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| 2. |
| 7:14 | 
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I run my desperate trembling hands
Along the floor were you once walked Fighting tears that come from loss I brave the rooms where we once talked You took a part of me I never can reclaim Your spirit's in my heart But you know it's not the same Straining to beat this blur of tears Swollen eyes beg for my dead friend Reminiscing with a photograph Drives home (that) what was won't be again I will to guarantee my reason will prevail Pain breeds the need for make believe To soothe a heart that's fail Like a wind-up clock left in the rain Like a candle burns away its light We all suffer at death's door As surely as day turns into night I drop down to my knees and plead with the sky Of course it does no good But i'll give anything a try Gazing,thinking,standing on a cliff That guards the blue-green of the sea I accept the blueprint of the world,that All must pass away that's come to be You meant so much to me That's why there's all this pain So much improved from our exchange It will never be same Like a wind-up clock left in the rain Like a candle burns away its light We all suffer at death's door As surely as day turns into night Like a wind-up clock left in the rain Like a candle burns away its light We all suffer at death's door We all suffer loss... As surely day changes into night (Music: B.Cline, P.Craddick) (Lyrics: P.Craddick) |
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| 3. |
| 7:46 |
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(Music - D. Ott, E. Platt / Lyrics - T. Leonard)
I guess I knew this day would come When you would finally drop the bomb Conclusion long forgone But that you'd say it with a yawn Thought you'd stop Tempting fate Change your ways Now it's far too late I know it's strange Responding with disdain But when you're gone I'll still feel the pain Constantly you'd roll the dice To find your place in Neverland Mirage that easily enticed You into the sinking sand It wasn't that it could You said it so yourself It was only that it would You play the hand you're dealt You say you harbor no regret That love's a double-edged knife To feel its sting you're desperate To fee it deep you'd trade your life So again you roll the dice To find your place in Neverland Mirage that easily enticed You into the sinking sand It wasn't that it could You said it so yourself It was only that it would You play the hand you're dealt |
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| 4. |
| 6:11 |
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I'm under fire blood red sky
Underneath the war machine Fight for what's right don't ask why Just make the sacrifice Desensitized but my eyes Still recognize the pain Truth stark and real fight or die Retreat has no place in this game In the dark and under fire Believing our cause was justified Caught in the crosshairs condition dire Trying a case of do or die In the blink of an eye I took someone's life It's no wonder why I'm haunted by it still Bright Flickering light snubbed by my numbing hands Don't understand One finger slip and it's over for him All's fair in war so they say But later as I try to sleep I just can't help but replay When I sat in as deity Was this man a loving father? Was this man an only son? Though it was one of us or the other I don't feel like the lucky one In the blink of an eye I took someone's life It's no wonder why I'm haunted every night I still hear his cries And think about his wife and his kids And all that he could have been If only we'd have been friends In a blink of an eye: |
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| 5. |
| 5:46 |
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[Music: D. Ott. Lyrics: P. Craddick]
Beyond the broken waves, she walked the shore Thoughts diving down the ocean-floor... 'The ocean flows like life: just like life... Hope is not a thing that she inclines to take into confidence For another disappointment, there can be no recompense Like the vastness of the world, bad luck does not make sense Yet, in this disappointment, the sea can give her sustenance She cast her worries into the tidal pools The wishing wells for lovers and fools 'The ocean flows like life: just like life... Hope is not a thing that she inclines to take into confidence For another disappointment, there can be no recompense Like the vastness of the world, bad luck does not make sense Yet, in this disappointment, the sea can give her sustenance Paint another picture of the world Sketch another image of yourself Re-arrange all the contours and the lines |
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| 6. |
| 6:45 |
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| 7. |
| 7:04 |
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When I spoke with you today
