Anathema

Stately columns standing in solemn rows
Such empty honours are suitable for those
Whose death erases all renown and fame
And vanquishes their glory with their name

Wandering aimlessly through dead filled fields
Rewards are just, who knows what absence yields?

By the golden beauty of dusk
and the sun low in our sky
By the haunting shadows of trees
and graves, mesmerized am I.

Searching deep inside trying to reach my dreams
I see a face stare back at me... oh, so serene.

By the golden beauty of dusk
and the sun low in our sky
By the haunting shadows of trees
and graves, mesmerized am I.

Those whispering shades... sad, silent glades

But not for those whose superior worth
After death extols them to the earth
I would even venture to assume
That one need not build for them a tomb
By human art, since glory heaven sent
Serves them as a living monument

Pain is a far away land,
Misery, a lifetime's journey...
...and I lust for death (judgement).

As a shadow is cast overhead
I rejoice in the coming of the gloom
Lifting my eyes to view what, to me, is beauty
I decipher what is read in the cloud
The verse is shouting out and ringing in my ears
The claps of thunder, scared? No, me I revere
in the enchantment of mother nature
Her caress it soothes and brings me joy

Kneeling in the rainfall
Wind's whispers beckoning
Inhaling the sweet scent
Elation is overwhelming
The way is dim, but somehow I find it

One by one the victims of life are dwindling
Me, take me... grief no more if death will save me

Take me, save me, show me salvation
Lead me... a sacred path, reinstate creation

Show me joy, grief, pride
and show me your envy

The way is dim but somehow I find it.

Somniferous whisperings of scarlet fields
Sleep calling me and my dreams are wondrous
My reality abandoned (I traverse afar)
Not a care if I never wake

I cry a tear of hate but it is lost in helplessness.
The darkness eats away at the very embers of my soul
For the deepest love I have has dissolved before my eyes.
My sorrow is bleak, I beg for deliverance.

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer.

All emotion is consumed by an inner silence.
All grief is unassuaged by disconsolate tears.
I want for nothing, I live for nothing.
I am waiting to die, but I am afraid dying.

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer.

Crestfallen emotion.
Wallowing in guilt trying
and drowning forevermore.

Falling deeper into fear.
My inner self is now
a sleeper of stone.

All tears, restrained for years
Their grief is confined
Which destroys my mind

An ode to their plight is this dirge
Some yearn for lugubrious silence
Serenity in the image of the coffins

Shall life renew these bodies of a truth?
All death will he annul, all tears assuage?
Fill the void veins of life, again with youth
And wash with an immortal water, age
They die.

There is a whole mountain
And a river runs through it
If you split my mountain wide
You would find many rivers

Among flocks of non-white doves
And non-temptable mortals
The kingdom is much more real
And the beauty is endless

Only when tightened beyond recall
Is your necklace a blessing
Leave your pearls in the sea
You undeserved bitch
You are not worthy of such a treasure

My hand on your heart, I know there is a beating
In this oh so bleak landscape
There are many mountains
.........but not so much water.

My Kingdom

Be smothered in life
Listen, listen, listen
The written word will devour you
And burn your mind
I'm burning your mind
I am entering your soul
My promise to love and caress you
Mirrors destiny and breathes the universe

Before tomb ........
(regression)

Taste me
Let the angels wings close


And shield you
I bleed for you

In the shadows and the recesses
You'll find dark
Yearn (me)
]from the dark all is revealed
Light sheds through

Bleed with me
We will share the light and dark
Together and more

My life's minds plagued by lyssophobia
In a cage solitude locks me in
As the dar blackened walls close in on me
Dementia strikes, there's no turning back

Drowning in the stygian sea
As those voices repeat to me my malediction
Memento Mori
Remember you must die

A gratuitous wraith of violence
Blots out the light of my mind
For on this night someone must pay
For the cost of my life

For me to escape the curse of perdition
This poor, weaker being must receive pain
As you wince at the actions of my sadist ways
And cry at the throes of your moribund state

A Daemon issues your last rites
Pater Noster Upto In Terra
I break, I twist, I burn, I destroy
Memento Mori

As the candle of life, that burned in your heart
Is doused by the grip of death's hand
Asmodeus, the spirit of lust
Bears his necrophile ways
For the wishes of the demon in black
My largesse in life should be immortality
Dislike the weak, mortal humans

But in life there's always death
A multitude are born to be damned
His perdisized body will burn forever
In the scorching flames of Gehenna.

