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I nearly died I suicided softly
I saw her shadow through the cafe window I watched you lean across the table I watched you whisper in her ear And she is your holy Mary And I am so ordinary And you can use me if you want to I know you need me just like an old soft shoe She looks like me but a bit prettier She's a skater and a ballet dancer I saw her on your motorcycle In the seat I thought was meant for me Chorus And when your mother came to Boston you disappeared And then I saw you three together I guess she makes the best impression With her charming femininity... Chorus Oh but I am the one you will call when alone And I am the one who will give when she's gone And so I give So I give I tell myself that love is truly giving Somehow I justify this Hoping you will understand me Hoping you will love me back And she is your holy Mary And I am so ordinary And she is your Queen Cleopatra And I'm just your morning after And she is your Star Spangled Banner And I am just Frere Jaque And you can lose me if you want to And I am so ordinary |
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| 2. |
| 5:02 |
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I am not the person who is singing,
I am the silent one inside. I am not the one who laughs at people's jokes, I just pacify their egos. I am not my house, my car or my songs, They are only stops along my way. I am like the winter, I'm a dark cold female, With a golden ring of wisdom in my cave. ( ) And it's me who is my enemy Me who beats me up Me who makes the monsters Me who strips my confidence I am carrying my voice I am carrying my heart. I am carrying my rhythm I am carrying my prayers, tha you can kill my spirit, it's old and it is strong, And like a mountain I'll go on and on. But when my wings are folded, The brightly colored moth blends into the dirt into the ground And it's me who is my enemy. Me who beats me up. Me who makes the monsters. Me who strips my confidence. And it's me who's too weak, And it's me who's too shy to ask for the thing I love. But I love I am walking on the , I am over the water, And I'm scared as hell But I know there's something better. ( |
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| 3. |
| 5:47 |
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It all started nine years ago
You sat to my left back in school The future showed itself to me The god in you, the god in me, stood together like two trees I was so shy to inquire If you would like tea sometime Then in my Mercury Hand on hand, hand on knee, mercy, mercy, mercy me And I believe in love To be the center of all things And I believe in love to be the way And I believe in love To be the center of all things And I believe in love to be the way To find our inner light I saw a vision where we Were opening presents Christmas Day But we were not all alone The wedding was shotgun We had a daughter and a son So how cruel to realize You had a woman all the time But my love burns bright as the sun The clouds may come, the clouds may go And I'll still be here at your door And I believe in love... Thank you for waiting through my lovers Knowing we could come home to each other Yes, I have waited through these winters My true one was right here And I believe in love |
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| 4. |
| 4:26 |
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Where Have All The Cowboys Gone
oh you get me ready in your 56 chevy why don't we go sit down in the shade take shelter on my front porch he dandy lion sun scorching, like a glass of cold lemonade i will do laundry if you pay all the bills CHORUS: where is my john wayne where is my prairie song where is my happy ending where have all the cowboys gone why don't you stay the evening kick back and watch the TV and I'll fix a little something to eat oh I know your back hurts from working on the tractor how do you take your coffee my sweet i will raise the children if you pay all the bills chorus i am wearing my new dress tonight but you don't, but you don't even notice me say our goodbyes (3 times) we finally sell the chevy when we had another baby and you took the job in tennessee you made friends at the farm and you joined them at the bar almost every single day of the week chorus i will wash the dishes while you go have a beer where is my marlboro man where is his shiny gun where is my lonely ranger where have all the cowboys gone yippee aw, yippee yea (3 times) |
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| 5. |
| 5:59 |
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I'm siphoning gass from the high school bus
Into the tank of my beat-up bug So I can drive away from the shouting and misery I drive into the night, to the hill, to the water tower To lie on my back and drink in the meteor shower Knowing that many men have lain as I do now Ptolemy, Copernicus, Carl Jung Pondering his existence, pondering, Is God with me now? And I look to the sky And I ask these questions Yes, I feel something I don't understand Can somebody say Amen? My life is but a short and precious seed Like three seasons of life in a leaf on a tree And when I cascade to the ground I will not be done I will mingle with the earth and give life To the roots again Can somebody say Amen? And I look to the sky And I ask these questions Yes, I feel something I don't understand Can somebody say Amen? Amen for the drivers in their garbage trucks Amen for our mothers, for the lust to fuck Amen for the child with innocent eyes Amen for Kevorkian and the right to die Amen for NASA, The NSA It's all a front anyway Amen for Marilyn Manson, Saddam Hussein Amen for America and the Milky Way. Amen for Elvis, for Betty Page Amen for Gloria Steinham and Ronald Reagan Amen for O.J., Clinton too Amen for the Republican witch hunt coup Amen for Gandhi, for Malcolm X Amen for the uprising of the weaker sex Amen for Babylon, the third world's call Amen for the unity of us all Amen, Amen, Amen And I am not unique. We are all leave on this great big tree This tree that is life, that is God, that is you, that is me And I lie under my tree like the Buddhas before and after me And I ask the stars, "What for?" Yes, I feel something I can't explain A light that flickers off and on again And I look to the sky And I ask these questions Yes, I feel something I don't understand Oh, can somebody say Amen |