I didn't know what to say It's been so long, so long I said I'm doing fine But what haunts my troubled mind Is where it all went wrong, so wrong I did not suspect That we would not connect And end up strangers I could dance with you all night Make love by candlelight We could talk and talk but it's all in spite Because you'll never be my friend I could walk with you through the rain We could share each other's pain We could do all this but it's all in vain Because you'll never be my friend As time goes flying by I have to wonder why I don't see you anymore They call it chemistry What will or will not be What's missing between you and me [Chorus] When I spoke with you today I didn't know what to say Maybe so long, so long If you chance on me some night Underneath some lone streetlight Just wave and say, "so long, so long" I do not regret The chance I shan't forget And we're no longer strangers You could dance with me all night Make love by candlelight We could talk and talk but it's all in spite Because I'll never be your friend You could walk with me through the rain We could share each other's pain We could do all this but it's all in vain Because I'll never be your friend Never be my friend,my friend You wouldn't be my friend And I couldn't be your friend So long,so long... [Music and Lyrics: D.Ott] |
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| 8. |
| 7:58 |
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I'm not alone
There are millions who are just like me Is our life our own Or are we breed to think everything's fine? Just another ant in the line I don't want to be One more calf who's suckling the cash cow Dressed like a corporate freak Begging the clock to give me the chance to be me A few moments just to be free Swallow the lie just to get by but I'm sick of this bag of feed Try to hide but it feels like you're caught in a landslide When dreams die you can chalk it all up to the Monday Blame it all on Monday Friday feels all right: you think you got all night Saturday is great but then it gets to late When Sunday comes around It brings you right back down dreading Monday And all of what used to define you Serves only just to remind you Of the man you'd hoped to be I can't believe I'm on the clock and wearing a monkey suit Where is my dream? You know the one where I'm up on a stage I guess I'm missing that page Take a quick look, glance through the book before I'm put back in my cage Shed your skin the transformation begins Chalk outline and the finger points to a Monday The only suspect is Monday And all of what used to defined you Serves only just to remind you Of the man you'll never be I'm not alone mindless masses trapped just like me Busy little drones day in day out we're all pawns for the queen I guess it's how it will be Chained to my desk just like the rest who have surrendered their dreams |
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| 9. |
| 6:54 |
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| 1. |
| 6:39 |
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There's a man who is lonely
This could change if he'd only Take a chance and risk stepping outside himself There's a girl he's been seeing From afar he's been dreaming he could have her if he were someone else So he silently awaits A major change in fate A change that comes too late And you're reaching for a star But can you reach that far Standing where you are? The wanting was too much You're longing for her touch It's not within your clutch There's a man who's been thinking To himself he's been dreaming How to build a skyscraper to the stars Now he starts to go to it He's so sure he cand do it Though he's lacking the knowledge of design Now his dream comes crashing around him And tumbles to the sea Along with all he wanted to be A realization strikes him A harsh reality He doesn't know everything When the student tries to teach The knowledge that you seek Lies just outside your reach There's a thirst you have to learn A hunger inside burns Time for the page to turn It's the wanting,It's the hoping,It's the longing There's a flame within your soul To strive to reach your goal But dreaming takes its toll It's nature's own device To grab and roll the dice But each toss has its price Emotions starts to flow Your heart takes control And steers you down the road Your destination is no concern The impulsive never learn Just another bridge to burn It's the wanting,It's the hoping,It's the longing... [Music and Lyrics: D.Ott] |
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| 2. |
| 6:50 |
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(Music & lyrics: D. Ott)
So you think you've got me figured out Studied every detail now you know me inside and out But do you see me as I am or as you want me to be Do you Color me - change the black from white Color me - use any hue you like Paint the picture but stay within the lines Escape your oppressor - trangress your transgressor Turn it upside down Why blame me when you don't get your way The glass house where you live is just a stones throw away It's easy to point the finger and look away from yourself So you Color me - change the black from white Color me - use any hue you like Paint the picture but stay within the lines Escape your oppressor - trangress your transgressor Turn it upside down Your masterpiece complete; but you left out one formality You can paint till fingers bleed but you'll never change reality How does it feel to sculpt the world, to your plan? Draw me the villain if you don't get your demands Now your out in the rain and the colors are washing away Still you Color me - change the black from white Color me - use any hue you like Paint the picture but stay within the lines Escape your oppressor - trangress your transgressor Turn it upside down |
