had to ride the bus
u just add a little blush u
to paralyze ur school crush
Now u`re older and the weight is on ur shoulder
make the world a little colder mo more hidin
in the old day Be strong don`t u give up hope
It will get hard Life`s like a jump rope
Up down Up down Up down Up down yeah
Cause it will get hard
Remember life`s like a jump rope
Up down Up downUp down Up down yeah
It will get hard
Cause it will get hard
There`ll be a bump and there will be a bruise
There`ll be alarms and there will be a snooze
There`ll be a path that you will have to choose
There`ll be a win and there will be a lose and
You got to hold your head up high and
Watch all the negative go by
Don`t ever be ashamed to cry
u go ahead Cause life`s like a jump rope
Up down Up down Up down Up down yeah
It will get hard
Remember life`s like a jump rope
Up down Up down Up down Up down yeah
It will get hard Come on
I want to tell you that everything will be okay
that everything will eventually turn itself
to gold So keep pushing through it all
Don`t follow, lead the way
Don`t lose yourself or your hope
Cause life`s like a jump rope Up down
Up down Up down Up down yeah
You stomp your feet so hard you make it pound
Raise the bottom to the top n now we`re never
coming down Up down stomp your feet spin around
Clap hands to the rhythm Then you slip down
u stomp your feet so hard you make it pound
Raise the bottom to the top n now we`re
never coming down Up down
Up down Up down Up down yeah
It will get hard Remember
life`s like a jump rope Up down
Up down Up down Up down yeah
It will get hard
Cause it will get hard Up down
Life`s like a jump rope Up down
Up down Up down Up down yeah
Whoa oh Cause life`s like a jump rope

Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Cause I'll never stop loving my
I've been to both knees
Raise my hands up to the sky, forgive me
Is something out there far beyond the clouds?
I'm asking help me
Help me to see the world
Through baby eyes and hold me closely
I need a fresh start on the roller coaster
Made for coasting
It's time to wake up, time to make up
Time to shake these memories
It's time to leave the past in the past
And lace up a new set of shoestrings
I want the world to know I've got your back
Through up and down, see
So we can sit together, side by side
Through amazing
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Cause I'll never stop
So I've broken every bone
And fought through what felt never-ending
I thought my head was made of sadness
But my heart is mending
I scream at sunsets
Give applause to what I can't control
Then somehow laugh at how
The moon divides an ocean solo
I wanna be that ocean
I wanna shine like that
I want to smile so big my daughter jumps into my lap
And I wanna tell her daddy's fine
And always plans to be
Then take her in my arms
This is what we'll always see
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Don't take them away
Cause I'll never stop loving my
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Never take them away, boys
Don't take them away yeah
And when I'm gone
I won't go screaming in the end
Cause I'll give you everything my life amounts to
So raise this life up with me
And baby, let's go dancing
Come on lets rock!
Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away, boys
Never take them away
Oh oh oh
Whoa oh oh
Whoa oh oh
Don't take them away
no, no, no

Blue does
Everything I've never seen before
Blue does
Everything I've never seen before

She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence, …she's my sound
Oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl …she is

Blue does
Everything I've never seen before
Blue does
Everything I've never seen before

She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence. …shes my sound

Oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl …she is

I said oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl …she is

Oh what a girl
Oh what a beautiful girl …she is

Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn,
Worms squeezing their way through my toes
Tonight that's how it goes.
I'm at your window kneeling quiet,
I thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head right your heart right
"Let him go!"

Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor as he embraces every inch of you
The woman I adore.
I can't believe the way you're bending
Can't believe this neverending moaning asking him for more
Begging him for more

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I have to fix this on my own
Replace my heart,
Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end
Replace my heart,
I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping.....end

I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her,
From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot
He pleased and pleased her.
I turned around and tried to take control, but no control was capable
It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go.

I squeezed the life into my brain
Like pushing knives into a vein
I've gotta get, I said I've gotta get inside
So to the back window I crawl in silent
Standing in the darkness of my living room
This used to be my home

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I'm moving forward to the bedroom door
Replace my heart
Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end
Replace my heart
I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping...end

I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom
I had to see this happening.
He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang and bounced off every wooden walled room
And that's when all went silent blank except for the color red
As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed
I said "I know I'm not allowed to be here. I just had to see how good your new man really fucks you. Cause you both been fucking me."

"So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair
I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare
I don't want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this in what seems easy quick and painless
Man, so I'll get down to business
I choose you first, there's a gun, it's at your head
So laugh at me one more time but keep your face inside the bed
You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I've said."
I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red

How far will I go to make it feel right?
"Come home"
I have to fix this on my own

Then the screaming oh the screaming
It's nice to see you scared
Of such a weak and stupid husband
Who knows you never really cared
I'll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head
Was all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?

Now think about your answer, as you lay face down on the bed
I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red
I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back
Then placed the barrel in my mouth
All I saw was black.