Shearwater - Winged Life (2004) by Shearwater (보컬) on maniadb.com

There was a hush inside the air
When you were lying on the stairs
Feeling the world had scattered there
Like little feathers on the air

And as the people filed away
The men in suits of black and gray
Each with his hands inside his coat
Each with that hush inside his throat

And this concrete cold
And this cruise control
And the drops of blood in the shaving bowl
Are the lovely things
Bright and hovering
That can pull you up
With a thousand wings
Let me through

They're thinking, "How did we arrive?
Was it by fortune or design?
Or was there something else in mind?
Let there be something else in mind"

I tried to save a girl I truly loved
And didn't quite know how to help her
So now she's sleeping as her parents up above
Cry over things that they can't tell her

And when I did my good deed
I thought I'd feel unbroken gladness
But standing in the street alone
I just felt sinking sadness

Girl, your dad will not us bless
So hang up your veil and dress
Look at me and take one guess
Where this best-intentioned love will lead us

I once felt a feeling fully through
Though I knew I shouldn't feel it
Because to act on it I'd be a person
Who should be slapped into a straitjacket

So every time it comes around
I just let it die inside me
You said, "I only come around
Because I just need you to hide me"

So we knelt in those dead weeds
Sticks and sharp rocks cutting into our knees
And I thought that we would freeze
But there was just too much warm blood in our bodies

I'm not going to make you take the pills
Though you should really think about it
The fire by which we both were almost killed
Glowed so beautiful, don't doubt it

But we have to make a choice now
Can we glow without it?
There's a space I tried to fill
But I'm seeing now I never will
You fly around while I stand still
Until I slowly just get smaller and smaller

I tried to save a girl I truly loved
And I never would desert her
But we both found out that I was dreaming
Of the day I thoroughly could hurt her

And I saw myself inside her eyes
This shrinking would-be savior
Resented her for never needing help
And couldn't wait just to betray her

So we drove back to her place
From the temporary home that we had made
And I stepped back into the street
Feeling the fullest moment of my life
Slowly shrink away from me
With my good deed

Baby, hands in your lap
You touch your wounds so much they'll never heal
I fear you'll turn your back
On just the kind of love you really need

It's just the kind
It's just the kind you need to feel

Baby, I love your laugh
And everything you say is dire and dear
But "Cut the crap, you're still alive"
It's just the kind of thing you really need

It's just the kind
It's just the kind
It's just the kind you need to hear

"It's like a makeover when the filming's over and she doesn't know how to fix it so that it'll stay, and she can't figure out how to tease out her hair that way herself. And when she wakes up all the make-up has rubbed away and she doesn't know how to find her face. It was only for one single day that you looked so beautiful, baby. Now your cheeks have gone pale, and your roots dark gray. And though they nod as they notice you're nice, baby, nobody's noticing twice. Dim the lights as your memory of paradise fades. I'm like an architect who cashed his check, but he doesn't let on that it's the last one he'll get. Though he knows the funds have run dry, he wants to have fun for one final night, staring out at a skyline that he'll never change. They're saying 'though we like all things that you've made, notice no one remembers your name. As you float through time, feel your powers decline day by day.' You're like a convert who goes back to work when he can't retrieve how the clarity actually felt. When his co-workers ask him the words won't come out. And in three weeks his new leaf has rubbed away and it feels just like an average day: facing walls talking into the phone, sitting dumbly in church all alone, picking back up the magazines he'd thrown away. Well, convert, what your god whispered into youl ear you forgot once that god disappeared, and that life-changing day, you just felt it fade. But, you know, it's got to fade. You know it's got to fade," and, falling down on the couch, he says, "it's perfectly that way."

Claire lives up on Saint Mary's walk with her mother
I live down on Philomel by the harbor
And I hate the ocean
And I hate the ocean
And I hate the ocean, oh well

Claire says she'd throw me overboard then that she loves me
And then she kisses me on mouth and says I'm ugly
And I hear the ocean
And I hear the ocean
And I hear the ocean roar

The water pulls around the pier, dark and rusted
And I know the kindest face with a sailor's eyes still can't be trusted
But I feel the ocean
And I feel the ocean
And I feel the ocean swell

When will they remove the tourniquet? Is the operation over yet? Will you calm down, sir, will you calm down? I can hear the generators hum, roaring like an evil stadium. Will you calm down sir, will you calm down? But this frame is collapsing under all of the weight of my self, and this desperate wish that they'd pin it on somebody else. Will you calm down, sir, will you calm down? And this terrible drone is the sound of a thousand machines, singing just to themselves in a language that no one can read.

"When our column advanced, and we saw what we'd done, we were sure that we could never tell the folks back home," said my father to me, I had just turned sixteen, and we were walking from my school to his apartment alone. And he said, "You'd think the world you're in would always remain, but some worlds can just disappear. Some worlds you enter just for seconds at a time, and some last until you're forgiven.

When my mother and me take the drive into town, I can't tell if she's lost in thought or lost where we are. She turns the radio to 92 Star, where Ronnie Milsap sings what he would not have missed it for, and she says, "What do you think you're gonna do with your life?" And I say, "You've got to teach me to drive." She just laughs at that, and musses my hair, and says, "Kid, you're lucky to be alive."

I forgot I was loving you
Disappeared for an hour or two
And I came to on a cold, wood floor
And I didn't feel so good anymore

Now we clasp our hands
And we make demands
That the clouds will say what's wrong with you now

And we had big plans
Now alone we stand
In the crowd and they're not even laughing out loud
They don't care

I'll shut my eyes and let tv
Whisper, laugh and talk to me
And I'll curl up tight inside my head
Killing time 'til the whole day is dead

And I'll clasp my hands
And I'll make demands
That the clouds are asking what's wrong with him now

And I had big plans
Now alone I stand
In the crowd and they're not even laughing out loud
They don't care

God, take that sound away
If you've got something to say
Say it now

It's fake and I need you not to be fake
And don't care how you make me feel
Just so you're real

Once I saw my face in a bathroom mirror
And I didn't know that I was here
But I knew my eyes and I knew my hands
I knew God would now listen to all my demands

And the sky opened up
And God interrupted
The Earth stopped dying and stopped giving birth
And when I came to on the cold, wood floor
Well, I didn't feel so good anymore

And all that sure love
And all their sweet words
I'd forgotten I'd felt and forgotten I'd heard

That was was clear
And is now so blurred and smeared
And your love felt more pure
And your love felt more pure once your voice disappeared

Feel the hooks in my skin
I set every one myself
And if you pull them all taut
I will turn to someone else
Was that what you asked?

Pour the wax in my mouth
And seal the place inside
To build a chamber like that
You must be in bad need, child

Oh, let my body rise
Effortless and light
And burst the seams of night

Took me deep underground
And outside the reach of light
Found it already filled, full of life
Was that what you asked?

Your warm sweater
Your torn letters
They're all that matters
They're all that matters
At the window watching
the elegant traffic
It's all fantastic
It's all fantastic
And when you find these things that make you shine
Don't let them too far outside of your life

The set table
The friend smiling
The bones piling
The smoke hanging
And the soft mention
Deserve attention

So when you find these things that make you shine
Don't let them too far outside of your life
But don't try to hold them too hard Inside your mind when they slide
When they slide
When they slide