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| 3. |
| 7:40 |
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All I see, fruits of my own labor
All in vain, all for nothing real All I taste, disappoints in flavor What I know is fighting what I feel This is no time to be distracted Time lost can never be regained Don't let yourself become attracted This need has got to be restrained Where is the treasure? I know there is one I've looked everywhere under the sun I'll search, and I'll fail, and be dead when I'm done But I've looked everywhere under the sun All I've seen seems to lack in color All I've held crumbles in my hands Desperately needing something that will Fill this whole ... seems like nothing can It's time you find out what's important This futile chase has got to end Don't let your conscience lie there dormant The truth can break but never bend Where is the treasure? I know there is one I've looked everywhere under the sun I'll search, and I'll fail, and be dead when I'm done But I've looked everywhere under the sun I've spent my life searching for something to keep me constantly content And now I'm left here with a longing for what I've spent! This is no time to be distracted Time lost can never be regained Don't let yourself become attracted And live your life only to gain Where is the treasure? I know there is one I've looked everywhere under the sun And I'll search, and I'll fail, and be dead when I'm done But I've looked everywhere under the sun All I see Fruits of my own labor |
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| 4. |
| 4:57 |
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[Music: P. Craddick & D. Ott. Lyrics: T. Leonard]
The look in her eyes as if to say she fears nothing All knowing smile as if nothing has changed She thinks I'm asleep while at night she goes on trembling She thinks I don't know how her life's been rearranged Can't move my arms, can't move my legs Can barely move my eyes To take in the last view I'll ever see It's on the stand beside my bed a picture of my son It's constantly staring back at me Want to tell him that I swear that if I can I'll be there Watching over him and every step he takes How do I say soon comes the day when I must go away What would adhear to a seven-year-old ear? Words that would make it clear I hope that you don't forget me Don't let my memory fade It's my greatest fear My back is numb, my feet are cold I fear that it's only a matter of time now There's just one thing I've got to muster the strenght to say Know that my love is forever Know that and try to remember Don't let my memory fade... |
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| 5. |
| 6:51 |
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(Music - M. Geimer / Lyrics - T. Leonard)
So safe within this cozy little cell No risk at all throwing coins into a well I lust for gold, but shutter at the price Reward I want, but not the sacrifice And the target's well with in my sights But my hands won't release the bow I've been pulling back on it so long I've forgotten how to let it go And I know I have the means But my will is gone And I fear I won't succeed so I'm holding on A life passes by, I watch passively I'm haunted by time, my enemy I fear that I'm bound, I fear that I'm free And haunted by time, my enemy I'm frozen by the fast approaching night A dear that stares into oncoming light It's time for me to come down from the fence But either side invites a consequence Waiting for the door to open wide Waiting for the stones to find their place The price it never seems to leave my hands Intentions never help me in the race And I know I have the means But my will is gone And I fear I won't succeed so I'm holding on A life passes by, I watch passively I'm haunted by time, my enemy I fear that I'm bound, I fear that I'm free And haunted by time, my enemy So I'm safe within my cozy little shell No risk at all, just wishing to myself The price of gold, more than I care to spend But the cost of life is to chance the consequence And the target's well with in my sights But my hands won't release the bow I've been pulling back on it so long I've forgotten how to let it go And I know I have the means But my will is gone And I fear I won't succeed so I'm holding on A life passes by, I watch passively I'm haunted by time, my enemy I fear that I'm bound, I fear that I'm free And haunted by time, my enemy |
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| 6:05 |
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I'll lead the way, let's follow the sun