Feel my heart burning
Deep inside yearning
I know it is coming

A fettered heart, waking...
A tainted youth, fading...
Leave it all behind
Delirious again
Mesmerise my senses
Our souls entwine one more time

All our times will come
Certain oblivion
Leaving nothing but the memories of
All the things you give
They're all you'll leave behind

Open laughter held in distant days
(how those) Eternal stars have changed
I know that it can't be the same
But there is no lament for you tonight

Feel my heart burning
Deep inside yearning
I know it is coming

And time recedes every day
You can search your soul but you won't see
As we pass ever on and away
Toward some blank infinity

Is it the emptiest of
All your broken hearted feelings?
A serious misconception
To chose a path that led to ruin.

I live for today
Can't get away from the burning inside.
Ashes to ash.
Dust to dust.

So quick to point the finger
When you're the source of your condition.
Why should I feel sympathy
When you only show me nothing?

I live for today.
Can't get away from the burning inside.
Ashes to ash.
Dust to dust.

I could stare for a thousand years.
Penetrate your deepest fears.
Leave you cold with a faceless embrace
Then disappear without a trace!

I live for today
Can't get away from the burning inside.
Ashes to ash.
Dust to dust.

Hey you, rotting in your alcoholic shell
Banging on the walls of your intoxicated mind.
Do you ever wonder why you are left alone?
As your heart grew colder
And finally turned to stone.

Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Do you ever dream of escaping?
Don't you ever dream of escaping?

Pathetic oblivion.
Forgotten hopes buried in your soul's lonely grave.
Pathetic oblivion.
Remember how you were before you locked your heart away.

Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Do you ever dream of escaping?
Don't you ever dream of escaping?

I know that I want you
I know that I need you
But I can't pretend that
This'll make it right

You whisper your name
But I can't hear you
Don't leave me behind
Lend me your hand

I can feel them
I think they're closing in
Don't leave me behind
Lend me your hand

Let me feel you
By my side
Be where I can hear you
I long to feel

How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent, peaceful night
You took my heart away and my being

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a silent, peaceful night
You took my heart away
Oh I wish, I wish you could have stayed

I feel I know you
I don't know how
I don't know why
I see you feel for me
You cried with me
You would die for me

I know I need you
I want you
To be free of all the pain
You have inside
You cannot hide
I know you tried
To be who you couldn't be
You tried to see inside of me

And now I'm leaving you
I don't want to go
Away from you

Please try to understand
Take my hand
Be free of all the pain
You hold inside
You cannot hide
I know you tried
To feel

The inequity of fate
The pains of love and hate
The heart-sick memories
That brought you to your knees

And the times when we were young
When life seemed so long
Day after day
You burned it all away

All the hate that feeds your needs
All the sickness you conceive
All the horror you create
Will bring you to your knees

Speak to me
For I have seen
Your waning smile
Your scars concealed
So far from home, do you know you're not alone
Sleep tonight
Sweet summerlight
Scattered yesterdays, the past is far away

How fast time passed by
The transience of life

Those wasted moments won't return
And we will never feel again

Beyond my dreams
Ever with me
You flash before my eyes, a final fading sigh
But the sun will (always) rise
And tears will dry
Of all that is to come, the dream has just begun

And time is speeding by
The transience of life

Those wasted moments won't return
And we will never feel again