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| 1. |
| 7:09 | 
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(Music - D. Ott, E. Platt / Lyrics - T. Leonard)
I guess I knew this day would come When you would finally drop the bomb Conclusion long forgone But that you'd say it with a yawn Thought you'd stop Tempting fate Change your ways Now it's far too late I know it's strange Responding with disdain But when you're gone I'll still feel the pain Constantly you'd roll the dice To find your place in Neverland Mirage that easily enticed You into the sinking sand It wasn't that it could You said it so yourself It was only that it would You play the hand you're dealt You say you harbor no regret That love's a double-edged knife To feel its sting you're desperate To fee it deep you'd trade your life So again you roll the dice To find your place in Neverland Mirage that easily enticed You into the sinking sand It wasn't that it could You said it so yourself It was only that it would You play the hand you're dealt |
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| 2. |
| 7:41 |
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(Music & lyrics: D. Ott)
Hey, what do you want from me? As far as I can see There's really nothing you get for free Hey, are you dense or just unaware When you know the one that's there Could care less if you even breathed There's nothing up my sleeve Yet I'm the one deceived Swallow your pride and choke down the pills Keep it inside and drink to your fill You push it aside, still waiting For your ship to finally come ashore Just one more drop in the downpour to ignore I know there's a heavy cost If compromise isn't tossed Your dreams can be completely lost Still afraid of change And I'm the one to blame Swallow your pride and choke down the pills Keep it inside and drink to your fill You push it aside, still waiting For your ship to finally come ashore Just one more drop in the downpour to ignore You sit and sate out the window Searching for winds of change Meanwhile.the rest of the herd Has much greener grass on their range You hide in a chasm of pride Too proud to dig yourself out Heartache to the point where you break Wake up and scream and shout Hey, what do you believe? In dogma and chemistry Or a psychedelic philosophy? When damaging your soul You pay a heavy toll Swallow your pride and choke down the pills Keep it inside and drink to your fill You push it aside, still waiting For your ship to finally come ashore Just one more drop in the downpour to ignore Still you do nothing about it You're playing tug of war Still you do nothing about it. |
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| 3. |
| 5:45 |
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(Music: D. Ott & E. Platt. Lyrics: T. Leonard)
Hey, neighbor coma and see Another reason to be me.guess I win The finest is all I own Why even my hair's hand sewn.guess I win You've got a home you prize Mine is palatial size. guess I win You drive a new sedan My driver's name is Sam.guess I win You know no prize awaits you You're in a race that no one wins It's empty what you cling to It's like you're trying to hold the wind Check out this mast I got Now all I need is the yacht.then I'm there I've got what you yearn for Now I just need five more.then I'm there No you can't take it with you You'll leave nothing in the end It's empty what you cling to It's like you're trying to hold the wind And in the scope of eternity You're writing checks your soul can't pay You've hung your hope on futility And spent your life away I've got the green to spare Net worth a millionaire.lucky me Just got another toy This one's a horse from Troy.lucky me You know no prize awaits you You're in a race that no one wins It's empty what you cling to It's like you're trying to hold the wind No you can't take it with you You'll leave nothing in the end It's empty what you cling to It's like you're trying to hold the wind |
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| 4. |
| 4:28 |
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(Music & lyrics: D. Ott)
How did we come to this? When did we reach that fork in the road That carried us from our home? Where did we go wrong? How could we lose the words to our song When we were writing it all along? And how could something beautiful Turn into something ugly And change right before our eyes? And how could something wonderful Just fade away and slip into Something that we try to hide from? What we've become; a mere shadow of the lovers we used to be Don't you see? Where do we go from here? Can we reclaim all that we have lost And start all over again? Can we afford the cost? Should we risk the chance of losing it all Or walk away now as friends? And how does something beautiful Just fade into a memory Stored there for a rainy day? And how does something wonderful Get tossed aside or thrown away Like something that is broken or frayed? What a mess we've made Shards of our hearts, they splinter beneath our feet Yet we refuse to retreat So think about tomorrow And forgive all the wrongs of today We should know better than to Let our pride get in the way We can make it better We can save what we have If we try to rise above our faults We can make it beautiful Turn from something ugly And change right before our eyes And we could make it wonderful Just turn our backs on yesterday And focus on the love that we've made 'Cause we have something beautiful It's something that's invaluable, Like waking to a brand new day What we have is wonderful It's sublime, it's magical, divine, it's beautiful |
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| 5. |
| 7:01 |
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(Music: D. Ott. Lyrics: T. Leonard)
You love the righteousness you fell That no soul was lost to make your meal You challenge everyone's ideals But you're sure to let your won congeal Is just say. No one but my kind Has an open mind You're a friend of the just, of course If their agendas are just like yours The only cause you don't endorse Is just say. No one but my kind Has an open mind I question other's sanity While I'm handcuffed to evergreens But if your view opposed mine I'll flip you off and wave a sign How blessed to be adorned The queen of the informed You erupt that free to speak Interrupt when they don't agree The only cause that you don't believe Is just say. No one but my kind Has an open mind Your daddy drowned in tuition fees Your M.B.A. in T.H.C.. Your favorite text through all of that Was 'save a tree' on paperback How blessed to be adorned The queen of the informed If parity is what you need Then maybe it's time you breed And stop imposing what you believe On everyone around You erupt that free to speak Interrupt when they don't agree The only cause that you don't believe Is just say. No one but my kind Has an open mind |
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| 6. |
| 6:58 |
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(Music: D. Ott & B. Jenkins. Lyrics: D. Ott)