Be on our way envied by everyone Our bags are all packed, a breeze starts to blow, the winds at our back, are you ready to go? I'll lead the way, let's follow the sun Oh, the last time we traveled we labored so hard but drifted so far from home Yeah, the search is our battle, can we ever find what we want... Let's take a chance and follow the sun Dare to dance, the music has just begun Step after step, cleansing our souls, cathartic release, making us whole Let's take a chance and follow the sun Oh, the last time we traveled we labored so hard but drifted so far from home Yeah, the search is our battle though we stumble and fall, it's only a bump in the road Oh, the more time unravels, the older we are but the less we seem to know Our resolve is rattled You would think we'd know better by now... |
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| 4:48 |
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[Music & lyrics - D. Ott]
Some say it's better off this way, now it's over You say the future's looking grey, if it's over: Yeah, there's sorrow as we break -- but it's over Yeah, we've had all we could take -- so it's over Stow away memories of yesterday, to think over Run away, the truth you can't betray, or pushover: Yeah, there's silence as we break --- cause it's over Yeah, you've made your last mistake --- so it's over Words:they hurt, fingers point blame Look to yourself and do the same Painful thing to admit This puzzle piece just won't fit But we tried, and we pushed so hard 'til something had to give Still we cried, and I screamed so loud I'm sure you had to hear Now my fingers bleed and I need some relief Because my back:it breaks So I let you down before you fall but still my heart:it aches Judgement day: the good and bad we weigh, and look over Cast away your negative display, and start over: Yeah, there's silence as we break --- cause it's over Yeah, you've made your last mistake --- so it's over Yeah, there's sorrow as we break -- but it's over Yeah, we've had all we could take -- so it's over |
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| 6:21 |
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I was set loose as a child
To find my way out in the wild Feel asleep inside a cage And woke up in the middle age I felt like I was living a lie And had to escape it all With mortal fears I shaved off the years And went from a walk to a crawl I know I'm reaping what I sown But I never thought I'd die alone I guess I signed up for this fate By sowing the seeds of hate And when I finally shook the phase I was lost and miles away Got to hard to turn around I'd left no bread crumbs on the ground I felt like I should have apologized But that was so overdue And by your eyes, knew I was despised I guess I was afraid of you I know I'm reaping what I've sown But I never thought I'd die alone I guess I signed up for this fate By sowing the seeds of hate So please believe this will that you read That I thought of you everyday I grant to you my hollow legacy Please don't live your life this way I know I'm reaping what I've sown But I never thought I'd die alone I guess I signed up for this fate By sowing the seeds of hate |
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| 9. |
| 8:58 |
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[Music & lyrics - D. Ott]
A face with no emotion Lost in the television's glow He's slipping into darkness Not far from comatose With a bottle in his left hand A cigarette in his right He's drowning out the echo Of voices in the night Through the conversation The old me drifts away Hiding from the moment I long for yesterday I hear your voice so distant Calling out my name If only I could answer If we were still the samea| Oh, but we've changed So what am I supposed to do And what am I to say? I feel a bit more paralyzed With every word you say And what about the change you want How can I succumb? When everything you want to do Leaves me awfully numb Awfully numb Stay for a moment Stay for while Join in on this masquerade Filled with regret and denial We are kindred spirits, Though parallel lines Running off in different directions Never to entwine No way to rewind We can't turn back time So we avoid the subject Our communication strained Sheltered in the small talk We wait for the other to change But the song remains the samea| So what am I supposed to do And what am I to say? I feel a bit more paralyzed With every word you say And what about the change you want How can I succumb When everything you want to do Leaves me awfully numb Awfully numb A face with no emotion Lost in the television's glow He's slipping into darkness Not far from comatose |
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| 4:44 |
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| 11. |
| 5:12 |
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(Music: P. Craddick & D. Ott. Lyrics: D. Ott)