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| 6. |
| 5:36 |
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You make me feel like a sticky pistil
Leaning into her stamen. You make me feel like Mr. Sunshine himself. You make me feel like splendor in the grass where we're rolling Damn skippy baby you make me feel like the Amazon's running between my thighs. You make me feel love You make me feel like a candy apple all red and horny You make me feel like I want to be dumb blonde In a centerfold, the girl next door. And I would open the door and I'd be all wet With my tits soaking through this tiny little t-shirt That I'm wearing and you would open the door And tie me up to the bed. You make me feel love Lover I don't know who I am. Am I Barry White - am I Isis? Lover I'm laced with your unconscious, I will be your Desdemona |
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| 7. |
| 5:19 |
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So open up your morning light,
And say a little prayer for I. you know that if we are to stay alive. Then see the peace in every eye. She had two babies. One was six months, one was three In the war of '44. Every telephone ring, every heartbeat stinging When she thought it was God calling her. Oh would her son grow to know his father? I don't want to to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be sorry? He showed up all wet on the rainy front step. Wearing shrapnel in his skin. And the war he saw lives inside him still, It's so hard to be gentle and warm. The years pass by and now he has granddaughters I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be So breathe a little more deeply my love All we have is this very moment And I don't want to do what his father, and his father, and his father did, I want to be here now. So open up your morning light, And say a little prayer for I You know that if we are to stay alive, Then see the love in every eye. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, I want to know right now what will it be. I don't want to wait for our lives to be over, Will it be yes or will it be sorry? So open up your morning light, And say a little prayer for I You know that if we are to stay alive, Then see the love in every eye. |
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| 4:47 |
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Whether it be across the sea,
Kosovo,Baghdad,Korea Or here at home, right under our fingertips In new slavery prison systems Holding one in four black American brothers The one percent wealthy profiteering >From the buisness that is war Yeah,go to war God is watching us play our ghetto wars God is watching us play our games God is waiting for us to overcome God is waiting for us to just love one another Whether we be cracker or black or Brown,red,yellow >From the land or sky or sea We are family Wake up and see Our planet is a tiny atom in god's kingdom It's our only home A new millennium Can we all just get along? God is watching us play our ghetto wars God is watching us play our games God is waiting for us to overcome God is waiting for us to just love one another |
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| 9. |
| 3:42 |
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carmen, i don't know i don't know i don't know if i can go back
carmen i'll never be never be never be the same again carmen (6 times) the way you set the table the way you lean to tell me something soft the way i can see into you the way you tell me i talk too much about myself it's true i talk too much about myself but right now, right now all i wanna talk about is you now carmen, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know if i can go back carmen i'll never be, never be, never be the same again carmen (6 times) i love the way you think is it biological or all the acid you've eaten just take me into your body i wanna be drunk i wanna be high i wanna be drunk i wanna be high on you carmen, i don't know, i don't know, i don't know if i can go back carmen i'll never be, never be, never be the same again carmen (6 times) i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know if i can go go go go go go go go back home i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know if i can be (happily sane) again |
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| 4:44 |
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I remember the pain in my mother's eyes,
I remember the pain of her compromise years ago. I always wanted to help to make it go away, I didn't know it was her freedom that she needed so. And she said to me, she said to me: He hitch-hiked to Maine, We went cross-country. I had to leave my home, I had to raise a family We did the best we could being so young, We tried to hard to build a happy home. I never knew what to say to anybody, I didn't know what to do, I was far too young. But everybody could feel the suffocation, Underneath for facade of a happy home. And she said to me, she said to me: Chorus Home sweet freedom, flowing in my eyes, Home sweet freedom, flowing in my mind. Sacrificed her dreams to motherhood, Waiting and waiting to be understood fully. Sacrificed her years to the family, Waiting and waiting to be heard finally. And she said to me, she said to me |
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| 5:06 |
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The autumn leaves drift by my window
The autumn leaves all red and gold I see your lips The summer kisses The sunburned hand I used to hold But since you went away the days grow long and soon now hear a winter song But now I miss you most of all My darling And autumn leaves are starting to fall The autumn leaves drift by my window The autumn leaves all red and gold I'll see your lips The summer kisses The sunburned hands I used to hold But since you went away the days grow long and soon now hear a winter song I miss you most of all My darling When autumn leaves start to fall When autumn... |
