Staind - Chapter V (2005) by Staind (보컬) on maniadb.com

I'm still scared
Afraid of failing
Anticipating
The ride to end
Before the wheels begin to move

Run away
So I can hide
Run away
I've mastered feeling nothing
Run Away
I'm dead inside
Run away
Why don't I care

Waste my time
Commiserating
self medicating
It's my design
Although I know you don't approve

Run away
So I can hide
Run away
I've mastered feeling nothing
Run Away
I'm dead inside
Run away
Why don't I care

The truth
Is that I’m not so good
At showing how I feel
Or keeping my mouth shut
When there's something to conceal
Or knowing how to love
Love's not in my memories
How can I rise above
All my insecurities

Run away
So I can hide
Run away
I've mastered feeling nothing
Run Away
I'm dead inside
Run away
Why don't I care
Run away
I fight the tide
Run Away
The ebb and flow consuming
Run away
Still by my side
Run Away why should you care

I know I've been mistaken,
but just give me a break and see the changes that I've made.
I've got some imperfections,
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face?

[Chorus]
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending, it's as much as I can take.
And you're so independent, you just refuse to bend
So I keep bending 'till I break

[Chorus]
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment, I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me?
I don't want to relive all the mistakes
I've made along the way...

But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
to keep you right here waiting

[Chorus - Altered]
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away,
would you be right here waiting?

Searching for the things to say
to keep me right here wating

You take this all for granted
All the things they choose to feed you
By keeping you distracted
Just long enough to bleed you...dry

A reason for your anger
It's what I need
It's what I need
To recognize the truth
It's what I need
It's what I need
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need
It's what I need
And own the things you do
It's what I need
It's what I need

Question what they sell you
All the lies that they are teaching
And they've made a corporation
Out of desperate people's feelings...of fear

A reason for your anger
It's what I need
It's what I need
To recognize the truth
It's what I need
It's what I need
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need
It's what I need
And own the things you do
It's what I need
It's what I need

Somebody chose these words for you
Interpretations of the truth
Somewhere behind your fear they hide
To fill the holes inside

A reason for your anger
It's what I need
It's what I need
To recognize the truth
It's what I need
It's what I need
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need
It's what I need
And own the things you do
It's what I need
It's what I need....x2

Are you afraid
Afraid of the truth
In mirror staring back at you
The image is cracked
But so is the view here
And the strength of a tree
Begins in the roots
That I tend to bury into you
At least now the storm
Can't blow me away

So crawl inside
My head with me
I'll show you how
It feels to be
To blame like me

Should I be afraid
Of this face that I see
In the mirror staring back at me
So cold were the days
When I listened to you
And you say that I'm weak
So show me the proof
Because I still exist inspite of you
But I won't compete
With you every day

So crawl inside
My head with me
I'll show you how
It feels to be
To blame like me

Schizophrenic conversations that I'm always having with myself
I hear these
Voices in my head competing, maybe I could use a little help
I still have
Schizophrenic conversations when there's no one else around to hear
I long for
Solitude and peace within me, void of all the anger and the fear

So crawl inside
My head with me
And I'll show you how it feels to be
Fucked up like me
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
Ashamed like me

You
In your shell
Are you waiting for someone to rescue you
From yourself
Don't be disappointed when no one comes
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem
You
All alone
Are you waiting for someone to make you whole?
Can't you see?
Aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine?
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem
I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem
Falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find a way out
Then you've solved the problem
You've solved your problem

Twisting
Turning
Crashing
Burning
All this
Just to
Break me
Down

You dont know me
You dont see me
You dont own me cause I don't care
But I'm still here
Patiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear

Faceless
Faking
Pushing
Taking
All this
Just to
Bring me
Down

You dont know me
You dont see me
You dont own me cause I don't care
But I'm still here
Patiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear

You don't know me
You don't own me 'cause I'm aware
And I'm still here
Patiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear
I'm still here
Reluctantly waiting for you to interfere
This is my cross to bear

She sits alone again and tries her best not to pretend
that all she used to live
for was the love that wasn’t there
And every time she needs to do the things
that she believes will fill the void inside of her
cuz he was never there

And she says,
‘I swear I’m not the devil
though you think I am.
I swear I’m not the devil.’
And she says,
‘I swear I’m not the devil
Though you think I am.
I swear I’m not the devil.’