The gray light of the morning, the blue-green of the sea A leaf splashed with color, falling from a tree The sparkle in a diamond, the fire of the sun They all seemed much brighter, am I the only one To see them slowly slip away Something changes a little, day by day Gazing at a rainbow, a brilliant vast array Staggered by it's beauty, saddened by it's modest stay Taken all for granted or innocence betrayed A lesson in mortality, eventually, every color fades The blush of a woman, the wamth of a touch The novelty of love, feelings within my clutch I try to savor but it doesn't taste the same Senses numbed and jaded a little day by day Gazing at a rainbow, a brilliant vast array Staggered by it's beauty, saddened by it's modest stay Taken all for granted or innocence betrayed A lesson in mortality, eventually, every color... ...fades away slowly but surely as if it were the setting sun A child comes of age, gains life experience Time gathers innocence and trades it in for wisdom Like walking through the snow its purity is stained Like a shooting star across the sky never meant to remain... Gazing at a rainbow, a brilliant vast array Staggered by it's beauty, saddened by it's modest stay Taken all for granted or innocence betrayed A lesson in mortality, eventually, every color fades |
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| 7:33 |
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I look into a sea of blue in your eyes
And see a full and swollen moon Resplendent in a stormy sky I look through your gaze, its source is pure and uncorrupted And see a wilderness of dunes, untouched,uninterrupted Pessimis protects me Limp hope won't let me down Still i lust for the pure It unties the knots and turns me around I swear,I won't unravel this time... I banish "too good to be true" from my mind I'm steeled in my resolve by this gem I never thought I'd find The echoes of your laughter fall upon me,like the calming rain They intimate a surreal world,smooth-surfaced and free of stain Pessimis protects me Limp hope won't let me down Still i lust for the pure It unties the knots and turns me around I swear,I won't unravel this time... Your gaze's source is uncorrupted...Pure Dunes untouched,uninterrupted...Pure I'm steeled in my resolve by this gem I never thought I'd find Echoes of your laughter falling down on me Like the calming rain... Pessimis protects me Limp hope won't let me down Still i lust for the pure It unties the knots and turns me around I swear,I won't unravel this time... [Music: P.Craddick,D.Ott] [Lyrics: P.Craddick] |
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| 6:32 |
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You won't hear me laugh,you won't hear me cry
You won't even hear what I'm thinking I can't even speak ,I'm too weak to try Surprised I'm even still breathing Like winter's icy touch ,I'm... Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below My being is numb,but I strain to fell A heart that's become black and rotten You don't care to look,you don't care to see This man that love has forgotten Asking for nothing ,yet wanting so much Longing for one thing, the warmth of a touch I'm... Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero I can't seem to move, I can't seem to think I'm not sure my heart is still beating As life from me ,flows, my spirit will go And haunt this world that I'm leaving Offering nothing yet taking so much Regretting not sharing the warmth of a touch If I could just do it all again,I'd change my ways and would not be so Cold,so cold,I shiver and shake chilled,to the bone Cold,so cold, I've made my bed with a blanket of snow Cold,so cold,from the surface of skin, to the depths of my soul Cold,so cold,my temperature feels one hundred below,below zero [Music and Lyrics: D.Ott] |
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| 9:13 |
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My destination is unknown
And i've lost my way But I still have water With my rations running low I am so fatigued Can I go much further? Lost and all alone In the blazing heat And it just gets hotter Sweat drips down my skin And string my eyes As I look toward the distance Blistered hands block the sun That blinds my sight And dances on the horizon Is there something up ahead? Or just a mirage Fooling me again Another dried up waterhole Lacking nourishment Quench my thirst and feed my mind The place that I seek is so far away And I don't know which way to go The vision I see is a holy place That is tranquil to the soul Just a nomad sailling across this earthly sea Searching on and on for sanctuary Weary from the chase of life's eluding dream Strive to reach that goal but it's never ending Raise my canteen to parched lips Taste the water so sweet Take one last swallow So many miles I have come So many more to go Down the path I follow Funny how we lose our way Through this desolate land Lives are grains of sand Which way will the wind blow? Sifting through our hands To fall wherever they may The place that I seek is so far away And I don't know which way to go The vision I see is a holy place That is tranquil to the soul (Music: D.Ott,P.Craddick) (Lyrics: D.Ott) |
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