Forgot my alarm; I overslept again Had to shave in a hurry, almost cut off my chin Slipped in the bathtub.I think I broke I my neck My car's out of gas, I forgot to check Going nowhere fast What the heck! Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a movie Acting out a story that's not my own There's drama and action - and random acts of tragedy I don't want to be in this starring role I got to work late - my boss chewed me out Called me "irresponsible"; cleaned out my desk Stopped by the hospice said bye to a friend Found out I had cancer, only six months to live What's the joke? I give! Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a movie Acting out a story that's not my own There's drama and action - and random acts of tragedy I don't want to be in this starring role I can't believe it Bad things are always happening to me Serenity; achieve it Maybe it's not as bad as it seems Pulled over for speeding, I wasn't in the mood Got sprayed with mace; had a bad attitude Talked to my wife, she'd understand Said she was leaving, found another man How can this be? I don't understand! Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a movie Acting out a story that's not my own There's drama and action - and random acts of tragedy I don't want to be in this starring role |
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| 7. |
| 4:57 |
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(Music: D. Ott. Lyrics: D. Ott & T. Leonard)
Dark day in paradise Tantalized by my eyes mislead This one you've got to see And her gaze, it is set on me Not like I would push the brink But it sure makes me think Maybe I need a change Otherwise why would my eyes so stray A choice is taunting me And it knocks on my door today Not like any vows were bent Just a glance, it's innocent Long way down Don't you think you're too close to the edge Turn around Some wounds are so deep they'll never mend Take it from me it's never worth the cost Been down that road before And demise is surely where it leads The grass looks emerald green But believe me it's just the weeds Not like I have crossed the line Owed her a lunch and a valentine It's propagation man Don't you know that a guy has needs What separates us then >From those things that are scratching fleas? Am I just a sounding board Were you hoping for accord? Long way down Don't you think you're too close to the edge Turn around Some wounds are so deep they'll never mend Take it from me, it's never worth the cost I just cringe thinking what I could have lost It seems you're looking for Consent to do the same Where's you're memory Don't you remember me The weight of agony that crushed me flat Are you impervious or just too curious? Don't you remember what it did to the cat? Guess what I did today Now I fear there's no turning back Next time you need advice Check the zodiac Not like I didn't warn Buckle up, enjoy the storm Long way down Don't you think you're too close to the edge Turn around Some wounds are so deep they'll never mend What's it going to be, what's it going to be my friend |
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| 8. |
| 5:52 |
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(Music & lyrics: T. Leonard)
Heard enough for today Guess I'll turn and walk away A leaf that's turned golden brown The slightest breeze will bring me down In safety mode system overload My soul is moved with just disdain But it's not my job to bring a change Is it all by design Or have we gone astray Didn't we miss a sign 'Cause this can't be the way Cynicism's a disease No one's got it worse than me Even if I raise my voice It's just gets lost in all the noise Are we over the line Or was it ever there Maybe I should resign To convince myself to care Can you feel (Or are you paralyzed?) Can it heal (Or will it spread to our eyes?) Are we blind (Or do we choose each day) To see no evil (To look the other way?) A generation born to bleed On the jagged edge of apathy And to stand aside and criticize Is the extent of my expertise After all that we've seen You'd think we'd want turnaround Instead we take each brush with fate And use it to paint the town Can you feel (Or are you paralyzed?) Can it heal (Or will it spread to our eyes?) Are we blind (Or do we choose each day) To see no evil (To look the other way?) |
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| 6:46 | 
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| 10. |
| 8:50 |
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[Music & lyrics - D. Ott]
A face with no emotion Lost in the television's glow He's slipping into darkness Not far from comatose With a bottle in his left hand A cigarette in his right He's drowning out the echo Of voices in the night Through the conversation The old me drifts away Hiding from the moment I long for yesterday I hear your voice so distant Calling out my name If only I could answer If we were still the samea| Oh, but we've changed So what am I supposed to do And what am I to say? I feel a bit more paralyzed With every word you say And what about the change you want How can I succumb? When everything you want to do Leaves me awfully numb Awfully numb Stay for a moment Stay for while Join in on this masquerade Filled with regret and denial We are kindred spirits, Though parallel lines Running off in different directions Never to entwine No way to rewind We can't turn back time So we avoid the subject Our communication strained Sheltered in the small talk We wait for the other to change But the song remains the samea| So what am I supposed to do And what am I to say? I feel a bit more paralyzed With every word you say And what about the change you want How can I succumb When everything you want to do Leaves me awfully numb Awfully numb A face with no emotion Lost in the television's glow He's slipping into darkness Not far from comatose |
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| 11. |
| 6:28 |
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You won't hear me laugh,you won't hear me cry
You won't even hear what I'm thinking I can't even speak ,I'm too weak to try Surprised I'm even still breathing Like winter's icy touch ,I'm... Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below My being is numb,but I strain to fell A heart that's become black and rotten You don't care to look,you don't care to see This man that love has forgotten Asking for nothing ,yet wanting so much Longing for one thing, the warmth of a touch I'm... Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero I can't seem to move, I can't seem to think I'm not sure my heart is still beating As life from me ,flows, my spirit will go And haunt this world that I'm leaving Offering nothing yet taking so much Regretting not sharing the warmth of a touch If I could just do it all again,I'd change my ways and would not be so Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero [Music and Lyrics: D.Ott] |
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