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| 4:15 |
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Far away, ot an infinite world I escape I'm clear and calm, I'm unafraid. Sunless days, in my sheltered Milky Way In Saturn's rings I feel no pain. In my heart, in my head Oh, Saturn Girl has always bled No you're not, from this world Saturn Girl. I can't explain, why I don't belong to the same world I don't fit in, and I will not stay. I want to fly, oh I long for my violet skies My astral nights, my peace of mind. Chorus Lost in another world, oh Saturn, Saturn Girl. Saturn Girl, I'd rather be lost in my empyrean world Than be down on earth. Chorus Everybody tries to break my dreams to break through, They don't believe in my words, they don't believe in my world. "Oh you're lost in another world, Oh you're lost you Saturn Girl, oh you crazy girl, Oh you Saturn Girl..." Chorus |
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| 13. |
| 4:23 |
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Long white arms
Losing their strength and form Sixty year man on twenty year old skin Skeleton, your eyes have lost their warmth Look to your father for some support CHORUS: Hush hush hush Says your daddy's touch Sleep sleep sleep Says the hundredth sheep Peace peace peace May you go in peace Cruel joke you waited so long to show The one that you wanted wasn't a girl All your life you kept it hidden inside Now when you step You stumble You die Chorus Oh maybe next time You'll be Henry the 8th Wake up tomorrow, alexander the great Open your eyes in a new life again Oh maybe next time You'll be given a chance Hush hush hush Hush... |
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| 14. |
| 4:37 |
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Pulling on the apron strings looking up
Standing on the chair to be grown up I feel so little, I need my pillow I hate time, I hate the clock I want to be a dog, or I want to be a rock Sunday's pancakes Miss Mary Mack Color Polaroid's show my heart attack In my second hand pants and dusty shoes The day that the playground laughed at my shoes It's my birthday next week and what I want please Is to turn on the heat so the fish won't freeze The fish in the tank froze and died last week Oh I want to be a dog or I want to be a leaf Quarry miners, fishermen In my town of Bethlehem Picket fences, church at ten No star above my Bethlehem Now I'm only 16 and I think I have an ulcer I'm hiding my sex behind a dirty sweatshirt I've lost five pounds these last few days Trying to be class president and get straight A's, well, Who gives a shit about that anyway? I just want to be a dog or a lump of clay (Chorus) Still I'm tired of standing still Tired of living -- still Everyday I dream of leaving Everybody's talking about Becky's bust The boys on the basketball team just fuck The same ten girls, who don't know who they are They're looking for some comfort in the back of a car The six-packs of beer, the locker room jeers I don't want to be me, I don't want to be here (Chorus) Red brick school house, dead end dirtroads, daffodils No star above my Bethlehem I want to be a dog or I want to be a rock I don't want to be me, I don't want to be here in Bethlehem |
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| 5:40 |
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I slip out the backdoor into the night
I can still feel the sun on my bare feet tonight I am waiting to meet you And waiting to see if you feel the same way about me Back in the 70's We were children of freedom Believing we'd make a difference when our time would come And in the darkness When the 4th grade movie played Our fingers touched togethe promising one day...that... Tomorrow I will be yours Tomorrow I will be yours Out on a boat with the bell from the shore and the sun so low (so low or solo??) I think I fell in love with ya When we always tied for first In clothes with holes and shoes too old and covered in dirt Always makin' me laugh Now you're - you're making me cry Your parents made some money and sent you away To a private prep school high...but I slip out the backdoor and into the night To the elm tree we promised we'd meet here tonight I have opened the skin with my grandmothers pin And we vowed under the stars to never forget Midnight Orion is clear in the sky I can feel you come closer to kiss me goodnight Oh please kiss me and hold me and have me again You're the one that I wanted Tomorrow I will be yours (4 times) Out on a boat with the bell from the shore, and the sun so low Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah I slip out the backdoor and into the night All the years now between us dividing our lives I hear that you married in New Orleans And I wonder if you wonder still about me Slip out the backdoor and into the night To the elm tree I go and I laugh at Orion "Cause there in the bark lies our hearts in the tree Side by side Freshly carved Not by me |
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| 4:12 |
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Out on the lawn Labor Day
Popsicle melts down your face Cicadas beat their wings Barbecued chicken and meat When will it snow? When will it snow? Sweat holds the pennies in place I stick fifteen on your face The soles of our feet have been baked I wish I were back in May When will it snow? When will it snow? And God only knows How free I can feel tonight I've longed with the moon Under the water I go I touch the ocean floor The sand in my fingertips The sound in my head Nobody knows what I know Nobody knows what I'm feeling Nobody knows what I feel Nobody knows When will it snow? Concerts are free Sunday night Come hear the songs by seaside Lawnchairs and popcorn and ice Postcards from east oceanside |
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