He tries to sleep again and wonders
when the pain will end the cuts they may run deeper
than his cracking outer shell
He looks with tired eyes at all the people hypnotized
and wonders what can save him
from a self-created hell

And he says,
‘I swear I’m not the devil
though you think I am.
I swear I’m not the devil.’
And he says,
‘I swear I’m not the devil
Though you think I am.
I swear I’m not the devil.’

I always fail to see the little things in front of me
the things that mean so much to you,
a way to let you know
That I appreciate the way you always tolerate
but sometimes when I medicate frustration in you
shows me how you feel

But I swear I’m not the devil
Though you think I am
I swear I’m not the devil
And I scream
I swear I’m not the devil
Though you think I am
I swear I’m not the devil

Can't you see that I'm sick of this?
Chances are you're oblivious
To how I feel
Sitting on your throne
And I'm sure that I'm not alone
Not alone
Not alone

Tell me please
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please
I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you
So please

I didn't think that you'd sell me out
Now I know what you're all about
You might feel in control of things
But you're not holding all the strings
All the strings
All the strings

Tell me please
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please
I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't matter to you

I swallowed all your answers
I've swallowed all my pride
You've used up all your chances
Can't keep this all inside

Tell me please
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please
I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you
So please
Don't keep telling me that it's okay
I don't buy all the shit that you say
And quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it
So please
If I cut off this nose from my face
Then I wouldn't feel so out of place
But it still wouldn't be quite enough for you
So please

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day

But everything changes
If I could
Turn back the years
If you could
Learn to forgive me
Then I could
Learn how to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word

If you just walked away
What could I really say?
And would it matter anyway?
It wouldn't change how you feel

can't believe
How far I've come
Now watch me stumble
And come undone
If you take away
These memories
Then all that's left
Is just me
'Cause I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me
I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this
Anymore
So you choose
To break my heart
Should have seen this
From the start
I'm haunted by
Your apathy
All that's left
Is killing me
'Cause I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me
I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this
Anymore
Do you believe
That the way you choose to be
I've always had to see
The brighter side of this so I don't lose my faith
Now the sun has gone away
It's getting colder every day
So before I freeze to death
There's something I should say
I don't want this
And I don't need this
And I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me
I can't shake this
And I can't fake this
And I won't take this
Though you say you understand
You still won't face this
Can't erase this
I won't embrace this
Anymore

You
I trusted your intentions, a trust you took advantage of
Now you
Are sitting in the hole that you dug around yourself

You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses

Is she
Your partner in deception
or caught inside the web you’ve spun?
Did you
Forget that you were family, the damage you have done

You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses

I trusted you
I trusted in you

This time
You're gonna get it
All the things you've done coming back to you
This time
You're gonna feel it
You're conscience slowly suffocating you
In time
You will regret it
Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you
Life will find a way to bring this karma to you

You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses

Everything must come full circle
It kills me that I feel this hurtful
I wonder what your children think of you
The king of all excuses

I have seen
Too many sad eyes look at me
The eyes that set me free
All the places that I've been

Thank you for
The letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for
The times you chose to stand out in the rain
And wait
For me
For me

Your words
Your words help me to see
A little honesty
In a world that doesn't share
And your eyes
Tell the story of your pain
Severity of your disdain
In a world that doesn't care

So thank you for
The letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for
The times you chose to stand out in the rain
And wait

You
You understand my pain
From this I gather strength
In that we are the same

So thank you for
The letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for
The times you chose to stand out in the rain
And wait
The life I live would never be the same
Without you here
You here
You here
Without you here